prod. me x @hiraethsry

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining
Baby, kiss me just to kiss me, not to take me home tomorrow
I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

And when I'm leaving, I'll pretend like I don't give a damn
But it's been four years, I just wanna hold your hand
It's been four years, don't know who I fucking am
Oh, oh
And when you're begging me to stay, I'll never listen
I guess it takes four years to know the difference
You knew me better than anyone and you hated me
So how the fuck am I supposed to love myself

And I will love you 'til I'm broken by the weight
Of everything I've ever wanted and how it all has your name
I am trying, I am shaking, I am crying, I am breaking
Every second, every minute, I'm so tired, why's it raining

I am drunk and I am bleeding in your apartment, in the shadow
Of what we were when we were young
And you don't remember my name
And I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry

YOUDONTREMEMBERMYNAME

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lyrics

yokai:

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

and i
understand if you hate me i do, oh i do
so try
to cope with the fact that i'm not the man that your'e used to

i can't be ur knight in shining armor
bitter woes just push me farther
and i lack any resolve to save u
don't do that just makes this harder
look me in the eyes, i need to calm down
this heart of stone, your steely gaze just might break thru

autumn:

but they don't know me, and they never will
just how much more's left to say? 
i'll take that shit and decay
but just not to my grave
lie to yourself out of pity
life's not right; imma fly out the city
say it'll be alright, okay?
i no longer believe what i say

knees are falling
i can smell the pollen
i'm fucking sick of random people calling
i don't have too much left to give
the thought of it is making me sick

turnt my face towards the tainted sky
it left me hurt, i don't know why

Heart Of Stone w/ autumndropsdead (in bloom)

a @user-411557229 cover, luv u residential (:

purple magic in the cup I see
when the fuck you gonna leave me be
only hit my phone for thc
but you a lick so count your money g

started to express my feelings told me tough luck
look at me in my eyes before I drive drunk
hitting me up to party, but I'm still slumped
telling me I'm too mean but I give no fucks

thought she was yo bestie
till she try and text me
heartbreak in a Bentley

codeine on my white tee
heart so cold my friends leave
cocaine till my nosebleed x2

its 3 in the morning and I pour up twice
but nobody like me when I'm getting high
so fuck everybody that keep me alive
I'm cutting the ties
you aint even try

I stay making money and picking my fights
pull out the purple and pack that shit
I play with the paper and let that shit fly
word from the wise
set shit aside

purple magic in the cup I see
when the fuck you gonna leave me be
only hit my phone for thc
but you a lick so count your..

prpl magic (cover)

u cannot tell me 
different at all
im livin a cycle
i js wanna ball
i dnt wanna fall 
so im tryna crawl
away
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so
☆
yeh yeh
even more so
hows it feels to have pills in ur torso?
really bad.
when im out of my room doin tours n shit
i rly need my god damn milli back
im use to havin snakes in my friends list
if they hold me close 
imma hold em closer
godspeed
i dont want that to be likely
but if a bitch try me one more time 
they gon have to fuckin fight me
☆
im growing up
unlike u 
ur throwing up
gang signs 
n throwin bands
even tho they fake as hell
u just doing this for the clout
no one even likes u 
but ill shut my mouth
ur a sore to be around
i dont love u.
☆
been standin still
thats js how them bitches livin
yeh
blacked out
fucked up
in a cold kitchen
yeh
im tryna whip a cayman one day, so
i can give back to my family, hoe
cus they aint deserve that shit
all my family are fake as shit
im gonna be that bitch
im gonna be the shit
even more so.
☆

sampled comfort chain by instupendo
this song is entirely non profit on Spotify and soundcloud 

thank you

im trying everything possible.

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @horoshavibes & @jolst
Art by Katie Imbro

LYRICS
You made a promise to me
Never thought that you’d be the one to do me so wrong
It’s over now
I’m still learning how to move on
I guess that this is progression
I thought about you no more than a second time tonight
If I could rewind
I’d rescind it all
And just go back to you
Like I always do
Not caring for the fall
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off

‘Cause I'm no good for you
You’re no good for me
We’re so out of sync
There’s no harmony
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off
Caught between a rock and a hard place
Don’t wanna be alone
But I really can’t stay no
Do you wanna do this the hard way
When it comes to you
I can’t say no

(sewerperson)
I bet you're so damn happy I have gone away
Still I wish we could feel what we had yesterday
Baby at this checkpoint I still feel the same
Call me if you give up on him for this pain supplied
I know you still hate me I just hope you're safe tonight
I remember everything we let go in that candlelight 
Even if we’re not together you're still a friend of mine
Sorry I can’t control what feelings I been dealt in life
Break me and tear me up how you prefer
I pray when I die I’m not locked into lucifer
I know everything is fine right now but the future's still unsure
Teach me how to rid my self of all her hurt

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Cut Me Off w/ sewerperson (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me 

u hurt me again
fuck all of ur reasons
ur fucked in the head 
alone in the end 
fuck ur fucking treason
ur fucked in the head 
i gave you all my love
when i had nothing left
u never gave it back
so aknowledge u fucked my path 

look, the seasons changing
sunny days but it's still raining 
the look u gave me
i always knew that u fucking hate me 
stop, with all the blaming 
if u shut up i'll simply take it
ur attitude is still the same and
i know that u won't change it	


i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me

i can't tell lies with this cup (vyle & rxhff)

music video/show recap:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_IhrC5Zs0gc

call me 
i hate to feel this worthless 
and i did it all myself but 
i still think this whiskey helped me a bit 
and i'm sick of promises 
they never seem that fervent 
how come i lean on someone else when 
i just need myself 

i hope you reach me 
i am starting to question everything 
did you love me for who i am or 
did you love me just 'cause i was there
i never meant to make you unhappy 
it just happened 
this world is against me 
could you give me a chance 
give me a chance 

call me 
i hate to feel this worthless 
i did it all myself but 
i swear that this whiskey helped me a bit 
and i hate your promises 
they never seem that fervent to me
lean on someone else when 
i just need myself 

yeah i'm back on i'm back on that drink again 
when i am she be all in my head 
i am not hungry for money i'm past it 
she just can't get past it it seems 
she don't like no consequence 
when i die bury me at my wedding 
she would look better if she wore a black dress 
make sure you put sunflowers up on my casket 
they're my momma's favorite 
sorry that i gave up on everything 
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing  
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing again 
i'm my mother's favorite (consequence)
sorry i gave up on everything 
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing 
could you call me i'm feeling like nothing 

call me 
i hate to feel this worthless 
i did it to myself but
i swear this whiskey helped me a bit 
yeah yeah

spotify

i lost my voice at my show w/ acey

Lyrics:
@spookybands -
Love of my life, you're proving that dead wrong
Was I ever alive at all
You messed me up I'm too much to fix now
Was I ever good enough

I found you at the crossroads singing to
The devil with your pretty eyes closed, I
Said I'd rather die than love anybody instead of you
And he asked me why, I told him that

I fuck everything up I ever touch
She likes pissing me off, so I pay attention to her
I can't find myself, it's what the devil wanted
She don't like my help, she likes having no emotions

HKFiftyOne -
I don't even know who I am
'Cause I lost myself in you now I can't get it back
I'm just hoping I'm just praying that you'll give me a chance
Yeah but that'll never happen way we currently stand

Do you even know what you mean
To me, you're like a drug and I'm a low down fiend
And I been going through withdrawals, I know you got what I need
And every night I die in bed 'cause I see you when I dream

I know, you're like a thousand miles away but it's alright
My phone, only way that I can reach you, I'm uptight
Alone, it got me crazy I just smoke 'til it sit right
No home, I'm a vagabond, I miss your room tonight

What The Devil Wanted

Spookybands & HKFiftyOne - What The Devil Wanted

music video:
https://youtu.be/klXKPLyChtY

too much or too little now
wear your best dress to come pick me up
i don't wait to taste a thing anymore
my stomach just can't keep up
with this bitterness you've been giving out
you done laid it on too thick darling
i can't stake my claim or build anymore 
my foundation has no rebar

she don't know who looking back in the mirror
quit all that talking i don't wanna see ya
i quit my antidepressants and went to the desert
i'm driving off too much tequila
can't even give her a second the minute you let her in 
she just gonn' tear you to pieces
ball off a budget i quit my dayjob 
just to sing my lil songs find a reason to breathe again
she treated me like a ragdoll
i got used to it it was all that i had but
i had to quit it y'all wish i was dead huh
y'all like to talk 'til it's time to go get some
i'm actually doin' what i was meant for
i could give less of a fuck if i'm slept on
get some rest i ain't got time to get none
gave too much now i'm done giving shit 

too much or too little now
wear your best dress to come pick me up
i don't wait to taste a thing anymore
my stomach just can't keep up
with this bitterness you've been giving out
you done laid it on too thick darling
i can't stake my claim or build anymore 
my foundation has no rebar

gave too much, now i'm done giving shit (p. afterlife)

prod. project luna (s/o them<33 amazing prod)

i know baby and its killing me
i know maybe it was make believe
run, so cold in these maple leaves
one day, saying know you wanna leave
drive slow, baby where u taking me
die so, bleed thru me fatally
sidenote memories be haunting me
eyes closed, i cant even go to sleep

drive slow, driving for eternity 
die so, taking time to try n breathe
sidenote, no sleep n  im goin geek
eyes closed, all i see is u n me 

craving for sum remedy 
or something to help w helping me
listen to the melody im 
really about to take my leave
speaking with all the honesty 
nothing could really fw me 
more than seeing you
breaking what's left inside of this shell of me

this life it was forced upon me
just know that i didn’t ask for any of this
the candle light burns dim and slowly
now i must go
before i start to fall to pieces

i know baby and its killing me
i know maybe it was make believe
run, so cold in these maple leaves
one day, saying know you wanna leave
drive slow, baby where u taking me
die so, bleed thru me fatally
sidenote memories be haunting me
eyes closed, i cant even go to sleep

let me rot away.~

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the haunting (ft. casperrr & epitomeoffailure)

I love u if you’re reading this :’)

Lyrics:

[hero]

i should write a million songs
a discography is not one

so maybe i'm lovin the silence
prop up my fifty pound eyelids
spent years in this room on my own and if u don't believe i could paint u the tiling
most of my friends are one-sided
bout time that i cut all of my ties and
i'm looking rough in the mall yet she likin my hair and i don't even style it
these r my guys that i could not betray
i wouldn't even know how to
awol n timeless
grounds n lowlifes
the rest of my guys i can't rhyme thru
where did the time go
feels like i started a cyclone
i never imagined i'd make it here
or know the friends that i know

[navyxower]

every day i am outside in
this cold weather makes me feel alive, andr
your always inside of my iris
i wish id take you out for the night, then

i dont wanna casue a problem
i lost a couple friends that i loved
i need to make some sense, of what i, have known
im in love with you and no one, knows
i need to make up my mind again, timeless the gang, yeah we know how we ride in this
i dont fw hoes or a side bitch, i made it far, now im thinking where ive been
up in my minds a mess

times going by, and i cannot stop it
im tryna make sense of this
but i cant even breathe through my concious
nobody fuck with me
my style yeah i see
the pain in ur eyes
baby i got your back, even if you aint mine

[hero]

so maybe i'm lovin the silence
prop up my fifty pound eyelids
spent years in this room on my own and if u don't believe i could paint u the tiling
most of my friends are one-sided
bout time that i cut all of my ties and
i'm looking rough in the mall yet she likin my hair and i don't even style it
these r my guys that i could not betray
i wouldn't even know how to
awol n timeless
grounds n lowlifes
the rest of my guys i can't rhyme thru
where did the time go
feels like i started a cyclone
i never imagined i'd make it here
or know the friends that i know


thank you

to all of my listeners
to my idols i base my sound off of
and to all my friends that have stuck with me.
(names in the order of who i met first to last to the best of my memory)

@kurayuz-rageex
@kukisawus
@seltzerkrys
@xweepings
@yokaidreams
@canyouseetheghost
@navyxower
@killsadghxst
@adoretaiken
@lovecliqxe
@noeke
@prod_emerald
@solofttt
@cyzun
@emptychest
@autumndropsdead
@sadtxnshi
@shizukesaaa
@swno
@ztope
@powla
@prodselfdoubt
@camertin
@luvsig
@yxvngjones
@nevrwrld
@x1fern
@caspywaspy
@drewisdead
@failure404
@paperthinwallss
@im_slendr
@drewisdead
@anmldoctor
@betweentheveinsandi
@safeatlast
@lxstboymusic
@heyzbee
@dxnnyymusic
@mxlatonin
@crizzywhite
@cuts
@sivistial 

and so many others i couldn't find the @s for or aren't on soundcloud (or i missed cuz i was tired writing this list LOL)

you made me who i am today
and i am forever grateful all of you have been part of my life

gave too much, now i'm done giving shit (p. afterlife)

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