Cool song man!  This deserves more plays in my opinion.  Really catchy chorus makes the song even better!

La Daffance

kiLLa Laharl - Otherside (feat. s0cliche)

Cheers to my homie https://soundcloud.com/sepha-joey for jumping on <3

Lyrics:

Rivilin:

a foggy bed covers home
how did I get here vision is not clear
lost in a maze of streets alone
all i do is fear, withered inside here

yeah there's a vacancy where i mistakenly 
put the trust in the ones i love
laying a wake with a knife pressed to my skull
as the nightmares take control

stuck on a cheap diet of cigarettes 
just so i can keep the hunger at bay
swear to god that someones living inside these walls, 
cus i know that hes calling me name

i don't feel like i'm making sense
when i talk yeah i just regret
every little sentence that leaves my mouth
cus you always seem to twist the words i say

whether it comes from a family, a father or lover 
or something i don't really care
try to explain what the dissociations is like
but they don't really understand

never can be perfect, yeah i know that
but its hard when you look and stare
filled with the judgment of someone else's problems
till it's more than i can bare

it's just a glitch in my personality
feel the anger lurk in me
boiling burning till the circuits 
in my spine start to collapse

pressure is building, the person on my shoulder
tells me that nothing here is real
guess that's fine, i'll just represses everything
until i cannot feel

i never wanted i never wanted all of this
i'm so disgusted, i'm so disgusted i can't quit
the faces changing, i think i'm lost inside my mind
yeah if i don't wake up soon i'm thinking of taking my life

yeah what's the point man, yeah what's the point when you just run
yeah i'm so pathetic, i couldn't understand im done.
yeah my mind is aching, i think depression has just won
yeah if i don't wake up, i think yeah my chances are gone

Sepha:

Look at you taking a part of me away
Every time u make demands and say
Its for my best u know me 
U have my best interests at heart

Our interests are not my interests
I just want to rediscover myself
Again i lost so much but
At least i wrote it all down to remind me in moments like this

Im running away now go
Not cos im a victim no
Just cos i let myself believe that i was your equal but no

U hide under pretenses
False empowerment perspectives
Everything is someone elses fault ur only using ur defences

Im flying away im
Glowing up glowing up glowing up

Look at u take a part of someone else away

Never Trust Anyone Ft. Sepha

LYRICS:

Didn't wanna get it, didn't wanna face it, yeah, a family’s torn apart
Two kids in the middle I was only 13  when I knew that I was stuck
Swear I was hearing voices coming from the walls, my father freaked out and just stopped
Forced to talk to a psychiatrist who medicated me till I was cut

Tried to understand but I couldn't, Zyprexa just made me fall asleep
What did you expect from a kid who didn't have a stomach just to eat
So I made friends with the stars, they said that I wouldn't get far
But I found comfort in always being alone and trapped in my own

So don't tell me that you’re sorry for what you did
Because you're not, yeah you're not yeah I know that you are not
Cus I don't care, what's done is done I can't forget
Because I'm stuck yeah im stuck in a place with my own thoughts

Am I not real, I realized that I don't fit in
You can't accept, can't accept me for who I wanna be
Im overwhelmed, I'm not comfortable in my skin
This isn't me, isn't me, when will my mind find some sleep

A few years later nothing changes just a kid stuck in a rut
Putting on a facade for family just so they won't bother me a lot
Been twelve years since I was diagnosed with depression thought there was a cure
But the SSRIs numbed me out until I felt like I was worse

I want to explain it but I've realized no one cares for who you care
No one is special, no one is gifted, mental trauma that makes a star 
When there's nothing left I'll probably kill myself to let go of this pain
Cus I'm always tormented by myself when I forget my own name.

So don't tell me that you’re sorry for what you did
Because you're not, yeah you're not yeah I know that you are not
Cus I don't care, what's done is done I can't forget
Because I'm stuck yeah im stuck in a place with my own thoughts

Am I not real, I realized that I don't fit in
You can't accept, can't accept me for who I wanna be
Im overwhelmed, I'm not comfortable in my skin
This isn't me, isn't me, when will my mind find some sleep

Stuck

LYRICS:

With eyes wide shut did you expect much
A kid 16 stolen car burnt clutch
30 of the limit, yeah losing traction to the sludge
My car goes up the boundary yeah that's the first time that I lost touch

In my brain or something it's still a stain on my name
Try to reach out to someone but all that's left pain
Are we truly on our own in this life
You bring a kid out who can't walk and put his neck to the scythe and you

Ask how he's doing, does he have a job yet
You’re always locked in your room, yeah are you upset
It's not like you would even understand if I explained
A father's expression is numb when you just bring shame
 
I had a conversation with the devil in the undertow
No matter how hard you work you will still someone that you loathe
Yeah I know I will be always someone that I just hate
At least I can admit so I put up with the weight

I'm just a burden, just a burden
Everything’s too much I’m still hurting
Im uncertain, im uncertain
If I stay can I still say im alive

It’s disturbing, it’s disturbing
Every time I leave it’s not working
I'm just lurking, I’m just lurking
I'm sick of always living a lie

A life tied to the noose yeah always bad news
Do I stay do I go, yeah I never can choose
Making friends with the pills it's the same
See another psych who has to see a paper note to know my name

Give too much empathy, you'll be tread on
If I'm not careful I'll end up gone
Can't stand up for myself when I tell them I just need a break
Keep on pushing on my mental state I'll end up in a shallow grave

And I’ll sink, sink into somewhere I don't know
See my life down here and I'll say please go
I don't want to know about something that I will never be
There's a heavy weight on my chest and I think I've met defeat, alone

Feel the hate peel the skin, just a heretic within
Or at least your god would say
What's the problem yeah what's wrong thought I made this one strong
Chuck him down to the side, see what's messed up inside

I'm just a burden, just a burden
Everything’s too much I’m still hurting
Im uncertain, im uncertain
If I stay can I still say im alive

It’s disturbing, it’s disturbing
Every time I leave it’s not working
I'm just lurking, I’m just lurking
I'm sick of always living a lie

All I Bring Is Shame

LYRICS:

You know I can't be someone that you depend on
Cus you know when you hit me up I will not answer
The consequences of separation are never easy
And when you’re all alone you hit me up, say that you need me

But I'm sick of that, I don't wanna be used to the grave
Panic attacks hit the stage open up I'm in a state
Dont wanna talk about feelings why can't I be left alone
I'm not coping, I’m not good, I didn't think that it would show

Yeah cus, I didn't want to be someone that you depend on
I didn't want to be the one that didn't answer
You said "Hold your tongue cus I don't want to hear you ever speak,
You just stay inside, haven't had a reply in a week."

"I hope you suffer in the bed that you have made for yourself
Are you happy all alone, in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah I don't care about you, I guess this is goodbye,
Cus I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

You know I couldn't help you when you just suffered
You know I couldn't be something that you wanted
Always getting up at me like I made a mistake
Push us back and then we break, constant fighting, say we’re fake

You wanna reprimand me for times when I didn't understand
Don't want to explain it to me so you give me the backhand
You say that I'm selfish for trying to be someone that just cares
But you run away, ignore me then just give me a blank stare

So what the fuck is up with it, I get it yeah you hate
Everyone who doesn't understand the pain that you create
You say you wanna tear them down in hopes that they never exist
I guess we all just have opinions and to you they don't mean shit

I see, "You suffer in the bed that you made for yourself
Are you happy, all alone in this hell are you content?"
"Yeah you know I care about you, I guess this is goodbye
And I still don't understand the reasons why you wanna die."

Cus I hate you, when you break me, you choose
It was always us two back then I was confused
It's always when I see you falter I slip up to
I see that you are amused by the fact I need you

Cautious

https://youtu.be/szgwk3ksASE?si=VRSjS1NyfbJ9B-ed
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lyrics

Changed this world
With a laptop
Evolving till the life stop
Creating till the sun don’t shine

Soul bound
Save you from a come down
Pull you by the rope now
Ascend up to the warm bright lights

Changed this world
With a laptop
Evolving till the life stop
Creating till the sun don’t shine

Soul bound
Save you from a come down
Pull you by the rope now
Ascend up to the warm bright lights

Kindness
In me
Thriving
Dizzy
Gasoline
In my lungs hitting

Evolving
With me
Homies
Lifting
Ascending high
We’re flying really

I don’t care
Where I fit right
But I can’t care
To decide
I feel I ain’t designed
To live a life that defined

I don't care
Let them glare
I live my life like a dare

Empty stares
Everywhere
They sold control of their life

Who am I
Who am I
Without someone by my side
Who am I
Who am I
Am I not what I decide
What happened
To that person
That I used to be
Did he die
Who am I becoming
Who am I asking this to

Oohhh
Is it a disguise
Is it all a lie

Am I really here
There’s no way to know
Thrown in this world
With nowhere to go
This bird has flown
You’re all alone
Only yourself to call a home

I clear my head
I clear my thoughts
Remove myself from it all
Somehow i am and I am not
Somehow I am and I am not

I see
I taste
I breathe
I hear
I walk
I run
I laugh, I
I search
I find
I wonder why
I wonder why
I wonder why

I Wonder Why

⸸ MUSIC VIDEO ⸸

$LOTHBOI x Nicolas Sales - I Wonder Why [Music Video ↓]

Every minute that we waste away
It is a life beneath us
The moment we couldn't lose
I've been waiting for the times we had,
While I'm reminiscing
Don't tear my heart apart

The sooner we only love and hesitate
Retaking the fall to know the full embrace
Running to save me with the novocaine
I can't stay (yeah)

One of us still need your Touch,
I'd be lost Alone
Embers of the roaring sun
Beautiful divine
Long night of real rage
You ran and I stayed for nothing
Can we leave scars alone

Atleast the worst has all died down
Exhausted from my dread
Hoping I can swim
But I might drown
The worst is yet to come

But I don't wanna seal my fate no
Evil tried to take my faith away
I need to be saved by grace, i've been so lost without you
Can't do this on my own
Who do you think you are?
(you'll never win)
Trying to kill my heart 

The sooner we only love and hesitate
Retaking the fall to know the full embrace
Running to save me with the novocaine
I can't stay (yeah)

One of us still need your Touch,
I'd be lost Alone
Embers of the roaring sun
Beautiful divine
Long night of real rage
You ran and I stayed for nothing
Can we leave scars alone

Novocaine ft. Luke Mara (prod. KRSTW)

LYRICS:

I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay
I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay

I’m lying down with everything I hold inside
Who am I, if I told you I was good you know I lied
I fuckin hate it here, why’s it always like this
These drugs make me feel like a whole different person, I’m worthless
I’m fuckin locked down my heart hurts but I could never die
You were all that I had I pray to god I wonder why
If I could take back one instance I know what I would do
It’d be the last time you saw me you broke my heart in two

I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay
I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay

I’m fuckin locked down my heart hurts but I could never die
You were all that I had I pray to god I wonder why
If I could take back one instance I know what I would do
It’d be the last time you saw me you broke my heart in two

locked down

locked down (prod. sorrow bringer)

Lost in your pretty eyes
I'd rather hold you in my arms
Lying with the love and scars
That bear the pain
Baby you'll never change 
No one to take it all away 
As I'm turning to a ghost 
And I'm to blame

You say I'm to blame now for all of our problems
 According to you I'm just evil in disguise
Tears in the rain, I got a mind full of sorrow 
Loving is pain
 I gave you my trust
my everything wasn't enough
still high off your drugs
a blurry frame of who I was
a dangerous lust
you're poisonous down to the touch 
Now I'm fading to a ghost, and I'm to blame 

Lost in your pretty eyes
I'd rather hold you in my arms
Lying with the love and scars
That bear the pain
Baby you'll never change 
No one to take it all away 
As I'm turning to a ghost 
And I'm to blame

I've been losing touch with the old you
If we keep losing trust it'll happen again
Better off alone in the bad news
Only time will heal the wounds

Started caving in
And i'm admitting it now
Distant memories are haunting more than doubt
Will it be enough 
All While you're rotting in my head
Like a plague of our regret
Hope I'm the same

lost in your pretty eyes
Don't chase tears waiting on me
Wasting life away
Always because of you
The chains are getting loose

My smile is coming down 
I wanna love you now
Begging to see the sun 
Take me for another round
I need her warm embrace
Before I meet the horizon 
I know only time will heal the wounds

Crown Of Sorrow ft. Luke Mara

Walking on a tightrope in the end
Been looking at the way down from the air
It may be time to ease the pain
Broken stride caught in the rain

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

If I don’t do something right
I may disappear
I’ve been lining up the white
Look in the mirror
I couldn’t see my reflection
My course in need of correction
I’ve been hanging by a thread
Don’t look at me unravel
You’ve been running through my head
I’ve been kicking up gravel
To keep up with you
We made it through the summer
Make no sudden moves
No telling what I might do

Just leave me to die
I let my soul weep
Paralyzed that part of me
Blind eyes that can't see
All the shame within
Dark days are too loud
Uneasy right now

Baby will you stay forever 
Dont rip my heart out
Before it's empty 
Cause you're worth more than life
The shattered glass of mine
Reflect a better time

Ad Nauseam ft. RiverKinn (prod. 52Blu)

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