songs i worked on <3

Digicore Fr (swazy* x pk)

~ aulasy ~ 
n. the sadness that there is no way to convey a powerful memory to people who weren't there at the time; driving past your childhood home to show it to a friend, or pointing at a picture of a loved one you lost, only to realize that to them it's just another house, just another face.

prod. by @billy_exclamationpoint
mastered by @alisynn

dolorem obscura

aulasy

~ alexithymia ~
n. a neuropsychological phenomenon expressing important difficulties in identifying and describing the experienced emotions by oneself or others. It also involves emotional issues in terms of social attachment and interpersonal relations. There is no scientific agreement whether this neuropsychological phenomenon is a personality trait, a medical symptom or eventually a mental disorder.

prod. by me and @bdsm2
mastered by @alisynn

alexithymia (outro)

@rbkmade @eerrepe @bdsm2 @d4niboi @littlefaithmusic

13 writers putting pen to paper, 65 musicians composing pieces inspired by their writing, and 26 visual artists tying everything together with a cover illustration. From April 23rd to May 13th, 2023, these 104 creatives came together with one goal: to tell a story. The result amounted to thirteen beautiful tracks, rich with emotion, excitement, and wonder.

Stories take on infinitely many forms. A child's drawing. A home-cooked meal. A recount of the day given by someone returning home to their spouse. They do not have to be written, nor spoken with any amount of poetry or decorative language; they simply exist. Here's to the stories we tell. Whether written, drawn, or sang, whether a fantastic fable or a solemn look into the human experience, they all carry weight. We have no greater obligation than to simply tell them in whatever way we know how. 

All proceeds from Storybook: Chapter 2 will be donated to Active Minds, an organization supporting mental health awareness and education for young adults. 

Active Minds: https://www.activeminds.org/
FORM: https://artbyform.com/
Cover by Furuza & yungmaple: https://www.instagram.com/furuza10/, https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmJGBkO6bXwc_FoGCDbHYwA
Story by 0TS: https://twitter.com/0tsxl
Read the full story: https://storybook2.artbyform.com/

i’m a perfectionist
and you’re perfection to me
i just can’t take it anymore
i secretly adore, from across the room

can i handle your hair?
promise me you wont care
even if i mess it up
you complete me baby,
you’ve got me lovestruck

when i thought i was happy as i could be
i found you and no one's ever meant so much to me
i only wish this could last forever
love every second that we spend together
and when i feel your hands running through my hair
i could drift off to sleep without a care
in my dreams im as light as a feather
but i still hear it when you whisper that

i'm obsessive
i use your locks in my pursuit of perfection
i run my hands through and i make the corrections
it's got my attention
the scalp i'm caressing

the things you do to make me show you affection
give me your worries and let go of your tension
your hair eternally under my protection
i'm all out of breath and
i feel the connection

i’m a perfectionist (ooh darling)
and you’re perfection to me
i just can’t take it anymore (take it anymore)
i secretly adore, from across the room

can i handle your hair?
promise me you wont care
even if i mess it up
you complete me baby,
you’ve got me lovestruck

my heart will never be perfect
cuz sometimes it needs to skip a beat
cuz you mean everything to me
(i hope you're worth it)

i'm obsessive
using your locks in my pursuit of perfection
i run my hands through and i make the corrections

these feeling will never fade
am i okay? (am i okay)
am i okay? (am i okay)
you...

pull me in with just one touch
i never i'd be enough
never thought i'd fall in love
but you fixed that
how did you fix that?

View/Download/Stream

rbk made, errepe, 111robloxdude, daniboi & Little Faith - in perfection's hands

@bdsm2 @bottlnose @lun_d @netparasite @tdw3 @xochase

"right here, in this moment" is an album created in a week, may 15 - may 22 2023 as a collaboration between sleepy.zone and SLUMBERPARTY

cover art by @yungmaple

thank you everyone for participating

YOU ARE THE PROBLEM (111robloxdude, bottlnose, Lundy, netparasite, tdw, xochase!)

fought tooth and nail to escape the dungeon

better off (cnt sleep remix) feat speal, jauntsen, tdw (kbl)

tdw:
i sat by the window
thinking about you
that was when i was fifteen
still feels like 2 damn weeks ago
and oooh
i still can't get you out of my head
cinnamon and tire swings
before my thoughts were tiring
as a kid, life was so inspiring
now my brain is turning against me
but i still cant get you out of my head

111robloxdude:
oooh
it was so quiet 'til you sent me that text
nooo
the butterflies were flyin'
while i was driftin' to bed
and now i stay awake
your face is burned into my iris
and all i write is you
it feels like nothing is brand new
i can't help it

can't get you out of my head w/ 111robloxdude (Nowhere Valley)

||you just gotta wait||

~track [10/?]

🦋 \\ credits // 🦋
+vox from
@corefish
+ co writing credits 
@insertsonghere

art by me and @insertsonghere

prod me.
mix + master by me :3

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[intro] ~ @jauntsen
I’ve been looking at the countdown
hoping it’ll be better by tomorrow
their words I’ll have to drown out
It will be better by tomorrow

{{tts}}
you are now listening to butterfly effect.

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
you said that you got it, i want it, be honest
the answer, i found out, i think that, i lost it 
i'm spinning, i'm nauseous, there's no way, to stop
your airways, are toxic, quit breathing, quit talking
i can't wait for sudden changes
or ill fuck up my life throw it all away
just give me a time and place
a period of grace

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
just give me a week
give me a month
maybe I’ll find out what I want
just give me a break
there is no escape
I’ve lived my whole just to rinse and repeat

[post hook] ~ @jauntsen
things will all be be better by tomorrow
It will be better by tomorrow
you just gotta wait

[bridge] ~ @jauntsen
If you want time to yourself
don't abuse it and turn into waste
cos lifes not a game
so why are we playing with me
as society plays with your brain
you talk all the same
run in a circle the rules are to blame 
you don't even know my name

[verse 2] ~ @corefish
I'm far gone enough just to suffer again
hold on to love but I cannot defend 
obvious things aren't the same as they could have been 
now I rinse this body clean 
I'm always afraid of what I couldn't sense
it's all in the plan and the pain heaven sent 
now I've been thinking bout you with cold feet just hold me 
pockets heavy and you told me
"just give me a week"

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
just give me a week
give me a month
maybe I’ll find out what I want
just give me a break
there is no escape
I’ve lived my whole just to rinse and repeat

[post hook] ~ @jauntsen
things will all be be better by tomorrow
it will be better by tomorrow
you just gotta wait.

spotify !

rinse & repeat +corefish

COVER BY @biggart_ on twitter (help by @111robloxdude & @gasstationpercs)

ONE WEEK, 12 SONGS, 15 ARTISTS, ONE ALBUM

discord.gg/slumberpartyhq

begging to die - Lundy As "Σταρ Πειρατής" & 111robloxdude

~ why'd u eclipse my sun? ~
prod: 111robloxdude (@insertsonghere)

-
Fall in you, hit the ground, hear me out
Call my name when in doubt, I'm around
But you don't seem like yourself anyhow
Anyhow
You've been gone, so I keep taking downs
Head will spin, sad again, disavowed
It's hard to write when you find every word that I want to hear

But do you find that peace of mind with some other guy?
How redundant am I?
Oh, why can't my life be so perfect and nice?
Heart broke too many times without even going outside
I try to

Sober up, and don't point fault
It's not like you don't care at all
But things are tough, and I'm just too far and he's exactly where you are
I can't save face, it's getting tough
To watch you choose where you give the love
You gave me light, but now it's gone
Why'd you eclipse my sun?

Take a breath, tear me down, take a bow
Show is done, watch you run, see you ‘round
Don’t have a choice, can't avoid all the things that we would talk about
I kept on hearing you out
Now I’m stuck in between what you wanted from me
And what I want to be, oh I thought you would leave
The choice that you made, it was wrong I’m afraid
Now there's nothing to get me to stay

'Cause I watched you cry when I said goodbye
I can't sleep at night, how unwanted am I?
Oh, why can't this time be so perfect and nice?
Heart broke too many times, but I guess that it's just my design
I'm struggling, my spirit will plummet, I’ll

Sober up, and don't point fault
It's not like you don't care at all
But things are tough, and I'm just too far and he's exactly where you are
I can't save face, it's getting tough
To watch you choose where you give the love
You gave me light, but now it's gone
Why'd you eclipse my sun?

borderline

eclipse

||until then i'm lost||

prod me ykyky 
co written with @insertsonghere

thank u for the awesome year even though i didn't post much, next year is stronger :3


🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[intro] ~ @jauntsen
If you have a question
I could answer it
I need to break the ice
I’d leave a nice impression and just a little hint
Our fire can suffice

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
until our paths cross
I promise i will be ok
Until then i’m lost
I still have my memories 
that you must of forgot
I’ll remind you who i am 
Doesn’t matter what's the cost

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
time moves slowly
but my heart is speeding up
thinkin’ am i out of luck
to find you, to find you
you, you, you, you
i can never get enough 
i can't seem to give it up.

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
If you have a question
I could answer it
I need to break the ice
until our paths cross
I promise i will be ok
until then i’m lost

until our paths cross

NOT23 (prod. Speal)

cut song off the album 
circa feb 2024

🦋 \\ credits // 🦋
+prod
@jaunsen 
+ additional synths from
@speal

mix + master by me~

🦋 \\ lyrics // 🦋

[verse] ~ @jauntsen
If i'm being honest
your running out of time
the only chance you’ll ever get is something you don’t like
cause you know, exactly what you want so
why can’t you make up your mind
she’s telling me to run with all these thoughts that aren't mine
you know, i got know where left to go now

cause you know, exactly what you want so

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
why do i have to be
always stuck in the process
cause you don’t have what you need
If i’m just being honest
I only do it for your sake
like i'm you're number 1 target
cause you don’t have what it takes
If i’m just being honest

[verse 2] ~ @jauntsen
you know, exactly what you want
but i don’t, i’ll leave it in the dust when i go
and make it for both of us,
this is our home
that wasn’t made for us, anyways
this isn’t my role
I’ll keep playing it, anyways
for now it's just a taste

[bridge] ~ @jauntsen
until it goes down
again (again)
stuck in this maze
and Looking for an answer.
and if i'm being honest
I don't think theres the one
I believed a fake promise
now i wanna run

until i watch the time run out
broke the hourglass
guess i’m out of luck
blank face when you stare
doesn’t look like you care
I really wish i had a way to get us out of here

and so i watch the time slow down
flipped the hourglass
guess i’m now in luck
speak your mind just to share
and pretend that you care
I really wish i had a way to get us out of here
cause i don’t really ask for much 

[hook] ~ @jauntsen
why do i have to be
always stuck in the process
cause you don’t have what you need
If i’m just being honest
I only do it for your sake
like i'm you're number 1 target
cause you don’t have what it takes
If i’m just being honest

you know, exactly what you want so

if i'm honest

i love to flex but ts gettin harder
what is a son if she turn to a daugher
what is a dad who dont act like a father
what is a dad if he dont know ur name
he dont understand you
he cant feel ur pain
losin my grip like i cant feel my reigns
if it wasnt for my mom id put a shot to my brain

tell me something i dont know bitch id like to see you try
have you ever hated yourself for making your mama cry
ive hated the way that ive talked the way that ive dressed
the way that i look
have you ever felt robbed when you aint have nothin to be took
what do you do if you didnt expect to be alive today
heartaching cause dad thankin god cause he think im not gay
puttin on an act to avoid the drama like im the star of a play
but if it was my choice id just crash the stage and bomb all of broadway

bitch, bitch
quiet down for a minute
doin what i want fuck all the limits
whos the president? man i been it
killing myself it sounds nice but i got other plans
id rather kill all the transphobes, sell out shows, and stack hella bands
girl president, screaming that till you understand
if you got a problem with me, bitch say so, you can catch these hands

sorry for all of the sad shit
i had to get it out
screaming girl president 2024
so im better now

bitch im better than you
you got a baddie well i got a few
she sit on my face just cause i like the view
got a tool on me and i aint talkin screws
get so high feel like Ewan McGregor
bringin the war and i aint talkin peppers
i turn into diamonds man fuck all the pressure
she tryna fuck cause of the way i wear my sweaters
i shoot, bam, i aint talkin adebayo
i run ts thats why its in bio

girl president thats my president x4

BITCH BITCH
THIS IS GIRL PRESIDENT
SHE SUCK ON MY DICK LIKE THAT SHIT IS SO HEAVEN SENT
DOIN MY OWN SHIT FUCK ALL THE PRECENDENTS
YOU DONT LIKE TRANS WOMEN THEN SUCK MY DICK
YOU DONT LIKE GAY PEOPLE THEN SUCK MY DICK
FUCK ISRAEL THEY CAN SUCK MY DICK
FUCK THE GOVERNMENT SUCK MY DICK 
FUCK THE RACISTS SUCK MY DICK
MYSOGNISTS YOU CAN SUCK MY DICK
FKN NAZIS YALL CAN SUCK MY DICK
ACTUALLY ALL YALL NEED TO DIE

so lets get that handled
i mean fr yall
yall need to end ur shit imma be happy as hell when yall dead

TheEnd (prod. Speal)

BigDay (prod. Speal)

birthmarks (prod. speal)

Harris/Just like me (prod speal & jinchristt

Whats the Spiel? Its Speal!

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they/he <3