help me feed my friends and turn my back on all my enemies !

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

Lyrics... 

My fate is sealed I don’t know what to do 
I been contemplating everything while locked in my room
I revolve around hate and I’ve been paying my dues
But I think I’m too late it’ll have me end in a tomb
Anyone can be snake and they never teach
That’s why you never see me trust they all deceased
So I’ve been taking pills I admit defeat
Honestly I’ll take it anything at all if it helps me to sleep

That’s the cards that were dealt 
And I’m sorry but my body I can feel breaking down
My mind ain’t any better I’m deceiving myself
And It’s funny cause the money yeah can’t buy my health
I need help
I need it bad
Mentally and physically I don’t have money to spend
Ain’t that crazy cause Every penny go to family and friends and that’s why I say I’m quitting music I like it but I’ll prolly be dead

I’m fucking tired
I’m so tired
I’m tired and honestly I think my time has expired
I’m fucking tired
I’m so tired 
I’m tired and honestly I think my time has expired

feeling well 
I ain’t been feeling well
And I’m done with trying to talk I only bring people down
Seems I fuck up everything I swear I’m destined to failI
I’m breathing regret every time I fucking inhale

Moving on I can’t
Man I’m trying but my mind is stuck back in the past
I’d be lying if dying didnt seem that bad
I’m writing the facts I’m fucking fighting for this 
I give my life but that shit wouldn’t last

Yeah I’m giving my best but still want me to change
Man I’m trying to change
And I hate when they tell me I’ll see better days
Man that shit never came
Half of the help I’m getting feeling it’s fake

Fake as a bitch
I’ve been pushing but my mind it can’t handle this shit
I’ve been battling depression ever since just a kid
I’m a shell I’ve been broken and I’m sorry I got nun left to give

Honestly, I'm tired (prod. 4lexf)

ok
i’m in a war
constantly fightin this losin battle
blood on my shirt
tell me it hurts
i wanna make you feel
the same way i do
gave up my faith
god laughed in my face
i made him pay
i watched god bleed
as he fell to my feet
and begged for mercy

i watched god bleed out

sadeyes - tendency

instagram: @cavasoul
artwork instagram: @organict3a

lyrics:

i don’t wanna go to sleep and waste my time to be awake/ only time i feel of use is when i’m with you in the day/ cherish every single moment before you ever go away/ i know you gotta go but i just wish that you could stay/ yeah you’re all i ever think about even when you’re with me/ you have made my dreams come true like the place called disney/ we could get away i don’t think anyone would miss me/ live in isolation on an island tell me you’ll come with me/ from blue moods to blue skies you change up the weather/ i’ve never ever heard someone tell me to do better/ you just look so good when you’re drowning in my sweater/ all the fun we have is lighthearted like a feather/ every single day i look back on it smiling/ you could call us hoarders all these memories we piling/ watch romantic comedies both of us are bawling/ it’s like i can’t stay on my feet cause i just keep on falling/



last night i had a nightmare/ where i woke up and you weren’t there/ feel like i’m going crazy/ i just need to see you baby/



yeah last night i had a nightmare/ you said you had to go/ you left me in the dust/ except i’m laying on my floor/ i asked myself what i did to make you wanna leave/ i got a text from you saying that you didn’t love me/ anymore/ heartbroken and i don’t know what to do/ all the time and effort that i put into you/ is all wasted and the skies are no longer blue/ i feel anxious i can’t be here i think i need to move/ so i pack up all my things and i put them in the trunk/ trying to forget that i recently got dumped/ now i’m speeding on the highway and the rain is pouring down/ i was feeling scared cause i had to leave my town/ it just felt so real and i just hoped it wouldn’t last/ i’m bracing for impact and the car was coming fast/ life flashed before my eyes you were the last thing i’d see/ but then i woke up and you were there right beside me/

last night i had a nightmare (prod. slowet)

A Song For Kaytlyn

STREAM/SPOTIFY

Snøw & Skinny Atlas - A Song For Kaytlyn

out now on all platforms. 
art by: https://www.instagram.com/organict3a/

i wrote this at 2am while u slept beside me (prod. tundra beats)

Follow @rxseboy @powfu cause they're both insanely talented.

prod. by Thomas Reid

Lyrics:
Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Rxseboy:
I was out here for a minute on my lonely.
You were doing drugs in your room feeling broken.
Told me, you were having trouble staying focused.
Got with the wrong crowd, thought you could open up.

Backfired, you were eighteen.
Every memory turning into a daydream.
Zoning out.
What’s that about? you won’t tell me.
Lied to my face when you said you were healthy.

I never said ‘leave.’
I begged you to stay.
Every other day said you wanna go away.
Putting food on your plate.
Then it switched to a platter.
You looked in my eyes said it didn’t even matter.

Used to stay home, watch a movie on the couch.
Now you all alone wit a pill in your mouth.
Take a sip of the alc’ while you thinking of me.
Envisioning every single thing that we never could be.

Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Holding you
Holding you
Tighter
Hoping you stay
Holding you
Holding you
Tighter
Are you okay?

Rxseboy:
Stressed out, blaming everyone around you.
In the same boat, but I wouldn’t call it powfu.
Everyday, wanna make up, dunno how to.
Said you stopped drinking again, girl I’m proud too.

Get too high, I could bring you down.
On a trip, hit you back when I’m back in town.
We got two different lives.
two different vibes.
Doing drugs, I don’t, that’s two different highs.

Promised me I could hold you.
Look at your scars, think I’m here with the old you.
We were so young, living lavish with no rules.
Now I’m doing work while you still getting home schooled.

Disappointed in us and I can’t lie.
Disagreed when you said that we can’t try.
Know you said I’m a fool, girl am I?
Don’t forget that I’m here on standby.

Powfu:
Yeah, I’m on standby
If you wanna talk you can pass by
Used to visit me at work all the damn time
When you leaving me “on seen” I’m a sad guy

Quit this shit I’ll hate myself if I lose you
Pass the torch before the flames consume you
Tryna figure out a way, running out of options
(I’m trying to help you!)
Just stop this please
Before it’s too late
You don’t think I’m serious I’ll tat it on my face
You don’t need drugs, be addicted to my love
Your friends never cared but I’m here to keep in touch

My parents still together and they met in the 70’s
Me don’t gotta split be the couple of century
Yuh feels like a movie but I’m still in love
When we offset
I’ve been thinking of you more even though we talk less

Sink in the sand
Always turn away when I offer you my hand
I see that you’re hurting
Don’t deserve it
Sitting in the dark, open up your curtains

I don’t wanna see you die
I don’t wanna be that guy that sits on the side
One step at a time
We’ll take you one step at a time

Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Are You Okay?

Spotify

Thomas Reid & Rxseboy - Are You Okay? (feat. Powfu)

re-upload of waste my time since it got deleted this would prob get removed but I just reuploaded it because I love the song and I wanna listen to it again and I want it on my playlist.

sadeyes - tendency

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