why do i have to feel this pain
when all you had to say 
was go away
you expect me to move on
and maybe i have, but
im certainly not okay 
oooo im not okay 
haunted by the thought of you
moving me aside 
like my feelings don’t matter
caught up in the things you do
oh what a ride it’s been 
yearning for what i’m after 
you taught me i deserve better 

i don’t want to be another afterthought 
so i went out back and burnt the letter
i’m done with it all now
let’s change the weather
like you change lovers 
yeah (one last time) 

tell me all your lies
as if you don’t care 
that i’m dead or alive
who the fuck you kidding 
with all your problems
and your stupid disguise 
oooo stupid disguise
thinking about what i’d do
if it was just me and you 
left on the planet 
drinking away all my sorrows
left all alone
i guess i couldn’t handle it
but what’s on my mind
is one last time to cross the line

i don’t want to be another afterthought 
so i went out back and burnt the letter
i’m done with it all now
let’s change the weather
like you change lovers 

oh you’re sad? 
well i don’t really give a fuck
GO!

you had the chance
to fall in love with this
but you rather be the one
to take the piss
all my life i’ve been 
the last one the get a kiss
now all you’re left with 
is the thought of what you 
fucking missed 

i don’t want to be another afterthought 
so i went out back and burnt the letter
i’m done with it all now
let’s change the weather
like you change lovers 
one last time
one last time

One Last Time

Full disclosure.
I wrote the lyrics and had the ai SUNO perform them.

This is about my mental health journey. From childhood to this present day. I still struggle with everything but some things are easier than others.

Track 1, is about a feeling instilled in me from an early age of me not deserving nice new things and caused me to break some of the new things I was given in order for me to accept them as my own. I still struggle with this core feeling and it has ruined many of my relationships because I feel like I don't deserve to be loved, so I subconsciously distance myself from people I love and those that love me causing relationships to crumble into nothing.

Track 2, is about the single most traumatic event of my life. I think the lyrics speak for themselves and I don't want to write a description of that horrid event here.
I have included two different musical styles of this track as well as bonus tracks with cleaner vocals.

Track 3, is my journey through life secretly obsessing over the obituaries in the paper after I saw a picture of one of my attackers and is also what eventually leads to me having a mental breakdown. 

Track 4, is about my attempts at my own life and my cries for help. There are some complicated feelings with this lyric that I have trouble putting into words. 

Track 5, is my decision to not let this mental affliction control me. I am not going to allow what those monsters did to me dictate who I am. It is my declaration of me taking control of my life.

Lech

Slipknot

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