Everytime i wanna sip all my dad’s expensive burbon/whiskey just to know we would be both happy

i forget who made the beat :(

Lyrics:

yea i'm sleeping on the wheel on a thousand mile drive
where the fuck are all the cars at 
i see no sign of life
and i think i'm seeing ghosts so i'm sure i'm gonna die
and i don't even have a place i'm ending up at in mind

she keeps telling me shit like a week ago i'd buy
now i don't think that i'd believe you if i saw it with my eyes
yea she's going to parties
while i sit here writing lines
it's like a shitty fuckin movie
where she's fucking other guys

but "please don't fuckin cry"
god i can't fucking take it
your heart ain't even mine
baby there's no fucking space 
so how can you still say it's vacant
that shit was just a lie
walking on some eggshells so i don't hit a mine

eggshells

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

stare at my body as i bleed
what did u even find in me 
a bucnh of dreams ill never reach
a lot of ideas ill never be 

stare at my yeah (4x)

im fucked up and shits not over
i want to but i can't get sober 
ur death made my whole body colder
everynight i dream about when i used to hold ya(2x)

love life but death seems charming
can't stop myself from falling 
eyes glued to the back of my eyelids
when i die fill my coffin with violets 

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

misfit (santana)

prod. safeatlast, no samples <3
@breckenford

dont leave me alone here
i dont know what you see here

so i try and i try just to make you remember
the way that you left me alone in september
drink on my own ima drink til december
wont pick up the phone no i wont ever answer

so please let me go
i dont need you no more

say what you want cuz i wont ever listen
my body cant go on i cant make the distance
i cant tell my rights from my lefts whats the difference
if you were to stay or just leave in a minute

i wont admit it
ive reached my limit
ive reached the end of my life whens the next one
cant bear to look in your eyes since i messed up

i pray to see u once again
either its heaven or hell
i hope that ur resting well

i hope that we meet again
cuz i been trapped inside this cell
and i cant break myself out

[FøRD:]

break me out the cell I said
remember when I used to win
that’s in the past
honestly I’m feeling better with that

long as I get through my day
dodging ur traps, knowin that you want me back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
yea just so yk that I’m mad

i cant tell you what I want in my life no more
telling the truth I think it’s time to cut the cord
deathly afraid of heartbreak cuz i can’t afford
anymore time with a girl who only ignores
so what do I do? Stick to my lonely
substance abuse “I don’t need you”, not what you told me

break me out the cell I said
remember when I used to win
that’s in the past
honestly I’m feeling better with that

long as I get through my day
dodging ur traps, knowin that you want me back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
yea just so yk that I’m mad

don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back
don’t get attached
gone in the morning in fact
losing the feelings I had
treat me like crap
doing it back

i hope that we meet again ft. brecken

check out evergardens music..
evergarden - https://soundcloud.com/evergardens

also check out aceys beats on YT - https://www.youtube.com/@prodacey

lyrics-
what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be
i saw the changes in your eyes
guess it's not easy to hide, that you wanted to leave
i see your pictures online
there's now none of you and i
oh it seems
like it was all just a dream
pretend you don't know me anymore
you just left, walked out the door
oh please
why'd you do this to me


our ship sailed 
we left feelings stranded

you take everything i have
time i wasted, wont get back 
don't move on
i wont withstand 
back to strangers? just like that?


guess it was never meant to be
we were too young, no guarantee 

i don't know why we even tried

two worlds collide

seen it coming, not surprised

what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be

strangers again (ft. evergarden) (acey)

pop these pills till its over
everybody hating on lil october
thats why im staying high
no im never staying sober
ill see you in the sky girl
im never growing older
im caught in the same pain
im always growing colder
dont even know my full name
you call yourself a doxxer
girl cut up my brain
call her a doctor
get a new bitch in the same day
and i dont even want her

if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
if u want me to stop
hit the thc
on the grind to the top
with my bpd
if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
used to wanna be a cop
endless misery
watch your body drop
coz its me vs me

these thoughts in my brain 
askin me why id stay 
my life is a nightmare 
it wont go away
i lie through my teeth
and say that im okay
pretend that its normal be feelin this way
its not okay 
its not alright
the battle inside is like every night
myself wants to kill me 
i put up a fight
im still wearing the mask 
when i pick up the pint
put that shit to my head
it cant be the end
i just wanted out
now im on the fence
i know its crazy
but in my defense
i prolly am too
im off of the meds 
like i said im borderline
whatd you expect
got a hole in my soul
but im gettin bread
my horizon is somewhere that 
ill never tread
holdin on to what ive got 
and the pain wont end

if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
if u want me to stop
hit the thc
on the grind to the top
with my bpd
if you tryna hurt me
youll prolly succeed
ive got hella ops
but its me vs me
used to wanna be a cop
endless misery
watch your body drop
coz its me vs me

me vs me w/ HKFiftyOne (prod. Xenshel)

everything is not enough
i tried i really have
i don't have no animosity for you 'cause you couldn't help it
both our heartbeats play in stereo
they're two waves always crashing
i'm not far enough away right now 
the road always seem to catch up

i've always been up on the edge
just a little bit
i'm tryna get air
you only ever seem to regret shit when it's convenient
i'm 'bouta drink myself to death
and my heart feel like a canyon
i don't know what's fuckin' left for me 
you only ever seem to apologize when it's right in your face
yeah
these motherfuckers don't care
not even a little bit
i was tryna hang myself when you met me
i'm tryna fill a chevrolet up with liquor right now and crash before the exit
i know the desert don't care
dry my bones and leave me here as fragments 
if the vultures find me that's okay
as long as i smoke a cigarette on the way out 
yeah 
yeah 
as long as i smoke a cigarette on the way out 

everything is not enough
i tried i really have
i don't have no animosity for you 
'cause you couldn't help it 
yeah

canyon (p. drag beats)

lyrics//

{halfhearted}
see the rain coming down and i wonder why,
why you took me out the game and you’re switching sides?
we both know we’ve been here before
put a knife in my back, pull me off the floor

they don’t know where i’m going
got a winter coat wrist froze from the snowing
you were how i cope 
i don’t need an oxycontin 
but when you let me go lonely roads i found hope in

used to get so lost in your eyes, now they haunt me
heard you found some other guy, but he’s not me
hope you have a wonderful life
i hope you have a wonderful life 

you can try the best that you can 
i’m still standing
heard he put a rock on your hand
that’s outstanding 
i don’t have no words left to say but i’m sorry
he can put a smile on your face, i’m still calling

it’s a long and winding road
and the ropes they got me choking
wrapped around my throat
with the words we left unspoken
you can try the best that you can i’m still standing
i heard he put a rock on your hand


{Greenwood}
off the side of the shipwreck
tracing in the sand what we did best
it's just hard when you live less
than i did this time last year and i miss it

moments encased but i feel this place like a prison
yeah you said that you're the same but we did shit that he didn't
couldn't talk to your parents i know they think that i'm different 
i'm just going through the motions, i thought this one was bigger

there's a wrong way to tell you
on a park bench in Bayview, i let the waves through
wrong way to tell you
i just hope that it happens again

maybe i triple up my output
started selling theses beats
put like most of it aside to buy you shit that you need
yeah i heard he's on some primo shit with cash he could waste
just to buy you shit you want i wish that i could relate

i heard he put a rock on your hand w/ Greenwood [wisssery & cxrter]

lyrics 

[maesk]
hold me and don’t let go
do u not know what you are do u not know what this is
i get it ur drawn, unrealistic expectations, u have what is ideal and try to replicate it here in this cold world where the dark never disappears, the light we see will all wither till it’s final flair

i know a lot of people not a lot of people know me
i tend to prefer distance when so when it comes to being lonely 
i don’t mind guess i’m too aware, i’m not scared, only that i might never show fear
i’ll just stare at the ground

yeah i’m still human despite what u may think 
just plenty problems nothing like a good drink won’t fix
something to help me look at this place a little more wrong
maybe time to write another sad song


hold me and don’t let go
do u not know what you are do u not know what this is

time to write another sad song
a few will listen but no one else know how long
i been thinking and been feeling all these things 
u say u listen but u don’t know how it’s been. well u might soon

[goneafteraugust]

always had to hang my head by myself
get it together puff out my chest by myself
i know how it feels to be alone
leave a key under the mat in case i ever come home

so we can go lie down
where it’s quiet and the world won’t make a sound
u can listen to my heart beat pound
i’m headed to u babe i need it right now

forgotten key

forgotten key ft goneafteraugust (flesh x 1gokami)

<3
soundcloud.com/eoin-disney

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Greenwood:
the shades been drawn for so long
i dont know why i've been here
a summer passed without your laugh
i still hear it so clear
i wonder why it happens now
left to figure out
how the pieces of me suffocate in the weeds intact
told you that its good, its getting bad

listening to rover in your attic
sleeping in til 6 i know it after
i had marked the page to save the passage 
something about the pain that doesn't happen
i wonder if your neighbours figured out at all
i wonder if you saved yourself at a cost of what we lost

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Greenwood:
light we couldn't see but i'm sure that its hitting
i'd be down for a week, i'd be down for a minute
see the scope of your life when its already finished
kinda strange at the end, feeling like the beginning
and i know what you'd say but i'm glad that you didn't
put my life on a shelf for a job and its killing
cause i've been fucking up
i just need to come around
figure out the proper way to hold you but its different now
i just couldn't figure out

time had taken hold of me, bury me
take control like its kerosene 
in my head its invisible, what's that mean on a principle?
when its dark i could speak but i regret it so easily
if you promise to forget i'd tell you just what it means to me
to be out again
fucked up with the sound effects
heard he made it overseas i hope he knows i'm proud of him
happy so we call it that
second summer came to pass, i've been working late
cause no ones waiting for me coming back

cycle through the lens of the moment
i couldn't see what was coming
i tried to fix it when its over 
cause i thought that it wasn't

Eoin Disney:
i wish it was the right time
i wish you were right there
i miss you in the nighttime 
i miss you when i'm scared
told her listen to the starlight
as i kiss you from the moon
and when you glisten in the sunlight
you're shaping shadows in my room

Bloom (w/ Eoin Disney)

people keep telling me i'm a guardin clone, so here's this in spite to start off 2024 :)

Lyrics:

like where did all my friends go?
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

like where did all my friends go?
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

she could read minds in the first place
she could read minds in the worst way
that means she should know that i can't stay :(
that means she should know this ain't my day
spent my whole life chasing first place
somehow i'm 5th wheeling on my birthday
taco bell 3am on a thursday
wish i could share it with you come to my place
ay
double stack chicken wrap yuh
ay
babygirl where you at love :(
crush up 9 grams gurl i'm terrified
still i'm feeling alright this deep in your eyes 

like where did all my friends go
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope- 

YUH

like where did all my friends go
where'd the passion all go
writing private in my bed hoe
rip a verse out of my chest woah
i ain't feelin the best so
i subdue all the stress
left behind and i can't cope
make a new scene all on my own
all on my own

canyon (p. drag beats)

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