when you're with me
i see it clearly
i don't mean as much
as you do to me 

and so it goes 
there's always one who loves more
can't be so naïve
in this harsh reality

so i listen to my brain
ignore this heart in pain
i try to move on
but it's all in vain

The things that could have been

I've seen enough of the world there is, now my eyes they burn against the skin
I've heard enough of the silences whose echos keep ringing through my veins

What more of you is still left to use
I'd take it all anyway
I wonder who can cry "abuse" 
when screams evaporate

I can feel you go with the numbing blow
your hands so gently gave
I long for more in the afterglow
Fearing what I've already braved

I've felt enough of the hollowness
In shadows shining on every win
I've held enough of the souls that best
Temporarily erase my sins

What more of you is still left to use 
I'd take it all anyway
I wonder who can cry "abuse" 
When screams evaporate

I can feel you go with the numbing blow
your hands so gently gave
I long for more in the afterglow
Fearing what I've already braved

Afterglow

I see us in the kitchen
Gathered round at night
Discussing how our day was
Completely normal sight
I see us watching tv
Fighting over the remote
Settling for some movie
We've already seen before

Now the days are rough
But i hold on for you
And the nights are long
But your thought gets me through
And what I never got
Will rain on you
I'll do it for you love
I'll do it all for you

I see us getting dressed for
Every other festival
Clicking tonnes of pictures 
For no reason at all
I see us going out and
Causing others discomfort
Our blaring conversations
Filled with inside jokes

Now the days are rough
But i hold on for you
And the nights are long
But your thought gets me through
And what I never got
Will rain on you
I'll do it for you love
I'll do it all for you

I see us parting ways to
Love our different lives
And if i do it all right
You'll miss all that you leave 
Behind

I'll do it all for you

I know what life
still has in store
people will come
And people will go

Soon all the words
Yet to be spoke
I would've heard
already before

And all the lines
That found their home
On my father's face
Will reflect on my own

Deepened by oh
So many woes
I just can't seem
To ever outgrow

Is it too soon to say goodbye
Is it too soon to say I tried
Is it too late for me to stop crying
Is it too soon for me to be dying

One day I'll find
When I'm finally free
Someone to love
Half heartedly

Struggling to raise
A kid of my own
Without passing on
All that I've borne

Would that be enough
Would I be at rest
Could I end my search
At no one's behest

having found
what makes me truely
happy for more
Than a day or two

Is it too soon to say goodbye
Is it too soon to say I tried
Is it too late for me to stop crying
Is it too soon for me to be dying

Is it too soon

Well the sky, it looks just alright
it'd better with you by my side
I'm good on my own, or maybe it's pride
Cause I'd be a fool to pass on good company tonight 

We don't have to give each other
Our souls till the end of time
A few moments to call our own
Works just fine

You'll bring the spirit
I'll bring the wine
We'll take a minute
And unravel our rhyme
And when the sun goes down
The city will cry
But I'll be sleeping soundly, knowing you're mine

Well life, it's quite a ride
More than enough to keep one occupied

We dont have to be each other's 
Whole world through some grand design
A plus one for the RSVPs
Works just fine

You'll bring the spirit
I'll bring the wine
We'll test our limits
It's barely a crime
And when the sun goes down
The city will cry
But I'll be sleeping soundly, knowing you're mine

Come to me now     x 243

You're mine

Why won't you call me
And tell me you want me
Like the times you've done before
But now I'm not so sure
If you were just lonely

I've been losing my sleep
Wondering what's keeping you busy
And if at all i close my eyes
I hope to find
You waking up with me

But maybe we will never see 
These sugar coated dreams
Come alive it seems

So just let me hear your voice
It will get us through the night
I know we've got to wait a while
But i guess we'll be alright

But maybe we will never see 
These sugar coated dreams
Come alive it seems

So just let me hear your voice
It will get us through the night
I know we've got to wait a while
But i guess we'll be alright

We'll be alright

There have been days
Where I’ve locked away
Too painful to recall

The scars that remain
Not washed away
At all

Am I in the wrong to even wrote this song?
Or should I just be strong
And stay where I don’t belong

What do I owe
What can I give
That wasn’t taken from me

What actions now
Can make up for
Those years of silent misery

Am I ungrateful
For the fleeting moments of normalcy
If I leave

If I leave

Ab chodh ke na jao
Yeh raat baaki hai
Baat ho gayi toh kya
Ruk jao

Yeh waqt lautega na aise
Yeh pal bhulaoge kaise 

Jab khayaloon mein kabhi
Ho baatein ajnabi
Mere aakhon mein hi tum
Woh baate kho dena
Jab hawaaon mei Wohi
Fikar ho beh rehi
Mere haathon mei hi tum
Woh fikr chhod dena

Ab chodh ke na jao
Yeh haath khaali hai
Apne chaal mei hi tum
Ruk jao

Ruk jao

Would you come to me
After all that we've seen
I've been longing for
how it used to be

All these empty promises of catching up and starting new
Have started making me give up on you

I miss the way you would
Put in all you could
To make me feel at home
No matter where I stood
I miss the way I was
The one you'd come to first
To ease the weight of all
That made you hurt

Did it take you long
Finding someone new
was I wrong about
How much I meant to you

All these empty promises of catching up and starting new
Have forced me into giving up on you

I miss the way you would
Put in all you could
To make me feel at home
No matter where I stood
I miss the way I was
The one you'd come to first
To ease the weight of all
That made you hurt

I've done so much alone that you need to know
places, people, that have helped me grow
Just say you're proud of me 
And we'll let all else go

Would you come to me
After all that we've seen
I've been longing for
How it used to be

How it used to be

I've been waiting by
For you to realise
what our first night showed

That it's been a while
Since we've felt this alive
In arms unexplored

All i want is you, and your faith in
All we're yet to see through and soon create, now
All you're left to do is let our fate unfold
And be my heart and soul

I've been dreaming of
The way your smile undoes
the burden of my blues


And when we lay with our hearts
Merely inches apart
The world doesn't move

All i want is you, and your faith in
All we're yet to see through and soon create, now
All you're left to do is let our fate unfold
And be my heart and soul

I know you're scared of how it seems
As if we have known each other
Since lifetimes ago

But oh what a privilege
It is to be distressed
By "too good to be true"

Don't fret why our hands fit
Instead just celebrate
The fact that they do

All i want is you, and your faith in
All we're yet to see through and soon create, now
All you're left to do is let our fate unfold
And be my heart and soul

Be my heart and soul

Wake up to new faces
a myriad of embraces
in hands i'm not alone
close matches for my own

turn up in new clothes
to offices galore
a world beyond routine
from mails to movie screens

everyday i live a life barely enough for my soul
give me more, more than what solely makes me whole

bare my soul to paint a 
world with one less stranger  
those who pass you by
And friends that made you cry

Walk through memories
Of all the same old streets
that I'm yet to roam
And one day, call home

everyday i live a life barely enough for my soul
give me more, more than what solely makes me whole

Barely enough

What if my songs never play on the radio
And people don't turn up to any show
Singing along to the words that I wrote

What if my pictures don't flood all the magazines
And my work doesn't end up on movie screens
What meaning
Will my life then hold

The reality of my mortality
Has me scared to think aloud
Maybe my destiny, is to only be
Just another face in the crowd

What if my family doesn't love me back the same
And my grandchildren fail to recall my name
How long will my memory live on

The reality of my mortality
Has me scared to think aloud
Maybe my destiny, is to only be
Just another face in the crowd

Another face in the crowd

Often at times
You're likely to find, me
dreaming up ways in which the stars
One day align
And set up the crime
That has me stumbling across
The one who's unfortunate enough
(I'm sure it'll be rough) 
To spend the rest of her life with me
 
Will our story begin
With us trapped in the rain
Forced to make conversation
Or as we both eye a seat, 
In a cafe on the street
found to escape the summer heat
There's no guarantee that we'll even meet
Before we're 50
But there's one promise I can keep

That on the fateful day
When at last you walk my way
I will hold you close till dawn
As if I've known you all along

There's always the chance
Due to circumstance
That our paths may have crossed before
And we failed to realise
What was in front of our eyes. 
But things are different now, I'm sure
For it only to be a taste of the dream of what could've been
I hope you'll come around once more

And on that fateful day, 
When at last you walk my way
I will hold you close till dawn
As if I've known you all along

All along

dreams alive
soaring newfound heights
losing fears to fresh golden skies

palms spread out
heart all open loud
eyes alight with hope fighting doubt

oceans away from all that I have known
faces that I’ve been calling home
arms that felt warm in every embrace
will they welcome me the same?

reaching for a better me,
is this how it’s supposed to feel?
lost in all the madness of changing endlessly

one step ahead
towards the life I meant
but my feet, they miss familiar ground

sweeping winds
the unknown they bring
fearing something I haven’t found

oceans away from all that I have known
faces that I’ve been calling home
arms that felt warm in every embrace
will they welcome me the same?

reaching for a better me,
is this how it’s supposed to feel?
lost in all the madness of changing endlessly

New places

A thought is all it takes
For my heart to start to ache
Over the years that I had spent living at home

I wonder if the time it takes
For me to walk those lanes
would be enough to bring to mind
The stories they hold

Now it's harder to carry the weight
Of the memories that resurface
Every time I go back, to everything that I had
Did all of it go to waste? 

My music, my friends, my love
Haven't I worked for them enough
To lose them to a place
That can't be called home anymore

A thought is all it takes
for my mind to start to race
Reaching for places where I'm
Now left alone

The ones that saw: us kick our ball about;
Friends of friends pass joints around;
Teenage lovers baring all to their bone

Now it's harder to carry the weight
Of the memories that resurface
Every time I go back, to everything that I had
Did all of it go to waste? 

My music, my friends, my love
Haven't I worked for them enough
To lose them to a place
That can't be called home anymore

A thought is all it takes

pull me close
she says as the winter frost
it settles upon her bright red nose

the storm rolls close
but her dancing toes
refuse to stop
to feel the cold

she’s not the only warmth I’ve felt
but she’s the last standing light

pull me close
she says as the winter frost
settles upon her bright nose

I’m still cold and alone
I wrap the night
around my bones
             
pull me close 
she says as the winter frost
it settles upon her ashen nose

Bones- Ishita and Sheil

When the skies in the blink of an eye
Turn a darker shade of grey
When the nights are passing you by
Your thoughts keeping you awake

When your eyes come barely alive
Seeing the light of day
When you've spent hours on end
Wishing your troubles away

Just sit and remember to breathe
However insane it may seem
To even hope for better times
But one can only dream
When we wake up tomorrow
It will be alright, I hope
If I wake up tomorrow
I will be alright I know

When it's tough to get out of bed
Wondering why you even wake
When the fear of what tomorrow brings
Can be drunk away

When the want of being loved by all
Births so much hate
When your tears are all running dry
And you're scared you've lost your way

Just sit and remember to breathe
However insane it may seem
To even hope for better times
But all one can do is dream
When we wake up tomorrow
It will be alright, I hope
If I wake up tomorrow
I will be alright I know

Your own lullaby

Equal parts wistful and pensive, the pianist-guitarist-saxophonist, poured late night thoughts into soulful ballads, carried by a husky baritone.  

This page is a living archive: the 4 singles we already know and love, with 18 previously unheard demos, drafts and daydreams. 

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