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@squidemoji

staring at our DMs, hit me up when you're free
ill answer any time you need me babe i never sleep
ive never felt this way before my heart is yours to keep
what do i have to do to make you fall in love with me?

we should make a song, or whatever
i like it when, when we're together uh
chill at home, or outside, check the weather
i dont want to be alone when you make everything better

oh fuck now im crying on the floor
when did you decide you didn't need me anymore
when did everything start to slip away?
i don't really wanna live another day

well i guess that's that, that's just always how it goes
add a few more cuts to my wrist and overdose
wake up the next day and try not to think about it
will i make it to next week? (i really really doubt it!)

im dying inside and its only getting worse!
just rip out my guts and load them up inside the hearse!
tell my brother im sorry im the one that's dying first!
fuck life fuck this fuck you it hurts!

@-

im so tired
i have nothing left in me
feel so emtpy
im not even real-aaa--

maybe im inuyashiki sama
cant even figure out if im alive
dont know what im even here for - hey

hey would you even cry for me?
well i know u love to lie to me
you dont know what id do if i could stop thinking - fck!

@squidemoji

now i always see your face and i don't know what it means
sweet words from your tongue inside my nightmares and my dreams
ive never felt this way before im in a hole too deep
what do i have to do to just forget and fall asleep ?

staring at our DMs w/ - (z3nny)

felt horny might delete

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striped socks, put em on
you know that it turns me on
you're hot shit, way to go!
everything i want and more

long legs, thick thighs
wrap em in some thigh highs
put them in my face
we're gonna have a lot of fun tonight

black and white 
pink and striped
squished around the top so fuckin tight
looking so clean but we're about to make em dirty its all right

looking so hot i really think i might fall down and fucking die
staring at em like a piece of art like bitch im boutta cry

hold up
gotta take some pictures let's keep this moment alive
strike a sexy pose hold while i get some angles if thats fine
yeah that's good i took a couple think they turned out pretty well
special pictures just for me yeah this aint no show and tell

striped socks (glupidurak)

idk i hate myself

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you can tell me everything is my fault
if it makes it okay
if it makes you feel better
i don't really care
i just wanna be together
give me your love
it's the only thing that matters

when i met you i was broken on the inside
you taught me how to feel alive
but i kinda wish i never knew
istg i wish i never met you

you know i really thought that i was doing better
that i was doing pretty good on my own
that i could place some trust in personal growth
how stupid was that?!

when you left you took a big part of me with you
who am i kidding you really took it all
i really wish that i could hate you for it
but i forgive you

everything is my fault (dercept)

ly @breakupbreakdown 💕

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@squidemoji 

tell me you never needed me
i've got a love for tragedy
spare me instead of sparing feelings
if you love me set me free

don't try to hide the pile of the bodies in the basement
strip the walls and clean them off so they can be repainted
build something new instead of trying to recreate it
don't call it replacement it's change and we'll embrace it

i'm giving up on my "this is okay" mentality
what i would give to find the peace to just fall back asleep
dim lights dark room all alone with me
overthinking to the point of insanity

its 3am and im feeling kinda lost
take some drugs cut myself like a loss
i didnt kill me... i guess that makes me stronger?
but idk if i can hold back any fucking longer

@veil2k

baby i know it gets hard sometimes
cant even stand tall i wont lie
can only do dis if ur by my side
yeah lets go!
i got so much love its such a tragedy
tell me rn if u even really wanna b wit me
all these missed calls yeah i think i got like 3
when i go jus let my body drift at sea

love for tragedy w/ veil (breakupbreakdown)

yeah

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this is not a cry for help
im crying out in pain
its not a fucking joke
i want to blow my brain

waking up i cant sleep
having panic attacks in my dreams
you can laugh call me names
i know im fucking lame (╥_╥)

i dont do these songs for fun
its for you when im gone
you did nothing wrong
its only me im done

i love my friends
but they cant help me now
thanks for everything!
its time for me to go check out

im a little too sensitive yeah
hurt myself to desensitize yeah
im trying to be more brave

im scared of pain
and pretty much much everything else
do i have what it takes to end myself?
idk why dont you come push me and see ???

its not a song its a suicide letter
im sorry but its not getting better
braindead and wrists getting redder
one false move and ill cut the tether

how pathetic (senkou)

prod me

sorry

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everyones asleep now
make sure the doors closed
leave the lights on
love the way you look in those

dont get shy now
face between your thighs now
shh dont let them hear us
try not to let the sounds out

staying up all night
make a mess of my sheets
its 5am and were still in deep
feeling close to you
like eternity
kissing on your lips
dont let me free

10 million yen

(=✖ ᆺ ✖=)

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@squidemoji

dont know what im doing, youre the only thing im sure of right now
( please pick up the phone, baby please pick up the phone )
but i keep falling apart and crushing you in the debris
( i never wanted this, wasnt meant for you to see! >_< )

broken down!
begging for some kind of relief!
take a breath!
kiss me right before you leave! *moans*

im going to sleep
see you in the morning
when i wake up, will you
be there waiting for me?

i know that i dont deserve you
it was wrong of me to hurt you
after everything weve been through
just know that i fucking miss you

( always fucking up )
( i never meant to hurt you )
( love is not enough )
( falling from my virtues )

@loveushiyoko

i dont know if ima gonna be alright 

i just miss you every fuckin night 

just tell me its gonna be alright 

just a lil im soo sad

ill just be fine 

ill just be fine

wish i could talk to my momma more time

even tho your bitch wanna facetime

dont know here to go bitch i just wanna die

i dont know if ima gonna be alright 

i just miss you every fuckin night 

just tell me its gonna be alright 

losing myself to the ciggeretes ill be just fine

crush you w/ shiyoko (fxkss)

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uhh dont ask me that question
cause i dont have an answer
i feel you further from me
you never took the chance to

know me
feel me
ask me what im doing
tell me when im being stupid
looking cute or being happy
are you even looking

at me? like you did when we first met
when you loved me
now youre just mad at me
changed up and i wish i could change that
but i hope you know that:

every day i pour my empty heart out for you!
every word i write im just trying to get through!
crying out loud but none of it can reach you!
im all out of options, feeling like im see through...

know me
feel me
ask me
tell me
hold me close to you

uhh dont ask me that question
cause i dont have an answer
i feel you further from me
you never took the chance to

know me
feel me
ask me what im doing
tell me when im being stupid
looking cute or being happy
are you even looking

at me? like you did when we first met
i dont see you anymore i wish that we could reset
whyd you have to change up? wish that i could change that
making me all fucked up im weak but you know that

every day i pour my empty heart out for you!
every word i write im just trying to get through!
crying out loud but none of it can reach you!
running out of options, feeling like im see thru u uu  uuu u u u u u u u u  u u u

see through (lilgodisdabest)

im wishing every day that you talk to me again.

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@squidemoji

i miss your body next to mine in my bedroom
tuck yourself close and baby let me consume you~
our hearts synced up they beat as one
i never want to come undone

imma kiss you on the forehead one more time before i go
and then you grab my hand and you pull me nice and close
and now youre begging me to stay like squidy please dont go
i wanna stay like this forever but it feels so long ago

okay.
its a little too late 
for 'im sorry'...
...but hear me out.

took the wrong branch
its about to get really gory 🔪

i fucking love you girl! (you know who you are)
until the end of time! (corny af idc)
put your lips against mine! (muah)

youre everything that ive ever wanted
its just like they say
you never know until youve lost it

fuck. :/

@-

my head hurts thinking about you
you were a part of everything i do
i hate my brain wish i could throw it in the sink
is it hard for you to see that ur my everything
uh
im so sorry, i wish i was enough for you
ill find a way to make it last im so obsessed with you
you make me think so much
i cant do this alone i feel lost


i need you right now baby
just give me a hug and feel me
and im just staring at the fan thats on my ceiling
baby youre the only one to heal me
youre the only one that knows the real me
baby im so tired of this feeling
i feel like im drowning im so sea sick,,,

i wish that u 4ever ☆ w/ - (bigdog oof)

Why did you tell me that?

I love you all, thanks for waiting for me. <3

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@squidemoji

ended up here again last night...
caught me in a good mood, thats fine
but i dont really know why youre here.

it took everything i had to try to forget
and every sleepless night i blame on you.

you wanna see me bleed?
i guess this time ill take a picture.
you wanna take your leave?
cut out my heart: here's the scissors ✂️

nothing i say has any meaning.
you wont catch me crying
when it happens to you. 

@ultravialit

(yea)

(yea yea yea yea)

(you know it x2)

(lets go in x2)

you caught me in a good mood

(bwah)

came through like good looks

(yea)

hanging off every word like good books

(yea)

serve it up very rare like good cooks

(yum)

woah!

(di di di di)

(la la la la)

i feel lit

(its lit ummm)

like who i be if i wasnt this

(huh?)

i pick up pieces with chopstick

(yah)

i put on brave face i got this

(gosh)

clock spin like beyblade let it rip

(what)

whoa im feeling it

(im feeling it)

because without you there would be no me legit huh

the look on my face when your walking in yuh

(its lit its lit its lit)

@squidemoji

its do or die!
its live a lie, or fantasize!

i know what i want and what im worth
its not much, but ill come first
this time, for the first time!!
trying something new, learning how to love myself

i really LOVE my friends! <3
theyve been with me through the worst times
want them to live their best lives
everything is beautiful, forget about my past life

caught me in a good mood w/ ultravialit (dercept)

prod me
mastered by @nadirwhy

we get a little crazy sometimes

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@squidemoji

i dont feel safe
i dont wanna be awake
whats going on with u

did i fuck everything up again
how can u say its the end
im still in love with u

i was happy
u might find it hard to believe
i gave myself to u
everything u said meant everything to me

think im gonna throw up
my whole lifes a no-op
i dont wanna show up
i just wanna drug up

@nadirwhy

yea i messd up 
pls dont tell me again 
yea she hates me
but she keeps talkn bout me to her frnds
i get kept up
tryna look thru a different lens 
i just cnt except the fact that she dont wan be my friend

2 much medicine 
i thnk i fuckd up my head
i wana live a better life 
but stay poppn percocet
i touch down in GA
i pop out at saks 
dont hit my phone bby i dnt thnk im comn back

whys it gota be this way?
bby tell me can i just stay?
pls dnt make me go awy
i would do anythng no matter how cliché

i dont feel safe here w/ nadir

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@squidemoji

𝘣𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘵𝘸𝘪𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘧 𝘶𝘳 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺...

everything i love turns bad
whats wrong with my face
whats wrong with my head

𝘶𝘩 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘶𝘱
𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬
𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨--

im still lonely as fuck
i guess ive given up
it happens so much
cant rly chalk it up to luck

i dont have the words left
theres no point in "talk it out"
ill keep quiet 
𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘬𝘦𝘱𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧
til i kill myself

@haunted_sad

lately i think that im not ok
i wanna cut myself wit the blade
𝘪 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘦 i dnt wanna be this way
i-ibeenfeelinsostuckinmyways

w-why do i fear our love fading
i been reminiscent as of lately
say the same old words ik u hate me
well maybe i hate me too :))

im going to kill myself soon w/ haunted_sad (loverboy x malloy)

prod me
art by my beloved

just messing around w this one

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uh ohhh ohh--

u can break my heart ig its fine
ive been through this shit a dozen times
what happened to the color in my life?
put the gun up to my head-- i wont think twice

i rly like u can u tell me something nice
i rly like it when u reflect in my eyes
i feel the distance but i like to fantasize
all my memories they play back in black & white

black & white

prod me

that sucks

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did u ever feel ashamed?
cause i dont think so.
god i know ur not the same
nah i dont think so.
i wont fall for that again
god u rly sank low
i should just forget ur name
忘れましょうね

how disgusting, ur psyche is busted up
was it worth it was it everything u wanted? (nah)
need some guidance cuz u look a little lost kid
kinda disappointing, 本当に嫌な

feel ashamed

prod me
art by my beloved

happy new years

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baby im not enough
baby im not enough o-O-
maybe youve had enough
maybe u wanna go

youve gone quiet for the night
missed my chance to say goodbye
missed my chance to make things right
close my eyes i shut them tight

dont think i'll ever let this go.

ur the only one for me i hope u know
hate my fuckin self it rly shows
uohhh how to be ok with all alone?
uoohhhh how to be ok with all alone???

how 2 be alone

it's easy to lose who you are in the expectations of your loved ones
i hope you can pick up the pieces and reevaluate yourself

art by @nadirwhy <3
prod me

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@squidymoji

I'm sorry my priorities are messed up
I'm sorry my mentality is fucked up
I'm sorry my regrets will never reach you
I'm sorry healing leaves some damaged tissue

You did what you had to
To protect your fragility
Pinned down by everyone around you
How's it feel to finally be free

To step into the light

And realize your life is more than this
You've splintered into parts, it's time to recollect
Pick out the debris then sift and redissect
Don't forget to pause a second just to catch your breath

@luhvstory

I know I'm so pathetic
But you're so unapologetic
I think it's our genetics
I still love your aesthetic

Your tattoos and cosmetics
I hope you understand it
My heart's still damaged
I don't think that I'll manage

I took our love for granted
Now I feel so distracted
I don't blame you at all
Girl now my back's against the wall

fragility w/ luhv story

too much, too fast, these sorts of things never last

sorry to everyone i haven't responded to, i'm really bad with that
trying to get back into the music headspace again
thank you for listening

also https://soundcloud.com/squidy-but-worse/break-out-btfo-ver

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breaks out!!

slow it down
girl i kinda need ur help
but i think we need to

slow it down
but girl i kinda need ur help

i miss the feel of the sun
leave me out to dry up
in the dust where i belong
i know i'll remember this one

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art by my beloved
co-mastered with @bvrdencr (we made so many versions)
prod me

(i wanted to do more with this but don't have the project files anymore -.-)

break out!!

i had a lot of fun with this one :'3
ty to my friends for their feedback

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watch my form disintegrate
watch my mind disintegrate

something you forgot to throw away

like litter soaking in the rain

watch me

cut & paste like paper
rearrange make different pictures
lines only flow one way
that's ok i'll black my eyes

life like waste like litter
melt away into the gutter
one day i'll float away
that's ok i'll steel my heart

irl theres no undo
maybe i can just delete
can i just be honest please
if i was would you save me

~~

prod me
art by my beloved

squidy

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