"Music is... a dreadful thing. What is it? I don't understand it. What does it mean? "

"It is the power of music to carry one directly into the mental state of the composer. The listener has no choice. It is like hypnotism. So, now... What was in my mind when I wrote this? Hmm?"

"This is how it is, the music is saying. Not how you are used to being. Not how you are used to thinking. But like this." 

- Ludwig van Beethoven

This is how it is, the music is saying.

Heartache

A Swing to Heaven

'When fires have burnt your forest bare and black,
And you are parched and dizzy, and search in vain
For pools in dust unvisited of rain,
And shamble, lost, along a shimmering track,
This is the comfort of the world: “Alack!
So youth’s illusions die, that we may gain
Wisdom and strength to face our lifelong pain,
The truth, from which no man shall turn him back.”
Falter for no such melancholy lies,
For by one holy touch the spirit is healed
To know its treasure of sight and sound and scent;
Veil after veil the earthborn fogs arise,
Star beyond star the heavens are then revealed,
And truth is fair in love’s enlightenment. '

Disillusion

Suicide Note

Untitled

The original take of "Morning in December" just before my previous recording. I liked the theme then decided to make it a longer piece.

Morning in December (First Take)

Is it worth a tear, is it worth an hour, 
To think of things that are well outworn? 
Of fruitless husk and fugitive flower, 
The dream foregone and the deed forborne? 
Though joy be done with and grief be vain, 
Time shall not sever us wholly in twain; 
Earth is not spoilt for a single shower; 
But the rain has ruined the ungrown corn.

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