tired of hiding
i cant even make mistakes
and people oversexualize me
i dont wanna be in this body
they know how to shut me
just give me some blades
think im way too drunk to see
the truth behind curtains

i dont really wanna die
i just wanna have some fun
pray i lay me in front of trains
i just wanna cut some friends
theyll be mad i get over it
talk too much ill shoot ur brains
end ur life u dont worth it
cry so loud i cant hear it

im not the one to blame
just wanna go insane
hit my head into a brick
voices tell me to bring u with me

mistakes (xandera)

me-me-me-me-me
i need it, whatd u, whatd u-
me, i, back
me-me-me-me-me
i need it, whatd u, whatd u-
me, i, back-
go!

im still trapped, i-i cant work
im still trapped, i-i cant work
im still trapped, i-i cant work
im still trapped, i-i-i-i

whatd u take from me? i need it back
put the orb back in my head
all u people want me dead
cant ever succumb again
to what they think or feel or need
sinking deep into the sheets
its what i want, not what i see
still so hard to fall asleep

cut my lungs
omen, let me run dry
it weighs too much
im not alright

im still trapped, i-i cant work
im still trapped, i-i cant work
took some action, bad idea-dea
im still, im still, im still
im still trapped, i-i cant work
im still trapped, i-i cant work
im still trapped, i-i cant
dea-dea-dea-dea

(i cant talk
i-i cant even think
im telling u, i cant do this,
why wont u believe me?)

omen - cover by spiritbreak (blackwinterwells)

When I'm sober all this shit is fucking boring
Doing lines in my bathroom, now I'm soaring
Man this life a never ending purgatory
So mundane, it's a never ending story

I got lots of oxy
I got so much molly
Pop another percy and it's coursing through my body
Walk into the dead of night I'm feeling like a zombie
Left my mental so fucked up don't ever try to call me

I got so much problems cause of what you fucking did
Drown the pain so I take another fucking hit
I don't give a fuck 'cause now I'm getting hella rich
All you are a lil bitch so you can go and suck my dick

Pop out at the party
Man I look so gnarly
And I'm with your bitch fucking on him, won't be sorry
I'm in purgatory
Never ending story
Bleeding in the bathroom will you shut the fucking door please

Pop out at the party
Man I look so gnarly
And I'm with your bitch fucking on him, won't be sorry
And I'm with your bitch
And I'm with your bitch
And I'm with your bitch
Fucking on him, won't be sorry

purgatory

Valentine, where'd you go?
I looked up to you everytime I see your night blue hair
Perfect waist and perfect face

I need to be where I wanna be
Can't keep me locked up in a cage
One day I'll be what I wanna be
Replace you and your perfect race

I just really wanna cry all alone
Cannot hear any sound in my room
Playing with some dolls all on my own
I'm an angel I'll fly where I belong

Valentine, where'd you go?
I looked up to you everytime I see your night blue hair
Perfect waist and perfect face

I need to be where I wanna be
Can't keep me locked up in a cage
One day I'll be what I wanna be
Replace you and your perfect race

I just really wanna cry all alone
Cannot hear any sound in my room
Playing with some dolls all on my own
I'm an angel I'll fly where I belong

I think I'm falling apart
Valentine come rescue now
Promise that I am the one
Hold me tight, don't let me die

valentine

(spirit)
I love ketamine x5
Yeah push it through my vein
Walk right into trains
Yeah I don't feel the same
If you smoke then please get off my face
Bring some powder and inject right into my brain

Into my brain
Into my brain
I meet all these guys around me
But they all lame
Into my brain
Into my brain
I don't wanna hurt you anymore
Please go away

(Aah) I think I'm lost now
(Aah) please come back home now

I love ketamine x5
Yeah push it through my vein
Walk right into trains
Yeah I don't feel the same

(fuji)
I don't feel the same
I don't want to feel the blame
But you got into my brain
Looking all the way
Which I have to do
To get you out of my way

I love ketamine
Yeah push it through my vein
Push it through my vein x2
Push it through my vein, I'm going crazy
(Aah) I think I'm lost now
(Aah) Please come back right now

i love ketamine (ft. killfuji)

In my Aston Martin
It's pink cuz I'm driving
Glitter on my rari
Got the haters roaring

In my Aston Martin
It's pink cuz I'm driving
Glitter on my rari
Got the haters roaring

Diamonds on my wrist
Yea I'm shining in the night
Living in a fucking dream
Everything just feels alright (right)

Silk and satin dresses
Flowing, it refreshes
Am I in a daze
With such effortless eases

In my Aston Martin
It's pink cuz I'm driving
Glitter on my rari
Got the haters roaring

In my Aston Martin
It's pink cuz I'm driving
Glitter on my rari
Got the haters roaring

astonmartin

You know you had me crying
I beg you please do listen
French 7 and 5 I'm losing
Night is too far gone I give in

With all these fantasies
That help me keep me busy
I know you never wanted me
I know you cannot feel

He called me
"I don't wanna go high
I'm just gonna ditch, right
So just say your goodbyes
I know that you really really need me
But I wanna feel me
So baby just say bye"

You know you had me crying
I beg you please do listen
French 7 and 5 I'm losing
Night is too far gone I give in

You know you had me crying
I beg you please do listen
French 7 and 5 I'm losing
Night is too far gone I give in

french 75

25 june 2022 - reupload

i don't dream all that much but i don't sleep anyways
cuz i know i'm only with you when i try to stay awake
but sometimes i like to close my eyes and turn out all the lights
so that i can feel u all around, don't have to say goodnight

i know i'm not too good with words
i don't know how to share
just what's been on my mind
i hope one day it's clear

i can see u shining through the curtains in my bedroom window
sparkling in the night i can point out the brightest star
and i know that what's behind it is what keeps me up for hours on the end
light it wraps me no no matter where you are

dreaming of u

just wanna feel something
just wanna feel something
just wanna feel something
just wanna feel something

i wanna feel ur body
gore on me, feel me humping
i wanna suck his dick like he doesnt want me, im dying

all eyes on me
i think im really horny
i wanna fill ur body
with gut and mesh, all for me
terror in his eyes
makes me wanna sacrifice
i will give up on my soul
just to take a fckn slice

feel something

Do you even like that?
I'mma take you right back
All I'm is a goner
I think that I know her

Do you even like that?
I'mma take you right back
All I'm is a goner
I think that I know her

Everytime I'm smoking
I just wanna roll in
Cut my wrist with razors
Where's my fucking angels

Everytime I'm smoking
Daydream cuz I'm hating
Life that god has gave me
I don't want it, take me

(I don't wanna be right)
Sometimes I feel like I'm dying
All I do is sit and rotting
Cuz now I feel like I'm nothing
Cuz now I feel like I'm something

Do you even like that?
I'mma take you right back
All I'm is a goner
I think that I know her

Everytime I'm smoking
I just wanna roll in
Cut my wrist with razors
Where's my fucking angels
(Angels, angels, angels, angels)

Do you even like that?
I'mma take you right back
All I'm is a goner
I think that I know her

Do you even like that?
I'mma take you right back
All I'm is a goner
I think that I know her

wheres my fckn angels

Pink perfume and bloody sheets
Whisper secrets, skip the beats
Says he loves me, means control
I bite back and I take his soul

He wants a doll, I wanna sin
Kiss me once, then dive right in
Velvet cuffs and cherry wine
Play me like a valentine

Hands between my pretty thighs
Tell me all your dirty lies
Lick the tears off my red lips
Ghost me slow with gentle grips
Silk and shame beneath the moon
I’ll be yours, but not too soon
Ghost me slow with gentle grips
Lick the tears off my red lips

Nail me down in black corsets
Drown me deep in your regrets
Blow me kisses from your grave
I’m the thrill you couldn’t save

Cigarettes and baby blue
Say you’re scared, but want it too
Peel me like a candy skin
Hurt me soft, then pull me in

Hands between my pretty thighs
Tell me all your dirty lies
Lick the tears off my red lips
Ghost me slow with gentle grips
Silk and shame beneath the moon
I’ll be yours, but not too soon
Ghost me slow with gentle grips
Lick the tears off my red lips

ghost me slow

cant heal me from all the traumas
i need u but i suffer
take my hand, ill recover
discover, ill start all over

baby i just need u out my head
i think im already gone
n im way too dead
and the meds im using never help
cuz i overdosed
u can never tell

never tell 
u could never tell
u could never tell
u could never tell
on my own
drinking all alone
smoking high n gone
u can never tell

spiritbreak

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