Did this for Kimberly Clarete's concert piece (Idk its technical term!)at NYU this May 2017. Best of luck, Kim! I'm excited to see the result in its entirety! 

For this piece, I researched on the stages of grief and loss, pursuant to the painting you showed me. I don't know if it's credible but it made sense to me so I went with my gut. So here it goes! 
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The stages of grief and loss include the following stages. 
1. Denial and Isolation
2. Anger
3. Bargaining 
4. Depression
5. Acceptance

I created a home tune. This symbolizes the pain of losing someone. It's actually a recurring theme in the piece. I go back to the home tune every after phase because I feel that said pain never goes away. It's always there, although I go through the different phases but it somewhat changes or evolves to something different. Not that it becomes better, I just learn how to carry it with me everyday. 

1. Denial & Isolation - After hearing the home tune/ theme, you will hear a verse of some sort. It ends with staccatos which symbolizes isolation quite literally. Then it goes back to the theme. 
2. Anger - This part contains the highest pitch of the whole piece. I placed it there because this is when my voice normally goes up- when I'm mad and frustrated about something or someone. It stops abruptly because sometimes, I'm like that. I force myself to stop this rush of emotions, to control the anger and try to self-soothe. I go back to the theme. I realize that it's just that I haven't recovered from it yet. This is why I'm angry. So I go back to the source of pain. Theme ends softly because I am ashamed of how easily I can be triggered to feel so much anger, to be out of control. 
3. Bargaining - There's a repeat of melody at the start of this part. The first one is the offer, the second one (with voicing) is the counteroffer/ response. I get my hopes up but it spirals downward and fast. I go back to the theme. It's a familiar feeling, I am back to phase 1. 
4. Depression - It starts with a slide from a higher note to a lower one, almost sounding bored. I feel like I am in a cycle. Why can't I get out of this? I am tired. It's a bit slower than the other stages because I feel like I can be stuck here forever. Everything feels so repetitive and I don't know how to get out, I don't know if I even can. Why am I feeling this way? Oh it's because of the same pain. When will this end? I keep on going back to.. theme again.
5. Acceptance - Shortest of all stages. The end of the journey. Finally, I've reached the stage of not going back again. No relapses. 

You can also notice that everything started from a humming sound, "mmm" to "oohhh" to "darararara". The opening of the mouth symbolizes the level of freedom. You are restricted at first. Trying your best to feel more free as the piece progresses. And finally, you reach that level of opening up that's why you can hear the "a" sound during the last measures.

Ma. Ivana F. Callangan's Album

Loss

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Quasi-full cover for "KimberOke", a karaoke-themed birthday greeting for one of my besties, Kimly! 
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Hi Kimb! I know how you absolutely love this song that's why I chose it despite the extreme discrepancy between the high and low tones. Phew! I only wish I could've recorded it with Jane though (who is so amazing on the piano, please tell her!) so it's even more special. I hope one day we can all just collaborate on something creative together!

Bee Gees - How Deep Is Your Love (Cover by Ivana Callangan)

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