Whenever I get hired on for a new job, it always seemed to me that I quickly became the go-to person to solve everyone's problems. When I found myself once again working a new job, I decided to keep my mouth shut and let others take charge. I would follow orders, but then I was doomed to watch everything fall apart. Pretending no longer, I gave up the charade and handled the business with ease. Soon I was the talk of the crowd, but I never quite earned the status or paygrade. I swore to myself to never become President Employee ever again. 

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Originally released December 18th, 2020 under "Absure"

Until the Snowfall

President Employee

Too much... too little... The more I seek opinions, the more I come to terms with the fact that nobody understands my perspective. My desires. My dreams. It's okay with me. I'll never be like everyone else, in fact, that's what makes me who I am, no? 

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Lyrics:

I
I
Came across you broken and afraid
Now you look at me and
All I feel is pain
You were never there
A product of my dreams
How am I the fool?
You're the one with schemes
I loved you like fire hot
I met you at my favorite spot
I even called you silly names
Yet all you play is games
I wanted you to know 
You broke my fragile heart
You killed it off slow
Made it like an art

Tell me how
Tell me why
Tell me when
Tell me who

Most of all
Tell me
How?
Why?
When?
Who?

I
I
Gave you all the years
Now I'm left with tears
Look me in the eyes
All I see is lies
You want me when I'm high
Never when I'm low
You want me when I'm gone
Never when I'm close
How is that you were gone when I needed you close?
Why is that you were gone when I needed you most?
When is that you were gone when I needed you close?
Who is that you were with when I needed you most?

Tell me how
Tell me why
Tell me when
Tell me who

Most of all
Tell me
How?
Why?
When?
Who?

Most of all
Tell me
How? (how)
Why? (why)
When? (when)
Who? (who)

What made you want to be like everyone else?
What made you want to be like everyone else?
What made you want to be like everyone else?
What made you want to be like everyone else? (else)
What made you want to be like everyone else?
What made you want to be like everyone else? (else)
Most of all, tell me (What made you want to be like everyone else?) (else)
How, why? (What made you want to be like everyone else?)
When, who? (What made you want to be like everyone else?) (else)

Most of all
Tell me
Tell me
What made you want to be like everyone else?

Everyone Else

Divorce is quite a taboo topic. I would read the Bible, and it would describe divorce in horrible ways. I thought such a thing could never happen to me, but it did. It might be a stretch to say that it felt like my wife died that day, but as far as I was concerned, that's what really happened. My pain is something I now carry forever, no matter how much and how loud I yell, I'm trapped and engulfed here in the most desolate place in the universe: Ophelia's Void.

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Lyrics:

You, set that there
Bring, bring up the lights
Okay, no, I said there, not there
Break a leg everybody, break a leg
Okay wait, where's Ophelia?

Remind me of the happy days
This void used to be full
Memories of her swirling around me
This void used to be full
Her words only haunt me now
Phelia, feel me in here, heal me soft, you now
She used to love me and touch me now I'm in her void and destroyed
Phelia, feel me in here, heal me soft, you now
Maybe there's something good about knowing there's no way out
Phelia, feel in me here, heal me soft, you now
No, I need her, this can't be real
Yes, my mind is gone, and it's so surreal
Ophelia, feel me in here, heal me soft, you now
The fair, Ophelia
The fair, Ophelia
Ophelia
The fair, Ophelia
Ophelia
You are gone

Remind me of the happy days (Ophelia)
This void used to be full (Ophelia)
Memories of her swirling around me (Ophelia)
This void used to be full (Ophelia)
Her words only haunt me now (Ophelia)
Phelia, feel me in here, heal me soft, you now (Ophelia)
She used to love me and touch me now I'm in in her void and destroyed (Ophelia)
Phelia, feel in me here, heal me soft, you now (Ophelia)
Maybe there's something good about knowing there's no way out (Ophelia)
Phelia, feel me in here, heal me soft, you now (Ophelia)
No, I need her, this can't be real (Ophelia)
Yes, my mind is gone, and it's so surreal 
Ophelia, feel me in here, heal me soft, you now (Ophelia)

The fair, Ophelia (Ophelia) (Ophelia)
The fair, Ophelia (Ophelia) (Ophelia)
Ophelia, Ophelia (Ophelia) (Ophelia) (Ophelia) (Ophelia)
The fair, Ophelia (Ophelia) (Ophelia)
Ophelia 
You are gone
You're really gone

I loved Ophelia
40,000 brothers could not
With all their quanity of love
Make up my sum

Ophelia's Void

My loyalty to the one I love is always abundant even to the point of pain. I've watched as I begged for affection that my partners entertained others still crushing me further. It doesn't bother me any longer to be betrayed and strung along. Once I have hold of the truth, I am able to reach new heights, new love, and new ecstasy. So always ask, think about it, and sing about it before you break yourself losing the one who truly loves you, as there will never be more passion from anyone else, and I can't imagine a more sickening fate. The part that always is left bothering me is when I watch the one I love lock lips with another knowing they are gone from my love forever, and moving forward, I fight to the very last breath to prevent that undoing.

Bothering Me (Instrumental)

It only took one look at her on the city street to realize I was in love. I confessed my love the moment I had her alone. She loved me just the same and we started a family. As time went on, I became nothing more than an accessory to her life. Now, she haunts my dreams to the point I can't sleep. The reality I live is the waking nightmare of her cold feelings, and my dreams are the only place where I can still see her warm loving eyes gaze upon me again. It's a dangerous cycle only she can ever put an end to.

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Lyrics:

What a fool you made of me
Gave you things from my heart
Wrapped in gold, silver too
Lust and love, all for you

Girl, I risked it when I came with my feelings
And you loved me
I knew it in your lies
I saw it in your eyes

Walk away, I'll be okay
For the day
Sane, for the day

Close my eyes, hope to sleep
In my mind, in the night
Dreams of you, all a lie
I loved you at first sight

And now, I can't sleep
When you're with him
Away from me

Girl, I risked it when I came with my feelings
And you loved me
I knew it in your lies
I saw it in your eyes

And now, I can't sleep
When you're with him
Away from me

Girl, I risked it when I came with my feelings
And you loved me
I knew it in your eyes
I saw through all your lies

I Can't Sleep

It only took one look at her on the city street to realize I was in love. I confessed my love the moment I had her alone. She loved me just the same and we started a family. As time went on, I became nothing more than an accessory to her life. Now, she haunts my dreams to the point I can't sleep. The reality I live is the waking nightmare of her cold feelings, and my dreams are the only place where I can still see her warm loving eyes gaze upon me again. It's a dangerous cycle only she can ever put an end to.

President Employee

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