just rad stuff

so as you've probably guessed by my lack of uploading anything for years that aches. is defunct. this is what i've chosen to put out as my last song. it began as two songs, one about my mother and one about the vices that rule my current life and i just decided to put them together.

oh, i was adored, but now i'm ignored because you're bored. laugh, i hope you laugh. no, don't feel bad for all the fun you've had. tell your friends to put the cigarettes away, i don't want you dying young. i am sold that when i get old you'll be cold and you won't hold me. love, i've said enough. i would shut up but downs the only way that i can shut. hi, let's socialize but never realize the things that make us die might be the things we like. so let's sit and cry about not getting what we want sometimes. try, and try again. you'll get there when you've given up already. be a friend, come back home, i'm alone. days are gone, but i'm not calling. looking back, yeah, i would've done different. i'm not gonna lie, decadence is screwing me, i can't wait to die.

I NEED YOU GUYS TO BRING THE ATTITUDE IN YOUR FACE

SMILES UP, AND THE CLOTHES GO UP

NOW GET SOME SWAG YOU BUNCH OF BITCHES

Decadence

onceagain

made this track and wrote to it today - i really just need to put this out so i can feel like i've completed something cuz i did absolutely nothing but lay around and make music all day

i hope you like it

(lyrics!)

i need to not pick up my phone
i’ll go straight to airplane mode
find something to do i know
i can be a little bit cold

but my third eye
is going blind
i’m unaligned
with my body and mind
its playing tricks
i say "i’m fine"
but really it's hurtin' me deep inside

cuz
i’ve been dreaming bout you
i’ve been wishin that i was next to you
i've been dreaming of us
i've been thinking this is not a need or a must

but
love has treated me so so wrong
this year all i've got to show are songs
and i want to be 
super duper true
to you 
but god i don’t know what to do
cuz last year i was just 22
feels like it up and flew
so far away and out of view
but 23 seems like me and you  

cuz
i’ve been dreaming bout you
i’ve been wishin i was next to you
i’ve been dreaming of us
i’ve been thinking this is not a need or a must

i know sometimes i make you feel insane
i'm sorry thats just how i play this stupid game
i can't act like a child and disobey
all that you want from me and that you say
im sorrryyyyy baby
pleeeese puppy 
i’m trying to be
ultra mega happy
and show you my smile 
and send you my feelings 
and fuck - it is so hard 
being so damn far
i guess i’ll just stay here 
and..
stay singing in my car?
(i'll sing in my car)

i’ve been dreaming bout you
i’ve been wishin i was next to you
i’ve been dreaming of us
i’ve been thinking this is not a need or a must

but
i've been waiting on you
i've been waiting for you to tell me those three words too
cuz
i've been hoping it's true
that one day i'll feel like i am something real for you

airplane mode

autumn nights

Much love to https://soundcloud.com/iamjsan for helping me on this track!

his guitar skills are crazy <33

big thanks to crazy talented photography and producer, https://soundcloud.com/kokogane for the artwork!

i hope you enjoy this track as it is pretty special to me <33

from your lil boy, ok2222

<a href='https://theartistunion.com/tracks/e3999c'>Download for free on The Artist Union</a>

ok2222 x j'san. - my world

tried something different for once oof

Coverart done by me

Sample : Grover Washington Jr- Just the two of us

Just the two of us

leaving you (a message) ft. shiloh

*~bling-blaow~* (free to download)

i sang on this one hahaha wow

[art by @cat_naps]

Stream / Buy

taste of your love

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saturday

Pretend

cheesecake (feat. No Oranges)

BoogieBounce

I'm Fine

...i'm sorry i had to do this

it's 3 am and this song has been stuck in my head for the last two weeks from the random tik tok ads on snapchat
I'm doing everything I can to make it go away....and NOTHING has worked ;-;
but hopefully posting a small cover of the song will do the trick

thank you for bearing with me <3

Baby I'm Yours ft. Irfane - Breakbot (Maori Kinjo cover)

Spotify: spoti.fi/2mkmxfT
Apple Music: apple.co/2kotnQW

See You Next Summer

Yokohama Sunset

Spotify!

no te

im clementine
ill come right in and change your life
i’ll disappear over night
you wouldn’t know i changed my mind

im clementine 
nothing that you say is right
i’m the one to start the fight
no nothing that you say is right

nothing makes sense to me, no
ill erase you from my memory
nothing makes sense to me, no
ill erase you from my memory

im clementine 
sure ill stay right by your side
impulsive and ridden by 
contradict my own demise

im clementine
soon you’ll come to realize
i was just a waste of time
ill leave in peace and pay no mind

nothing makes sense to me, no
ill erase you from my memory
nothing makes sense to me, no
ill erase you from my memory

i'm clementine

https://open.spotify.com/track/2DWLEPG9AHNPtAfKGcAtIb?si=o2nuVDKDScmUPyziCFEWSg

<3 </3 <3
I'm finished with this
Unfinished business
Go ahead and dry your tears,No need to overthink it 
Looking in my rearview mirror, I only see this sinking

So go on and let go
Just go on and let go

Half baked memories are the only thing that I still feel
Self made remedies are the only things that let me heal
Stuck in my home alone, these walls they never sing along
I think of those skin and bones that used to help me write these wrong

So go on and let go 
Just go on and let go
So go on and let go 
Just go on and let go. . .
<3 </3 <3

Rearview

this one is about remembering someone you used to be close with and wishing you still had that bond

just rad stuff

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