no one told me that itd be this way
no one told me that nothing really changes
same shit, i hate it, i dont wanna fake it
'hey dad, i made it.' hope i really say it

and mean it with my chest,
cause i dont wanna just,

go with these motions everyday
push these emotions all away

i need some change
i need to change
i need to get away and see a couple places

spaceship, spaceship
take me on a great trip
i just wanna blast off
and never work a graveshift

spaceship

21 produced by okayjml
on streaming now https://soydairy.fanlink.to/21

lyrics:
2 miles a minute
a hunnid is speeding
but twenty i feel it
and 21s scary
but its the same yr as my whip
so i guess that im good
…
im feeling some shit that i shouldn’t,
…
but im getting A’s
that shit gets me paid
i guess im okay 
no trips to the bank,
cause this $$$ virtual.

no one was there, i was hurting though.
thought i was cool, i aint let em know

nobody told me i aint have to do this alone....

now im all on my own
its hard to pretend
when ur tryna grow

they dont wanna know,
they dont wanna know.

2 miles a minute
a hunnid is speeding
but twenty i feel it
and 21s scary
but its the same yr as my whip
so i guess that im good
…
im feeling some shit that i couldn’t,
…
i guess being pretty’s
a pretty excuse for tearing me down
and framing me up, to hang me and die
cause i couldnt give you my life.

now im feeling sick to my tummy.
cause you never loved me,
you loved that i loved you,
and couldnt put me up above you.

i hate that i did that
i wish that i didnt
but live and you learn…

wish someone was there…

but they dont wanna-
no...
they dont wanna know
they dont wanna know

they dont wanna know
so ill never talk
but ill never fold
i just keep walking, yeah.

and they just watching, huh?
so i let em stalk,
and i let em mock
pretend they dont know what im doing..

then i blow up
its dm's they shootin

now when i want it, i got it
get out the photo, i crop em
soon ill be rising like phoenix,
i have em falling like autumn.

my mood switch with the seasons,
and i been stuck at the bottom.
im omw up, i dont give a fuck
but now..
they all wanna know.
fuck.

21 (prod. okayjml)

goretex on streaming now
https://soydairy.fanlink.to/goretex

lyrics:
i need more friends, dont need more stress
need endorphins, i feel so upset
all this pain, all this rain
i need goretex
all this pain, all this rain
i need goretex

i need more friends, dont need more stress
need endorphins, i feel so upset
all this pain, all this rain
i need goretex
all this pain, all this rain
i need goretex

arcteryx on me
watch it, how it bead.

all these eyes on me,
watching how i bleed.

i got fantasies,
its just you and me.

leave it all behind,
we could up and leave.

we dont tell a soul:
we just up and go.

i know we're alone
but we got eachother
thats just all i need

tell me how that sounds
i could get some gas,
we could leave this town.

i just needed you around.

i need more friends, dont need more stress
need endorphins, i feel so upset
all this pain, all this rain
i need goretex
all this pain, all this rain
i need goretex

i need more friends, dont need more stress
need endorphins, i feel so upset
all this pain, all this rain
i need goretex.
all this pain, all this rain
i need goretex.

goretex (prod. okayjml)

keep the checks on me.
talking guap, not nike
keep the stress on me
its a lot, i cant lie, b

keep the flash on me when i walk
feel like kairi
woah, woah
feel like kairi.

all these lights on me
and the sweat start dripping.
all the fights 'round me
man these people always trippin

i keep the checks on me.
talking guap, not nike
keep the stress on me
its a lot, i cant lie, b

keep the flash on me when i walk
feel like kairi..
woah, woah
feel like kairi.

all these lights are on me,
i cant sweat it.
crashed momma's audi
im indebted

hope i make it back, god.
i need all the cash.
always fucked with fakes,
i was scared of all the facts
she said 'slap dis ass, baby'
baby, i jus touch some grass
going on a hike cuz i do what i like, ok ok

taking shots,
that boy think that he be usopp
watch him dropp
then i see him on the news, uhh

red beam, red nose
think he rudolph
click click, bang bang,
durarara!!

that shit ignorant,
i could never take a life
'cept my own, but i know thats a lie
i cant leave my dad behind

too much pain behind these eyes
turn the hands back, i need time..
i need space.

i need love,
need reciprocation
no one sided, cant do deprivation

chain could be an heirloom
and i aint talking wraith, shit
running out of patience
i cant do the same shit
change of pace, change of space
chance of face and change of fate

i need all of it
i been out of it
tell me what you mean when u talking to me
tell me what you need, dont know what im doing
need a pair of wings, i could fly like kairi

produced by guapobeatz.
non-profit, just 4 fun

kairi (guapobeatz)

3/9/2021

stressing over shit thats happened already,

but i dont think im ready for whats to come
and
whats to go
cause,
whats the move? man, nobody knows it

i lay awake in my bed,
4 am and im frozen.
thoughts in my head,
got me sick like its covid

im feeling up and im down,
i got the bends like  
im yorke and
i felt alone in the morning
but u didnt care for a moment,
and you never did...

always take what u want
but u never give
left me @ the fucking bottom like sediments
and im glad that ur gone,
cause

u was holding me down,
not keeping me grounded--
more like,
keepin me drowning

and my lungs were boutta give,
i was struggling.
young, learning how to live
almost fucked my shit

now im trying to forgive,
just tryna get a grip.

and
i been feeling high (high)
but i still got my lows, yeah
guess this is goodbye
cause thats just how it gooooes

and i been feeling high (hi)
but i still got my lows, yeah
guess this is goodbye
cause im jus goin ghost

cause im jus goin ghost
danny phantom,
i dont like calls
so i never fucking answer

im figuring it out like atlanta uh
i do it on my own cuz u caaant bruh, 

i dont hang w/ people i dont fancy (twice)
nevr kick ur feet up in the backseat
always eat the pussy like its candy (right)
got my girl screaming like a baaansheeeee

wish i could whip it in the wraith like im chief
but i cant, so im living in my dreams like i could.

ditched hangin with all them fakes
had beef on my plate, so im eatin real good

woah,
thats how im living rn
yeah, thats how i get it rn

but i dont wanna talk
if u know me, then u heard it
but if u know me more then u know that i been hurtin, shit

cause im tired of this shit.
i been tired of this shit.

prod. hisohkah
nonprofit just 4 fun

ghost (hisohkah)

4:11am

cold shoulder and you get it from ur mother
hot temper, and i think that's from ur father

its--
cold weather and youre breathing in the sawdust.
lungs hurt, and you cant stand em up, and you--
cant move, cause you're stuck inside the mud and you--
cant see how its all fucked you up, now you--
seek connections in everyone you see
looking for distractions wont stop the fucking bleed
i promise...

cause im spending hella bank on the weekend.
wont pretend there's still a "we" can i,
get one more night in your arms
i just need a little love.

wish they gave a fuck, wish i was enough
but i can never change that..
god, i really hate that.

cold water on your face, this aint like you.
only routine--rewatching haikyuu

only see the sun when you're going back to sleep
idc abt ur friends, i just want to see you free

but

im the chain and the cuffs.
dont know how you cheated, but say you're still in love
you cant do this. im foolish,
my hearts torn apart
and you're in still in my arms
wonder what the fuck im doing..

reruns

(prod. eem triplin)

kay, i get it
nevr really fit in
jaden, im a misfit
but im always staying fitted

yea, admit it,
all the girls loved me.
had a lot of friends,
but i nevr had somebody.

and
jobs nevr want me but im still gettin $$$
always stay avoiding all these problems, they keep coming
push me to the edge but im never fucking jumping
and i miss u in my bed, but that shit wasnt loving.

messin w/ my head but i know thats what u wanted
so i got up + i grew up, and i bought myself a whip.

pulled up to ur place and i dropped off all ur shit
3 hrs in the traffic, i was blasting 'ever changing'
6 years down the drain, acting like a stranger.
know we all changed up, but that was something crazy
u were real frail, and ur sweater didnt fit.

i know you'll never hear it, but you hurt me,
and i mean that shit.

all those nights crying 
i was waiting for the day where it'd all be okay
but that day never came

all those nights fighting
still saying that i love u, u pretend u didnt hear it
why you playing all these games?

in my tub lying
knees weak, wrists slit, and i had to pull you out
i just wanted u okay

now we're done trying
heartbreak and 808s, i still see you in my nightmares
now ill never be the same.. no

idgi
nevr really fit in.
jaden, im a misfit
but im always staying fitted.

yea, admit it,
acted like a dipshit
i had a lot of issues
but no one would evr listen

and friends said theyre there
but they think its not that serious
i been in my head finding ways to disappear and shit
scrolling through my feed wonder if theyd post about me..

dont put me on a tee, if its not 'preme.

ok, i get it
nevr really fit in...

i dont get it,
nevr really fit in...

okay, i get it
nevr really fit in...
jaden, im a misfit
but im always staying fitted

yea, admit it,
everybody loved me
i had a lot of lovers, but was never feeling lovely

only feeling lonely.
military brat, i was always on my own, see
20 and im learning i want somebody to hold me
someone to record me, have mama see me growin
cause she only see the grades,

and im gettin all A's, but im never feeling great.
sleeping all day, i could leave without a trace

//

OK. GARDEN WALL, IM JUST TRYNA GET OVER IT
GRASS IS GREENER, AND I KNOW IT IS FOR SURE.

SEE ME FALL, IM JUST TRYNA GRAB A HOLD OF IT
SEE ME TEETER, GETTING USED TO HOLDING MORE.

STANDING TALL, IM JUST TRYNA GET OVER IT
ON MY SHOULDER, IM JUST HOLDING UP A WAR,
IN MY HEAD, IM JUST TRYING TO SEE A NOTE OF IT
CANT DIE WHEN I KNOW THERES SO MUCH MORE

2.20.2021

prod. zerosand1nes 🌀

lyrics:
[soydairy]
yeah,
i hope things wont always be this way, like
lately i been sleeping through these days
im just hoping i can see some change,
cause lately everything just feel the same,

solid, liquid, gas,
all these phases.
no matter how it change
its the same shit.

i was 12, now im 20:
feel the same shit.  
needed help, now im empty
getting faded

nah,
i cant even smoke,
i cant even drink,
scared what did to daddy
itll do to me.

but i cant even blame my dad
boy went down to hell and back
just so we could have it good,
live this life just how we should

but

how should we know what to do?
we go to school + go to sleep.
we aint got no time to think, no time to feel.
graduate, now pay these bills, and go to work

whatchu mean that no one cares?
feeling in this life's a curse,
and open hearts just you get hurt
but i swear i can't close it--

im tryna live these moments
they moving, i cant hold 'em
and teardrops steady flowing
they drippin, drippin, dripping,
im slippin, slippin, slipping

can you lend a hand, baby?
i just need a minute

cause the sand falling through my grip
never can go back,
and im stuck, so i never trip
but ill never land

and im learning how to fall
just to do it all again
and i swear once you do,
its how a boy become a man
 
i know things wont always be this way
lately i been sleeping through these days
im just hoping i can see some change,
mama told me it was just a phase--

and that fucked me up,
reaching out, then shut me down
everybody think im tough
but i just scream without a sound

i know that aint nothing new,
about a hundred thirty two.
im just tryna see it through
and do the things they couldnt do

i thought id call it quits at seventeen,
im turning twenty-three.
looking at the moon,
wonder what im gonna be
 
now ill never give it up
i can never call it quits
i just wanna show the world
that theres more to life than this.

cause i know things wont always be this way, like
lately i been sleeping through these days.
im looking forward to some change, cause
mama told me it was just a phase--


[JUIC3 L33]
bad cat, doggy fetching bones
like a lab rat tryna find a home
getting fucking stoned, i was sad-sad seeing monochrome
1, 2, 3 all eyes on me; begging please i need release
roll up weed that tree get breathed
smoke and drink thats my disease
zzz when i mimi's, fall asleep, sheep, snooze + repeats
i dont wanna think, rather have a dream,
martin luther king: wanna make a change,
i just wanna make a--
mother earth, but make it safe

blowing out the candles on the cake, got to see another day
want to feel the sand between my toes
where the waves roll i aint ever growing old
feel my whole soul, ima spread the wings inside the sun
feeling everything instead of run
i been lost at sea without the rum
dive into the deep instead of numb, like
this what ive become

[soydairy]
ok, everything ive been
and everything i'll be
everything ive done
and everything i'll see

i'll never know it til it happens
nothing's set in stone
stars inside the sky
burn the brighest 'fore they go

and
i know things wont always be this way, like
lately i been living through these days..
im just hoping i can make a change, cause
mama told me it was just a phase
mama told me it was just a phase...

phases ft. JUIC3 L33

thank u for 30k <3

@p1kehead (chorus)
@kamaliallie (verse)
@akitsunami (verse)
@midjuner (guitar)

lyrics:
@tycoongravy // pikehead
sunday mood. its one of those days where you just dont get food.
sunday mood. its one of those days where you just dont get nudes.
sunday mood. its one of those caves where you just dont get loot.
sunday mood. its one of those days where you need solitude.

@soydairy
its a sunday mood, and im chillin in my room
its my house but it dont feel like home.
its my tomb, and i wanna be alone
feelin sad, so please dont hit my phone

and im drownin in emotions, tryna stay afloat
feelin stressed and caught up in my woes
no energy, my battery is low
keep the shit bottled up, i might explode

need help, but id rather stay solo
need escape, might catch a plane to tokyo

maybe ill feel better tomorrow, but right now its a—(chorus)

@kamaliallie // kamali
i’m a lone wolf, 24/7
i ain’t go to church cause i don’t believe in heaven
left the window cracked, its like 30 degrees
and my bed is icy like we was at 7/11
i got a shit ton of homework that i ain’t do yet,
i’mma do it all last minute, i told these hoes “bet”
i don’t even fuck with these bitches, and i dont fuck with these fishes up in the sea, boi i never needed a new pet

i don’t need an old one neither,
homies stay dead like we was sippin on ether
and we spittin fire like a rathian
burning all these bitches in our path again
don’t try to pull up because we lackin it
bout to blow up,
lighter fluid in my cup,
yall be acting like a pup,
dont give a fuck
we be movin like a truck
we be runnin like a buck
who needs luck
when you up with the gang,
we stay them dudes
only emotion we feel inside is that—(chorus)

@akitsunami // aki
sunday mood got me feeling down feeling low
cuz no one really knows what be goin on behind the curtains, ya boy is hurtin.
and the demons are lurking
while his soul is searching

and now im wondering if life is even worth it,
cuz i been feeling, awfully lonely
cuz i cant find my, one and only
so i been chillin, with the homies 

but they dont know me, cuz i dont know me
cuz ive been feeling, way too broken
cause i am not a man, im just pieces
the image in the mirror got me feeling so speechless, and i dont even mean to be this

i dont mean to be this dude
so ima just change my attitude, and maybe i can vibe to this sunday mood.
shit, maybe i can vibe to a sunday mood.

🔮 sunday mood

throwaway feat. loud dorm a/c

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lyrics:
i been coasting, cruising thru the day
popped a couple kickflips, im living in a dream.
if you see me, be sure to say hey,
we can kick it back, maybe grab a bite down the street

feelin right w/ these nikes on my feet
still rockin hand me downs, but feelin like a G,
thats peace.
dont care about no crease, i just lace em up.
smile on my face when im waking up, yeah

im just tryna get through the day,
smile on my face, hope i take it to the grave,
yeah, yeah

and i dont really care what you say,
negativity, i can throw it all away
yeah, yeah

im just tryna get through the day,
smile on my face, hope i take it to the grave,
yeah, yeah

and i dont really care what you say,
negativity, i can throw it all away
yeah, yeah

cause life’s a lil crazy that way
one day’s all sunny,
next is pourin down rain

but i aint let it get to me,  
im my biggest enemy, i know it,
i aint afraid to show it.

i just hope i come to terms,  
maybe cop some brunch like pilgrim.
one day it wont hurt,
n feel like poision in my system

but i dont keep it in,
i just spit it out.
and always remember
when im feeling down that…

life’s a lil crazy that way
one day’s all sunny,
next is pourin down rain

but i aint let it get to me,  
no, i aint let it get to me.

i been coasting, cruising thru the day
popped a couple kickflips, im living in a dream.
yeah, if you see me, be sure to say hey,
we can kick it back, maybe grab a bite down the street

feelin right w/ these nikes on my feet
still rockin hand me downs, but feelin a G,
thats peace.
dont care about no crease, i just lace em up
smile on my face when im waking up, yeah

im just tryna get through the day,
smile on my face, hope i take it to the grave,
yeah, yeah

and i dont really care what you say,
negativity, i can throw it all away
yeah, yeah

im just tryna get through the day,
smile on my face, hope i take it to the grave,
yeah, yeah

and i dont really care what you say,
negativity, i can throw it all away
yeah, yeah

tbh i been stressin a lot
but i know i can be much better than that 
so i take a look in the mirror real quick
i been gaining weight, but im feeling way better than i once didd

yeah, yeah,

feeling like a B-track
always look at others,
wonder how im gonna beat that

but that aint what life’s about,
yeah, i can c that now cause..

im just tryna get through the day,
smile on my face, hope i take it to the grave,
yeah, yeah

and i dont really care what you say,
negativity, i can throw it all away
yeah, yeah

im just tryna get through the day,
smile on my face, hope i take it to the grave,
yeah, yeah

and i dont really care what you say,
negativity, i can throw it all away
yeah, yeah

negativity, i can throw it all away

[ nonprofit, just 4 fun <3 ]

laces prod. gc

now on spotify + apple music <3
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✧✧✧✧✧✧
prod. nategoyard

six stars on my whip
goyard on my bitch
i go raw up in those hips
holy water for my sins (x2)
(six six six)

mask on my face
hood on my head
ice on my wrist
i wish i were dead

yea i got friends
i wish they were there /)/o//o/(\
i feel so alone
i wish u were here.

i cannot go + look in the mirror
i h8 what i see >_<

they cannot hear it
i kick + i scream
they laugh + they leave
i feel like a freak //:

fuck a degree i wanna b free.
feeling like cudi when im in my dreams
ignorance, love
thats what i need 
a sign from above
that i could just read
or i could just leave
n hope for the best
wishing u well
when im down in hell
n dance w the devil screamin
6
6
6

six stars on my whip
goyard on my bitch
i go raw up in those hips
holy water for my sins (x2)
(sixsixsix)

mask on my face
hood on my head
ice on my wrist
i wish i were dead

but shawty a baddie and she give me head
she got me swerving,
she got me wrecked
shawty a baddie + leave me 4 dead
she got me hurting, got me a mess
she wanna talk, then leave me on read

six stars on my whip
goyard on my bitch
i go raw up in those hips
holy water for my sins (x2)
(6 six $ickz)

soydairy

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