produced by: @freveltrothy
happy halloween (even though by the time I drop this it'll probably be like fuckin 2037)

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in 

so i cry
till my eyes swell up
and i can’t fall asleep 
think i’m too fucked up
room spinning think i’m gonna throw up
and i guess im old news 
your new man look tough 

i wanna bleach my eyes but im way too scared
so i just stare at the sun 
wanna close myself
cus you were never there
at least you’re having fun

i don’t know why i’m like this 
how the fuck could i take another man from his family? 
so i go and wash the knife quick,
think i went overboard 
violence charge my battery 
no point tryna fight this,
know i’m gonna go to jail
insane
yeah i had to be 
when i cut him, kinda liked it 
need to go home now
hope my moms not mad at me 

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in

killer (frevel)

produced by hiraeth

remember to wash the socks u came in

And its so obvious
How can you not see me
See me
If I ran away would you need me ?
Played your last messages on repeat
This the last time that you’ll see me

So let me down
Pull me out
Of this hole im in
Baby would you cave it in 
What is happening
I can’t believe I shat again :p!!
Blood is everywhere
Im crawling out of bed again

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

Trying to run from the past
Tell me how hard does it get now
Living to die in a bed
No in-between to forget now
Call me when all of it ends
Im putting a gun to my he’d now

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

Fuck with me for the last time 
This the last night
Fights getting outta hand now
But its alright
Fuck living ima die now 
Its about time
Thoughts sheltering my mind out
From the outside

newmaker

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

Stream on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/5o3zeb6JhEP7x2jGYZj7oa

Artists:
@prod-oc
@heylog

Lyrics:
did i want this, no not at all
does it concern you we still talk
i tried my best but it didnt work out
im tryna see you, dont know if ur taken now
i wanna get what was lost
i just want that for us
and tell you i love you

you lied to me
now the text box is green
so now is it tense
we went through this once
cant do it again
but thats what you get
i dont love me
so how can i love you
when i stand
to look at myself
no im not a fan
i wish i was dead

baby im not the same person i used to be
and when you left, did it have something to do w me
running around with you like it was yesterday
and if i saw you i wouldnt know what to say

you lied to me
now the text box is green
i dont love me
so how can i love you
so how can i love you

oc & heylog - love//heartbreak

produced by jpjp
vocals + lyrics by heylog & i'm geist

lyrics:
your caught around my throat
i don't think you wanna know what i know
you remember we were close
now i don't call you a bro anymore
watch out i might contain hostility
you say u know but you don't know me
i guess i'm used to it
people that i know always abusing it

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

so long, won’t accept my defeat
i know i’m running out of time
but i can’t even breathe

lost cause, threw me into the sea
it’s not what i wanted to be
they prayed i drowned in the deep

but i’m holding on
there’s so much left inside of my head that i’m fighting for
what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

what went wrong?
cause i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars
what went wrong?
i seem to have lost myself amongst the dying stars

i'd kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me
a lot has changed so i'd do it in a heart beat
through the veins, through my skin
subtle scarring
what was left in the past
know it hardly
i had a job and i failed to kill the old me

through my veins, through my skin

SPOTIFY

heylog & i'm geist - through the veins, through my skin (jpjp)

OUT NOW ON STREAMING 
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yokaidreams/heart-of-stone-feat-autumndropsdead

FOLLOW AUTUMN AHHH 
https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead


lyrics

yokai:

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

and i
understand if you hate me i do, oh i do
so try
to cope with the fact that i'm not the man that your'e used to

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

autumn:

but they don't know me, and they never will
just how much more's left to say? 
i'll take that shit and decay
but just not to my grave
lie to yourself out of pity
life's not right; imma fly out the city
say it'll be alright, okay?
i no longer believe what i say

knees are falling
i can smell the pollen
i'm fucking sick of random people calling
i don't have too much left to give
the thought of it is making me sick

turnt my face towards the tainted sky
it left me hurt, i don't know why

Heart Of Stone w/ autumndropsdead (in bloom)

lifes been
stealin all my feelins
got me feelin different
so different

and ive been
starin at my ceiling
might end it all
this evening 
starin at my ceiling~

i been tryna make it
but i dont think that i can
sittin by lonesome
only sound is the ceiling fan
i want to explain myself
but they wouldnt understand...

but thats okay
cuz it doesnt really matter
take another hit
get higher than a ladder
yeah

da da da da da

lifes been stealin all my feelins...
got me feelin different...

down another coffee
and keep on fuckin walking
inside my tired mind 
im tired all the time
and tired of the lies

and i hate this fuckin life
just wanna close eyes
and watch it fly by...
yeah watch it fly

Spotify

staring at my ceiling, listening to the fan [+Boyfifty & Gabe Lucas]

hope you guys enjoy this one <3 each track i put out means a whole lot 2 me, 
so tysm for taking the time out of your day to listen

prod. by @sorrow_bringer 🖤
cover art done by my friend molly !! 

(got me asking my lungs)
("can you cave in?")
(in need of a reason for clearing my head)

it'll probably subside, on the dime
she lied; so did i
feel like a gorilla, i'm beating my chest
rope in my hands, why's it not round' my neck?

leaving, breathing; shit's all the same
feeding heathens; outta my brain
they want me to come to an end
this city is playin' pretend (playin' pretend)

heart's beating, now i'm way heated
took off and ran on my own
asking my past demons, "did i really mean it?"
was i in control of my soul?
now i gotta wait. 
i know what i am; shit wasn't great
so why do i stand?
never complained; wished that i did
they'll get what they get
i'm not giving in

they all wanna see me fall, hear me bawl
i know i shouldn't have set foot
into the cage that i'm in
the person i was; he told me to stay where i must
oh the ground personifies
we walk all about it and never bat an eye

let me loathe (let me loathe)
swear i'm changing..
this feeling i know
lessened the seasons

it'll probably subside, on the dime
she lied; so did i
feel like a gorilla, i'm beating my chest
rope in my hands, why's it not round' my neck?

leaving, breathing; shit's all the same
feeding heathens; outta my brain
they want me to come to an end
this city is playin' pretend (playin' pretend)

subside (sorrow bringer)

+spotify soon+

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

can’t take drugs cause anxiety kills me
go smoke spliffs with your friends 
envy fills me
i am sorry for how i am ugly
in your shadow i sulk
i’m nobody
i self isolate for days 
now i cant get out of bed without crying
draining all my veins out is the way i talk to the reaper without dying

i know i’m always overthinking, love 
but what can be done?
i was sedated when you broke my trust
you say it’s my condition and- 
but i don’t give a fuck
these constant comparisons turn me to dust
so tell me all about him
do you laugh hard when around him?
do these shackles that i’m bound in make you think that i’m not enough? 
im pathetic
but you wouldn’t get it
that's tough
it’s AvPD but i blame it on luck

medical exam fetishist

not for profit

original:
https://soundcloud.com/sewerperson/lock-da-doors-samashi

love y'all, hope u enjoy
thanks for making this song king @sewerperson
shoutout samashi

pine

sleepwater

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