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lyrics:

[intro]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment

[verse 1]
Try not to think about it
Just breathe, they'll all see, no way around it
Yeah
There ain't a need to doubt it
Don't give her the chance to wonder where you found it
Oh (I fucking hate you now)
Don't wanna mess this up (nothing you say could help me escape this hell and)
You never gave enough (you play the game so well)
You kinda fucking suck (trying to figure how not to break and tell you)
So

[pre-chrous]
I throw my phone against the wall
Yeah I hate it when she calls 'cause
She asks me what do we do
(um)

[chorus]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment

[verse 2]
Babe leave
Or I will
Guess you don't want me enough to care how I feel
I know you got places to go don't fucking lie to me
I saw the hearts on your phone so fuck your honesty
Honestly
Yeah maybe I should have listened
Maybe it was my fault there's some shit I've been missing
I guess you moved on but my hearts been conditioned
I'm sorry but baby I think I've made my decision
So I

[pre-chrous]
I throw my phone against the wall
Yeah I hate it when she calls 'cause
She asks me what do we do
(um)

[chorus]
I don't know I guess I fucking hate you now
You had my heart and it escaped somehow
But let's not get shit started
Go back to your apartment
She said I don't care I guess you fucking hate me now
I don't know how
But you lost me in your dreams
I wish I knew how it started
I'll go back to my apartment

pluck

i dont need luck though, i dont want it

https://twitter.com/1homesickk
https://www.instagram.com/1homesickk/

been tryna reach into a dark place
pick me all apart jus like an art space
i still feel the point, thats a sharp blade
i feel like i lost the chance to explain anything
exploitation thats a mainstay
i just wanna see it when its time to take it
time n place
you speakin deceit in a dark day
force of the proletariat like a hurricane
weather change thats a cold case
keep on movin in an old way
swear i cant remember yesterday
different place 
how often i dissociate
shelf my life i dont stargaze
used to think that i could make it
if i try and wait
got a healthy dose of life spit in my face
times change
i cant pull it back
nah it doesnt wait
been tryna reach into a dark place
pick me all apart jus like an art space
i still feel the point, thats a sharp blade
i feel like i lost the chance to explain anything
what is me thats a mind game
wish i could think at a slower pace
you would think that we could pave a way
but symmetry nah that doesn't pay
exploitation thats a mainstay
i just wanna see it when its time to take it 
time n place
you speakin deceit in a dark day
force of the proletariat like a hurricane
light years like its cold cave
the dust piles into my fate
at the bottom of a staircase
getting clear that it wont go away
im like g man with a suitcase
watch me vanish into empty space
neuroplastic pain, know its all fake
i feel through a lens that my brain makes

neuroplastic

hypochondriac

deepfake

this song is not finished

observer is comprised of taur and Little Faith and dylazy and Oncill and hidden contact and clovehitch and charlie zacks and aso and mossgarden and evangeline and fyoum and jacob travels and an_isopod and close-knit and friends


produced by evangeline, clovehitch, close-knit, charlie zacks, jacob travels, hidden contact, taur
mixed by close-knit, dylazy, and clovehitch

TRAVELS:
I don't mind your way
 
DYLAZY:
Feel the rush as I fall and I decay
Ego death I'll go and learn to stay
 
FYOUM:
Yeah, what you up to dude
I could have swear I saw you
But you don't want to talk
Nevertheless I'm cool with you
Not hanging around now that you are so far away
Nobody else nowhere to go and I'm way too close
And I don't know why all these people change and these people fake
And these people claim what was

Once mine and I'm not even joking
My free time ain't for free when you smoking
Goodbye don't forget that I don't care
About you cause your smile makes me broken
 
CHARLIE ZACKS:
I looked into your eyes
And I knew that you would wreck my night, wreck my night
I saw ten thousands reasons
To trust my gut to trust my fight or flight, fight or flight

But you told me that you liked my smile
So I fell in love with your last name
Every look you gave me
It meant so much more to me than you think
 
TRAVELS:
When I'm alone the self is a mirror
Water crystal but I need it clearer

When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
 
GALA:
I don't mind your way now
You wouldn't fall and stay down
Felt the rush decay out
Spilled my guts and I left them out 
To clear your doubts and I'm shouting
 
GANG VOCALS:
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY

TAUR: 
I don't mind your way now, 
trust me now, 
through the rise and fall you are yours not the all I've escapen all control

observer - IDMYW

so i've been using music as a one way ticket
neglecting my life for this tunnel vision
failing my classes and i have my teachers deafened
closing my eyes on my life but i miss the appearance
family know and broke my dreams but im gonna stay insistent
stay consistent
if they keep on telling me just to sit and listen, that

songs wont save me, music wont save me
songs wont save my life, music wont save my life

but songs have saved me, music has saved me
songs have saved my life, music has saved my life

songs save

know I can get a bit obsessive,
I know it’s wrong baby don’t mention, something about you makes me wanna go run around, til I
find a place in your heart and if it don’t happen I won’t be alarmed
but I hope u notice that I’m giving up
if it’s hopeless, just let me go

out with u just to prove u wrong
out with u just to prove u wrong

Hopeless

Yard

Slugs

this song means a lot to me thank you for listening
ill get better at music i promise
꧁ ꧂

i couldn't find myself
and life is around the corner
i could probably melt
and now that i am older

i see all my friends hated me
lived a lie just for my fantasy
oblivious in all these situations
but i think i can fix them
i think i can fix them

clovers on my face
im flying so i can't even feel them
you’re my everything
but flowers only bloom every season
i cant feel my breathin
feels like my life does have some meaning
my heart feels empty
but i cant fight with my reason
fight with my reason
(x2)

is it all my fault
i just cant evolve
all these cracks in my vault and
i dont understand at all how

im breaking so easily
my mind is confused
my soul has died lethally
but that isnt news
my temples abused
the angels are teasing me
and they all accuse
that what im saying isnt true

clovers
clovers
its not over til i say its over
gotta pressure on
cant give it the shoulder
clovers
clovers
i gotta overcome this boulder
im not getting in the eye of the holder
this worlds getting colder
but im still wrapped in my clovers
wrapped in my clovers

i thought they were my friends
but they told me to my own face that they werent
i thought that I could trust her
but she threw it all away in the dirt
feeling all these emotions
the anguish
the pain
the atonement
all of my fear
and my hatred
are bolded
my body its coded
but i cant let it control me

false promises were made about me
and my hands were scarred from the thorns
placed around me from all my fears
i can see through my eyes
but my eyelids still act as a blockade around my sea of tears
is this the first act or the finale
for my new life to have past all these years
as my old reality is crushed
i try to look to the future as my mind begins to clear

clovers

i'm just a robot

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lyrics:

[intro]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 1]
‘Cause i’m a robot
With human skin
And try as I might
I can’t overwrite the code within
I’m just a robot
I don’t exist
Extinguished the light
I gave up the fight
For views and clicks
But somehow I still break down every time you call
I’m just a fake now, not supposed to feel at all
So why am I so unsteady
Fused with so much pain already
Yeah I wish I could just start again
No pretend
But everyday I look inside with discontent
Shit doesn’t relent

[chorus 1]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 2]
They make this shit look easy
Hijack their eyes to feed me
He’ll reach inside of their souls’ convince them that they need me
But what’s the meaning
I’m bleeding
I feel my life force depleting
So what’s the point of succeeding
If it’s not for myself?
It’s just for everyone else
Couldn’t help but put my pride on the shelf
I guess I’m going to hell
We’re all frauds, ain’t no contest
I’m no god, just a complex
I don’t get it
How they hid it
So well
(And I don't wanna die but maybe it's easier)
It’s no fun, to be broken
Burning sun, I’m unchosen
They don’t get it
How I did it
Don’t tell
(I pushed and they folded, my body was molded wrong)

[bridge]
I tried to bottle it up
But you threw salt in the cut
My body’s turning to rust
I guess I’ll wallow in it
They said it wasn’t enough
So now I’m calling their bluff
Not who they think that I was
I strive to keep it hidden

[chorus 3]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

unalive

CASTLEBEAT 'Nothing' EP released on Spirit Goth Records [SG61]
https://sg61.fanlink.to/nothing

Nothing

Sunlife

(why does love keep letting me down?)

performed, written and produced by me
mixing and mastering by me with help from @ryptage
additional vocals from @blissom and @starsbeforesunrise
screams from @blimeyarts
violin from @taivasa
cover art by @clawsomebeats on twitter

lyrics
there's a feeling in my chest and it won't go away
i see skies and they're all shades of gray
more than anything i want, i just want this to last
i know you don't feel that way
and i'm sorry that i'm not what you want
but i gave it my all and i was never enough
and i miss you to death but that don't mean anything
"if you wanna go then i'll be okay"
but now its all gonna break.

is it too late to say that i'm not okay?
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away.

let me waste away
i can't even stand to look you in the face.
left in the dust underground
and i don't know how i'm gonna get out

shouldn't get too attached, but i can't help it
i see stars and it hurts to admit
that just like every single one, you're a part of the past
i know you don't feel it
i'll be waiting for someone to hold
like a blanket keeping me from cold
i've been spilling my guts on the pavement
and all that i'm left to do is crawl into my shell
and now it's all gonna break

is it too late to say that i'm not okay?
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away

is it too late to ask for a reason why?
cause i'm just sick and tired of saying my goodbyes
and when i fall down i just get kicked to the curb
don't understand why i ever even tried.

let me waste away
don't remember the last time that i've seen your face.
left in the dust underground
and i don't care if i ever get out

i've been lost in the dark
you're all i have
you're all i've got
and there's no way
nothing i can do to get you to stay by my side
why do i always waste my time waiting for another mistake?
if i just caught in the waves?

is it too late to say that i'm not okay
cause i've run out of words and my hands wont stop shaking
with my heart in my throat all that i wanna know
is what i do to push everyone away

is it too late to ask for a reason why?
cause i'm just sick and tired of saying my goodbyes
and when i fall down oh i'll just lay in the dirt
don't understand.

i won't waste away
i'll just yell at the clouds until i'm blue in the face
left in the dust but i'm breathing
it's the least i can do just to deal with you leaving.
———————————————————————————————
if you're reading this, this song isn't about you. you know who you are.

dust.

maybe i'm focusing on all the wrong things

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lyrics:

[intro]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go 

[verse 1]
Optimism, ain’t that shit funny?
When the world we live in’s all 'bout the money
Money ultra rich own half of, won’t budge it at all
We turn to politicians, hope they’ll do something
Feigning altruism, but they do nothing
Crushing lives as they take rights from the people I love
So they’ll say “what do we do?”
As if there’s something to choose
We’re living lives of abuse
All at the hands of a few
I’m asking “what do I do?”
I guess I thought I could choose
Between the art and the views
A stable life to pursue
Obtuse, reduced my character

[chorus 1]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go 

[verse 2]
Jokes on us
They don’t give a fuck about nothing
At all if it don't benefit them all ways
I’ll say what's on my mind but it’ll get lost
Get lost if you ain’t picking it up
The thing 'bout me is I already lost
I dream 'bout peace and a renaissance
I can’t show more than I'm letting on
Just know I tried for you
Opened my eyes to this industry I was mortified
They tryna trip you and fuck you up on the borderlines
Think imma burn all my bridges and my important ties
I hold my tongue
They hold all the money money
Go round me used to wish they loved me loved me
Oh I know better than that now
Oh I know better than that now

[chorus 2]
‘Cause I don’t wanna talk
I’d rather die
Before I let you see the real me
You feel me?
I’ll let my other side conceal me
Then you’ll see
You gotta let me go
Look
'Cause I don’t wanna talk I'd rather
Die before I let you see the
Before I let you see the
Person I’ve become
In my pursuit to be someone
I shoulda fuckin known
You gotta let me go

[outro]
I tried to let you go
But empathy means nothing when you're
Scared to be alone
Pick up the fucking phone

break! (feat. Jay Kim)

cover art by @9nasu
piano by @alexanderpanos
violin by jessie morgan @ https://www.fiverr.com/jessiem279
additional vocals by @oyeme-thomas
additional texture by @tevinmichaelr
spoken word performed by @tevinmichaelr
spoken word written by @50landing

big thanks to everyone that helped me on this one

lyrics:

whether you’re here or not, i’d still be dancing

whether you’re here or not, i’d still be dancing

you don’t be the judge of my post when i go post on my volition
don’t have to tell me what’s broke cuz i’m the one who broke it to fit my vision 

i don’t care to fix it
seems like a waste of time to me
i don’t mind if you don’t listen
your attention isn’t guaranteed

that’s the thief, thief of joy
who you running from
we deleted masterpieces when you've killed the fun
with comparisons
i wanna go have fun, i want to, i want to
so i’ve decided that

whether you’re here or not, i’d still be dancing
whether you're here or not, oh whether you're

it seeps into my room, cus i wanna be strong
but i wait for you at the door, locked from the inside
distance grows the delay of time, 
a warning sign to my world and all i have

so we stand around these wood framed walls
a forest where i stood tall
from here you can almost see it,
the stars upon the ceiling illuminate me
the scars that are still healing, you can never catch me
after all, your eyes try to paint a picture that you've waited for this whole time
you said i need help but you won't help me help myself
you didn't feel what i felt

dancing

Lyrics:
strap the shoes upon my feet im taking L's, they say my drip is getting weak
take the words right out of me before i get to speak
watch what happens next got me the edge of my own seat
now that time is racing and im aging at full speed

cant even finish a line, cant even finish a verse
cant even do what i did, when i did what i did
man i swear its a curse

man i just cannot keep up
dont even drink from this cup
think im just old and im lacking in gold
but i keep going on with some luck

time keeps on slippin, slippin, slippin
into the future
time keeps on slippin, slippin, slippin
into the future

this catastrophe, called life's a fucking beast
i would rather not wake up and just be strangled in the sheets
hey man cool out, i be playing, im still working on a lease
i still got unfinished business so im spittin on this beat

ride the wave and curse the name
the one i built, the one i made
cause shit will fall and fade away
a slow burn out with my decay

the end is up but not today
you'd like to know but who can say
its same old shit like every day
one morning you'll just fade away

time keeps on slippin, slippin, slippin
into the future
time keeps on slippin, slippin, slippin
into the future

Slippin

digital crush (feat. Ouse x Ryan Librada) Prod. SMLE

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spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3qunMNEfMJ67WCHrzjbFCW
amazon music: 
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앨범 소개(Introduction to Album)

삼키기엔 너무 아쉬운 말들이 모여
서성거리다 
멈춰선 순간들.
Too many words to swallow.
hang about
stopped moments

누구나 한번쯤은 겪어 볼 법한,
어쩌면 또 마지막이 될 지도 모르는 
그 찰나의 순간에 담긴 감정을 그려낸 노래 입니다.
It's a once-in-a-lifetime experience.
Maybe it's the last time.
It's a song that depicts the emotion in that moment.

-Credits-
Dept(뎁트) - 어쩌면 또 마지막이 될까봐 (Feat. XulianX(율리안) )
Executive Producer : 뎁트 
Presented by Dept Music 
작곡: 뎁트(Dept), XulianX
편곡: 뎁트(Dept), 황예, XulianX 
작사: XulianX 
vocal by  XulianX 
chorus by   XulianX 
Midi by 뎁트(Dept)
synth by 뎁트(Dept)
Drum by 뎁트(Dept)
Piano by 뎁트(Dept)
Bass by 뎁트( Dept)
Guitar by 황예
Mixed by 강다나, XulianX 
Album cover by @ heeeesoo_ 
Mastered by 배재한@등대사운드 
 
Thanks to
항상 응원해주시는 부모님과 동생 호영이, 지안, 흑기사.
그리고 저를 응원해주시는 많은 분들께 감사드립니다

Lyrics

A) 
특별한 사이는 아니지만  
It's not a special relationship
매번 네 앞에선 불안하고 초조해져
but I get anxious and nervous in front of you every time.
애꿏은 날씨 탓인가 해 Uhm
Maybe it's because of the bad weather.
산으로 가는 얘기들과 
we can't concentrate on the our conversation properly.
물거품이 된 바람까지도
And Even my hopes has gone up in smoke
온통 네 곁을 멤돌아 
My mind is All around you
이런 나의 마음을 아는지
Do you know my heart?

B)
늦은 오후 해질녘 꿈을 삼킬 때
When you swallow your dreams of sundown in the late afternoon,
널 보고싶은 마음에
I wanted to see you.
애처로운 얼굴로 달려가는 길은 여전히 왜 멀어보여 아득하게 
Why does it still look so far to run with a my pathetic face?

Hook)

서투른 내 마음은 널 마주보지 못하고
My poor heart can't see you look face to face to face.
계속 아웅다웅대
And arguing with each other over trifles.
Why don’t you know
don’t you know 
don’t you know about me 

이렇게도 가득한데 
It's so full.
서두르는 마음에 또 너무도 쉽게 네 맘 두드리면 안돼
in a hurry, and i can't beat your heart too easily.
Better slow 
Better slow
Better slow down, bae

어쩌면 또 마지막이 될까봐
Maybe it'll be the last time.

A)

아무런 말도 못해 또 난
I can't say anything again.
매번 네 앞에선 못 본 척 만 척 겉 돌기만 해
Every time I see you in front of me, I just turn around and pretend I didn't see you.
미소를 띄운 너를 보며 Uhm
I'm looking at you with a smile on your face.
새로 산 배색 목도리가 잘 어울리냐는 너의 그 손짓도
That hand gesture of yours asking if your new colored scarf looks good on you.
똑바로 쳐다보지 못한 
not looking straight
이런 나의 마음을 아는지
Do you know my heart?
B)  
하얗게 내려온 첫 눈 사이로 
through the first snow white
무얼 빌었냐는 물음에
When I asked what I begged for,
난처로운 얼굴로 달려가는 길은 여전히 왜 멀어보여 아득하게
As my awkward face, Why does it still look so far to street ?

Hook)

서투른 내 마음은 널 마주보지 못하고
My poor heart can't see you look face to face to face.
계속 아웅다웅대
And arguing with each other over trifles.
Why don’t you know
don’t you know 
don’t you know about me 

이렇게도 가득한데 
It's so full.
서두르는 마음에 또 너무도 쉽게 네 맘 두드리면 안돼
in a hurry, and i can't beat your heart too easily.
Better slow 
Better slow
Better slow down, bae

어쩌면 또 마지막이 될까봐
Maybe it'll be the last time.

Dept(뎁트) - 어쩌면 또 마지막이 될까봐(Maybe it'll be the last time)(feat. 이아율(Ayul))

coproduced by @50Landing and @bwre

now there’s too many people that I have done wrong
and that i owe my thanks to for sticking along with me

think I’m dreaming
this isn’t real
cos you leave in a month
and i’m fiending for something to feel

when you hold me
know you know me down to my core
this is the calm before the storm
you diverted attention/the tension away when i mentioned that someone else gon need you more

now there’s too many people that I have done wrong
and that i owe my thanks to for sticking along with me

and i fell apart in that bed
what we built isn’t me
won’t put it back together again
i can’t take back what i said
i just opened those messages i left on read

cos i took you rosier
i thought we could cope
we got out on the ocean i fell out my boat
and you calmed me back down and you
gave me some hope
but i tossed it away for a seratone

now there’s too many people that I have done wrong
and that i owe my thanks to for sticking along with me

no commitments

i’m going to hell you’re going to heaven
it doesn’t negate our holy connection
and next time i fly too close to the sun I’m not gonna run this shit was for fun

I left home now i’m fucked up
realized how much i loved you
whole goddamn life been a suckup
now I’m just tryna get my luck up
all the pain went when you kissed me
we were ten toes up now i’m six feet down
moved on you don’t need me now
now i gotta figure me out
i gotta figure me out

bitch i’m up next
fuckboy ain’t a threat
put a price on my head
won’t sell my soul for a check
that’s on god that’s on sound
you won’t ever see me round
i’ll be cooking up some shit that’s gonna get me out this town

rosier

slow down
breathe
what’s in the ground beneath your feet?
get out that screen and let it go
a blue check screams
i always whispered what you want
and it was right here all along

cos i found something with a taste you can’t describe
you take it in and all your roots get intertwined
and every time i call you back you’ll know you’re fine
i know you’re fine

there’s no cancer in the water
it’s not an answer or a dream
your mother and your father would rather blow it all on ginger tea
more than offer than a feed

you’re ready for it
think it’s for the best you leave this town
you’re ready for this now

breathe
slow down
breathe

terrified when i’m bout to be brave
since danny hit me i been killing the game
power to you if you’re riding the wave
could give a fuck about the money or fame
take you and your girl right back to my place
cos man or woman i’ma fuck you the same
picking me up when she’s back in my state
a quick flight to nyc for some cake
touch down 50 came in the clutch
my boys bound for something bigger than us
cuts deep like a knife it’s some shit you can feel
my momma love me and her willpower steel
ex’s heart bouda beat out my chest
i’m sorry bout me and i wish you the best
i just wanna fuck
the marajuana got me scared of trauma but i’m gon be okay
good sex every day
green checks life ain’t grey
this is fate
fill my plate with acid salad and breaks
i get drunk and she gets stupid high
i just chilled cos I don’t wanna try
when i don’t know what the fuck to say
i don’t know what the fuck to say
i don’t know what the fuck to say

2024zzzzzz

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