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Vocals/Production: Foreign Forest
Mix/Mastered by @thisistex
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Lyrics:

I’m trying my best
It’s not my fault you say it’s not enough
I gave you everything I had
And all you gave was up 
Don’t even hit me up
Acting like you give a fuck
You’re just like air
I see thru you when it’s said and done

I’m trying my best
It’s not my fault you say it’s not enough
I gave you everything I had
And all you gave was up 
Don’t even hit me up
Acting like you give a fuck
You’re just like air
I see thru you when it’s said and done

Need to breathe
Seems I’ve forgotten who I am
Without you next to me
Time will heal it all
At least that’s what they’re tellin me
Don’t need to die
I’m already burning in the hell in me
I'm fucked up
I hit you up cuz I need to know what's up
Will you change or should I let go
Or am I wasting time with my wasted mind
Saying things I shouldn’t say
Like come through tonight 

I’m trying my best
It’s not my fault you say it’s not enough
I gave you everything I had
And all you gave was up 
Don’t even hit me up
Acting like you give a fuck
You’re just like air
I see thru you when it’s said and done

I’m trying my best
It’s not my fault you say it’s not enough
I gave you everything I had
And all you gave was up 
Don’t even hit me up
Acting like you give a fuck
You’re just like air
I see thru you when it’s said and done

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Lyrics:

[Foreign Forest: Intro]
Feels like every time I blink
I see my insides burning, burning, burning
Feels like every time I blink
I see my insides burning, burning, burning

[Foreign Forest: Hook]
She hit me up 'cause she's seen me online
Baby, I'm fine, just a lot on my mind
Sendin' pictures back and forth
Even though I don't reply
Buyin' brand new shit
Even though I wanna die
But my heart's too big
I can't leave no one behind
So I accept I won't be fine
I get the money and double it twice
Just to get back thoughts out my mind
But it never works
Everybody dies but I'm tryin' to live first

[Foreign Forest: Verse]
Feels like every time I blink
I see my insides burning, burning, burning
Don't know how to ask for help
My brain's like a furnace, furnace, furnace
Picture perfect, Feel like I ain't worth shit
And my heart can only take so much
No one deserves it
I don't even want to go outside
I close the curtains
And I don't want to meet no one
'Cause I'm my favorite person

[33 Life: Verse]
Broke my heart three times
Now I'm feeling numb
Callin' me selfish
I don't want you, I just want these bands
Yeah I'm feelin' selfish
I was trippin' hard off an acid tablet,
Now you're callin' me a narcissist
Lost my best friend, ain't been the same since
All this shit is temporary
I'm a icy baby born in February
Amethyst up on me, keep them demons off me
Why you being loud, I got neighbors baby
So much ink up in my body
Gotta bring a bag out
I don't even love her, Ima blow her back out
Yeah he's what you need
I'm what you want right now
Yeah she from Milan
I took her to Midtown
Bitin' on my neck 
I watch the blood drip down

[Foreign Forest: Hook]
She hit me up 'cause she's seen me online
Baby, I'm fine, just a lot on my mind
Sendin' pictures back and forth
Even though I don't reply
Buyin' brand new shit
Even though I wanna die
But my heart's too big
I can't leave no one behind
So I accept I won't be fine
I get the money and double it twice
Just to get back thoughts out my mind
But it never works
Everybody dies but I'm tryin' to live first

Temporary ft. 33 Life (Prod. Splashgvng)

it’s not my fault it’s all because of ur stupid little elements, 
one day you mad at me the next day wanna  settle this, 
and I been counting hunnids ever since I was a little kid, 
I got money on my mind all the time, you want me back, 
I been spending most my time laying back smoking pack, 
baby I been on the grind I ain’t got time for that, 
baby you been on my mind always think of coming back,  

yea it’s love or drugs, gotta pick one cuz I can’t get enough, 
I choose the drugs cuz they pick me up I’m stuck, 
I love this shit I wanna live, it’s my life I give, 

you wanna let me go but you know that you would get so sick of this, 
and now ur feeling lonely fiending for that one last little kiss, 
and this the way it had to go someone had to go get rid of it,  
and now I’m chasing for that dream, no bitches here keep listening

elements. [noevdv]

deep october - dashboard (hurtclub flip)

LEAH WAS A DIVER (prod. Hurtclub)

situationship

don't want this to end

https://evangelion.fandom.com/wiki/Shinji_Ikari
https://knowyourmeme.com/memes/subcultures/goldeneye-007
https://knowyourmeme.com/memes/carl
https://quake.fandom.com/wiki/Quake

TELNU - SHINI EMO PLAYS (Mech Melancholy Version) Lyrics:

(Chorus)
Emote, not stingy ugh
They say a young boy movin like Shinji (yuhhh)
Emotion's on me like my chi
(high chi)
TELNU to the top that's Royale (Royale)
Your girl wanna buffet that's coral
Had to fish her out my bed, she golden
007 hold my pistol, its golden (ugh)
007 hold my pistol, its golden (golden)
007 hold my pistol, its golden (golden)

(Verse 1)
HUH YUHHH! call me Shinji! My emotions thin like tea leaves
Some might call it cringey, with my feels I'm not stingy!
Spent all my life hurting, hurting, hurting, hurting
Countless days up at night wondering if I'm worth it, worth it, worth it, (UHH)
Depression coiled around me like a serpent 
Hug me mommy I need some nurturing yeah yeah
I Break like glass, I break down fast!
Negativity really makes me rubber band, really makes me lag
Maybe tremble, maybe shake, I'm hurt down deep, its quake
You're an alien to me, hide your face (hide your face)
If we're not on the same frequency, get on I waved!

(Verse 2)
My default is heart open on an average day
I dig deep and discuss my pains away
You think it's lame okay? Then get gone on horseback!
Snorlax! I like to eat, sleep, and fuck shit up, check my pokedex (ha yuhhhh)
Walk around in my mech suit to protect me from harm
Shinji emotions on my sleeve, shenjutsu ninja feeling storm
My heart is hurting, body slowin
Time warping, my health meter lowering
Need a recharge like my battery was stolen
Lemme, lemme check my bag hope I got a potion
Hand me some duct tape I think my heart is broken
They say you can see it on my face, for connection hoping 
(hoping)

(Chorus)
(Emote) Emote, not stingy ugh
They say a young boy movin like Shinji (yuhhh)
Emotion's on me like my chi
(high chi)
TELNU to the top that's Royale (Royale)
Your girl wanna buffet that's coral
Had to fish her out my bed, she golden
007 hold my pistol, its golden (ugh)
007 hold my pistol, its golden (golden)
007 hold my pistol, its golden (golden)

(Verse 3)
Yo I'm just tryna reach out but between us is ocean
Dolphin cries scream out, in a pond of tears I'm floating
There be gators beneath me and I barely noticed
I been walking with a lean because the chats are one sided, unfocused
I'm a bender from the future but I bend emotion
TELNU a soft man that's what they quoting
Never afraid to open up, I’m harmonized and floating
Hoping my my songs can anime heal someone
If you’re a starseed like me, go ahead and project something!

(Verse 4)
Sending my blessing down on y'all, mental lights incoming
been a guardian of my friends before I received my traveler's light
Now my tracks are cooking up in the crucible, aside me a ghost in flight
About to pop up on these gamers at the next right
Fully loaded with M11 you’re in danger right
That Cashout is mine alright? (Overdogs!)
Use my goo gun then you're done! Scaling buildings as heavy just for fun!
I can weep and emote when I'm top rank
TELNU number one!

007 hold my pistol, its GOLDEN (ugh)
007 hold my pistol, its GOLDEN (golden)
007 hold my pistol, its GOLDEN (ugh)
007 hold my pistol, its GOLDEN (golden)

(Can you believe it, Scotty?!)

SHINJI EMO PLAYS (Mech Melancholy Version)

mixed by me

1 man, 1 car
2 poles in the lot
3 spots bled my mind
for lies, i was blind
1 man, 1 sign
2 lives that i got
3 lines i crossed
no more, my God
i’m tired, i’ve cried, i’ve tried
to forgive myself and all the ones that left me
man i could tell he was tryna test me
i pray my health stays away from deadly
i pray that hell, i never see, don’t let me
if he meant me well, then why the hell would he press me
what i’d never tell, i do my best at forgetting
i used to think
i ain’t deserve to be saved
i had done some things
i never wanted to say
i would try to drink
sometimes to numb the pain
and it would never work
so i’m just stuck in my ways
now i find pleasure in hurt
God, i’m a man of my word
know i’m a sinner since birth
but i don’t sin in the church
i love my sister, it hurts
to know she seen me at worst
to see me down that bad
at least it wasn’t a hearse
and as my momma said
i been had truth in my heart
my wretched soul, i bled
with all the bruises and scars
so if you want me dead
then aim for the heart
and prove i’m here to stay
cuz you ain’t all that hard
a miracle if i’ve ever seen
my spirit bound to be heavenenly
i almost couldn’t do anything
i almost went and lost everything
how i avoid to keep death with me?
how i’m gon crash and hit 70?
back in july, how unsure was me?
i got the sign most don’t get to see

1 man, 1 car
2 poles in the lot
3 spots bled my mind
for lies, i was blind
1 man, 1 sign
2 lives that i got
3 lines i crossed
no more, my God

Spotify+Apple #27

𝐓𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐄 (𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐃. 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐈 𝐕𝐄𝐆𝐀)

mixed by me

those gates, i headed
they tried to make me deaded
they tried to make me get in
club 27
see all the cuts they branded
and all the hits they landed
they try to get me lackin
but my life demanded my soul, my heart
god knows my part, knows sol is art
control my guard, i hold my scars
i fucked up, guilt trip to the stars
don’t fuck up now, this my restart
they fucked up, i blame all of y’all
all that want me gone
fuck, i face the truth, it’s still my fault

i had fractured couple bones but i ain’t break the shit
they ain’t have a fuckin life so they gon play with it
all the damage i had done i keep it dangerous now
i had macked a couple hoes but i ain’t stay with it
seein love fake as shit
i know they wanna say this shit
“rip, condolences to sol’s fam, chink muhfucka, can’t believe i saw him take my bitch”
man all the shit i’d never wish on anyone 
they had wished on me
trip me on the come up
and make me apart of history
crazy how a family member
shady as the industry
crazy, what sometimes i used to hate
is now a gift to me
sabotaged a prodigy
sabotaged by many fake bitches, no apology
and i ain’t talkin women when i mention bitches properly
they fuckin up my vision just to try to put a stop to me
a God? man, there’s gotta be
i triple the 3s
i got an angel of soldiers
i don’t know my reason to be
but i feel i’m yet to show it
to think i have nothin to lose
you gotta be far from sober
i know that i’m still yet to prove
before it’s all over

those gates, i headed
they tried to make me deaded
they tried to make me get in
club 27
see all the cuts they branded
and all the hits they landed
they try to get me lackin
but my life demanded my soul, my heart
god knows my part, knows sol is art
control my guard, i hold my scars
i fucked up, guilt trip to the stars
don’t fuck up now, this my restart
they fucked up, i blame all of y’all
all that want me gone
fuck, i face the truth, it’s still my fault

𝐂𝐋𝐔𝐁 𝟐𝟕 (𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐃. 𝐒𝐇𝐗𝐑𝐊𝐙, 𝐂𝐗𝐃𝐘, 𝐅𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐊𝐈𝐄)

mixed by me

now it’s the fall out
they seen me fall down
i stay up, ain’t gon change, ain’t gon crawl out
now i go all out
i seen a lot now
been thru hell, tell you i seen it all now, oh
no lie, they seen me die they seen me rise
oh i, i seen him die he’s in the sky

ain’t wanna live when times was rough
now what can i not overcome
now when new problems are to come
when it’s problem after problem
who gon solve em? i look up
ion know who know me more
who do i go before?
ion even know myself
i just pray to God i get my award
i could never go back
last days are my past
do that, i go bad
if i do that, i won’t last
too many stabbed me in the back
fuck my cousin, he just do it for a bag
motherfucker killed me for his act
when i thought family’s all i had
and that’s my biggest issue with trust
at least that motherfucker ain’t blood
he made me bleed, i love my blood bitch

𝐅𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐎𝐔𝐓 (𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐃. 𝐅𝐈𝐒𝐇)

i was originally gonna drop this as like a 4 song EP but i think its better if its just all together so here it is. this song is as SEBii as it get lol, super raw just me rapping n stuff

a self portrait of my EGO {p. sebii}

dolly + alice + angelus - leg room [prod. dolly + alice]

ur love is so disarming
u never mean to harm me
u can't fix every sorry
then feel different in the morning

u have to let me go
I try to let u know
like falling in the snow
and ill sink if I don't grow

is this just growing up
I never feel enough
I miss u I miss u I miss u x2

living in slow motion
ur words hostile and coaxing
I promise u dnt know me
suffocate me so I'm choking

I can't let go of me
my phone so hard to reach
I don't know how to leave
ive forgotten how to breath

<3

prod lil soda boi

growing up

TWILIGHT SKIT!

linktr.ee/soljay

𝐋𝐀'𝐒 𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐓~

𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐂 𝐃𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐆𝐍𝐄𝐑
𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄
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𝐚𝐤𝐚 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆

I'm sti11 very much real.
I'm sti11 very much human.
I'm sti11 very much sharing, my experiences,
by assembling and publicly posting, mixes.

𝐓𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐄 (𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐃. 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐈 𝐕𝐄𝐆𝐀)

𝐒𝐨𝐥 𝐉𝐚𝐲 (@𝟏𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐣𝐚𝐲)

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