Loss::Forgiveness

prod: ross gossage

you tell me that you miss me
yeah you tell me im the one
you tell me that you're sorry
oh you tell me that you're done

i tell you that im here
yeah you know that i will be there
whenever you call you know id answer
cause I care

fucked up on my own
we could never fix this
waste my time
you love
you could never stay and
my heart is broken
shattered on the floor when
the hurricane comes through
there aint nothing left love

got a bad bitch
on my arm too
but she knows that
i love you
yeah its alright
cause its done right
cause we left that
in the summer time
had those long nights
them fun nights
with the candle light
under the moon right
yeah its alright
to let go of
all those memories

you tell me that you miss me
yeah you tell me im the one
you tell me that you're sorry
oh you tell me that you're done

i tell you that im here
yeah you know that i will be there
whenever you call you know id answer
cause I care

Missing You!

Pills

prod: myself

verse1 :

its alright
we know that
its done for 
long gone

too much
on my mind
i hear your voice love

cant feel again i know
too much then its overdose
dont wanna let you go
dont  wanna let you go

chorus:
love im gone
in misery
let it all go
let it fade
there's a better fate for me
im done
giving in
to what I think 
not the one
im looking for
cause that feelings gone
there aint nothing else

i've been down
more than you could see
tried my best
i tried my best
with a heart attack
there's nothing left
i can't let go
that the feelings gone
heartbroken
we let go of
all we got
it's not enough

verse 2:
let it go right
burn me down fine
dont apologize when you're not alright
i wont hold on
i wont come back
 i wont let you know
that you're on my mind
hold on too
don't let go
let the fire burn slow till its over
overrated
i feel low
knowing that you were not the one

down and down
fell apart
tore my heart down
broke again
when you say you're sorry
its pretend
this ship is sinking
slowly fading
you werent in it
you cant save this
let it go now
let it fall
its over now
its over

Misery

9 Missed Calls

Fake Love (Prod. BoyFifty)

Wont Let It Go

WAKEUP (prod. akassshhhiii)

Doomsday!

Float On (prod. jang0)

DEVIL

Glass Bridges

Satellites

She Was Never Mine

Ghosts

tell me would you
fade away from
all that you are?

leave behind
all the secrets
you love in the dark

bitter times
simple times
oh so happy inside

watch your spirit rise
as you say goodbye

better off
somewhere else
far from here
livin in my own hell

rotten minds
all think alike
counting the days
until my demise

would you love your life
if i lose my mind
all over your lies
not once
not twice

she's gone
yet again
its deserved this time
im a mess
im a wreck
im not full of life

when the sun
starts to fade
will you be at my masquerade?

dance with me
for a night
fall in love at the sight

HEATWAVE

better off
somewhere else
far from here
livin in my own hell

rotten minds
all think alike
counting the days
until my demise


Better Off Somewhere Else

Dead Inside

Let Me Go

[lyrics]

decide
no trust
your mind
so lost
oh just fall in love?
was i not enough?

i hate to say it
but you're feeling off
what a pretty life
when you're giving up

you're a product of the lies
all the screaming in your mind
will you ever come back where you belong friend?

i dont want to watch you cry
we're all a little broke inside
will you ever say it wasn't meant to be like this?

this days haunting, cold and
tell me where im at?
slam the fucking door
on my face as i pass out again

im feeling lonely,
won't you hold my hand?
you dont fucking need me
slit my throat and watch me die again

you're a product of the lies
all the screaming in your mind
will you ever come back where you belong friend?

i dont want to watch you cry
we're all a little broke inside
will you ever say it wasn't meant to be like this?

you're a product of the lies
all the screaming in your mind
will you ever come back where you belong friend?

i dont want to watch you cry
we're all a little broke inside
will you ever say it wasn't meant to be like this?

dear god, not today
id waste my time if i thought to pray
i took a look up at the sky 
what a sight, many shades of life

heat lightning in the air tonight
oh dear god what an amazing sight
wish some day it could take my life
yet too many eyes will start to cry



Product of the Lies

bloody vacant signs inside
hear her voice inside my mind
but i wont wait
but i wont wait

ive lost her once before i know
still feel her inside of my bones
but i wont wait
but i wont wait

one step friend
tell them how they can help you make this end
your beginnings
coming now
but you really need a hand

lost visions
simple things in life
they come and go

maybe one day
you'll see them again
you never know

you never know
you never know
you never know
you never know

bloody vacant signs inside
hear her voice inside my mind
but i wont wait
but i wont wait

ive lost her once before i know
still feel her inside of my bones
but i wont wait
but i wont wait

Vacancy in Room 415

close your eyes
imagine a better life

you've been torn
but you dont have to be alone

i would wait for you
show you how to love

hold you close
show you how to trust 

just wait up
for a better life

one you love
until the end of time

just wait up
for a better life

one you love
until the end of time  

Better Life

Summer Girl

i dont really understand
how did we fade so far from the plan?
two nights thinking this is it?
was it all really just a game instead?

you said
your heart would break just at the thought
your tears roll down losing what you loved
memories dont matter when you just give up

so i know
im not all that you want
come back only when you need me
just to leave like you always do again

so i know
im not all that you want
come back only when you need me
just to leave like you always do again

a dreamer
i wont watch you fall again
too much she wont understand
is this where you went wrong?

when will the pain end?
i cant let you go
where did we both go so wrong?
i want the old you back again

gray sky
no hope
your minds been wandering
asking for how long?
   
why choose
this path?
is this how you always wanted this to end

so i know
im not all that you want
come back only when you need me
just to leave like you always do again

so i know
im not all that you want
come back only when you need me
just to leave like you always do again

a dreamer
i wont watch you fall again
too much she wont understand
is this where you went wrong?

when will the pain end?
i cant let you go
where did we both go so wrong?
i want the old you back again


Leave Him

you hate the chase
yet love the pain
of all the hears you broke

down all yours pills
hope you never feel
all the pain you caused

mindless drones trapped inside
i hate that you're all too alike
you need some help to just decide
the breaking point inside of your life


finding lies
and finding lines
i thought you'd never cross

you hate that you
just had to try
so you just gave it up

whats the point after all
you cant mix love and lust
thats wrong
not another "you're too much"
so what's it like to fall in love?

dancing in my room
with a song on replay
im watching the fan go around
to keep myself sane
its hard to stay awake
when it sounds just like rain
is this what its like
when you're mentally drained?

i want you out my brain
i want you out my brain
i want you out my brain

you wasted all
your whole damn life
chasing what you dont like

all of those times
that you had lied
was it worth what you lost?

you're just a maze
some labyrinth right?
i cant think straight at all

i'm right, im wrong
im cursed, it's fine
it hurts to die inside

im not okay
im not alright
im getting drunk tonight
finding something
just to do
to never think of you

whats the point after all
you cant mix love and lust
thats wrong
not another "you're too much"
so what's it like to fall in love?


Ceiling Fans

hearts ache
is it too late?
do we regret just where we are?

too late?
we're falling?
do you think we'll ever drift apart?

my minds racing
thoughts stay
im hardly all that you could want

the mistakes
we all make 
it makes it hard to right our wrongs

like stars above we're both just dying slowly
the two of us were meant to fall in love
a life we never thought could have existed
we both regret it
and this is how we are

like stars above we're both just dying slowly
i wont give up if you can save us now
our minds are different but we feel like we're only
half the distance we need to fall in love

dont stay
dont stay
its all inside your head
mistakes
we made
is it now our time again?
to fall?
to fade?
will you forget me again?
just a memory?
oh how it's eating me alive

to fade
we'll fall
oh to have you in my arms

our souls
apart
could we merge to save ourselves?

our minds
so numb
but we've got each other now

our souls
combined
is it time for us to love?





Run Away

days ending
i cant get back up
depressed at the thought of losing us
one day ill make it all back up
but for now im stuck in a cycle of loss

i am not strong enough for us right now
dismembered at the thought of the sound
arrogance in love
another tragic loss
so im sorry love

i dont know
where i belong again
im trapped inside this home
dotting deep down in my core
i just need a sign of hope

you dont mind this now
two steps late, its not our time i know
guess im what you want?
far too gone ive lost myself
its hard
to find
something
so similar

racing thoughts
and wasted time
fucking drinking all the time
i wanted nothing
nothing more
but some fucking peace and a little hope
ill never know where i went wrong
just to justify
the problems of
a literal life
i despise too much

minds racing
minds a mess
i told you that id try my best
all loss
feeling that you're all alone
still hate that you fucked it up before
no time
still love
hard to say
whats lost
you dont mind it now
im gone




C O R E

you know that im so numb inside
i hate myself so god damn much
im running low on serotonin
need a sign, an overdose where

i can feel oh so alive
to find a way to take my life
im running low on serotonin
need a way to get it high again

tell me would you wait?
tell me could you understand?
could i really figure out
why this had to end?
now im all inside my head
looking for a sign instead
trynna find a way
that i could play pretend

with all the thoughts i have
im feeling better off dead
i dont like the silence
dont like the dread
im getting cold instead
another miserable night
of feeling alone again

you know that im so numb inside
i hate myself so god damn much
im running low on serotonin
need a sign, an overdose where

i can feel oh so alive
to find a way to take my life
im running low on serotonin
need a way to get it high again

sometimes i wish that I was wrong
two steps back at the corner of
the wrong turn, right place
was it always us?
in the shadows, a noise you never made up

living in fear
wish it could have been love
falling down
im falling down
at the thought of
hearts breaking
is it worth saving?
too late too late to let it go

you know that im so numb inside
i hate myself so god damn much
im running low on serotonin
need a sign, an overdose where

i can feel oh so alive
to find a way to take my life
running low on serotonin
need a way to get it high again

Serotonin

you're so broken
told me what you like
red roses
and daises growing high
she just wants to be loved  

shes heartbroken
depressed
she wants to cry
no more hope
and no more will to try
she just wants to die

she takes her pills
and sleeps her life away
no remorse
just another saturday
is this what you call life?

she'll find out one way
just a chance
to fall in love
yeah that's the plan
oh girl
i hope it works out

did you get the daisies
i had to sent
to help you find yourself again
and i hope
i hope
i hope
it truly works out

did you find the life you were looking for
the one to cherish and hold so close
and im sorry
that we never worked things out

Daisies

die.

full of life

damn, i guess this time it's really not right
two lies, feel alive
saw the truth like

damn demise
called your bluff what the fuck, yikes?
you don't mind what you are, hate your own life

can't pretend that you love, what you thought you are
you don't mind what you've got, yet you lost it all
just a fucked up vision of what you thought you were
and when the time comes you know that you're bound to fall

what a beautiful life that you get to live
a fucked up drunk, an ending you cant stand
no its alright
now its alright
now its alright
hating your own life

what a beautiful life that you get to live
another day wasted just to not exist
no its alright
now its alright
now its alright
hating your own life

so pressured, overwhelming
time wasted yet its all we'll have
sick minded, lost inside your head
was it worth losing your own friend?

time wasted yet its all we'll have
was it worth losing your only friend?
but its alright
but its alright
but its alright
hating my own life

what a beautiful life that you get to live
a fucked up drunk, an ending you cant stand
no its alright
now its alright
now its alright
hating your own life

what a beautiful life that you get to live
another day wasted just to not exist
no its alright
now its alright
now its alright
hating your own life

no its alright
now its alright
now its alright
hating your own life

what a beautiful life that you get to live
a fucked up drunk, an ending you cant stand
no its alright
now its alright
now its alright
hating your own life

beautiful life!

death, desire, novocaine

L O S T (Prod. Malloy)

Lust

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prod. ross gosage

My Heart (Toxic)

lil bitch
broke my heart
said she dont wanna feel no more
alone
on my own yeah
swear that is made of gold
i know
i don't want to start this
saying that you'd stay
but now ur walking out the door

im afraid 
of the love
of the pain
oh its bound to hit
i know
that its hard
just to stay
when you're giving it your all
when you're giving it your all

im afraid
of the drugs
that you take
on a daily basis
oh yeah
I love when you're here
when you stay
but you dont
yeah you get around
around

Sop

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