Music I find that I think is good v4

never meant (prod. michael warren)

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i am quickly realizing
all the problems that i'm facing
all exist inside this hatred
for myself my thoughts are racing
is there anybody out there
feeling dim, dark & depleting
what is safe cause all i fear is near
& death i'll soon be greeting
i truly wish the flickering would stop
& i could catch my breath
but this films left on repeat again
somehow you soon forget 
you've damn near downed your second bottle
drunken words in full effect
these sober thoughts have always lived here
driving by until they wreck

i'm fucking numb
(yeah)
you don't know a thing about the terror that i breathe into my lungs
and i don't know a thing about myself other than what is soon to come

i think the sky is falling
but it's my imagination
overcasting on & off again
to form a new foundation
hopefully i reconstruct myself
it might take quite a while
obsolete upon comparison
these scars all stretch for miles
i'll never find the person i was then
he's buried deep below
subterranean inhabitant
i hope he likes the snow
did the soul inside his body
ever find his way back home
am i talking in third person
yeah i guess we'll never know

i'm fucking numb
(yeah)
you don't know a thing about the terror that i breathe into my lungs
and i don't know a thing about myself other than what is soon to come

dim, dark, depleting

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watch the branches fall
and the leaves ignite the path that saves us all
in the midst of all of this
i will take us home

episode 9,017
an epiphany
i don't know what the hell you mean
everything feels like it's played out on a screen
throwing stones in broken homes in hopes that it'll set me free
illustrations in my
head will be my demise
i'm sick & tired of trying something new
there's a stranger that lives
underneath all of my skin
he let's himself in again
if only you knew

watch the branches fall
and the leaves ignite the path that saves us all
in the midst of all of this
i will take us home

i will take us home

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i'm getting bit up by all of the mosquitoes
blister my skin drink my blood like a needle
collect my dna in a vile
clone me again make me less suicidal
my only wish is to regain a smile
i really miss summer days as a child
six flags, suplexes, eddie guerrero
now it's just sex, some caffeine and the narrow
stairs album by the band death cab for cutie
i fear that eventually someone will shoot me
a loop of that scene from american beauty
but this ones for real it's not just from a movie
my anxietys got the worst of me lately
i don't know how the fuck you expect to save me
cause i can't save myself and honestly baby
i want you to know that i hate me
 
if you made it this far then you're probably still dreaming
listen to this when you feel like you need it
my only wish is to regain a smile
i really miss summer days as a child

mosquito

lyrics
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lost boy hoping i find my way home
lost sight of why i'm here & where the fuck i should go
one hundred twenty miles from my area code
spilt whiskey on my shirt inside this evergreen home
might tumble down & fall beneath the thick of the mist
a silhouette sat in the distance comes & swings with a miss
i climb trees just to save myself from what could've been
& hide high upon this mountain with a pad & a pen

the drifter lives down the road
& if he follows me home
then i'll pack everything & leave till i know
that i am safe beside my company although he's below
& then he'll gut me like a pig & leave my bones to the crows
& this time i've convinced myself that i'm gonna die
oh i don't think that it's alright but i'll just pray to the sky
i'll find a god in what i sing & sing it every night
and maybe time will tell my story i won't put up a fight

cause fear leads me towards destruction
crippled unable to function
full of unwanted assumptions
petrified by my consumptions
used to hide along the meadow
and now i practice my falsetto
i've been like this from the get-go
i don't ever wanna let go

the walls we build hide all the bodies
of everyone who lives inside me

the drifter

From the other perspective 


im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want
thinking is sickening
so you think with your lungs

do you even want peace for yourself
look around you theres nobody else
they're all up above
think for yourself
till it all falls apart

till it all falls apart


im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want
im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want

im a guard
dont ask what im guarding
what you hear
is not what you want

guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im 
guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im 
guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im 
guarding, guarding, guarding , ask what im

think with your lungs

shoutout hyan remsworth

(orig https://soundcloud.com/ryanhemsworth/snow)

https://limeboiler.bandcamp.com/album/covered-up <- buy

snowblower in newark [cover album out now]

@sorisu

original song : https://soundcloud.com/soristrash/online

cover art by jiiing7

sorisu - online [lb66 dnb flip]

produced, mixed and mastered by blackwinterwells
art photographed by phillip ly
thank you for everything, everyone

i/o +blackwinterwells

All tracks written, performed, and produced by Reserv
Track 3 written and performed with Rainfield
Track 9 written and performed with 8485
Recorded in San Francisco, CA

Honeypie

Honeypie (feat. 8485)

auch dieser track ist 2024 entstanden. alle vocals wurden gechoppt, falls sich jemand fragt..

allein

ilx - allein

dolly - ustillmissme (jawache ver)

wrk ethic - BHOP w/ wells, popstarbills, 8485, angelus, kid trash, afternoon, yung skrrt [Alice Gas]

prod @ddertbag and elxnce
remastered — September 2022
circa — June 2020
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/3te2X80sHvW4jf5LY6BVE4?si=2c5cab4b5b4d4003
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/in/song/1668687535

Angel

vocals, guitar, and prod all by me and @lil4c

art by @soyboysoleil on ig

https://open.spotify.com/track/7zGEA7KCNp6vvljV2vMR4F?si=sSHsx_FPToeXXFKDk8rnJw

WEAVER +lilac

prod @degenerate69 and @blackwinterwells
mixed by @blackwinterwells

there was a time once i thought i could be like you
you should have seen it
all of the meaning in all of what i can't do anymore

there was a time once that i believed in you
thought you would keep me safe from my weaknesses when i'd speak to you

burn it out in the sun alone
fix my body fix my soul
pour the fever from my pores
oh i'm better on my own
cause i know what i'm like on the inside
i should know the way i can make it right
but i don't and i'm warm and terrified
it just feels like a bad dream

and i don't know what's happening
and i don't know what happened to me
and i don't know how i can be clean again
think the dirt settled in way too deep
let it into the rest of me
and i give all the best of me too
i don't like what is left of me
i don't know what is left here to do

..and i don't know what happened to me
no i don't know what happened to me
there was a time once that i believed in you

snowblower in newark [cover album out now]

snowblower

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