ur still the 1

Track 03
It'll Be Alright EP (2013)

Produced by Ean Aguila and Ourselves the Elves
Lyrics and melody by Alyana Cabral
Ean Aguila on bass

Outer Speys

A narrated version of my monologue: Wheels.

(also, thanks to the Tumbled Sea)

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You can find it here: http://valenzuelabp.tumblr.com/post/75594238526/wheels

Wheels

new/first song in new side project.


who are you
in the darkest hours of the night
when I’m not looking
and do I really wanna know?

do the city lights
bleed through the blinds
and bounce from your eyes
into the night
from your window 

where does your sorrow go
when you find yourself completely alone?

and it’s cyclical
you say of the way your day is spent
bed, train, work, and back again

but you talk of these streets
like the veins of your urban memories, manifest
and I’m thrown

where does your sorrow go
when you find yourself completely alone?

blocks and blocks
and swathes of roads
non-descript
and standard homes
dim streetlights
and endless freeway
beers outside convenience stores

incidental bodies
wrap our souls at points in time
your lips shut tight to guard
the depth of a kind and tortured mind

lacing digits, touching toes
tell me things that no one knows
where does all your sorrow go
where does all your sorrow go

early/late

my backspace button’s worn
from the things i never said
i never can afford
to be casual instead
but if you could be so kind
don’t remind me that i’m blindly hung up over you

do i seem to care too much
with how i pretend not to care
you’re too cool for me
but i guess you’re not aware
that i exist but it’s okay
i’ll be over it someday
you’ll look me in the eye
and i won’t melt right in my place
but i really hate your face
and how it it makes me wanna cry
there’s an ache in my dumb heart
that only passes when you smile
and it shines for miles
it reminds me that i’m blindly hung up over you

would you still be just as kind
if you knew what’s on my mind
i’m stifling a sigh
and i hope she treats you right
and the things i’ll never say
will cease to tear me up inside
the feelings bottled up within
will someday crystallize
into memories so nice
that remind me i was once so hung up over you

backspace me

how many songs must i write
til i no longer sing for you
how many lies must i say
til i can say the truth

that you’re not in my blood
that i’m somebody new
that you’re not in my blood
oh no, not you

i know it’s gonna be a long way down
but i’ll be on my feet again, soon
i’ll do whatever turns me around
and i will be myself again, soon

i wrote my pen dry
every feeling for you
i let time go by
i was reeling from you

now you’re not in my blood
as much as you were
in my bigger picture
you’re now a blur

and i know it’s gonna be a long way down
but i’ll be on my feet again, soon
do whatever turns me around
and i will be myself again

and i won’t stop
believing love is true, is kind, is existent 
i know it’s just an exercise of patience, oh i know
i know that someone waits for me

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note: i've been talking a lot about all the music i've been writing but the truth is, almost all of the tracks i've made so far just don't satisfy me yet. i wrote and demo'd this within a few hours both as an exercise and as a way of emptying my head so i can work on my other songs. that would be all


in my blood (love is true)

nice to see you could make it tonight
i shook off my feeling uptight
thinking how we were before's
just like how we are now
only happier

guess i'm glad that nothing has changed
no need for a photo framed
to recall how we were before's
just like how we are now
only freer

and someone's gonna take your place inside of my heart
someone's gonna take me away

nice to know that you're doing alright
and we've grown too old to fight
knowing how we were before's 
just like how we are now
that's that

and someone's gonna take your place inside of my heart
someone's gonna take me away
someone's gonna take your place inside of my heart
someone's gonna take me away

note: i am working on an EP!!! (or an album, if i can write enough songs that i'd be satisfied with)

this song is just an exercise, like "in my blood". i wanted to play around with garageband's guitar settings. i won't be including this on the EP, so even though this is a demo, i'd say this is the final version of this song. that would be all 

someone's gonna

wanted to give the single/radio mix i did pre-album out just because. free downloads at https://bpvalenzuela.bandcamp.com/track/steady :)

mopey af music video by the wonderful petersen vargas: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsSuXCxLA7o

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
i'm not a book to be read 
it may look nice in your head 
but is it ever really more than that? 

more than circumstance, 
is it just loneliness 
or what did you expect? 
but it's still different 
beyond the second hand 
thought i was over that 

if it's really me you seek 
then i won't hide 
i've been exhausting every single way 
to get it off my mind 
get it off my mind 
but if it's really me you seek 
then i won't hide 
wishing it could be simple as you explain 
but i can't ever seem to get it right 

i have the tendency to pick things apart 
and i can never breathe 
am i wrong expecting it to be easy when you're next to me? 
and i don't want to be the kind to second guess 
it's just so hard to believe 
or difficult to reconcile what's on my mind 
with how i feel 

if it's really me you seek 
then i won't hide 
i've been exhausting every single way 
to get it off my mind 
get it off my mind 
but if it's really me you seek 
then i won't hide 
wishing it could be simple as you explain 
but i can't ever seem to get it right 

if it's really me you seek 
if it's really me you seek 
if it's really me you seek 
if it's really me you seek

steady (radio + single version)

sunlight used to be in my eyes
until they brought me down 
and started raining, raining
raining on me
everything used to be
so simple and true
it was always about 
always, always
always about me and you

so tell me how do i forget
all the stories we have shared
to each other
why do they bother

cause loving you
is just a dream 
i wouldn't want to wake up from
cause loving you
is the greatest risk I've ever taken
cause loving you
is something they would never understand

yes i do believe 
i do believe in wishing upon a star
i talk to them at night and say
please lead me, lead me
lead me to where things used to be

Slight

last night i saw you on tv
yr still wearing the same shirt
yr new haircut sucks
but i'll love you anyway 

where have you been these days
don't get hit by the train 
i hope yr liking the rain 

last night i saw you in my dream
you said you wanted to talk 
i took a step back
i didn't say a word

Yr New Hair

Music by: joe de jesus
Lyrics by: sandy buladaco


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