This song has defined a whole entire season of my existence. Ive been barely holding onto my vitality the past 6 months, but the hurt, the hope, the pain, the joy this song bleeds... bringing me into the light of hope. Thank you for pushing through

I lost my mom 10 years ago. It was sudden and her and I hadn’t spoken in 8 months.  Our relationship was always tumultuous.  She, a narcissistic and raised me to appease her and tame her many moods.  She would publicly show her affection and praise and privately withhold love and care.  I never knew where I stood with her and she always made sure I knew I was dispensable.   
Even tho she was all these things and more, she was also a fierce woman who loved so many others.  She cared for the immigrants, the poor, the lonely.  She spoke 7 languages and never met a stranger. She carved her own path in a world that didn’t want her and she did, in her own way, teach me to be strong and to live with purpose.  Butterfly was written in an effort to celebrate her in an honest way.  I remember the day I wrote it.  It was at the very early stages of the pandemic and I was just uncovering the abuse I had suffered under her hands.  But I missed her so much.  I longed for her laughter and her skin and most of all her love.  
Love is messy and we all carry so much hurt that it’s difficult to love freely.  I know she did her best and I hold nothing but gratitude towards her, because in the end, she did teach me to spread my lil wings and to live life with purpose.  Butterfly is a celebration of what remains between us- nothing but love.

Butterfly

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For some, music is an inheritance. For others, a refuge, a keeper of memories, for expression and healing. For an artist like SO, music is all these things and more. In the midst of an upbringing that saw her living among a cult of fundamental evangelicals, escaping to America, being abandoned by her family, and suffering through multiple spinal surgeries... music was everything. It afforded SO a measure of control in a chaotic life, and allowed her an outlet for emotions she was years away from fully understanding. Her upcoming album is a long anticipated release in more than a single sense, with songs that carry a story unlike any other. If you are a person who marvels at the resilience of the human spirit, then it is time to let SO into your life.

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