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Every day i try to justify this crumbling facade,
Everybody's on the green and I'm still stuck here in the rough,
All the dirty dishes piling up there's laundry on the floor,
I've been down this road so many times and still I lose control,

Is there something here for fixing,
Is my lifestyle a condition,
I don't want anything from anybody else,
But I'm not strong enough to be alone 
(Strong enough to be alone)

Is this what I really wanted,
Am I able to sustain this,
(Sustain this)
Is there somebody else out there,
fitting in so well and still they're feeling like they don't belong
(Don't belong)

Lately I don't feel like anyone especially myself,
I've been taking too much medicine I'm worried 'bout my health,
I don't know how long I'll last,
But I know this too shall pass,
I smoke myself to sleep and then I'll do it all again

intherough [laur.en]

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Please look, don't touch
No sex, just love
No friends, just buds
No spark, just puff

Octuple dose of Buckleys dry cough
Went to bed and never woke up 
Powdered nose and want the dust up
Buckled up I feel like Buster
Skinny pedal hits the floor
My blinkers stuck, my vision's blurred
Oncomings got me hypnotized
I feel like I might touch the sky

Don't know where I'm going 
But I've got to go faster 
Or throw away autonomy for comfort
Turn off all the lights and cut the engine 
Tomorrow's still another day

Soon she'll see me all the way up


touchthesky [laur.en]

Hey there 
Been a long time did you miss me
Lookin pretty hot make sure you drink a lot of Gatorade,
Pretty freckles mixing with the glitter in your sunscreen,
Tonight let's both be strangers and forget all of our history,

And maybe we could make it work this time,
Been so long since I seen you smile,
Still got all your selfies on my iPhone 5,
I'm not tryna pick you up tonight I'm tryna pick your mind

Between the weed and allergies I'm running out of visene,
So I could really use somebody easy on the eyes ,
Think I really benefited from the White Lightning,
Another night of drinking tryna drown the butterflies 

Conversation seems to show some signs of real potential,
Let it fall apart despite all my good intentions, 
Had ample opportunities to try to taste your lipstick,
But can't read body language I'm a little bit autistic,

I told you all the secrets I keep bottled up inside,
You told me every shitty thing that's happened in your life,
I grabbed your things and said goodbyes so you could run away and hide,
Just know that if we weren't in public then I also would've cried

heythere:)

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I feel so pretty in the moonlight
(Never gave you anything no wonder you'd had enough)
But am i pretty on the inside 
(Sitting on your line and saying nothing instead of hanging up)

crushed, 

trying to find the stars inside a black hole
(inside a black hole),
Never gave you anything no wonder you'd had enough 
(I guess you really had enough now),
When we're together I was still distant 
(thought that's what you wanted),
Sitting on your line and saying nothing instead of hanging up


(Crushed)
When all of the walls that I built caved in,
(Lately)
Keep to myself, eat, get baked and
(Still I lay awake)
Thinking of opportunities wasted,
and how not fruits have sprouted from all of the pots I've pissed in

Picking at the scabs so they won't heal,
(I just wanna hold on)
Now you can always remain a part of me,
(Oh girl you gave me permanent scars)
I only ever see you in my fantasies,
(I'm so sorry)
I hope your thinking about me when you can't sleep,
(Too afraid to take it too far)

It's so unfortunate but you can only mend a bent heart,
After everything that's happened I could use a fresh start,
I just recently decided I don't give a single fuck,
Girl I know that this is probably me stepping too far,
But you and me together could've been something,
This is more than just a crush


blackhole [laur.en]

bruh just google the lyrics 

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