lyrics:

Girl could u feel my energy
Tricked out of love its not a tragedy 
Take on the form of my enemy
Maybe shit like this was never meant for me
 Oh u foul as fuck I need the referee
Im so faded I look like im a casualty
She was jaded so lyings what it had to be
She said this shit wouldn’t of happened if I were a better me

I smoke way too much my voice aint what it used to be  im tryna find myself I need some dmt right now 
But I cannot feel myself like im on ketamine right now
I couldn’t operate without some shit inside of me, pause
She add my number like a sum
I only text her when I’m drunk
I press that send button with my thumb 
Now I’m banging this bitch like a drum
Im too wavy
U would think I was off to war like I was in navy

Girl could u feel my energy
Tricked out of love its not a tragedy 
Take on the form of my enemy
Maybe shit like this was never meant for me
 Oh u foul as fuck I need the referee
Im so faded I look like im a casualty
She was jaded so lyings what it had to be
She said this shit wouldn’t of happened if I were a better me

But Baby I do not have all day no no
I will not let u write my fate no no
Blowing this Kush I think the party slo mo right now
I swear im an elf how she was asking me for snow right now
I do not do that shit u playing with ur life baby
Not tryna be mean girl I just care about u too baby
I dont wanna lose u baby
If I had a choice id tell the lord take me Instead

Girl could u feel my energy
Tricked out of love its not a tragedy 
Take on the form of my enemy
Maybe shit like this was never meant for me
 Oh u foul as fuck I need the referee
Im so faded I look like im a casualty
She was jaded so lyings what it had to be
She said this shit wouldn’t of happened if I were a better me

nrg (taylor morgan x 4evr)

tell me, did it make you happy? w/ claude

happy new year!
crappy new song
these love scars, wish that they would fade away 

and it hurts me everytime i see ur face

i know ur doing better now but u left me

im sitting in my room contimplating 

how do i move forward without u

blood on my hands and im feeling blue 

kiss me on my lips ik u feel it too

i'll always find myself running back to u

i wish i never met you
you got me thinking that im see thru
in my head im always destitute
all this shit goin on got me feeling blue
when i look in ur eyes i know u feel it too
lost my mind and idk what to do
but ur face looks so pretty in the light of the moon

love scars (metlast)

my second full length album, dearly departing

fully produced and mastered by @jolst
artwork by @/ashleydhe on instagram

featuring:
@cherryrizla
@betweentheveinsandi
@ejcarrmusic

additional production by:
@irby314
@user-757072975
@taylor
@sainttomorrow
@pekarot_161

thank you all for everything. i hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:
if this is real i’ve learned my lesson
i’d bring a chair to watch myself trying to breathe
when every day is just progression
its easy just to stop and stare at what u need
and every time i turn around
my vision’s upside down
and the mirror’s staring back at me
now i’m waiting for a sound
cuz my ears are bleeding out
isnt it nice to be so happy?

all the time spent makes me sick
i’ve been down, wheres a stroke of good fortune
while my life has been at risk
where were you, did you even come searching?
while the nightmares subsided 
my bones and my heart are on terms with the devil
clear i have been misguided
the water just dragged me right back where i came from

paint it on black
put out a message
i dont think that ima regret this
on top of the world for a second
then i slip and im back at the entrance
look at the way that i fuck up
must have been somethin within me
had to be something im hiding
look at the facts we’re presenting
like, he doesnt talk
he doesnt socialize what is his problem
clearly its all in head though
what if its something thats mental
i cant breathe when its all building i need time and cover
out of air i think im drowning, am i going under?

all the time spent makes me sick
i’ve been down, wheres a stroke of good fortune
while my life has been at risk
where were you, did you even come searching?
while the nightmares subsided 
my bones and my heart are on terms with the devil
clear i have been misguided
the water just dragged me right back where i came from

stream everywhere!

VI. pay your respects [jolst x irby]

produced by mental
featuring @sanriorose

[blxty]
i don’t wanna do it but you’re leaving me with no choice
do i go? do i stay? i don’t know got no voice
ridin’ around at night this ain’t a chrystler this a rolls royce
i done said fuck this shit turn my life to a exploit
he need a heal he need a regen
yeah this like pokemon take a trip to kanto region
bellsprout bitch i’m weeping
he saw me go up and now he tryna reason
i sent his bro up you can hear the stairs they creaking

[mental]
we on go
don’t even speak they already know
bro play with sticks like a gamer he got peripherals
i love, expensive clothes and impressive poles
we came in aggressive though, and left with hella rolls
they can’t talk to me i’m putting down my telephone
dead guys all up in my wallet and they hella old
money in my pocket walk up into saks and let ‘em go
if you with us and isn’t winning that's unacceptable

[dolly]
erm...

[blxty]
i don’t wanna do it but you’re leaving me with no choice
do i go? do i stay? i don’t know got no voice
ridin’ around at night this ain’t a chrystler this a rolls royce
i done said fuck this shit turn my life to a exploit
he need a heal he need a regen
yeah this like pokemon take a trip to kanto region
bellsprout bitch i’m weeping
he saw me go up and now he tryna reason
i sent his bro up you can hear the stairs they creaking

kanto +blxty (feat. dolly)

produced by taylor morgan & jolst

[mental]
i think that i messed up bad this time
i don’t wanna say what’s on my mind
even if i tried it won’t go right
i told her i hate the thought of silence
afraid of life
but i’m forced to embrace that side
yeah it hurts like you break my spine
watch it fade into black i’m fine

can you pick me up?
tell me lies again
i think i’m giving up
i’ll be there in a bit
i’m good with what i’ve got
i know it’ll never stop
you put the pain inside my brain so i just let it rot
but that’s okay it’s just some feelings that i get a lot
you make me have the worst thoughts that i’ve ever thought
and you knew the whole time that it’s never gone
it don’t mean i’m better off

[blxty]
i got scars
i can’t hide anymore
i messed up
calling you mi amor
and i’m done all your comments make me so sick
how much more can i cry until you notice me, me
why can't you see, see
you’re all i need, ne- ugh
so come to me so i can feel complete

ur fault +blxty

to your e̶t̶e̶r̶n̶i̶t̶y̶

i found a strand of your hair right in my pillowcase
i can't describe the feeling how my heart aches
there's so many things that i wish i could say
i guess i only wonder if you're playing it safe
everything was meant only to be, just not as long as it seemed

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than us going steady

it's such a shame how the times have changed
i renounce it all and let the feeling remain
another day, dead and gone to waste

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song

all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
and i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

aching from the weight of my grief, show me mercy

show me mercy

but i could never cheat on you, or even anyone
unless they did it to me first because i might be that petty
my insecurities, there might be too many
i wanted nothing more than

i spent my days trying to be multifaceted
in some years i'd try to tally up the damages
i can't hope you'd take me back, i guess i'm past it
and like the other song goes, "i like to do magic"

fear is only a feeling that only feelings can change
i still try to maintain, but despite everything strange
our different phases of life, i'll never blame
i light the spliff and hope the emotions fade

i tried to go back and find it, that's when i knew i was wrong
ran out of words to describe it, that's when i ruined the song
all the water in the ocean couldn't wash that stain
wish i was feeling something other than pain
i've been going through the motions with no chance to complain
worried i'm working without something to gain

how can ever keep myself from harm?
running away to scream inside my car

MERCY

s/o to deckabeats & alsbeatz for bringing this one to life
& s/o to you for stickin' around! it's guardin szn!

lyrics
--------
clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i guess the goal is
to set my body back beside my soul
cause i guess really all i wants control
this world is ugly but we paint it gold
i've lost my discretion a decrepit hole
sits inside my body where i tug and pull
and pull and pull
your life code was patched
with a fine tooth comb
all the lights were detached
i guess nobody's home
in your bed lies a match
where the fire was thrown
i don't like where this goes
can you leave me alone
(cause when the)

clock strikes twelve it's all over after
distant memories of disaster
full eclipse the sky's falling fast
we're all dead by dawn  

i don't wanna do this
feeling like i got to
channel what i'm bestowed
pushing on the gas
till i'm drivin real fast
when i crash imma reload

enter the void

distant memories (prod. deckabeats x alsbeatz)

my pockets fat in this bitch im finna go sag in this bitch
my brudda shootin n shit im finna go shoot at ur clique
nah she cant boot me up i needa bitch w some oxygen
bitch i been thru it all i needa ho w a whole lotta 10s
im in that lamb truck, get yo bands up, pussy stand up
now she my fan i dont gaf that bitch she dammed as shi
im off that fanta, this lean gon get me built like panda
not in my head naw, you mfs ridin on my dick
i put that boy on a t put his home on a t now his mom wanna see like
i gotta pole w a beam aint know whatchu mean finna take yo spotlight
he aint totin w me ain coolin w me ain know what it seems like
idk what i said here
if she cant boot me up i dont wanna fw that ho no more
n she talkin to me like she know me n shit i dont fw that bitch ima close that door
and she up in my mentions like she wanna fw me i dont wanna fw that bitch she a whore
and she ridin my dick like she gettin sum from it idk why she keep callin me up
im in that lamb truck, get yo bands up, pussy stand up
now she my fan i dont gaf that bitch she dammed as shi
im off that fanta, this lean gon get me built like panda
not in my head naw, you mfs ridin on my dick
dumb bitch wanna tie me up dumb ho wanna tie me down ion fw that
ion feel like ur trying bae so ian gon try ion feel like u fw that
dont see what u want from this dont see what u want from me whatchu aimin at
dont see what u saw back then dont see what u see rn whats in yo head
i been fucked up, eversince, i gotta bladee like eversince
i jus copped my ho sum vetements, i know she real mad that im messin it up
like bae u pissed or not, u said drop yo top
u kno im not dumb its just that molly on my tounge
this  bitch she won, but shes wrong
bitch im on, girl whatchu on
ian done i got blood, in my cup
jus brought some x pills to this bus, that shi its funk, ujhhhhh
im in that lamb truck, get yo bands up, pussy stand up
now she my fan i dont gaf that bitch she dammed as shi
im off that fanta, this lean gon get me built like panda
not in my head naw, you mfs ridin on my dick

sag prod 3rdeye

@prodaugury
lyrics:
осталось пару патрон 
я так устал
ржавые мысли
хочешь отпущу сейчас
поцелуй макушку пушки
пока не кончится припас
да, мы стреляем
да, это точно про нас
что-то давит в спину
что-то смотрит из-за угла
нужно взять себя в руки
ненавидишь ли ты меня?
я все стою около дверного звонка
чувствую курок, давит около виска

я ходячее оружие напрокат
пристально смотрю
видишь я неадекват
я еще ребенок, но я вышебу тебе мозги
себя найдешь там
где я спрятал свои дневники

осталось пару патрон 
я так устал 
когда закончится этот ебаный сериал
буду вспоминать
перестану обращать
стена в красных пятнах
просто знай, что мне наплевать

love scars (metlast)

soz