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777 (feat. Kappa)

@lilxlotus

~I'll Pack My Bags~ 

ハンナダイヤモンドは私のガールフレンドです 
デッドボーイ / /  コールドワールド
If I Leave Tonight I'm Never Coming Back 
ウィッシング x たい x 待っています 
こんにちは!!! こんにちは 

カリフォルニア州の夜 

S u i c i d e / / P u r i t y 

ColdWorldGang

YungJZAisDead X Lil Lotus - My Switchblade Is My Wrists Best Friend

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every night i close my eyes like i'm alright, tell myself that i'll be okay i'll be fine

vocals: @lilxlotus - twitter.com/LILXLOTUS

production: @harvest - twitter.com/hr_vest

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wasting your time w/ lil lotus

ep2 soon

produced by døves (dovescry.bandcamp.com)
featuring @horsehead1990
art by reyn yeager (reynyeager.com)
sample from a @bellarubyy cover of horse head's "i'm used to that"

horse head:
how could i ever get used to missing that
and if you give it up, you can't take it back
drugs have been keeping me up at night
under club lights, i'm such a mess tonight
i couldn't wait to be back home
one more show then i can be alone
i feel so bad when she sings my songs
she sounds so alone, like she's used to that
she feels so bad, the way i sing my songs
i feel so alone and i'm used to that
i'm used to that, i want it back
i'm true to it, go through with this
i'm moving back to where i'm from
i had you in nothing but black then
now i only speak of you in past tense
thought i had it, i couldn't grasp it
now it's slipping away into blackness

døves:
i'm used to that, i'm using that
i want you bad, i want the black
and you want to see me in past tense
i had you in nothing but black then
and i was in the party, you were at the gate
and i could call you in and we could slip away
and maybe we could talk if i could stay awake
but i just took a clip and i'm fading away
you can't help, you're too late
(time spent painted in white)
recalling all the words you said
like i could ever fall for that
(eyes mint, amber and blind)
i was just a fuck you had
like you would ever love me back
visions keep me up at night, poison warms the cold inside
like my life through your eyes

used ft. horse head

BAD SIDE (PROD. HORSE HEAD)

prod @93feetofsmoke
vox mix by @fats_e
ft. @lilxlotus

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hands around my neck
every night were getting too drunk
bruises on my chest 
yeah I swear to god it's fucked up

bands around my neck
I'm just struggling to stay up
water in my breath
I'm still swallowing the salt but
grasping for new air
smoking lungs filled with ash dust
electric turned off
for about two weeks fuck

hands around my neck
every night were getting too drunk
bruises on my chest 
swear to god this shit is fucked up

i know we'll wake up in the morning 
telling each other were sorry
sick to my stomach 
throw up in the toilet
caught up on each others snap stories 

hands around my neck
every night were getting too drunk
bruises on my chest 
swear to god this shit is fucked up

fucked ft. lil lotus

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rip your underwear (prod. tothegood)

all songs by coward.

layout by ricky cribb

purchase: itunes.apple.com/us/album/coward/1326281206

Blue (Prod. The Virus and Antidote)

u make my heart feel fragile 
like it's made of glass <3

@LILXLOTUS
@smrtdeath
@taxpurposes

lyrics:

don't leave me alone w/ lil lotus (prod. taxpurposes)

Production: me :)
Vocals: @lilxlotus
art: https://twitter.com/lexijohnstonx
Lyrics

I don't think that i'll be fine and I can't do this
It's a struggle every night just to get through it

Look me straight in the eye, am I just wasting my time?
You had me waiting for hours and promised this wasn't good bye
And i'm not feeling alright, but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach, I can't get you out of my mind
I cant get you out of my mind
My mind
My mind
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind

Look me straight in the eye (I don't think that i'll be fine and I cant do this), am I just wasting my time?
You had me waiting for hours (Its a struggle every night just to get through it) and promised this wasn't good bye
And i'm not feeling alright (I don't think that i'll be fine and I cant do this), but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach (Its a struggle every night just to get through it) I cant get you out of mind
I cant get you out of mind

(look me straight in the eye, am I just wasting my time?)
My mind
(You had me waiting for hours and promised this wasn't good bye)
My mind, makes me sick to my stomach I cant get you out of my mind

And i'm not feeling alright, but you swear i'll be fine
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind
I cant get you out of my mind
My mind
My mind
My mind
It makes me sick to my stomach, I cant get you out of my mind

Out Of My Mind (ft. Lil Lotus)

Fantasy Camp & Lil Zubin collab EP 'Another Heart 2 Break.'

Mixed by Nick Colletti. 
Cover photo by Matt Wren.
Cover text by @vesthetiic.

Another Heart 2 Break

promises w/ zubin

follow me on twitter @jakkystealurgrl
prod/mix/master by meee

i’m blind 
why’d i get attached like last time 
she been on my brain now i’m tongue tied
ya i’m tongue tied
I don’t even really know why i go try ya
  
and i’m like why  
why is she still on my mind
tried to get her off my recent search but there she fuckin lies again

hey i know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now i want her all day x2
now she playing with my brain ya
give a boi a break like wait 

i’m okay despite of everything
tell her i’m okay despite of everything 

Pull to the side I don’t think you wanna know
how I feel I’ll shut before u wanna go 
I been thinkin’ bout the rest   
I’ve been doing better drugs i’ve been blownin up a check ya 

I don’t even need this now
she just make me feel a type of way somehow 
I don’t really wanna give in quite yet but god i kinda know 
she don’t even love me so I gotta go… whoa

hey I know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now I want her all day
now she playing with my brain
give a boi a break like wait 

I know it’s just the same
go and fuck her once now I want her all day x2
now she playing with my brain
give a boi a break like wait

Give a Boi A Break

Prod. @anxietyattackss

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

I don’t have no time for closure
You did your rounds I fucked around and now it’s over
You know expecting things to last Is bad composure
I know I’m fucked up in the head thats why i lost her

Please forgive me for my sins, I ain’t mean to hurt my loved ones
and unfortunately I did, Imma regret my mistakes until the od or the lead
This is much past far removed you know I've been way off the edge

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder
x2

This is do or die just like everything else ya
This an angel falling fast I might need help ya
"These are words you need to hear" I tell myself yeah
Pray that god strikes me down don't wanna live no more

this is suicide just not sure where it ends
this is beautiful just let me play pretend
this is cynical i've been a piece of shit
this is factual I'm just relaying scripts

I'm so stuck in my head
life look like a dead end
broken heart i can't mend
out to break more again

Imma own up own up
imma fuck up fuck up
are u sorry that u met me?
i still wonder, wonder
but you don't gotta wonder

this is do or die just like everything else (prod. Anxiety Attacks x Bruce Leen)

I’ve never felt so fucked send help my love I’m going under
I wonder what you think of me tell me is it over
wish I didn’t love you so much
I’ve been getting used to what it does
trying to loosen my grip
girl I know I won’t get anywhere by
holding on too tightly I’m trying
not to lose my fuckin mind
you’re so confusing all the time
I don’t wanna lose you ill do anything
damnit I think you’re gone already

I wonder what you think of me but
god I know i shouldn’t
fall apart every time that you come when
I’m standing still alone and fucking stuck
wish I didn’t care about you so much
miss the way we used to talk
lately you’ve been gone
so far off from what I thought I would want
I love you so much 
you can use me just know I love you and

I’ve never felt so fucked send help my love I’m going under
I wonder what you think of me tell me is it over
wish I didn’t love you so much
I’ve been getting used to what it does
trying to loosen my grip
girl I know I won’t get anywhere by
holding on too tightly I’m trying
not to lose my fuckin mind
you’re so confusing all the time
I don’t wanna lose you ill do anything
damnit I think you’re gone already

I don’t wanna waste my time with you
spend a couple months now I’m back into
this game that I hate and I know its forsure
that you’ll leave me broken when you walk out the door
wish I didn’t fall so easily
cuz I feel you start to walk away from me
and I know I gotta get my self together now
feel so small underneath this ground
can you tell I’m breaking
with every word you’re saying to me now
all my bones are shaking trying my best somehow

I’ve never felt so fucked send help my love I’m going under
I wonder what you think of me tell me is it over

gonna keep loving you
cuz its the only thing I know how to do
I’m useless I’m used up
your perfect I’m in love
holding onto pieces that would keep us connected
pouring out my heart I should have kept you protected
I don’t wanna lose you after all that we went through
if it has to be this way ill never forget you

send help (feat. kaiyko & familypet) [prod. curtains]

missed your text now im stuck in the middle
cant remember the last time tht i didnt feel this
hole inside my heart and soul
i never thought that life would turn me this cold

nicotine help me tolerate another day
thc makes my sanity just slip away
3 more shots til im back into my happy place
drank too much now im crying in the back again

self doubt again
cant get the fuck out my head
this might be the end
i think this might be the end

i cant trust this bitch i know she digging for gold
i dont know if i could ever trust a soul
got my hand on the blade if u want smoke we could go
i been screaming at the sky cus i been searching for some hope tonight

missed your text now im stuck in the middle
cant remember the last time tht i didnt feel this
hole inside my heart and soul
i never thought that life would turn me this cold

nicotine help me tolerate another day
thc makes my sanity just slip away
3 more shots til im back into my happy place
drank too much now im crying in the back again

go fuck yourself i
dont care what you say
hope this storm will pass
drowning in my pain

nicotine [prod. 93feetofsmoke]

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don't leave me alone w/ lil lotus (prod. taxpurposes)

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