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Yr Breaking My Linzer Heart

By Garrett Haran – Søul Søap

Lyrics

Guitar, you’ve gotta weep for me
Just do it slowly, please
’Cause she mounted my heart on a string
And she put it in a box
Tied with red and white string that she got from the bakery
Filled with those Italian jelly cookies
Now the feeling I get inside when we speak
Is crumbly and sticky and sweet
And slippery with hot fresh blood.

So guitar, you’ve gotta speak for me
’Cause I’m on a losing streak
Be honest with me and for me
Molly, you know I don’t have the strength to be.

It’s hard to explain but it’s not you and it’s not me
Yeah maybe it’s hard to believe
But it’s not you and it’s definitely not me.

So guitar, you’ve gotta pray for me
Won’t you lean down and hear my plea?
Ganesha has many hands
And he holds my past and some hope for a future in them
But all twenty fingers are strangling me.

Life’s getting so bad that I can hardly breathe
But I can get outta my mind for a while at least
With these drugs that are taken with ease
Or I could soak every tissue in alcohol
Till my brain is swimming and I go blind with relief...
Trust me, I’m that thirsty.

But I don’t wanna end up in a shallow grave
At the unripened age of twenty
What a tragedy that would be.

Notes
This song is basically the thesis statement behind what was going on with me when I was writing the bulk of the Soul Soap One songs.

At its core, Søul Søap began as a way for me to feel catharsis through songwriting. As much as I thought it was cool to play guitar, it was always about feeling comforted. I would listen to Bright Eyes records all the time and scream along to them like those lyrics were my lyrics, like those feelings were my feelings too.

The song explores my feelings of betrayal and wanting to escape a relationship I was in at the time.

Linzer Heart was born from a meditation: me alone in my bedroom at 18, feverishly strumming C chord after C chord until a trance took over.
“Guitar, guitar, guitar, guitar… you’ve gotta speak for me.”
“You’ve gotta weep for me.”
“You’ve gotta pray for me.”

I was offering it all up. Everything too much for me to handle alone, I made a covenant with the music to take it off my chest. Please! For the love of God! Purge me of emotions too big for my teenage heart.

The Linzer tart was the perfect stand-in for my heart. At Sweet Hollow Diner — where I spent late nights with friends in my teens — I also met up with my high school girlfriend. The diner sold massive cookies, heart-shaped and sandwiched around raspberry jam, with a window showing the gooey insides. Powdered sugar coated the outside. They were delicious but a mess — “crumbly and sticky and sweet,” the perfect metaphor for the way our young love was taking shape. I bought her one on our first date, and again as an anniversary gift.

(Yr Breaking My) Linzer Heart

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Søul Søap is doomy garage rock with a slacker grin — indie heartache tangled in fuzz, folk melodies buried in noise. The sound of thunder and driving rain rolling in through the window you left open in the  basement. It’s intricately messy (the way a silk web is when you give a spider caffeine),  raw, and strangely tender.

(Yr Breaking My) Linzer Heart

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