22 years on this planet and I've never felt so worthless. One deep step in the waste disposal center of the International Despair Foundation and ill sink into my own waste. Motionless, yet like quicksand. I'm not special. I'll drown just like you.

MUSIC VIDEO HERE - https://youtu.be/RZDp1OZYxcE

PROD: @SSJCXRPSE
MIX: @ZYROM
ART: @C3OF

LYRICS:
[VERSE]
Just another number
Punch it in your system
Catalog all my issues
Follow everything that me and my sins do
Who gon wake me up from my slumber
Who gon wake me up and tell me what I missed
Who gon pry my eyelids open with a pair of toothpicks
I don't wanna stay asleep they all mock attempts to stay unique
Frankly, I'm not special
Find it hard to breathe when it's stressful
World is so polluted all these gasses all these fumes already had them all
Adderall and opium inside the water
I don't wanna bother staying relevant when this planet dead already
Said that they will fix it if we give them all our money
Then they go and dump it underneath the bridges that we burnt
Wait your turn you ain't even first

[CHORUS]
Used to feeling being watched
Used to wake up in a rush
On the weekend doing misdeeds
I'm not even on the cusp
Had a dream that I turned to slush
It'll never be enough
Tell my momma that I'm sorry
Beginning of the end of the story

[VERSE]
I'm a nobody
Still feel like nothing
I'm an ant with a magnifying glass that be watching
I don't need nobody
Hate the look of my body
Ain't no need to cuddle
Had me hooked
But the memory is foggy
It's been too strong of a pull reel me in and then my will to live atrophy
Ain't no saving anymore please

[CHORUS]
Used to feeling being watched
Used to wake up in a rush
On the weekend doing misdeeds
I'm not even on the cusp
Had a dream that I turned to slush
It'll never be enough
Tell my momma that I'm sorry
Beginning of the end of the story

International Despair Foundation Waste Disposal Service (Single)

International Despair Foundation Waste Disposal Service

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International Despair Foundation Waste Disposal Service [prod. cxrpse]

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lyrics;

I BEEN WAITING FOR A BETTER DAY
WAKING UP INTO THE FLAMES
ITS ALL THE SAME
FEELING LIKE THERES SOMEONE IN MY BRAIN
I BRING THE PAIN
HOW CAN I CONTINUE IN THE RAIN
IF IM ASHAMED
AND EVERYTHING I DO IS FOR A REASON
AND I CHANGE

MAKE ME OR BREAK ME 
ITS YOUR CHOICE IF YA HATE ME
I CANT KEEP ENTERTAINING
COWARDS IF U NEVER LET ME FINISH I'LL BE FAILING

RUN IT TO THE GROUND
I HEARD THE WALLS THEY MADE A SOUND
EVERYBODY LOSING WHEN THE FIGHT IS POUND FOR POUND
IM WITH THE HOUNDS
STRUGGLING TO GET A FUCKING GRIP I WANT IT QUICK 
I BEEN JUMPING HURDLES U BEEN IN A DITCH
MUPPY LOVES A CHALLENGE AND I REALLY NEED A FIX
DO THE DAMAGE AND I MANAGE I DONT FUCK WITH POLITICS
LUCKY WITH MY TALENT AND IM BALANCING MY SHIP
YOU GOT SHOT THE FUCK DOWN I DONT CARE ABOUT YA CLIQUE

BLOOD SWEAT TEARS I BEEN DANCING IN THE DARK
AND YOU BEEN RUNNING FROM YA FEARS LIKE U NEVER SEEN A SPARK
SUNSET CLEARS AND I TELL EM WHAT I WANT
IN DENIAL WHEN APPROACHED BEHIND A KEYBOARD ACTING HARD


TIME AFTER TIME I TOOK THE SWORD OUT THE SHEATH
SEE U MISSING AMBITION IM FUCKING TIRED OF GETTING DEEP
WHEN I CUT IT I COOK IT AND I GET READY FOR MY FEAST
ALL THESE PUSSYS COULD NEVER ENTER THE HEAVENS LIKE ME

I TRANSCEND
SIGHT SEEING VISIONS THAT WOULD LEAD ME TO THE END
FAR FROM THE PROPHET TELLING ME TO TRY AGAIN
BUT I BEEN COMING BACK AROUND AND I'LL BE READY TO DEFEND

IM PREPARED
BITING MY TEETH INTO SOMETHING I FOUND DEAD
I CANNOT TURN ON MY BACK IM NOT SCARED
SOMETHING LURKING IN THE WATER I WARNED YOU MY FRIEND

FOR NOTHING [ prod. homeless & vermin ]

i might not breathe 
bring out the hatred 
and devil in me 
bitch 
closing my teeth 
silence is more than just 
blanketing me 
fuck 
stuck underneath 
underground? i been stuck underneath 
bent my back for people smaller than me 
and you broke that trust
now you're bothering me 

now 
when it begins 
i might stomp and stab a couple of ribs 
i might grab and dip a couple of twigs
and ill paint that brain on the hood of the whip 
it's the clearest day for a puddle of piss if a pebble falls will it roll to the rock 
talking like the fucking cream of the crop 
is a sentence to death like a rat to a hawk 

now ill say this again 
first you must suffer to reign among men 
i cannot finish what never commenced 
to the start of the life 
to the brink of my death 
the chain of my youth 
felt so alone with nobody to soothe 
another stone thrown 
to the unlucky few 
that had nothing to eat 
that had nowhere to puke 


look 
down 
look down 
down 


just look down
little suffering for nobody now 


to the television 
to the public vision 
to the fucking prisons 
who the fuck is kidding 
you people get convicted 
like a competition 
like incompetence is in your fucking mission 
with that low ambition 
blame it on conditions 
that silver spoon is saying something different

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" FIRST TASTE " is the first single from the album FLESH PRISON, written and produced by the band SELF POISON. 

LYRICS:
Where to begin
And where we left off
The marks from words engraved too deep
This leaves me so empty
Wearing my skin
And tearing me down
I gave you every little piece of me
There's poison in the blood we bleed

Can you see my scars
Etched into my heart
Maybe it could turn back time
Return the gaze that they stole from your eyes
You're never near or far
You're running from who you are
See the stars
Sketched into the dark
They'll carry you home

Nobodies there 
You never cared
I don't want to die alone
I'm sick of being left
With sympathy you never really meant

I'm sick of being less
I'm always such a burden
Everyone is looking down on me

I think I'm losing my mind
I think I'm running out of time

Can you see my scars
Etched into my heart
Maybe it could turn back time
Return the gaze that they stole from your eyes
You're never near or far
You're running from who you are
See the stars
Sketched into the dark
They'll carry you home

Nobodies there 
You never cared
I don't want to die alone
I'm sick of being left
With sympathy you never really meant
You weren't there 
Nobody cares
Nobodies there
You never cared
You weren't there
Nobody cares 
I guess I've got to do this on my own

I think I'm losing my mind
I think I'm running out of time

FIRST TASTE

"BLACK OF ABYSS" is the second single off of the album "FLESH PRISON" releasing in 2025 

Lyrics by Abraxas Soul Vessel :
Hearing the message beyond the eyes

Consume the room then let it all clear the view
When there's spirits inside of you 
They will lie there then awaken
When you give them a home 

I'm casted away from this reality
The grimoires have kept me safe here
The demonstrators have shown me 
Every angle I can see here

See beyond the glass
It all started moving fast
It's the year of the snake

They came to feed on my garden
Not knowing that I had the seeds
Well they should've known not to go
They will burn

You will now stare into the black of abyss
Somewhere deep inside these bones
The emptiness starts to grow
Consume the room then let it all clear the view
When there's spirits inside of you 
They will lie there then awaken
When you give them a home 

So let them in
Hearing the message beyond the eyes
So stitch your sigils tight 
And let the serpent take a bite of you

The poisons that fill up your veins 
Will speed up the way they speak to your brain
Here I am as a ghost in the notes
Follow the melody it'll bring you home

And aren't we all looking for the same ways to get off
Up
I promise I'll take you higher

I cannot help but stare into the black of abyss
Somewhere deep inside these bones
The emptiness starts to grow
Consume the room then let it all clear the view
When there's spirits inside of you 
They will lie there then awaken
When you give them a home
You will now stare into the black of abyss
But somewhere deep inside these bones
The emptiness starts to grow
Consume the room then let it all clear the view
When there's spirits inside of you 
They will lie there then awaken
When you give them a home


BLACK OF ABYSS

Edited by Abraxas Soul Vessel
Written by SELF POISON
Produced by SELF POISON

LYRICS : 
Don't miss the ways you've made me itch
Scratching every wound I've torn off
Every bloodied stitch
Make me feel each puncture
Make me everything you blame
This is how we turn out when I've beat you in your games

You thought you really had me cornered
You thought that you could make me change
I'm alive as another reminder
You will die with what you've made

Wonder why the stars were so much closer than you
Or how you would tell me more about them than yourself
The bits I piece together that left your silhouette
She breaks the weight you hold
And he makes the pain you told
You've made them close

And your heart is always in the moon
But your eyes just turn to blue
Consume the mood in ways I'd love to foster
Take my hands and make your plans
This life's too short to play pretend again
Our lives are just so short

Wonder why the stars were so much closer than you
Or how you would tell me more about them than yourself
The bits I piece together that left your silhouette
She breaks the weight you hold
And he makes the pain you told

Every single night I've spent awake
Never catching sleep was in the effort 
Of my hopes 
Of my dreams

And...
On the right side of twenty-five all of my friends died
Lost young but forever old
These memories I won't ever let go

℗ 2025 Velvet Black Records

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