How I Wanna Kill Myself - 許一農(hsu, yinong)

'forget.' is a melancholic 2000's inspired nugaze anthem for anyone who's felt the inevitable end of a dying relationship. It's about the precise moment you stop pretending there's still a spark and choose the painful truth over a slow, silent fade. 'forget' deals with the acceptance of what once was, was good but the metaphorical candle has gone out and it's ok to move on and have pleasant memories of what once was as opposed to slowly descending into resentment. 

'forget.' isn't just about heartbreak, it's about feeling something real and that feeling is that we're alive.

forget.

Creep x Let Down - Radiohead

#slowcore #midwest #shoegaze #sludgemetal #alt#alternativerock #shoegazemusic #heavyshoegaze #rock #indiemusic #indierock

maybe in another life.

Everything we never released, recorded mainly in our bedrooms

How It Lingers

I tried to speak but the air just shook,
Every word I had was one you took. 
The silence hums, but it stays too long
Im not awake.
A thousand faces I can’t mistake.
If love is gone then what am i.
A shadow falling through the sky.
Every word i had, was one you took.
If love is gone then what am i?
It fades too fast but it stays too long.

bardo

kind of scratchy | untitled project 001 sessions | ambient atmospheric psyche drone industrial horror WIP | shifty 7.1 es 68 bpm take 1 82025

Almost

A re-mixed & remastered version of the previous one.

Bloom Days #11 by Fawn Breaks

While I'm suffocating
I dream of nothing known
Though your perfect vision
Guides me away from home

With no frame there's stormy weather
Crashing right back down to Earth
Crashing and falling back to Earth

Belief feels so modest
In thought of paradise
The days we leave behind us
Seem shorter than the last
My only beginning, my only prevention
Oh to be normal again
Oh to be normal again

But I feel so hollow
And not so meaningless
With every passing second
I'm losing total bliss

WIth no time, I'll break my mirrors
Crying out for who I was
And crying out for who I was

Belief feels so modest
In thought of paradise
The days we leave behind us
Seem shorter than the last
My only beginning, my only prevention
Oh to be normal again
Oh to be normal again

Belief feels so modest
In thought of paradise
The days we leave behind us
Seem shorter than the last
My only beginning, my only prevention
Oh to be normal again
Oh to be normal again

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

Oh to be normal again

Bloom Days (Remastered)

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[Verse 1]
Slide into the velvet skyline,
silver echoes in my mind.
Neon rivers, floating sideways,
catch the whispers of the night.

Footsteps weaving through the shadows,
coffee steam and radio glow.
Every corner hums a story,
every breeze knows where to go.

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[Chorus]
Lay me down in liquid motion,
pour the stars into my hands.
I’m a passenger of colors,
drifting deep through velvet lands.

Lay me down in liquid motion,
sink me slow into the sound.
I’m a feather on the skyline,
never touching solid ground.

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[Verse 2]
Mirrors dance on rainy sidewalks,
hazy faces blur and shine.
Golden pulse of secret alleys,
heartbeat ticking out of time.

Sip the smoke of hidden gardens,
kiss the edges of the dawn.
Tangled jazz behind the windows,
pulls me further, pulls me on.

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[Chorus]
Lay me down in liquid motion,
pour the stars into my hands.
I’m a passenger of colors,
drifting deep through velvet lands.

Lay me down in liquid motion,
sink me slow into the sound.
I’m a feather on the skyline,
never touching solid ground.

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[Outro] [ whispering groove]
Never touching,
never falling,
only floating,
through the skyline…

venus on my mind

Velvet Mirage.....drifts between dream and reality ....a lush synthwave ballad wrapped in desert heat and cosmic longing. With hypnotic textures and a voice chasing a ghost through time, PAIGE paints a cinematic mirage of love, loss, and reflection. Perfect for late-night drives, neon skies, and sync moments that call for surreal beauty.

RIYL: M83, Chromatics, Beach House, Cigarettes After Sex

LYRICS

I hear my name in the air
Is this real, or is this a mirage
I long for her in the night
But she’d gone, not to return
Never to return…

Chorus
Tell me.. what I’m supposed to be?
Where I'm supposed to go
I’ll meet you anywhere
Tell me….who I am to be
To get close to you 
The ghost of you (you)

Once upon a time, we were one, young and free
Life has no guarantees, were born, we live we die
Once upon a time, I had you and you had me
Was oh so long ago…so long ago…

Chorus
Tell me.. what I’m supposed to be?
Where I'm supposed to go
I’ll meet you anywhere
Tell me….who I am to be
To get close to you 
The ghost of you (you)


I feel your heart, beating next to mine
It seems so surreal, so ideal
Reaching out but fading fast
Like sand in a hourglass
I wished this dream would last

Last chorus
Tell me.. what I’m supposed to be?
Where I'm supposed to go
I’ll meet you anywhere
Tell me….who I am to be
To get close to you 
The ghost of you (you)



© 2025 Moonthread Music Publishing (BMI) — Writer/Producer: PAIGE
℗ 2025 Moonthread Music — ISRC: pending
Licensed session vocals/instrumentation; all rights reserved. No unauthorized re-uploads or sampling.
Licensing: PAIGE@moonthreadmusic.us

Blockbusting

Velvet Mirage

Indie rock, dream pop and psychedelic moods — over 3000 songs created, from intimate acoustic moments to layered, hypnotic soundscapes.

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Indie rock, dream pop y atmósferas psicodélicas — más de 3000 canciones creadas, desde momentos acústicos íntimos hasta paisajes sonoros hipnóticos y llenos de capas.

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