I get irrationally upset
When you won't come into my bed
But I do it because I like you
I'll be your chauffeur and I will drive you

I like the way your palms always sweat
Like you're taking a high school test
I wanna fall in love with you
It's been two weeks, that'll do

You make me the type of nervous where I don't want to eat
And all my friends know
That's not where my nerves go
That's not where my nerves go
That's not where my nerves go

And I'm recording an album about heartache as I begin to fall into love
And I'm recording these songs about loneliness, but I'm looking down on it from above
I am content
And I'm on the mend
It's just around the bend
You're the means and you're the end
I played the game
I stood out in the rain
But you took all the pain and you kissed it away

Almost five full years of shit brought me straight into your lips
I've got a list of awkward hugs
I've got a pile of dirty mugs
You remember everything I say
When I forget it the next day
Crawl in at 2am with me
In the morning we'll have tea

You make me the type of lazy where I forget to brush my teeth
And all my friends know
That's hard for me to let go
That's hard for me to let go
That's hard for me to let go

And I'm recording an album about heartache as I begin to fall into love
And I'm recording these songs about loneliness, but I'm looking down on it from above
I am content
And I'm on the mend
It's just around the bend
You're the means and you're the end
I played the game
I stood out in the rain
But you took all the pain and you kissed it away

And I am waiting, holding on to every breath you take
And I am scared shitless 'cause I don't know what kind of life you want to make
I'm anticipating losing all of this in a day
If you do break me
I'll try to fake it and I'll support you, babe

Now I am writing an album about heartache as I begin to fall out of love
And I am writing these songs about loneliness, as I'm crashing into it like a truck
But I'll be content
And I will mend
The things that you broke when I thought you were my friend
I'll get back in the game
If it's shine or if it's rain
And I'll take all my pain and I'll kiss it away

Almost two full years of bliss brought me straight back to this shit
I've got a list of awkward hugs
I've got a pile of dirty mugs

Dirty Mugs

Artwork by Vladimir Kush

Written 18 years ago.... is what I'll say in ten years.

I’ve been an addict all my life long
to games I can’t win and puzzles I can’t solve
It’s been some kind of sick fascination
to find myself in impossible situations 
-
and this one is one of those
I’m a deep sea fish reaching for a desert rose
I’m a parking lot, hoping that a garden grows
I’m me and you’re you and my only way through is to divide by zero

you don’t like me much but I promise you this
if you knew me better you’d like me even less
If you could see what goes on in my thoughts
I think you’d personally lead the firing squad

but even though I wouldn’t agree
I’m so flawed, I’d assume I deserve it for something
this song just needs to be worthy of suffering 
I just want you to want something you can’t get anywhere except from me

It puts me out of sorts, but I think you’re my twin
and I ought to sue you for copyright infringement
but i’m sure at the court you’d have this winning defense:
my best is your ground floor, you do all I do and more, you’re improved at the core, so I’d best be out the door, with my obsolescence 
-
but you don’t know the thing you’ve offered
for a minute my sadness has an object
before this it hung shapeless as fog upon me
Now it’s fenced in a daydream that I can keep and smother by slow degrees
(And I guess you'd call that "sorrow laundering")

so even if it’s been in your mind
and even if there were enough time
and even if it’s true, what I swear I have seen
what you’d have to do would split you at the seams
-
it’d never be worth the risk
a dream gambled for so much less
just come clean, a daydream is all this is
some scene, from a movie we probably all saw as stupid kids

I’m sure you can tell most of this is an act
It can all go to hell, as a matter of fact
If I even thought this one could be solved
If I even thought the words could be carved
If I even thought I had something you want 
I’d ruin my life for those lottery odds.

Sorrow Laundering (Acoustic Demo)

Act I: The Call & The Walk marks the beginning of the journey in The Burden & The Fire saga. Blending Celtic folk melodies, acoustic textures, and a melancholic yet hopeful atmosphere, this EP captures the emotional weight of leaving home, facing the unknown, and carrying a burden far greater than oneself. Perfect for listeners who appreciate cinematic storytelling.

2. Burden of Gold

A song written camping at Dwellingup with the red tail cockatoos soaring above me,  swimming in the beautiful river: a song about listening to the signs that we see along the way, and the words that people say..

Listen to the Signs

Kites

Intro is from 1946 film ‘Its a wonderful life’

V1:
I saw a shadow in the rain
It spoke to me
It wore your voice and knew my name
Never to leave

PC:
Try to see things from my side
How much I put on the line
I don’t think that you noticed
Doesn’t matter either way
What I do nor what I say
It never did 

C1:
Said it’s pulling me in 
I will let down
Everything you love
Until I’m not around
Don’t step in my direction
Coz all I’ve ever found
Is how to make you bleed from shutting you out

Bridge:
Give me something to burn

V2:
I run but when it rains it pours
Are you surprised 
She hides the clock beneath the floor (8)
I lose the time

PC:
Try to see things from my side
How much I put on the line
Have you ever noticed 
Seems not to matter either way
What I do nor what I say
It never did 

C2:
Said it’s pulling me in 
I will let down
Everything you love
Until I’m not around
Don’t step in my direction
All I’ve ever found
Is how to make you bleed from shutting you out

Said it’s pulling me in 
I will let down
Everything you love
Until I’m not around
Don’t step in my direction
All I’ve ever found
Is how to make you bleed from shutting you out

Give me something to burn

Burn

Text:
[Verse]
He died in a rocket crash on Mars
They gave me his military records
And I saw my name
He had a secret family with me

[Verse]
They brought his body back to Earth
I opened the casket and
I saw his face
He had a secret family with me

(Instrumental-Part)

[Chorus]
I want to love you for a long time
I want to see your face
You are the most important thing to me
And I love you

[Bridge]
He was already married
He had a son and a daughter
He was in the Air Force
I thought he was in the Army
He had a secret family with me

(Solo)

[Verse]
His body was on display in an open casket
His parents asked me not to come
But I couldn't miss it
He had a secret family with me

[Verse]
I saw his wife at the funeral
She looked just like me
They all thought it was a coincidence
He had a secret family with me

My Secret Family

So, Mi Amor

Mk.37

Nog ’n kalender word op die hoop gegooi,
Tyd draai sy arm asof dit waai en nooi.

Ver oor verlore paaie dwaal ek en jy saam,
Hand in hand, my sielsgenoot, maar ek ken nog nie jou naam.
Sirkels in die gedagtegang verlei my na die boos,
Van kinderjare en grootmensgoed, van passie en van troos.

Vergete skadu’s val nou teen die muur,
Faal figure, strek by elke uur.

Ver oor verlore paaie dwaal ek en jy saam,
Hand in hand, my sielsgenoot, maar ek ken nog nie jou naam.
Sirkels in die gedagtegang verlei my na die boos,
Van kinderjare en grootmensgoed, van passie en van troos.

Onthou jy nog die dae
Ek en jy was altyd saam,
Maar die afgelope jare
Kom ek nie meer aan jou naam.

Die son verduister, verdwyn tot ’n donker nag,
Stilte fluister, soos ’n laksman wat vir jou wag.

Ver oor verlore paaie dwaal ek en jy saam,
Hand in hand, my sielsgenoot, maar ek ken nog nie jou naam.
Sirkels in die gedagtegang verlei my na die boos,
Van kinderjare en grootmensgoed, van passie en van troos.

Ver oor verlore paaie dwaal ek en jy saam,
Hand in hand, my sielsgenoot, maar ek ken nog nie jou naam.
Sirkels in die gedagtegang verlei my na die boos,
Van kinderjare en grootmensgoed, van passie en van troos.

Kalender

FR |
Fragments est né de mes propres enregistrements et textes, accumulés au fil des années, comme autant d’échos de ma vie. Chaque chanson témoigne d’un passage — peines d’amour, quête de soi, acceptation de ma différence — où la création a été un refuge et un moteur. Aujourd’hui, ces fragments intimes sont réinventés grâce à l’intelligence artificielle et je peux réaliser le rêve de les partager.

EN |
Fragments was born from my own recordings and writings, collected over the years as echoes of my life. Each song reflects a passage — heartbreak, self-discovery, embracing my difference — where creation became both a refuge and a driving force. Today, these intimate fragments are reimagined through artificial intelligence, allowing me to fulfill the dream of finally sharing them.



As I am

Mother, Singer -Songwriter, Celebrant, Teaching artist, and EDM vocalist. 
Currently working on new songs, an album with poet, Jaya Penelope and Si Mullumby on Didgeridoo.
Previous releases - "Love has come again" Renaissance label UK 2000,       Blood Moon with Catalyst, Armada 2017, 
 The Boy who walks between two worlds with Danny Stubbs--Perfecto 2018.
Album "Untie me",   with Holmes Ives USA 2005.
Debut solo album - Trust 1998
Dive - Paris 2000,  Recorded at Real World UK / BMG France
 7 Solo albums/ eps on Bandcamp 2001- 2024

Listen to the Signs

sophiemoleta/satya

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