I was in a future drinking yesterday’s old life
It had aged not unlike wine
Had it really cost a dime?
Darling I always sober but time was not kind
It was another era right?
With your sweat glazed upon eyes
Was it not devious tearing into this house of mine?
I finally have some peace of mind
Some other hero can sacrifice

Did we ever try?
Did you leave or did I?
History’s written by the victors
Do I remember right
Do I remember anything right?

You were in a room staring up as though the ceiling climbed
This is my average night
I’m diving off the highest fly
A kaleidoscope of static told you 
Dinner’s at 5
You hear the laughs as fortunes collide
And Your friend signs off for the night
And you snap back as the arms drag onto 5:45
But the calendar won’t ask why
As you wonder who you are

Did we ever try?
Did you leave or did I?
History’s written by the victors
Do I remember right
Do I remember anything right?

Smithy's Anime Intro

What's your vice?
Just wanna be someone, somewhere
Important to a lover
Though I couldn't offer
Nothing but total demise

Under these cocktail lights
So what if you won't mix anyways?
I'm sorry that I'd deny
When you're parked over night

I was in love in another era
On the floor not knowing where
By design on the bottom stair
Way too rung to understand
On the phone but who had said
By 10?

You're so late so you decide

I wish I was older and wise
Wish that I was bolder and had tried
Time skips for no one but I
Come out to see you next night
Or perhaps until the next life

Standing in the middle
Of a bourgeois coked out collective
Their irritating riddles
Got me spending bootleg heaven
I won't really I won't go
It's my cub where I feel whole

I just know in another era
On the floor not knowing where
By design on the bottom stair
You came in feeling unwanted
On the phone but who had said
Go back

You're so late did you decide

Wish I was older and wise
Wish that I was bolder and had tried
Time skips for no one but I
Come out to see you next night
Or perhaps until the next life
Wish I was older and wise
Wish that I was bolder and had tried
Time skips for no one but I
Come out to see you next night
Or perhaps until the next life

TIMESKIP

This is not heaven
Oh, this place just reeks of shit professions
Dotting all the eyes to see me run for the door
U C on the wall

Our father
Always emphasized you should not bother
Cooler talk with hot, hot heads
And I wanted more
She says, what's your job?
You cannot deny it anymore

Maybe in seven days well I'll
Expire if you so desire
Ringu baby
It's all up to me
The gauge it read ten thousand miles
You could be here while I lay idle
Ringu baby
It's all up to me

Well whatever
Someone's bound to sell their old extension
Someone's got to have my old
Addiction, I hope
Gossip behind door four
And endless hallways
Bathing white light pouring in half empty
My heart sagged soaking up the pulp
Your anger left scorched
She says, what's your job?
You cannot deny it anymore

Maybe in seven days well I'll
Expire if you so desire
Ringu baby
It's all up to me
The gauge it read ten thousand miles
You could be here while I lay idle
Ringu baby
It's all up to me

Ringu Baby

A coquette track for the working class

Sleeping these terrible thoughts away
Beneath my cave
Heaven sent a cake 
To tempt my primal ways
Can you see every word
Served on my hungry gaze?
The grooves around this place
How many years did Death
Take the frog inside the well
And his canary friend?
A frying pan to the face
Well you get what you put in
The begging at the table
Is what everyone expects

I don’t believe in law
I don’t believe in credit cards
Do you take human lung?
You cannot play as god
You can’t control this chess floor fate
Of anyone

Drinking some terrible tonics away
What spoon?
There’s plastic or silver
The pigs have flown the cage
All dollars are the same
The shops were soaked in blood
As they all drove down the veins
Tourism of the dead
My eyes were cherry-glazed
I think I’m pretty full and so
I now refuse to play

I don’t believe in law
I don’t believe in credit cards
Do you take human lung?
You cannot play as god
You can’t control this chess floor fate
Of anyone
Of anyone

Bills song
I never knew I could do wrong
The empire falls
The democratic race
In this bottle of a maze
The title match between all rats
Will I make out ok?
Money is not to blame
Money is not to blame
To blame
Money is not to blame
The cheddar in my face
My face
Money is not to blame

Bills Song

demo week number 2, uploading this before i spend too long on it, lyrics:
 
I'm a ghost oh can't you see?
Won't you come down looking for me
By the sea, I'm by the sea
I feel alone with the mud on my knees

But maybe if we get too close
I got a feeling you already know
That baby, we fell a little short
Or that it's better to be alone

I can see that I can't see
What's a life when there's thousands of me
By the screen, sat by the screen
What's a love that lasts me a week

Teevee Ghost

this years birthday song and week 3 of demos. lyrics:

Must have been sometime in Berlin
or just one of those many weekends
he might've sinned, yeah he must have since
gone home.

Here's the kicker, well, by now he knows.
It makes me feel so bitter as I'm on the phone
with the man who's learned, the man who's not sure
if I'm with my kind. The life in a pond below.

They'll find stones where organs go.

She seems in love, she'll need a gun.
She sleeps so sound with me face down.
She breathes and feels so warm, but we're in cold.
But wait, I may come up. So please don't let me drown.

When you're dead it'll be you instead.
And I'll piss on your many pieces, well
I'm vindictive. This patience I'm owed.
Plays me oh so simply, my children my songs are not
sold for cash it's the currency of last July
that I have. With words at the tap that were
meant for a man, who's thirst made him crack.
But his lips wouldn't move, no, he couldn't talk back
As whole.

Tempt two souls and his bones corrode, I suppose.

And Today I Was 21

Simple music that you'd hear in an elevator.

Elevator Music 2

"No. Cuantas semanas quede aqui? 
Cuentanos, cuales excusas tienes para mi? 
'Y yo no se?' Que te ganaste por mentir?" 
"Pues yo te ame!""Si me dijiste y te crei." 

Mi Corazon 
Te Pido yo 
Mi Corazon 
Tocandonos 

"Oigo tu numbre en el aire 
Y esa voz pide olvidarte 
Y intente pero regresar a lo de antes 
de lo que escrito, cariño no." 

Mi Corazon 
Te Pido yo 
Mi Corazon 
Tocandonos 
Y no, no, no 
Uno, fue dos 
Mi Corazon 
No hay Razon 

De que no creas en mi 
Y que no creas en amor 
No es mi problema, no. 
Hanciendo caso, nunca, no. 
Ni confianza para decir 
Como quiero tu voz 
Hasta los 22 
Junto nos moriremos 

Yo fui, ven aqui. Es abrir.

Hasta Los Veintidós

a song made when my dog was at a hospital

track 05:

thusday night just stay a while
keep me this preoccupied
scent of poor, the scent of pine
makes me think of better lives

and I know why you won't look back
answered "faith" everytime I'd ask
and besides I'd get dozens of "no's"
so i bide often by the door

for my boy
to come on home
wait for my boy
to come on home

come on home

Coin Laundry Change

I'm back! still dont know what an album is but will be trying to make mo stuff regardless this year. here is a #hot #new #single


lyrics:

Brother, heard you're back in town
Got this stub with your name so don't you kid me with
"I'm not down" "I'm not down"
Brother, oh with the perfect kids?
It seems taking the licks they take in dozens
won't work out.

Get away, feeling like you gotta
Get away, feeling like you gotta
Get away, I'm not saying I'm 
not around.

Lover, but by the beat we met.
And I can see in your face 
it makes you happy 
all blown out.
Hold me (let's)
feel like we're falling...
But by the end I believe 
that lie all over again.
On the ground. (yes!)
On the ground.

Get away, feeling like you gotta
Get away, feeling like you gotta
Get away, I'm not saying I'm 
not around.

What Took So Long?

Made for Mother's day 2018. This is a B-side from my upcoming album Oh Honey. Been a whole year, sry. onto a proper good single next foo. This one was a challenge as I usually don't make stuff with piano, and including vocals a total of 5 instruments were used.

lyrics:
Taking seats, off in the corner.
Distance never mattered much -
I'm addicted to the pound of drums, an addictive kind of tired, hun.
I see your ears hung off your shoulder, pull em up - you're done.
Better than the bus cause standing, let's just say I get enough.
I see your work's cut out for you, chewing on that gum.
On another diet huh? - Tell me how that goes.

Are you home?
Are you just not sure?
As you go.

Who've you been and where you're going, tell me how it's done.
Just another lesson hun, I wrote off on my tax return.
Think of grabbin lunch, but I know you don't want it bad enough.
Gettin tired of locomotives, specially when the weather's dumb-
and the cloak of the rain came from above us.
Telling me about what you are is some kind of drug.

Are you home?
Are you just not sure?
As you go.
Do you know?
That your cup's gone cold.
Bet you don't.

Homework

Andar Conmigo (Julieta Venegas Cover)

Anyways, I Love You

The Hole at the Other Home

Castle in the Hills

Pacific Coast Cruisin'

Salaried Conspiracy Theorist

My Homes

Fairy Princess

welcome to the bonus level. you can find old demos and misc. stuff on here. inquiries about music stuff can be sent to atlavenderbeach@gmail.com

Victor Tostado, Jr

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