You cant change my value
Nobody else can
I talked to god they told me
To live outside of my plans

I can’t breathe around you
I guess that means something’s wrong
Nobody, nobody can make things right if it’s not

You don’t really love me
I’ve always felt it was true
Nobody, nobody can prove themselves to you

Ive always struggled with confidence
Believing what i cant see 
How can i build a vision
When im begging at your feet

So i wont look around me
I wont even look up
I can not conform to
Being your good luck

But how can i accept
That were not meant to be
Nobody is perfect
At least for sure not me

I need you
Need you to just see
What you have in front of you
Or just let me be

Let me be
Let it be
What you have in front of you
Or just let me be

not meant to be (voice memo)

Staying over slumber parties
With sleeping bags on trampolines 
kissing all my girl friends playing spin the bottle never go to sleep
We ran through the streets naked, insecurities gone wild
Craving nothing left to hide, So much so id hide behind that guise
Smothered in plain sight, burning out of spite
 
drowning in axe body sprays and secret elixirs
duck duck goose around and around my basement
She was always the crowd pleaser - I just wanted to be near her 
In our exhibitionist drunk sex, I could never get close enough
Wish it was just one first time at once
growling like the monsters under our beds 
and in my closet, where i woke up, Short but sweet

shoulder drool goodmorning
Im just a goopy snot faced kid, And the drinks are all gone
the early bird hides her face
Neck wrapped in dog kicks face so bare and gawky
I didn’t wanna wake up - We made suicide pacts in safer spaces
is nothing sac-religious sacred anymore?
Got tired of feeling like a whore 
   
drowning in axe body sprays and secret elixirs
duck duck goose around and around my basement
She was always the crowd pleaser - I just wanna be her eye candy 
In our exhibitionist drunk sex, I could never look sweet enough
Wish it was just one first time at once
growling like the monsters under our beds 
and in my closet,  where i woke up

secret elixirs (voice memos)

Lyrics:

You said things weren’t working for us
So I walked away
Doesn’t mean I didn’t scream about it
And say I wish that I was dead
Yes, I saw you drowning
I know you fell a long, long way
Just know baby, if I could save you
I wouldn’t wait another day

But I don’t wanna go back into your black lagoon,
Throw my spoon down
I don’t wanna go back into that black lagoon
I can see you die
I don’t wanna go back into that black lagoon
Doesn’t feel right 
I don’t wanna go back into your black lagoon

Her eyes look tender, but her grip is mean
She put her spell on me
Her appealing splendor is a sight to see
As she put her spell on me
Her wreck leaves more than a fender bender
She put her spell on me
Her eyes look tender, but she’s no contender
Her roots linger in me

But I don’t wanna go back into your black lagoon,
Throw my spoon down
I don’t wanna go back into that black lagoon
I can see you die
I don’t wanna go back into that black lagoon
Doesn’t feel right 
I don’t wanna go back into your black lagoon

Black Lagoon

Lyrics:

I don't know that I'm very good 
at speaking my mind 
But I know how to try
I don't know if I'm very good at staying alive, 
But I've made it this far, haven't I?
And even if my head gets 
turned upside down
I'm not a clown
I'll hang around
Oh, oh

I don’t think that I'm a writer 
At least not today
But I know how to play three chords
And that’s enough 
Just for today
I don’t know how to obey

Dirty water, dirty water, dirty water

ah, ah
ah, ah

That water can take over my face
If i drown in that lake (in that lake)
In that dirty duck pond 
We always said there were killers
And they’re coming for me today

That water can take over my face
If i drown in that lake (in that lake)
In that dirty duck pond 
We always said there were killers
And they’re coming for me today

Dirty water, dirty water, dirty water

Firwood Lake

Lyrics:

Peace will come when it is ready.
Hold my chair, and hold it steady.
Nothing is as urgent as it appears,
I'm begging god to remove my fears.

Because me on my own,
well I have never been so strong.
Calling on Athena, to give me a fiery tongue.
So I can burn you with my words,
Recoil at the soft tap, tap of my feet,
Ever since I could run,
I've been challenging the beach.

Is there no reprieve,
Would you call it a sin,
That I used you, confused you,
The way that I did?
Taking no comfort in my old excuse,
That one foot underground
Could be grounds for abuse.

Because, me on my own,
well I have not been all that strong.
Calling on athena to give me a fiery tongue,
So I can burn you with my words
Recoil at the soft tap tap of my feet.
Ever since I could run I've been 
challenging the beast. 

Because, me on my own,
well I have not been all that strong.
Calling on athena to give me a fiery tongue,
So I can burn you with my words
Recoil at the soft tap tap of my feet.
Ever since I could run I've been 
challenging the beast.

Reprieve

V1: (e, cmaj7, g, asus4)
Is this desire?
Don't wanna make you my messiah
Is it disaster
If  I surrender to lust
Instead of building up trust
her unholy supplier
Stuck in ropes, I can't untie her 

Bridge:
Couldn't leave me    alone forever, if you wanted to
I feel like your fool, I'm following you
From room to room
I'm just your dog
I'm just your bad habit

V2: (asus4, c, e, g)
I never wanna use again
I fear I’m just to frail
To get through this winter cold
I’m ice queen, nodding out on my throne

I would call on a friend
Or sit at your feet and beg
But i can’t
I’m Al Capone 
In my home
I’m all alone
In our home
–  
CHORUS: (e, cmaj7, g, asus4)
Am I just your bad habit?
Bringing out your worst, 
I’m like a little curse
Am I just your bad habit?
Deemed me unworthy of love,
I saw the sign from above
…
That I'm just your bad habit

V3: (asus4, c, e, g)
Every truce leads to a fight
(I can't deny)
My resentments growing higher
(It's in plain sight)
Our screams they haunt the air
It’s self destructive, but I just don't care

CHORUS: (e, cmaj7, g, asus4)

Am I just your bad habit?
Bringing out your worst,
I’m like a little curse
Am I just your bad habit?
Deemed me unworthy of love,
I saw the sign from above
…
That I'm just your bad habit

Bridge:
Couldn't leave you alone forever, if I wanted to
I feel like your fool, I'm following you
From room to room
I'm just your dog
I'm just your bad habit

Bad Habit

Parking Lot Prayer

Small Deaths is a singer songwriter located in Philadelphia, PA.  

Inspired by nature, recovery, love, loss and 90s alternative girlies.  

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