Lyrics~la belle dame sans merci (defrosting)

i thought i was dreaming
cause i could see clearly 
but it's just my windshield defrosting 

i thought i was happy
cause i could feel everything
but it's just the Cold, biting 

forgot where i was driving
thought i had you right beside me
in the passenger seat, defining
the terms of which i'm tethered to
the earthly ties that bind me
watching intently
you were looking right through me 
where'd you go? 

i guess that i've been wandering 
through all the spaces in between 
carefully balancing
but the lines are all blurring 

i thought i was dreaming
cause i could see clearly 
but it's just my windshield defrosting 

i thought i was happy
cause i could feel everything
but it's just the cold, biting 

your attention shifted
like i couldn't hold it
broke my heart to see that 
our two Worlds were drifting apart
reality was slipping 
and i knew it'd take you with it 
did you expect me to stay?
watching intently 
you were looking right through me
where'd you go? 

i thought i was dreaming
cause i could see clearly 
but it's just my windshield defrosting 

i thought i was happy
cause i could feel everything
but it's just the Cold, biting

as the world falls down

Produced by @aspisking thank you for the lovely music, my friend
Cover art courtesy of Playboy Japan 1978

LYRICS:

I invest all my energy
In the ones not invested in me
I can’t help but love the ones who
Treat me like they’ve nothing to lose

I will go to the extreme
Do what they’d never do for me

I’ll twist and turn and tumble down
Just for them to let me down

Let me down, let me down
They all just let me, let me down

Let me down
I dare you to let me down, let me down

I will not be the one this time
I will not let you kill my pride
I will not be the one to fight
I won’t feel so lonely tonight

I will pick up all my broken bones

I will pick up all my broken bones
I will not let you shatter
Any of my dreams and goals
You know that I am getting better

I dare you to let me down

I dare you to let me down
Watch me come up watch me now
Promise you won’t catch me frown
I’m playing with the big boys now

When I scream you will listen to me
When I cry don’t pretend not to see
So you think that you’re better than me?
Let me down then maybe we’ll see

I’ll be quick to let you go

I’ll be quick to let you go
If you cannot let me know
How you feel and let it show
I’m not playing games with you

I will pick up all my broken bones

I will pick up all my broken bones 
I will not let you shatter
Any of my dreams and goals
You know that I am getting better

I dare you to let me down

I dare you to let me down
Watch me come up watch me now
I dare you to let me down
Watch me come up watch me now 

I dare you to let me down
I dare you to let me down
I dare you to let me down

I Dare You To Let Me Down (prod. ASP)

Produced by the always inspiring @aspisking
Cover art by yours truly (feat. Takiyasha The Witch and the Skeleton Spectre)

LYRICS:
waking up is hard to do
waking up is hard to do
waking up is hard to do
waking up is hard to do

i’m going mad, can’t tell what’s real anymore
but i’m not scared, i like being out of control
i’m seeing ghosts
they’re growing bolder, too

are they really there?
i don’t like the way they stare at me
they stare at me

but i like when i am going crazy
makes me feel like just maybe
i’m not just another normie 
and these people can’t ignore me

she’s dreaming (sleeping) peaceful
let her just lay still

i go to sleep for entertainment
waking up is hard to do
when you feel like you’re fading
and all these spells i try to do
well they can’t really save me
my soul’s projecting through the roof
it don’t wanna stay in me
this vessel that i carry
is getting kind of heavy
thinks everyone’s so scary
and they don’t really like me
they don’t really like me

she’s dreamin peaceful
let her just lay still

through my insanity
i got someone to hold me
and even if it’s nothing
reminds me i can still feel something
this must be how it should be
like there’s no need to rush me
or act like i am something
that you want me to be
instead of just being me

i go to sleep for entertainment
waking up is hard to do 
when you feel like you’re fading
let’s just lay here dreaming
not thinking of what could be
just in your presence, sleeping
my dreams slowly erasing
all my present memories
replacing them with these things
they’re not real, it’s deceiving

waking up is hard to do 
when you feel like you’re fading
and i could live this life with you
but i prefer the dream me
waking up is hard to do when you feel like you’re fading 
waking up is hard to do when you feel like you’re fading

Waking Up Is Hard To Do (prod. ASP)

huge fucking shout out to @suede5001 for featuring on this track with his smooth ass vocals and @novamore for producing the most fire beat, like always. much love to you guys.

LYRICS:
(spacelyss)
boy i know that you wanna murder me
get my blood in a baggie and call it groceries
wrap your hands round my throat till my soul's leaving me
but i can't let you be
and you can't let me leave

baby please can you stop teasing me?
just do it, if you do it, can you do it slowly?

(spacelyss + suede)
knife to the neck
or a blow to the head
i don't care long as we staying in bed
if i come back babe let's do it again
ghost sex would be dope man
i meant what i said

(suede)
crazy in love yeah we be
(spacelyss)
shut the fuck up
(suede)
but i'm in love just let me be
(spacelyss)
just fuck me up
(suede)
cut me open watch me bleed
(spacelyss)
if you draw blood, are we in love?

(spacelyss)
i've got bloodlust
don't want your love
can we just fuck?
is that enough?
fuck me like a ghost
like a demon
like i'm broke
bone me like a skeleton
stroke till you're alive again

(suede)
i love when you acting malicious
my baby acting so vicious
fucking around in the kitchen
telling me that she gon love when i visit
vividly painting an image
she living and doing her thing
yeah she got couple a kinks
making some love by the beach
and choking until she can't breathe
the beauty in love with the beast

i know you still think about me
know you still think about me
you should've thought about we
thought about us and what we gonna be
even if we weren't a thing
your loving belonging to me
hop back in my life
forget that we cut off all ties
i know you still think bout the times
hands on your thighs
watching you ride
back when that loving was mine

fuck me up

(spacelyss)
i've got bloodlust
don't want your love
can we just fuck?
is that enough?
fuck me like a ghost
like a demon
like i'm broke
bone me like a skeleton
stroke till you're alive again

boy you did it, yeah you fuckin murdered me
i will haunt you, i will taunt you till we getting back to we
i'll kill you in your nightmares
you know that i don't play fair
i'm not the girl of your dreams
don't even know what that mean

(spacelyss + suede)
don't even know what that means
feeling like i'm seventeen again

(suede)
i been here just thinking bout you when i'm with my friends
ain't no end to this love
girl you fly just like a dove

(spacelyss + suede)
if you really tryna fuck
just know that we'd be having fun

(spacelyss)
i've got bloodlust
don't want your love
can we just fuck?
is that enough?
fuck me like a ghost
like a demon
like i'm broke
bone me like a skeleton
stroke till you're alive again

murder me feat. suede (prod. novae)

LYRICS:

you wrap your name tight around my ribs and keep me warm
each letter a small piece of you that i adorn
you write your love between my bones
tell me your thoughts through a lovers poem
i curl and bend and tuck myself in
fold and keep you close with a pin

i'll walk tenderly still so as not to spill
or break any bones with your love all filled

(you live in my bones and i'll walk so tenderly
to not spill anything that binds you to me)

wrap yourself around my skin
wrap your hands around my throat
i can find you underneath me
i can find you in my sleep
please find me in my sleep
find me....

the etchings in my ribs (prod. ASP)

LYRICS:

I’ll move states
Put on black lace for you
Wash my face and
See the world in shades of blue 
Golden framed 
Masterpiece ornate
Pull back my bangs 
'Cause I’m not afraid 
Virgin and the babe 
Haloed cherubs sang

A gallery of priceless memories
The rain will smudge them oh so perfectly 
Blend the colors and we’ll watch them bleed
Turn the canvas to an ocean scene
A movie sequence, picture perfect sea
Tainted grey from faded memory
Vivid moss beneath a weeping tree
We’ll forget that the world was once so green
We'll forget that the world was once so green

Living life like little spiders
Weaving webs, not counting hours
Let us string a sticky home
Delicate and intricately woven
Moments connect iridescent 
Wrapping prey up like a present
Letting winters come and go
And wash away all that we know 

Underwater breath
Salute the sun
Unafraid of death 
Our kingdom come 
Unlock the fire
Face the flames
All I desire
Is in your name 

A gallery of priceless memories
The rain will smudge them oh so perfectly 
Blend the colors and we’ll watch them bleed
Turn the canvas to an ocean scene
A movie sequence, picture perfect sea
Tainted grey from faded memory
Vivid moss beneath a weeping tree
We’ll forget that the world was once so green
We'll forget that the world was once so green, green
The world was once so green

We'll Forget The World Was Once So Green

LYRICS: 

I can’t be anything other than who I am
And I will show you I love you in any way I can

If I pluck you from the ground
And make a crown
Or take apart your working parts
And place your perfect beating heart
Inside my chest
Are you content
To never part
To lie awake whispering in the dark

I can’t be anything other than who I am
And I will show you I love you in any way I can
I can’t be anything other than who I am
And I will show you I love you in any way I can

The leaves are falling from the trees
Scattering evidence of the season
The sun is setting golden hue
The day stretches on as I long for you
Short winter days gone
I know the wait
Has doubled each day
Before you return to me
This the bittersweet Spring

We'll sleep for months or years on end still passing time too fast again
Too fast again
We'll sleep for months or years on end still passing time too fast again

Passing Time Too Fast Again

LYRICS:

I apologize 
I’m not always kind
To your curves and lines 
You should know that you shine
I see it some of the time 

I know, I know, I know it takes
A lot, a lot out of you each day
To see yourself through
Loving your body’s hard to do
When you’re looking into
Car reflections and rear views

I want to love you
Seaside goddess
I want to see you
Like a classicist sees Venus 

I know, I know, I know it takes
A lot, a lot out of you each day
To see yourself through
Loving your body’s hard to do
When you’re looking into
Car reflections and rear views

I want to love you
Seaside goddess

I apologize 
I’m not always kind
To your curves and lines 
You should know that you shine
You should see it all the time 

I want to love you
Seaside goddess
I want to see you 
Like a classicist sees Venus
I want to love you
Seaside goddess
I want to see you
Like a classicist sees Venus

Birth Of Venus

LYRICS:

Memory melancholy
Memory melancholy, melancholy

Your memory’s a graveyard
The ghosts won’t show themselves
You don’t remember things you did
A month ago 
The wasteland of your mind
Swallows days whole
No matter how you try 
Your storage is full
Nothing saves anymore 

Memory melancholy
Memory melancholy

So you write a journal
Or you take more photos
But just can’t seem to find
A feeling familiar 
Captured inside 
When you die 
Will you remember the life 
Flashing before your eyes?

If I met me as a child
Would I recognize her smile?
That double chin, squinty-eyed
Innocent and wild 
Would I follow her up the willow tree?
Climb to the top and sing to fairies
No need to speak, with ease to breathe 

Memory melancholy
Memory melancholy
Memory melancholy
Memory melancholy, melancholy

Memory Melancholy (feat. Novae)

Link to Home Movie: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FO2YP8vy5xU&feature=youtu.be

LYRICS:

Wake up disoriented
Spinning in my head
Clinging to the silence
Daring sound to break it 

I walk lightly, every step
Passenger of body I’m in
Crows are cawing 
Like a daunting
Defiance of dead
Daring desolate disorient to rise and try again
Pounding feet on the cement
Will I sink or will I swim?
I know this world is bound to win 
So I force a breath
And take a step
Look around
And look within 

Will I sink or will I swim? 
Will I sink or will I swim? 

Fuck your expectations 
And fuck your explanations
Fuck the lies 
But fuck the truth
Don’t break my bliss, I’ll be consumed 
Fuck the lies
Fuck the lies and fuck the truth
Fuck your expectations 
And fuck your explanations
Fuck the lies 
But fuck the truth
Don’t break my bliss, I’ll be consumed 

Wake up disoriented
Spinning in my head
Clinging to the silence
Daring sound to break it

As I ponder on my sleep
Try interpreting my dreams
Life keeps passing 
So distracting 
Can’t seem to find a meaning

Will I sink or will I swim?
Will I sink or will I swim?

Fuck your expectations
Fuck your explanations
Fuck the lies
Fuck the truth
Don’t break my bliss, I’ll be consumed
Fuck the lies
Fuck the lies and fuck the truth
Fuck your expectations 
And fuck your explanations
Fuck the lies 
But fuck the truth
Don’t break my bliss, I’ll be consumed

Don't Break My Bliss

LYRICS:

Performing’s fucking hard 
But I'm here with open arms
I'm exposing all my thoughts 
To these strangers in the room
Feeling like a monsoon's
Swelling up inside my eyes
But I got on no disguise
I guess I’ll just decide
To be myself and it’ll be good
But if they ever understood
Who I saw inside the mirror
Maybe they would disappear 
Basic interactions
Give me no satisfaction
But I can’t get much deeper
'Cause I can see the reaper
He’s creeping
While I’m sleeping
Oh wait I’m still awake
It’s getting hard to differentiate 
There’s that feeling that I hate 
It crawls in like a snake
Squeezing, suffocating my whole brain
And I'm going insane 

Can I designate this place as a safe space?
So I don’t get that bitter taste 
And I can look into your face 
Without feeling like I’m gonna faint

I hate my violent visions
Terrified I’ll manifest them
I hate my violent visions 
Terrified I’ll manifest them
I hate my violent visions
Terrified I’ll manifest them

I cry from fear
I feel the danger
Footsteps quick
My bloodied body
Makes me sick
I can’t stop
It’s all too much
But not enough
It’s all too much

There’s shadows in my brain now
And I’m going insane how
I always say the same shit
But they still don’t understand it 

Sinking down in the earth 
Down in my skin, yeah down through my bones 
I’ll disintegrate through sedimentary stone then 
I’ll sit and wait for the crows
To come and pick me apart, I wanna be buried alone

Can I designate this place as a safe space?
So I don’t get that bitter taste 
And I can look into your face 
Without feeling like I’m gonna faint

I hate my violent visions
Terrified I’ll manifest them
I hate my violent visions 
Terrified I’ll manifest them
I hate my violent visions
Terrified I’ll manifest them
I hate my violent visions
Terrified I'll manifest them

Violent Visions (feat. Novae)

LYRICS:

I take your emotions and make them mine
Let it all fall from the skies

We’re quarantined in retrograde
While you’re asleep I watch your face
For signs of truth, signs of light
Parting clouds inside your mind
Just like rainshine 

I take your emotions
And make them mine
Let it all fall from the skies 
You’re an ocean in disguise
We stand outside in rainshine

I think I fall for you every day
I’d really like it if you’d stay 
But where you go I’ll make my home
You shine a light onto my soul
Just like rainshine

You’re so patient, teaching me to skate
I’ll keep trying despite the scrapes
Bloody knuckles and bruised knees
Meet in the grass under a tree
Just like rainshine

I take your emotions
And make them mine
Let it all fall from the skies 
You’re an ocean in disguise 
We stand outside in rainshine

I take your emotions
And make them mine
Let it all fall from the skies 
You’re an ocean in disguise 
We stand outside in rainshine

Rainshine (prod. Novae)

Prod. Spacelyss

LYRICS:
Oh I'm frustrated (Ugh!)
'Cause I can't save myself
I want to turn if off (Off)
I'm filled all with doubt
Oh I'm upset, yeah (Ugh!)
'Cause you turned all my trust
To the opposite of love
I'm scared and I've become obsessed
I'm frustrated

I can't stop watching that, watching that blue dot
I can't stop chasing down, chasing down my thoughts
And it's not fair 'cause you're the one who messed it up
And it's not fair 'cause I'm the one who's all fucked up
Feels like I'm begging for your love
And it's humiliating
Yeah it feels so degrading

Touch me even if you don't mean it
Tell me I'm pretty even if you don't see it
Say you love me even if you don't feel it
Oh baby, I need it

Oh I'm frustrated (Ugh!)
'Cause I can't save myself
I want to turn it off (Off)
I'm filled all with doubt
Oh I'm upset, yeah (Ugh!)
'Cause you turned all my trust
To the opposite of love
I'm scared and I've become obsessed
I'm frustrated
I'm frustrated

I'm frustrated
I'm frustrated 
I'm frustrated

Frustrated (Ugh!)

spacelyss: 1. having no limits; boundless. 2. occupying no space

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