When in an emotional drought, one seeks to reach out to the sky for life-healing rain.

Reaching For Rain

An argument with the "Angel" and "Devil" archetypes created by the internalized voices of trauma, coping mechanisms, fragments of self, intuition, consciousness, and soul.

Arguments With Angels

Those moments that are spent contemplating choices and consequences.

Wish I had a reason to give this love one more try
Wish I had a feeling that didn't leave me wanting to die
Birds overhead, I hear their wings
Everything stops; everything waits

Love Like Death

2022.08.02 

Loss never gets easier, simpler, or route. You don’t wake up one day more prepared to lose what you love. 

Sure, you can shove down your feelings, fight back the tears, be convinced that you don’t have time to have a breakdown, and force yourself to keep pushing through for the sake of survival. 

You can put off things for another day, but that grief will find you. It will wait patiently, unwaveringly, for you. It will whisper to your heart that it’s there. It will sit at the back of life’s stage, hanging off the ropes, observing from the wings. 

It will show up in a quiet moment, it will loom large, it will smother you with its presence. It cannot be forgotten. It cannot be erased. 

You cannot hide from your feelings, wish them away, or pawn them. They are an essential part of your existence. 

From the intimacy of love — joyous, spirited, miraculous love — comes the companion of loss — the despairing, depressing, all-consuming deconstruction of what love worked so painstakingly hard to co-create with you. 

Love never leaves, but it changes shape and form. It transforms from a tangible state that you held in your arms to a cycle of ephemeral memories past weaving in and out of days that feel as spaces in between nightmares and dreams. 

Denial finds its way into these fragments to give you hope for brighter days ahead; promising maybe tomorrow will be different and that what you know you have lost might resurface renewed. 

Anger becomes present when denial is found out as a charming and clever liar; when reality becomes too much to bear; when the truth of absence is too great to hold. 

Loss changes us. It can take everything away from us. It can transform us as it ravages our dreams and leaves us in tears from depths of unspeakable sorrow. 

At the last minute, love revives us. It reminds us that we have never truly lost what we have always held so dear; that we are a part of something meaningful and, at the core, unchangeable. It encourages us not to give up; to let ourselves cry; to find our way back. 

Even when our arms are empty, love fills that space with a promise that there is more to come, if we just allow ourselves some grace.

Love Loss Grief Denial Anger Grace

07.28.2022

Shattered
Every piece of me
Shattered
You’re…
I can’t breathe 
My heart 
I can’t…
Gone
In an instant
Taken from me
Everything 
My whole world
Laying
Still
In a box
I fall to my knees
I scream
A voice I didn’t know I had
Rage
Despair
The cries are deafening 
I tear at the ground
My soul
My heart 
You were just here
I remember so vividly 
Then nothing
I scream at existence 
Anything that will listen
How dare you take
My whole world
Blurry 
Empty
Agony
I can’t stop sobbing
You’re gone

Gone

(FIRST DRAFT)

Lay my head to sleep, praying for peace; it rains
Telling myself it will be okay, as the tide is coming in
The waves crash, the waters rising

Drifting into sleep, dreaming the night away
Telling myself it will be okay; the tide is coming in
The waves crash, the waters rising

Many lives are lost, immeasurable cost, these tears
Crying in my sleep, leaving my body, the tide is here
The waves crash, the waters rising
The waves crash, the waters rising
The waves crash, the waters rising
The waves crash, the waters rising

The Waters Rising

Most of my songs are channeled from a creative space in my mind that I can't fully explain. It's almost like dreaming things into existence. 

This song feels like the death of everything. When you've lost too much, and you just can't find a reason to keep going through all of the heartbreak. All you want is to have your Love back or end the suffering.

LYRICS:

Every chance I take I'm failing
Looking around, it's a nightmare that's remaining
Distant voices saying, "Take a little time to think it through."
How can I when there's nothing left to lose?

It doesn't make sense to stay,
there's nowhere left to go
What is life when its empty arms
with nothing left to hold

Everything I've done, what for?
No one understands me anymore
I'm screaming out for you, as
My body hits the floor

When the foundation's cracked, 
the sanctuary crumbles
In the absence of fear and shame
the dying soul humbles

My sacrifice won't bring you back
Love's Blood is all I had

Love's Blood

I am safe.
I am loved.
Whatever is causing me pain right now
is not my responsibility. 
I release it. 
I let it go. 
I'm allowed to exist 
as I am. 
I'm allowed to be free.

I'm allowed to love myself in this moment 
and know that I am not responsible 
for other people's beliefs about me, 
for their perceptions of me. 

I have my own beliefs. 
I have my own perceptions. 
And I am allowed to cherish those. 
I am allowed to respect my boundaries 
and to honor my highest and greatest good, 
to take care of myself, 
even if that means saying no 
to someone else. 

I'm allowed to hold this space 
for all that I am 
and just be okay being safe 
here with myself. 
Knowing that I love me. 
Knowing that I care about how I feel. 
Knowing that the world outside 
is very different 
from this world inside of me — 
and that's okay. 

I love all that I am. 
I protect myself fiercely 
because I know I am deserving of that. 
I am deserving of care. 
I am deserving of nurturing. 
I'm deserving of peace. 
I am deserving of calm. 

I work hard every day to show myself that I care 
for all that I am, 
to show myself that I am hearing me, 
that I am listening to my needs, 
and doing the best I can 
to give me what I need 
each and every day. 

And this is how I show that: 
I sit here. 
I listen to myself. 
I feel the breath 
enter my lungs. 
I feel the calm surround me. 
I allow this moment 
to share with me 
its knowledge, 
wisdom, 
healing, 
and peace.

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CREDITS
I Am Safe
Guided Meditation + Affirmation
Original Script: Ruby Rayne
Voice Over Talent: Ruby Rayne
Background Vocalizations: Ruby Rayne
Production + Graphics: Ruby Rayne

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Spiriteric is a coaching practice that specializes in psyche development. It combines intuition with psychology to create a unique form of energy work that aims to bring new levels of awareness and healing. The work focuses on the client's physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual well-being and aims to heal and align fragmented and dysfunctional pieces of the psyche through collaborative communication. The goal of Spiriteric is to support individuals to take agency over their core self and improve their perception of existence.

Our YouTube channel is dedicated to sharing the knowledge and tools that we use in our practice. We offer a variety of services and products, such as coaching, energy practices, oracle decks, music, poetry, stories, guided meditations, affirmations, and talks. Our goal is to bring healing audio and video work to this channel, and we are working hard to have our content translated into as many languages as we can with natural native speakers.

Book A Coaching Session
https://rubyrayne.as.me/Spiriteric

Guided Meditation, Affirmation, Russian, Healing Music, Sleep Well, Calm, Relaxation, Reduce Anxiety, Better Health, Mental Health, Emotional Support, Channeled Wisdom, Energy Work, Psyche Development

I Am Safe ❤︎ Guided Meditation ❤︎ Female Voice / Ruby ❤︎ English

Я в безопасности. 
Я любим. 
Что бы ни причиняло мне боль прямо сейчас, 
это не моя ответственность.
Я отпускаю это. Я позволил этому уйти. 
Мне позволено существовать таким, 
какой я есть. 
Мне позволено быть свободным. 
Мне позволено любить себя в этот момент и знать, 
что я не несу ответственности 
за убеждения других людей обо мне, 
за их восприятие меня. 

У меня есть свои убеждения. 
У меня есть свои представления. 
И мне позволено ценить их. 
Мне разрешено уважать свои границы 
и чтить свое высшее и величайшее благо, 
заботиться о себе, 
даже если это означает говорить «нет» 
кому-то другому.

Мне разрешено удерживать 
это пространство для всего, что я есть, 
и просто быть в порядке, 
будучи в безопасности 
здесь 
с самим собой. 
Зная, что я люблю себя. 
Зная, что мне важно, 
как я себя чувствую. 

Зная, что внешний мир 
сильно отличается 
от этого мира внутри меня — 
и это нормально. 
Я люблю все, что я есть. 

Я бдительно защищаю себя, 
потому что знаю, 
что заслуживаю этого. 
Я заслуживаю заботы. 
Я заслуживаю крепкого здоровья. 
Я заслуживаю мира. 
Я заслуживаю спокойствия. 

Я усердно работаю каждый день, 
чтобы показать себе, 
что я забочусь обо всем, что я есть, 
чтобы показать себе, что я слышу себя, 
что я прислушиваюсь к своим потребностям 
и делаю все возможное, 
чтобы каждый день давать мне то, 
что мне нужно.

И вот как я это показываю: я сижу здесь. 
Я слушаю себя. 
Я чувствую, 
как дыхание входит в мои легкие. 
Я чувствую, 
что спокойствие окружает меня. 
Я позволяю этому моменту 
поделиться со мной 
своим знанием, мудростью, 
исцелением и миром.

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CREDITS
I Am Safe
Guided Meditation + Affirmation
Original Script: Ruby Rayne
Russian Translation: Roman Khramets
Voice Over Talent: Roman Khramets
Background Vocalizations: Ruby Rayne
Production + Graphics: Ruby Rayne

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Spiriteric is a coaching practice that specializes in psyche development. It combines intuition with psychology to create a unique form of energy work that aims to bring new levels of awareness and healing. The work focuses on the client's physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual well-being and aims to heal and align fragmented and dysfunctional pieces of the psyche through collaborative communication. The goal of Spiriteric is to support individuals to take agency over their core self and improve their perception of existence.

Our YouTube channel is dedicated to sharing the knowledge and tools that we use in our practice. We offer a variety of services and products, such as coaching, energy practices, oracle decks, music, poetry, stories, guided meditations, affirmations, and talks. Our goal is to bring healing audio and video work to this channel, and we are working hard to have our content translated into as many languages as we can with natural native speakers.

Book A Coaching Session
https://rubyrayne.as.me/Spiriteric

I Am Safe ❤︎ Guided Meditation ❤︎ Male Voice / Roman ❤︎ Russian

Take this dance of fire and flame
holding candles, burning names
I seek truth

Seeing visions in the dark
Layered meanings in the sparks
I need you
 
The air becomes music of my soul
My spirit awakens and takes control
I come alive
Whatever the trials
I'm aligned

I close my eyes to the past of me
And open my eyes to my destiny

Destiny

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