seems a lil quiet over here spawn what the heck?

october lies with u - this is us

stay inside please

hating throwaway prod me

in love w the way it was
i cant go back i cant go back
in love w the way it was
i cant go back i cant go back

knew when i saw ur face
id ash away id ash away
tell me that you will stay
that you will stay that you will stay

(hook)

october lies with u - back

can't seem to take the distance
i've been gone and you've been missing
after all this time can't stop myself from feeling i've abandoned you

in the meantime, outside infatuated by streetlights
in a minute catch a train going southbound
just so i can sit and stare at your street sign
and bittersweetly ill ask for a ride back home
from the friends i only call when i feel alone
and to my surprise they have all said no
so i'll claw at the side of your parents home
but theres no one home again

blood dripping on the shirt you got me
raggedy and ruined its not hard to spot me
just a reminder that i ruin everything
did i ruin everything, have i ruined everything
blood dripping on the shirt you got me
raggedy and ruined its not hard to spot me
just a reminder that i ruin everything
did i ruin everything, have i ruined everything
blood dripping on the shirt you got me
raggedy and ruined its not hard to spot me
just a reminder that i ruin everything
i think i've ruined everything, i ruin everything

can't seem to take the distance
i've been gone and you've been missing
after all this time can't stop myself from feeling i've abandoned you


in the meantime, outside infatuated by streetlights
in a minute catch a train going southbound
just so i can sit and stare at your street sign
and bittersweetly ill ask for a ride back home    (blood dripping on the shirt you got me)
from the friends i only call when i feel alone    (raggedy and ruined its not hard to spot me)
and to my surprise they have all said no           (just a reminder that i ruin everything)
so i'll claw at the side of your parents home      (i think i've ruined everything, i ruin everything)
but theres no one home again

missing

mascara running down and your brothers off a downer
no good influence around, full disrespect to your father
i told her please don't make a sound, i don't mean to be a bother

but i think we should skip this town, nothing good for us around here
i don't think you deserve this, look perfect on your worst days
keep on tryna hide it, but we both know that you're hurting
i don't think you deserve this, look better on your worst days
keep on tryna hide it, but we both know that you're hurting, you're hurting

mascara running down and your brothers off a downer
no good influence around, full disrespect to your father
i told her please don't make a sound, i don't mean to be a bother
but i think we should skip this town, nothing good for us around here

mascara

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not what you wanted

in love with the feeling 
(prod. @prodxy1va & spawn)

manic w/ @prodpishogue

yearn w/ @holdmetillicry 
(prod. spawn)

if life's a dream, wake me 
(prod. spawn)

head full of lies w/ @osoarin 
(prod. noah birch)

fade 
(prod. spawn)

feelings mutual w/ @suicideimar & @sstrained
(prod. spawn)

past tense
(prod. spawn)

memorial
(prod. spawn)

just another day
(prod. catmom4)

yearn w/ holdmetillicry

amnesia

highway

Surreal and hypnotic, this track blends dream-rock with tango mysticism.
It’s a trance — a room without walls, where every second drips like rain.

Tango of the Undying is a dark, hypnotic fusion of psychedelic rock and tango noir — a ritual of life, death, and desire.
Through smoke and rhythm, each song becomes a confession whispered to the night.
This is not an album — it’s a dance with the inevitable, a heartbeat shared with death and passion intertwined.
Haunting baritone vocals echo Morrison’s ghost, while Rhodes organs, bandoneons, and burning guitars paint a crimson stage where love bleeds and beauty refuses to die.
You don’t listen to this record — you feel it breathing through your bones.

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