I’ve been in pain for so long
It no longer shows
You smile, you laugh, but for me 
The rain falls and the wind blows
I lost my passion, lost my drive
Lost all that kept me alive
I am a walking body, life’s punching bag
I do not live, I survive
I feel empty and I don’t know why
Lost it all and for it all I cry
I stand awake, asleep from life
I no longer am mine

Cared for all and none for me
Tried saving all and none me
Saw it all, but still nobody saw me

One more day to stay in bed,
I just don’t wanna move
What’s the point of getting up if I just can’t be moved?
One more day of the numbness
Said I was tired of the pain
I lied, please bring it back
Better the pain than nothing

I have been cut open,
Though the blue line just stands still
She sees the bottom, but I can’t reach it
Pressing words won’t make ill
Nothing holds me to the pain, nothings takes it away
I see the word underneath a veil, I pray that its just one more day
Opened bottle and some pills
Cry away all I feel
The anger fades, no longer kills
Alarm clock rings, but is it real?

You don’t get it and o can’t explain
But I’ve stared at medusa’s eyes
I’ve been holding on for so long,
Oh, peace at last

One more day to stay in bed,
I just don’t wanna move
What’s the point of getting up if I just can’t be moved?
One more day of the numbness
Said I was tired of the pain
I lied, please bring it back
Better the pain than nothing

Sofia Lamelas