sisyphus slips

birth certificate in a paper shredder / throwing away a garbage can

i will not make the same mistakes as my father
leaving on a ship with no name and no answer
you are only running because you want me to chase you
you are pushing me away to see if i really need you

giving up is in my blood
but blood is not all that's in my heart
your laugh runs through my veins
so how can i live if we're apart?
the snake that is your tongue
tells jokes from a house of cards
like this is the end, we burnt out
you've always been funny from the start

as if you really mean it
as if you're really saying

this became a lie
was once alive
but became a lie

i will not make the same mistakes as my father
leaving on a ship with no name and no answer
you are only running because you want me to chase you
you are pushing me away to see if i really need you

walking with broken feet

to sell one's spine

the color red
a fever
for want of injury
they do not disappear when eyes shut
they offer false cures
they are empty yet still there
a chalice daring to be filled

this is the shadow you've chosen
mirrored as how you look 
when no one is looking back
the darkness in you sleeps next to you
when the lights are out around you
you do not notice it, you swim in it
shadows don't go away when the light does

sometimes it is good to remember it is there
but it is better to remember
you can never drink from a chalice
with no bottom
you cannot fight fire with fire
excuse me as i burn myself

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