this song came from a really crazy and angry place, and it just felt right to have @starflye on it :)

produced, mixed, mastered by me
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get up at noon, and feel like shit 
why do my friends treat me like this, like this 
sick and tired of fueling the fire, i'm too sensitive to fight it 
fall asleep at 6 in the morning 
why don't i get any warning
give and take my happiness away but i guess it's not that important 

where did we go? most friends they grow 
why are you colder than you were before?
did i say things to ever bring 
you and me to the point of no return?

left out, dropped off, disposed 
it's how i'm feeling, i wish that i could keep it away
i shout, call out, am i supposed 
to feel omitted, i hate that we've been drifting 
away from each other, why do i shudder 
i may be overthinking, my mind gets so cluttered 
and i wanna fix it, i hope to be acquitted, 
and face the contradiction, i can't help but feel omitted from you

go straight to work, feeling bored, yeah 
outside i'm alright, but in the inside i'm torn
can't keep putting effort into fake friends anymore 
so what's a bunch of strings of code and underscores? 
(but i'm sorry if i set you off)
i guess it's my fault in the end yeah
cause i give my all, while all these fuckers play pretend 
if i fucked up, i swear it's not what i intended 
cause i can't get apprehended if you keep your mouth 

shut from my home, i crash, time goes
in my mind, i just can't seem to forget 
did i say things to ever bring 
you and me to a place we both regret?

left out, dropped off, disposed 
it's how i'm feeling, i wish that i could keep it away
i shout, call out, am i supposed 
to feel omitted, i hate that we've been drifting 
away from each other, why do i shudder 
i may be overthinking, my mind gets so cluttered 
and i wanna fix it, i hope to be acquitted, 
and face the contradiction, i can't help but feel omitted from you

(FLOWER CLUB)
i feel omitted, must admit it
man why cant u learn to quit it
im getting sickened, my friends are hurting
and now i gotta fix it
why are u acting heartless? i wish u didnt start this
u fucked me up regardless, why are u still acting heartless?
id take a bullet for these people
that wouldnt bat an eye if i disappeared tonight
and i hate being like this, i swear that im tryin
the cold shoulder fucks me up and i cant deny it

rumination

omitted (feat. FLOWER CLUB)

omitted (w. starflye)

Produced by @Rosesleeves

Lyrics-
Digging you up 
On the bus
The window looks blurry you look different
It feels like it’s been years
I’m still reflecting
I should’ve been there for you
And now everything feels empty
My stomach is sinking
I’m so sorry

In hindsight I see everything clearer
I wish I realised before it’s not much use now
I wish I hadn’t let you down
You didn’t deserve that I’m sorry that’s my bad
I’ll carry all there memories with me
I’d like to go back there but we’ve grown seperately
I’m doing alright but somehow everything feels empty
Hope you’re okay you’re probably better off without me

Doing the things I love has never felt this desolate
And every time I try to write something you’re in my head
You make me want to forget all the hurtful shit you said
Every time I write it’d about you I miss you so bad

I wanna reconnect with you feel like an idiot
I see you everywhere planned my future with you in it
So naive I should know things never work out as planned
Tried to do something good turned into something bad
Yeah we had something good I want back what we had
Never thought that I could connect as deep as that
Didn’t want things to happen this way rounf
I can’t turn them back around
Now my insides are falling into my hands

I dug you up
On the bus
The windows were blurry cause I was choking up
It feels like it’s been years that I’ve been thinking about it
I should’ve been there for you
The truth is I was so damn angry
I couldn’t see past the red
I’m sorry

Deserve That

@yymilo

i won’t lie i know you don’t like 
when I talk like that cuz i’m not your guy
তুমি পাগল (tumi pāgala)
get sober
no i won’t come back when it’s all over
it’s over

tell me everything, tell me everything
my boy on second ave with no wedding ring
played a song by mayday parade
it’s called terrible things
silly little boy you wanna spend your life
chasing waterfalls with all the tears you crying
i don’t wanna talk about your life
and you don’t gotta act like you give a fuck about mine
don’t lie, don’t lie

and it’s all a lie
all your pretty words but you’re just undecided
and now life’s alright
funny looking back a boy was so misguided
oh whoa, you made me not believe in us
(i know it’s not the first time but it’s gon’ be the last time)

i won’t lie i know you don’t like 
when I talk like that cuz i’m not your guy
তুমি পাগল (tumi pāgala)
get sober
no i won’t come back when it’s all over
it’s over

i won’t lie i know you don’t like 
when I talk like that cuz i’m not your guy
তুমি পাগল (tumi pāgala)
get sober
no i won’t come back when it’s all over

it’s hard to walk alone sometimes
but i’m alright, my baby
it's hard to look back at the times
but i’m alright, my baby

don't lie w/ milo.(prod. cinna)

Break Me w/ rouri404 + kuriosity (NOVÂFLED)

li.sten.to/dpdr
ig: @ripavah
tiktok: @ripavah

lyrics:

Shit I'm lost, and I don't feel like I exist
I'm inside of a simulation, it is what it is
I feel fake, cause now the colors they look gray
This universe is poison my mental illness is cliche

Whenever I'm alone, I feel like I'm a deepfake
A million fucking streams, stroke my ego, make me keep faith
Blocked all of my irls, I fucking hate those snakes
Avah up next, dpdr fueled her damn hate

I hate your fucking guts
Go get hit by a bus
I took your drugs, and now I'm lost, and I'm fucking concussed
I'm taking shot after shot if I ever lose her love
But I don't really give a fuck if you live or die, stupid cunt
Running out of time, yeah I'm running out of luck
I'm feeling less faded, pass the fucking blunt
Who are you, I'm dead, you're real, I'm not

Dpdr makes me feel like nothing
I've gone through depression and anxiety
But it can't compare
No, it can't compare
I go into an episode like every single month
I'm coming out of episodes I'm wondering where I gone
A couple months ago, I was so fucking lost
I woke up in the morning with an iv mark

Baby, you say that you love me
And you're my future wifey
Our future life is spicy, hanging by the sea
Living in a dream world with hppd, but you're all I need
Who are you again, is this all the end?
My memorys gone, please don't play pretend
Through all my mental illness
The love of my life is a 10 out of 10

But I'm too dead, to experience it
Through all the pain, and all the dread
I wouldn't need to be saved by you
If it wasn't for them

I hate your fucking guts
Go get hit by a bus
I took your drugs, and now I'm lost, and I'm fucking concussed
I'm taking shot after shot if I ever lose her love
But I don't really give a fuck if you live or die, stupid cunt
Running out of time, yeah I'm running out of luck
I'm feeling less faded, pass the fucking blunt
Who are you, I'm dead, you're real, I'm not

Sh sh sh
Shut the fuck up
Shut the fuck up
Yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh
Existential dread
Stuck in my head
When i die
Let my soul come back before that day, cause now i

I hate your fucking guts
Go get hit by a bus
I took your drugs, and now I'm lost, and I'm fucking concussed
I'm taking shot after shot if I ever lose her love
But I don't really give a fuck if you live or die, stupid cunt
Running out of time, yeah I'm running out of luck
I'm feeling less faded, pass the fucking blunt
Who are you, I'm dead, you're real, I'm not

dpdr

other platforms

@55depths

from the second album:
"and at last..."
video: https://youtu.be/byD-2D-MfSc
prod. me.

lyrics:
oh, heather only you
would do the things you do
i'm careful with my words
all the stories i've heard
oh, heather get a clue
think you should get it through
well i've called and i've called
and i got nothing at all
at all now

oh, heather
oh, heather
we've been fair weather friends
in the cold cemetery weather
oh, heather
oh, heather
we've been fair weather friends
in the cold cemetery weather

oh, heather what's the use
since i'm a game to you
should have known all along
now i'm lost and you're gone
it's true
oh, heather time will prove
all that they've done to you
her hands stained with blood
raining hell from above
on you
(hell rain down now)

oh, heather
oh, heather
we've been fair weather friends
in the cold cemetery weather
oh, heather
oh, heather
we've been fair weather friends
in the cold cemetery weather

and at last...

oh, heather

spotify

ThxSoMch X 1nonly - See You In My Comments! [Extended Snippet]

ericdoa - stay4awhile (snippet)

lapse

prod & mix @katedashmusic
www.instagram.com/katedashmusic

lyrics:
god asked me
"do u wanna be immortal?"
and i said "plz"
and thatll be all
what i dont know
is the pressure of this battle
that i could fight
but never could win

what did i do wrong
to be treated how i am
jesus knows that im fucked up
but he dont seem to give a damn
i spend days and night
tryng to see the light
stars above me shine
apple of my eye

ik life is beautiful but ts aint for me
im returning where i came from
ik life is beautiful but ts aint for me
im returning to the sea foam
i wanna wash away n see myself decay
into the sands of time itself
i wanna wash away n see myself decay
until im finaly by myself
im at peace
im at peace
cuz im freeee

forever is too long prod kate dash

0:00 - cute_22 (Stupid) [6/27/24]
2:11 - 1st Untitled (Skipping Breakfast) [7/18/24]
2:39 - 2nd Untitled  (Skipping Breakfast) [7/20/24]
4:29 - tired (Scrunch) [9/23/24]
6:42 - jane_flat (Jane) [9/16/24]

first / early demos

Soren Go