this hurts because of how relatable its gonna be

Hope you know there’s days i dance to this in my room

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lyrics
guitar played by acey (  :

my hands are shaking my body's aching
my brain is tired, think ur amazing
don't seem to have control over my heart you know
i find it rlly hard just to not let you know
that i be doing better if you never left me bro

is it 2 late to ask how you doing there
we can can stay in the grass while you kiss my hair
we can stare at the sky till my stomach bare
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share

i fidget im nervous i don't know what to say
i love you i told you that i needed you to stay
ur smile is perfect idc about what they say
if im wasting my time id rather do it bout ur face
the first time that you kissed me rlly put me in a state
i knew it wouldent be for long so i just gotta say
i really really loved you dear pls dont forget my face
couldn't you tell i was being sincere when i said that id change
embraced all the things you said so youd could feel okay
remember when i called you and you said it wouldn't be the same

bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share

atleast we had some time to share

cover of 'all he touched is dead' by corbin
reproduced by logan

all he touched is dead cover (corbin smidzik)

produced by jpjp
vocals + lyrics by heylog & i'm geist

lyrics:
your caught around my throat
i don't think you wanna know what i know
you remember we were close
now i don't call you a bro anymore
watch out i might contain hostility
you say u know but you don't know me
i guess i'm used to it
people that i know always abusing it

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

so long, won’t accept my defeat
i know i’m running out of time
but i can’t even breathe

lost cause, threw me into the sea
it’s not what i wanted to be
they prayed i drowned in the deep

but i’m holding on
there’s so much left inside of my head that i’m fighting for
what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars
what went wrong?
i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

through my veins, through my skin

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heylog & i'm geist - through the veins, through my skin (jpjp)

i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 

w/ @heylog

prod: https://soundcloud.com/eric-godlow
master: https://soundcloud.com/ezraspandora 

looking back baby,
i already was hollow
toss it back 
way too fast 
till i get through the bottle
i don't wanna leave this club
i just wanna drink 
until i throw it all up
(lock me up)
want you to squeeze until i'm leaking out blood
i wanna see just how it feels to go numb
i wanna feel it on the tip of my tongue
let's fuck it up until we're going out bad 
let's break it all apart until there's nothing fucking left
cause i want you to see me like i'm nothing more than flesh 
and i want you to tell me i'm a waste of fucking breath
oh i'm terrible 
i'm the reason you're falling 
unbearable 
i'm the bones in your closet
i still just wanna see you get out 
there's nothing left for me to be now

damn it all 
pray for what 
there's nobody there
(i'm too far gone)
tell me why 
i wanted you then 
i want you now

heylog:
i'm chillin at a party, why'd i decide to go out
wish i just stayed home but i been stuck inside my house
i don't even care, i'd much rather be sober
she hung around the bottles and i could tell it broke her
i'm glad i can't relate cause i've never had that problem
you told me i'm rude for that but hey, i'm being honest
i would never lie to you, just want you to stop it
i could up and go, i've got plenty of options
quit talking, ur just holding me back
it's safe to say, tonight ur getting trashed
take a second to breathe, ik ur sad
you don't have to drink it away, could you relax
she phones her girls for a ride at 3am
can't even walk to her room, she needs a hand
throwing up all the time, she's used to it
friday night rolls around and repeat it

tip of my tongue (w/ heylog) (prod. eric godlow)

prod by caves 


click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it 

i know where you’ve been 
know where you set off 
i know where you get on the bus
and you get off 
she say that i’m crazy 
she don’t know the half of it 
my vision blurry
i don’t know what’s happening

she took my hands
into hers
told me “everything will be okay 
just stay right there”
i got two cuts 
on my face 
she looks scared 
but i promise i would never hurt you
baby i swear … 

you thought you got away,
i’m afraid it’s bad luck 
you just wanna drink alone 
and chill inside the bathtub 
already know she keep a key under the mat, tucked 
hope that you didn’t think that you would get away with that, love .. 
6 months have passed 
since we were matched up 
thought that you could play me, 
block my number and get gassed up 
now i’m climbing up your stairs and i’ve got bad blood
wonder if you’ll recognise my face under this mask, love 

she saw me in the mirror, frozen. 
“don’t try to run baby it’s over
i wrote you everyday for months” 
i was crying as i told her
“now i gotta do something i hate, girl yeah you know i cant control it” 
she tried to scream and shut the door,
but back in pinewood, soul was stolen

“i’ll call the cops” i said “what for” 
i just want a conversation, open up the door 
i see your heart drop on the floor 
if i can’t have you no one can, i couldn’t ask for more 

click click 
light up the cannon 
smoke till this pain stop
or i kick the can and 
this blunt heal my wounds
my new shoes from japan 
and, don’t think of her
anymore, i can’t stand it

bad luck (caves)

smoke signals (phoebe bridgers cover)

produced by: @tnvr555
vocals and lyrics by: me and @heylog

lyrics:
just a sec, i needa bit to catch my breath
i try to hold onto what's left
but it seems that you're leaving again
and i saw your face
you're laughing at the back of the room
you're with someone and i can assume that
you have moved on, so soon
(you have moved on, so soon)

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think i've fallen in too deep

summer's coming round the corner, i can't wait to be warm
the uv's high so we lay some blankets out on the porch
and do you remember what you said to me
our past is something hard to believe
don't go
cause i don't want anybody else
oh no
i really don't want anybody now
i'm edging toward the ground
but that's what happens all the time as soon as life goes on
to you i'm not important
and i hope i'm wrong
without you it's harder to breathe
cause you're not laying next to me

and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
(not laying next to me)
and this jealousy consumes at my mind
i can't believe that you're not mine
it gets harder to breathe, when you're not laying next to me
i think I've fallen in too deep

hope every1 has a good day/night xx

jealousy w/ heylog (tnvr)

prod me
no samples used
take care

up in the trees is where i would hang
'till i tumbled down when he told me to stay
back in the bush; cast on my arm
shall i never heal, i'll be happy a pine.
yet i'm full of shit, atone every word
but this is for you, so i'll try not to hurt
choked up every verse though.
you cannot reverse

what a fine young man, i wonder where his head's at
too far gone, now i needa take a step back
all that i want is to live in my notepad
feeding me lyrics for songs 'till my days' last
genuine crave, and i don't wanna change that
mental array in a haze getting whiplash
honest display, but there isn't a playback
trust in the heart of your cards when it fades black

patch on the leg; how the fuck do i move it
i miss your laugh, and with friends, watching movies
oh, i'll try a bit harder to step out my comfort,
but being alone is just way too damn soothing

i cannot bear this weight,
so i'll just eat it up and stomach it
your words they spoke to me,
i'd always wonder what would come of it

you were nervous, well, i'm anxious
but for you, did you know i would fucking get back on my feet,
though, not complaining
seldom i held any care, wouldn't budge, wouldn't speak
years, haven't walked down the street
i took a walk down the street.
bubbling grief
if only you knew what you meant to me, 
god i would hope you had felt what you meant to me

june arrived, i almost felt alive
but then i heard the news and felt the water rise
capsized the thought of letting go of life
but now it's even harder getting sleep at night
what a gentle soul, grown out the mold
with the sky his home, and for the earth, a stone
beyond the ozone; inside the mind
what an ethereal one, and of a joyous kind.

suck in the rain, spit out the clouds
our synergy now resides in the ground

yeah i know the rain is real important when it's pouring down the evergreens
thought about you often, so i hope that you remembered me
'cause you took your leave
autumn and sleep
we ran our shit up until '23
growing the seeds; sowing their seams
if i make it out of this, hoping you see, yeah.

sycamore

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

I was in the back room, wishing that I knew you
Liquor on the table, your smile brought me close to you
Sorry for the attitude, never met someone like you
She texting me and fucked up, I can't pull away from you

Take me and my soul now, I think I'm in love with you
Answer to my issues now she with somebody new
Answer to my issues now she with somebody new
Answer to my issues now she with somebody new
Answer to my issues now she with somebody new
Only one who gave a shit, I guess I fucked that up too
But I understand completely, I don't deserve something like you

I was in the back room, wishing that I knew you
Liquor on the table, your smile brought me close to you
Sorry for the attitude, never met someone like you
She texting me and fucked up, I can't pull away from you
Take me and my soul now, I think I'm in love with you
Answer to my issues now she with somebody new
Answer to my issues now she with somebody new
Answer to my issues now she with somebody new
Only one who gave a shit, I guess i fucked that up too
But I understand completely I don't deserve someone like you

Smoking till my chest hurts, I just want a point of view
Answer to my issues now she with somebody new
Answer to my issues now she with somebody new

residential. - she cant stand me pt2 (irby)

this track was produced by @nevrfall

lyrics:
i dont think this is my time
place my feet i feel alright
missing all your face again
15 pounds help sleep at night

life ur body, dont feel ashamed
i still feel u miles away
i still feel lonely when im with you
all these people around and i miss you
i dont think this feelings right
caught your stare as we locking eyes
i dont know who these people are
bandages gotta hide my scars

𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶?
𝘰𝘩. 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸...
𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨

I BARELY KNOW WHO THESE PEOPLE ARE
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO THESE WOMEN ARE
I BARELY KNOW WHO THIS BITCH IS
BABY JUST HOLD ME ITS GETTING DARK
WHERE I AM 2 HOURS DIFFERENCE
NOW WERE APART EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT
NOW WERE AFAR EVERYTHING FEELS DISTANT
IN 4 YEARS
will we still be kissing?

i dont think this is my time
place my feet i feel alright
missing all your face again
15 pounds help sleep at night

atleast we had some time to share

sleepwater

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