Tired of trying to avoid it. Tired of trying to numb it. Time to face it head on.

"Numbin"
SOL Studio

Lyrics:
Hate numbin the pain 
Still numb in the brain
Not in this for fame
We not the same
Hate numbin the pain 
Still numb in the brain
Not in this for fame
We not the same
Yea promise, we not the same

People steadily partying but haven't won yet
Told people imma be that one bet
Plottin an plannin on how imma be the man n
Grow manic an sometimes panickin
But imma keep my head straight 
Stay focused an change my state
Change my mind spending hella time
Sorry to those that I get distant 
So far I can't see any other way to be
Cut off the people close so I can come back and give you the most 
The real ones fuck the fakes with the real guns
Won't forget my people an my family
Gonna come back havin you livin fancily

Just hate numbin the pain 
Still numb in the brain
Not in this for fame
We not the same
Yea promise, we not the same

Just get lost, not up for debate
Not a toss up, I'm here to dictate 
Devil really been temptin me
But this really the redemption me
Know I've crossed some been crossed up
But now it's time that I bossed up
Lock in don't question me
Motherfuckers testin me
Never said I'm perfect, still numb an dumb
Not staying quiet can't bite my thumb 

Just hate numbin the pain 
Still numb in the brain
Not in this for fame
We not the same
Yea promise, we not the same

Numbin

Hope you're out there...

SOL Studio
Official Song - "My Light"

Lyrics:
"Hearts jaded, feelin hated
I'm faded, comments bladed
Be my hope an my light 
Don't have much more of a fight
Someone just be my light in the darkness 
Lost most days need someone to spark this
So lost in this darkness (darkness)
So lost in this darkness (lost in this darkness) 

Love letter, how do I start this 
Love with my whole heart disregard this
Have you everything, no love regardless 
Not my light you just my darkness 
Please girl just show me the way
Please girl just promise you'll stay
Get on my hands and knees I'll pray
Seems love comes with a cost, can’t pay
Feel like I don’t know what peace is
Steadily falling into pieces
Can someone just show me the light 
Someone to help show me what is right
A girl that never left 
Don't know what to expect 
In a world so dark and lost
Seem like my life the cost 
It's why…

Hearts jaded, feelin hated
I'm faded, comments bladed
Be my hope an my light 
Don't have much more of a fight
Someone just be my light in the darkness 
Lost most days need someone to spark this
So lost in this darkness (darkness)
So lost in this darkness (lost in this darkness)

Will you ever find me? 
Love real? Remind me
Keep saying the past behind me
But it's right in my face, got me right in my place
Need out of this place, life too fast pace
Get out of this darkness, would you fall for me? 
If I slip back in my dark bliss would you call for me?
Just need someone here for me
Someone maybe jus shed a tear for me
Are you out there hearin me?
God you up there hearin me?
Losing touch of my reality (reality)
Can you love the real me in actuality (the real me)"

My Light

This song actually started because my brother gave me the line, "If life's a dream, your my nightmare." He actually wrote his own version that I will produce and release after I'm done with this upcoming album. Look forward to it! Hope you all enjoy this one and stay away from the nightmares...

"My Nightmare"
SOL Studio

Lyrics:
"Life a dream, you my nightmare (nightmare)
Drown an scream, you don't care
Won't care and gonna swear 
You loved me and didn't, say we something we isn't
Feel like never again 
Heartbreak over an over again

Love was my drug, only had bad trips
All I wanted was love, only bad tricks
Thought I was dreaming, it's a nightmare 
Now I see you, feels like a night terror
Attack on my brain, always in pain
Love you too much, can't afford it
Loved you too much, I adored it 
Life movin too fast I floored it
Call my phone, I ignored it
Thought you were mine, never took the time
Funny how forever can end
Said I was your always, you were my friend 

So if life a dream, you my nightmare (nightmare)
Drown an scream, you don't care
Won't care and gonna swear 
You loved me and didn't, say we something we isn't
Feel like never again 
Heartbreak over an over again

Keep saying I’m over and done
Really had a few I thought were the one
Been goin through life alone on my own
No one to trust, think they not like us
Losing touch of reality (reality)
Is this really my reality (reality)
Shot straight through my heart, fatality (fatality)

So if life a dream, you my nightmare (nigtmare)
Drown an scream, you don't care 
Won't care and gonna swear 
You loved me and didn't, say we something we isn't
Feel like never again 
Heartbreak over an over again"

My Nightmare

Sometimes I feel I just need to Run away...

SOL "Runaway"
SOL Studio

Lyrics:
"Runaway runaway I gotta run away (run away)
Shootin my shot I put that gun away (gun away)
People just want that gangster rap shit 
Sorry I've been stuck on the emo sad shit
Just don’t wanna make the same shit you listen to
Told myself not to make some music that isn’t you
Cause I gotta 
Runaway runaway I gotta run away (run away)
Shootin my shot I put that gun away (gun away)

Start catching feelings then I run
Lied to myself, thought they were the one
Too many times have been lied too
Same girls I would've died too
Too broke and broken too often misspoken
Really can’t let anyone close
Those the ones that hurt the most
Say keep your friends close, but keep your enemies closer
What happens when your loved one is an enemy when it’s all over

So I need to…
Runaway runaway I gotta run away (run away)
Shootin my shot I put that gun away (gun away)
People just want that gangster rap shit 
Sorry I've been stuck on the emo sad shit
Just don’t wanna make the same shit you listen to
Told myself not to make some music that isn’t you
Cause I gotta 
Runaway runaway I gotta run away (run away)
Shootin my shot I put that gun away (gun away)

I just get left broken and confused
Heart open and misused
Steadily missin sayin I miss when
Don’t give a fuck, keep dissin

I’m on my own now
All alone now
Know I’m going up, but coming back down down (down)
Miss me, but I'm not coming back around (round)
Just wanna kiss me nah just miss me
Cause I miss me too
I’m not the same, so fucked in the brain

So I need to…
Runaway runaway I gotta run away (run away)
Shootin my shot I put that gun away (gun away)
People just want that gangster rap shit 
Sorry I've been stuck on the emo sad shit
Just don’t wanna make the same shit you listen to
Told myself not to make some music that isn’t you
Cause I gotta 
Runaway runaway I gotta run away (run away)
Shootin my shot I put that gun away (gun away)

I just get left broken and confused
Heart open and misused
Steadily missin sayin I miss when
Don’t give a fuck, keep dissin"

Runaway

This is a song for those out there that don't feel you just want them, but you need them. 

SOL "I Need You"
SOL Studio

Lyrics:
"Difference between I want an I need you
Lately need a girl yea I need you
Change myself so much to please you
Still heartbroken with a breeze too
I don't want… I need you yeah I need you

Heartbroken ten times ten times
Feelin like I'm livin ten lives ten lives
Swear get deader and deader
Saying everything get better and better
Want a girl that make me believe that
Stress weighing heavy, help relieve that
Don't be perfect I can't even be that
I've been struggling so long can you see that
Tell you I'm fine an I'm lyin would you say sum
Or would you go along with it an you say nun
Because there's a… (there's a...)

Difference between I want an I need you
Lately need a girl yea I need you
Change myself so much to please you
Still heartbroken with a breeze too
I don't want… I need you yeah I need you

Been the one tryna please you
Only wanted one thing, me you 
Felt so lonely am I the only 
One alone always on my own
Pass Patrón, my life a loan
Been through back and hell (hell)
Yea can't you tell (tell)
Girl of my dreams, ring a bell?
If you not jus go back to hell (hell)
Tired of seeing a perfect girl in my eyes
But you really a demon in disguise 
Maybe I don't care 
But don't stare 
Just want and need you 
Broke too much, yea me too

Difference between I want an I need you
Lately need a girl yea I need you
Change myself so much to please you
Still heartbroken with a breeze too
I don't want… I need you yeah I need you"

I Need You

Sometimes we don't need to say anything. Let's just be silent for once.

SOL "Silent Voices"
SOL Studio

Lyrics:
"Let's not ruin this with our voices
Thought too much with my choices
Got lost in all of life's noises (noises)
I talk too much, don't feel that rush
Girl that's my crutch, numb don't give a fuck
Silent voice won't speak up
Silent voice… don't fuck up (fuck up)

I get lost in my head 
Stare up from my bed
Fill my heart with dread 
Be happy but I'm dead
Want someone spend some time with me
Want someone can you open your mind with me
Don't need to talk, don't need to walk
Just sit with me
Take a hit with me
Get lost with me 
Forget the cost with me
No need for talking (talking talking)

Let's not ruin this with our voices
Thought up too much with my choices
Got lost in all of life's noises (noises)
I talk too much, don't feel that rush
Girl that's my crutch, numb don't give a fuck
Silent voice won't speak up
Silent voice… don't fuck up (fuck up)

Just shut up, voices in my head get louder
Just shut up, really can't believe I allowed her
Break my heart with ease
Jus flow away in a breeze 
Disappear in the background
Disappear won't make a sound
Will you find me? Remind me
What is love? Find it above
Do I have to die to be at peace
Only time I get silence is if I decease 
Just spend your time with me
Join me and lose your mind with me

Let's not ruin this with our voices
Thought up too much with my choices
Got lost in all of life's noises (noises)
I talk too much, don't feel that rush
Girl that's my crutch, numb don't give a fuck
Silent voice won't speak up
Silent voice… don't fuck up (fuck up)"

Silent Voices

Life And Love are a trip.

SOL "Life And Love"
SOL Studio

Lyrics:
"Hop on the phone 
Still feel alone 
I space out
Got my lace out
Life and love got me trippin
Grippin on to reality 
Just can't face my reality (reality)

Life an love sum I've been hatin 
It hurts what I've been facin
Life goin good then I fuck up
I say too much jus need to shut up
Tired of the sad shit? I am too
With my music it’s always blue
Love been fuckin my head
Been fucked in the head
Can I jus lay in the bed
Stay till I'm dead
Not depressed just need a deep rest
Till then I just…

Hop on the phone 
Still feel alone 
Too often I space out
Too often got my lace out
Life and love got me trippin
Grippin on to reality 
Just can't face my reality (reality)

Do I really deserve love, deserve life?
Deserve to go above, deserve a wife?
I did so many wrong
Why am I so wrong?
Went left, thought I was doing all right
Went dark, thought life was all bright
Never been scared to love
I’m just too scared of love
Feel I don’t deserve trust, just lust
I want just us (just us)
Want real love (real love)
But…

I’d still feel alone
I’d space out and keep the lace out
Never ending trip can’t catch a grip
Just can’t face my reality (reality reality)"

Life And Love

Somedays. Just no more...

SOL "No More"
SOL Studio

Lyrics:
"Feel like I ran out of time 
To make you mine
Does true love exist 
If it was I don't know what it is
Would you be mine could you be mine (mine)
Swear I'm losing my mind cause…

You can't be mine
No more time
No more lies
No more ties 
Can't deal with the heartbreak (break)
I think I've taken all I can take (take)

Trapped in my head can't escape 
Will you do whatever, whatever it take?
Did I make a mistake? 
Did too much but I'm not enough 
Life's a rush but it's been rough
Do what I can 
Am what i am
Never had a plan
Surprised I got hear 
Somehow alive, let's be clear 
It's a curse and a blessing 
Had my heart an was messing 
So…

You can't be mine
No more time
No more lies
No more ties 
Can't deal with the heartbreak (break)
I think I've taken all I can take (take)

Was hitting the gas but I need to brake
Living this life too fast think I need a break
Can't trust in her no more 
I need out, no door
No more please no more (more)
She's got me trapped 
Bullet to my head I'm tapped 
End of me is that a wrap? 
Heart in danger, stay with a strap"

No More

This song is for everyone out there wondering where that special someone is. 

SOL "Where Are You?"
SOL Studio

Lyrics:
"Where are you? 
I've been patiently waiting 
Complaining 
Tears raining 
I'm degrading 
Disintegrating 
Tell me where are you? (Where are you?)

Feelin lost tryna find you 
Feelings lost wanna find you
Do you even exist 
Take me to bliss
Are you only in dreams
That's how it seems
To me I'll never find you
Can you find me, someone remind you
Screaming out 

Where are you? 
I've been patiently waiting 
Complaining 
Tears raining 
I'm degrading 
Disintegrating 
Tell me where are you? (Where are you?)

Memories of the past, try to fade them
Memories I thought would last, when I made them
People who I thought were forever
Wanna see them again, now never
Come to me wherever you are 
Hope you not far 
God put me near you 
In my dreams I hear you
Is that where you'll stay 
My life the price to pay
This is my eternal torment 
For all my demons that lay dormant
Just one question…..

Where are you? 
I've been patiently waiting 
Complaining 
Tears raining 
I'm degrading 
Disintegrating 
Tell me where are you? (Where are you?)"

Where Are You

Sometimes... love hurts.

SOL "Hurting"
SOL Studio

Lyrics:
"Loves not working 
Hearts hurting (hurting)
Life's inverting 
My worlds burning (burning)
My thoughts disturbing 
See her, I'm turning 

Tried love, I really did
Fairy tale stuff since I was a kid
Was jus in a wonderland 
Love don't exist when your a man 
Love been fake to me
Love jus take from me
My peace and my sanity
These walls hear profanity 
Heard my tears rolling
Through life I'm strolling
Some days feel too broken
Inner demons have awoken 
Not the same me that I wanna be
But…

Loves not working 
Hearts hurting (hurting)
Life's inverting 
My worlds burning (burning)
My thoughts disturbing 
See her, I'm turning 

Used to love wholeheartedly
But love take a part of me 
Lately just keep to myself 
These people bad for my health
Focused on building my wealth 
Some days need some help
Want and need a girl 
My everything, be my pearl
My everything, be my world
But I'm just hurting 
Love jus hurt me
And love….

Loves not working 
Hearts hurting (hurting)
Life's inverting 
My worlds burning (burning)
My thoughts disturbing 
See her, I'm turning"

Hurting

For those out there still looking. Hoping and waiting.

SOL "Only You"
SOL Studio

Lyrics:
"That's all I want, only you
Love me if it's only true 
Give me all of you 
I want me an you
Me an only you (only you)

I want some love truly 
Demons been tryna rule me 
Im not who I use to 
Don't wanna lose you
Took my brain and my heart
Love, dont know where to start
Lately im falling apart 
At the seams and it seems to me
All this just seems to be
Fake the system is broken 
Relapse im back to smokin 
Mirrors been hard to face 
Too fast livin fast pace
Are you even real 
My heart yours to steal 

That's all I want, only you
Love me if it's only true 
Give me all of you 
I want me an you
Me an only you (only you)

I just want to mean something to someone
Anything at all especially for that one
Will you last with me
Look at the past with with me 
Or will you take the last of me
My hearts the glass of me
Constantly shattered 
Constantly tattered
Tears raining 
Feelings fading 
No point in saying 
Anything this is just me 
Forever will I be? 
Will she find me, guess we’ll see
All I want is you
Will your love be true
Just give me all of you (you you)

That's all I want, only you
Love me if it's only true 
Give me all of you 
I want me an you
Me an only you (only you)"

Numbin

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