"
(Mo!)
Yeah she's mad, got her boy on lock
Drunk as shit, party till' we drop
Walk in the club, they can watch me pop
Pop my shit, drop it like it's hot
Boys love me, don't think I'll stop
Can't get over femboy top
They love the way my hips rock
Know just how to make em' pop

Yeah, I'm on that femboy shit
Please don't play with me today
You love my ass in your face
The denial makes my day
You know that I love to play
I'll choke on you any day
Put that fat cock in my face
Fuck me silly, that I crave

Withdrawals drive me insane
Pin me down and break my break my brain
Give me puppies any day
I will submit and not complain
Put that litter balls deep in me
Fuck me silly till' I'm screaming
I require proper breeding
Sometimes I get really needy.

Sometimes I just wanna fuck.
Most of the time I want love
I get really sensitive when I'm by myself contemplating
Loneliness just drives me crazy
My friends say that I'm the baby
Of us all while conversating 
Daddy issues for me waiting

Take a flash to the past,
And you gon' see just how we've grown
I'mma hit up Degrassi
While I sip henny on the phone
Honest truth is I've been moving on my own
I don't like ciroc, but I took a couple shots to the dome

Late night on a Friday
I'm just so cold, yeah
Usually it's hotter in Florida
But I feel cold, yeah
I know my story won't get told,
But I'm living the best life that I can
While I know I'm whole
And that's just how it goes
One day I'll have a million to my brand
But truth be told, 
I probably won't know what to do 
I'll figure it out though.
Might buy a penthouse
And I might just chill on Rodeo (Dr.)
Money don't buy happiness
It's what you do with it that shows

I'm a bad bitch
Like me, they can't find another one
Leave too much of an imprint on them
To be forgettable
Me and all my femboy friends
Gon' turn your whole world upside down
And change your life up for the better,
We move like a syllable"

femboy shit

spirit

They say
“Baby, you look lonely I can see it in your eyes”
And that is just fine
I’ll be alright
I know that I look empty deep inside
Just trust me I’m fine, 
Please give me some time

They say
“Baby, you look lonely I can see it in your eyes”
And that is just fine
I’ll be alright
I know that I look empty deep inside
Just trust me I’m fine, 
Please give me some time

I’m just trying to cope
I walk emotionless 
I put ice on my wrists
I̶̱̋̓t̶͎̊̆́'̵̋͐ͅľ̵̨̗͓̻͉́͝͠l̸̨͓̼͑̌͠ ̶͈̯̱̾n̸̺͉̟͌u̷̪̙̐͗̾̍̕ṁ̴̩̉̕ḅ̴̣͂̐̀͐͋ ̸͚͕̀͑t̸̛̥͓̻̝̆͋ḩ̴̝͚͋e̸̱̘͚̤͘ ̷̫̾c̵̣̓̑u̵̡̬͉̒̅ẗ̷̠͖́̍̎s̶̢̪͕̲͛͒̈́̋͌͜
Diamonds turning red like I got bit
While I’m bleeding out 
My heart is stopping It might quit

Now it’s just me and my veloster
Moving through traffic into the sunset
I don’t need to vent when riding by myself
Cause the turbo noises relieve my stress 

They say
“Baby, you look lonely I can see it in your eyes”
And that is just fine
I’ll be alright
I know that I look empty deep inside
Just trust me I’m fine, 
Please give me some time

They say
“Baby, you look lonely I can see it in your eyes”
And that is just fine
I’ll be alright
I know that I look empty deep inside
Just trust me I’m fine, 
Please give me some time

140 southbound on i-95
Moving fast cause of the adrenaline high
Nowadays with people I don’t even try.
Cause I know they all want me to crash and die

roses [jean parker]

They keep asking me 
what’s wrong with me but
I can’t tell em what 
I’m sorry that I cannot live up to your standards bud
It’s only so much as a person I’m capable of
I’m going through some pain 
because of shit that someone’s done

I’m sorry that I cannot put out the shit that you want
I feel these emotions they just making me feel numb
I cried my heart out days ago I’m not safe anymore
Im hiding from the world now because I’m so insecure

I can’t keep my presence up
I’m hurt but I can’t give up
Sorry I can’t give a fuck
My heart is struggling so much
That my head keeps spinning
To the point that I might just throw up
I’m all for forgiveness but some things
I just can’t forgive for

If you compare me to last year and the year before
You can see that nothing is the same about me anymore

oh these lonely roads, and the places they go

i admit i could do better, im getting my shit together
While my heart keeps bleeding and it aches
out alone in my car
At night while I watch stars
Reminiscing over my mistakes

searching for hope

(yeah, yeah, yeah)
my heart is in the void 
But I’m on my way to the top
Living day to day I’m lifeless
That don’t mean I’m gonna stop
Fully drained of all my energy
But I’m still in the shop
Packed up on this arcteryx
Unlike my soul this shit is hot

Yeah I said I ain’t gon stop
And I know just how to shop
Got expensive taste
but I ain’t worried, I’m still finna cop
Can’t waste my time no more on people
Finna put it to a stop
Got my heart locked up on ice I’m cold
I’m steady watching now

Why these people after me
Guess they see what I can’t see 
They say I’m good I don’t believe
I cannot comprehend what good and bad
I’m Blind beyond belief 
I keep my distance for my safety
These bitches ain’t hurting me
Took that chance i won’t repeat

I stay to myself
Can’t put faith in no one else
I got trust issues 
And I’m steady going through hell
Got my foot down listen to the turbo like a bell
Spittin' fire out my pipes if I get caught I go to jail.

my heart is in the void 
But I’m on my way to the top
Living day to day I’m lifeless
That don’t mean I’m gonna stop
Fully drained of all my energy
But I’m still in the shop
Packed up on this arcteryx
Unlike my soul this shit is hot

my heart is in the void 
But I’m on my way to the top
Living day to day I’m lifeless
That don’t mean I’m gonna stop
Fully drained of all my energy
But I’m still in the shop
Packed up on this arcteryx
Unlike my soul this shit is hot

afterlife [shvde*]

got this 22 up to my brain
Wanna pull the trigger, but so many people I would devastate
I give my all but I still contemplate
Observance builds my pain
Hurt so much I barely made it through the day

I distanced to protect myself
Know we weren’t a thing but we were building
I just can’t describe the way it killed me
Trying to save the blood I could be spilling
heart’ll bleed so much that it’ll kill me
I got so upset, father forgive me

Honestly I can’t be mad at you,
did it to myself I was naive 
heard things that I choose not to believe
All I wanted was the honesty
Its all making sense now honestly

Thinking back it sounds selfish of me
I’m regretful we have history
More than not because you lied to me
Honestly there’s nothing I believe
Now there is no one that I can trust
Got too close and one lie fucked me up
I respected you enough to keep it up. 
Despite the feeling I was getting from my gut.

When there’s something up and I see, I step back
I spent countless nights all week just contemplating everything
Now I’m sitting here again and venting about heavy things
Emotions unavailable so I can’t feel anything
Cannot process love or lust
Cannot bring myself to trust
Cannot feel a thing right now it’s like my soul is stuck

illmnd [shvde*]

new drop as a part of the "Midnight" collection

iris

Riding round the city in a spaceship
Almost died twice, steady racing
Bought a corvette, Interlacing
Fuck, all the problems That I’m facing
Murder everything we ain’t basic
Look at all the people I’m replacing
Look at all the people I’m erasing
Everyone that did me dirty chasing

Riding round the city in a spaceship
Almost died twice, steady racing
Bought a corvette, Interlacing
Fuck, all the problems That I’m facing
Murder everything we ain’t basic
Look at all the people I’m replacing
Look at all the people I’m erasing
Everyone that did me dirty chasing

I been moving on my own
Cause it’s better for my soul
I do better off alone
I can’t even trust a “bro”
I stopped answering my phone for anyone that ain’t gon’ show
Please leave me the fuck alone if you don’t stand on what you spoke

Double on double
I’m putting in work and this check gon cause trouble
I been upset all month I been through the struggle
It ain’t but two people now I say I fuck with
My boy and my partner they know that I’m stuck with
I’ll go to hell’s end if either of them wanted
Anytime they need anything they know I got it
Im shopping on hoes dedicated I bought it

Riding round the city in a spaceship
Almost died twice, steady racing
Bought a corvette, Interlacing
Fuck, all the problems That I’m facing
Murder everything we ain’t basic
Look at all the people I’m replacing
Look at all the people I’m erasing
Everyone that did me dirty chasing

Riding round the city in a spaceship
Almost died twice, steady racing
Bought a corvette, Interlacing
Fuck, all the problems That I’m facing
Murder everything we ain’t basic
Look at all the people I’m replacing
Look at all the people I’m erasing
Everyone that did me dirty chasing

idols (shvde*)

MiiraWTF - memories

(yeah.......yeah.....)

Time and time again I hurt myself
It ain’t intentional, but I know that I need help
I deal with this mental barrier; it hurts my health
So I leave my faith in god, and figure the rest out myself
Prayer opened doors that I can’t even touch with help
Accomplished so much, but I ain’t happy with myself 
This pain it’s rooted deep in me; I feel like I’m in hell
Did so much that’s good for me, but I can’t fuckin' tell

Had to roll the dice, 'cause it could affect my life
There’s a chance that I took once, and Im thinking about it twice
Gotta do risky shit just so I can make it by
It hurt me so much that I can’t even fuckin cry

150 miles an hour up i-95
Weaving in and out of traffic 
Don’t care bout my life
Spend my money on cars 
it’s better than suicide 
One thing I can’t promise
Is that I’m not gonna die

Why do I even try
Now I just get so high
That I’m out of my mind
Sparking like 4th of July 
Unlimited supply
This high you can’t deny
Alcohol and codeine 
Steady fucking up my spine

(Finding it so hard to love
Most of these people just lust 
I’m sitting here watching for the things you’re indicative of
Said things I’m innocent of
Paid for all of the above
I feel so numb deep inside like
I’m just fuckin stuck)

(yeah.......yeah.....)

memories (shvde*)

voices

palm trees

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