Light a candle + spill some tears w/ my new single "Stranger". Sad-queer emo acoustic ambient vibes.  "ARTFUQ" + "Stranger" make 2/3 of my explorative EP out this winter. Thanks for listening.

♥ Sh!ner

// Produced by Adam Allison. Mixed by Keith Armstrong. Mastered by Justin Shturtz. Artwork by me. //

LYRICS:
Maybe if I say
If I say your name out loud
Maybe I could stay
I won't shut myself out

I struck every match
Lit every fuse
I, the disaster
Pretended it was you
Oh maybe
If I say your name
Out loud

Stranger
We're not meant to be
Strangers
We wrestled my demons
You came out with black eyes
You sleepwalk the neighborhood
I hold the flashlight
Oh Stranger
Don't be a stranger
Tonight

Oh again
I woke up homesick
How did I lose my best friend
You're so fucking crazy
Crazy I love you
That's just what you said

I took on new life
You were my muse
I, the disaster
Know I failed you
Again
I'll say your name
Out loud

Stranger
We're not meant to be
Strangers
We wrestled my demons
You came out with black eyes
You sleepwalk the neighborhood
I hold the flashlight
Oh Stranger
Don't be a stranger
Tonight

Oh I would
Love to make you proud
Wouldn't that be something?
The hand grenade that pulled his own pin
Put himself together again

Oh better than ever
Better than better
Better (Better)
Than ever (Ever)
Oh better (I'm better)
Than better

Stranger
We're not meant to be
Strangers
We wrestled my demons
You came out with black eyes
You sleepwalk the neighborhood
I hold the flashlight
Oh Stranger
Don't be a stranger
Tonight
Tonight

Stranger

"god in the mirror" is the third + final track from the 'god in the mirror' EP. "gitm" rounds out the EP in a special way. Sad-queer emo ambient vibes. Lets talk about religious trauma + thanks for listening.

♥ Sh!ner

// Produced by Adam Allison. Mixed by Keith Armstrong. Mastered by Justin Shturtz. Artwork by me. //

LYRICS:
I wrapped my car around a tree
A porno flashed before my eyes
My erection stared into heaven
Angels marveled at the sight

If you wanna meet god
You better look in the fucking mirror

I've been dead
All along I played alive
I've been dead
All along I played alive
I played alive

I was baptized but I drowned
The holy spirit held me down
I resurrected in 60 seconds
A new world record for the crown

If you wanna meet god
You better look
Look in the fucking mirror

I've been dead
All along I played alive
I've been dead
All along I played alive
I played alive

I played alive
I played alive

If you wanna me god
You better
Look in the fucking mirror

I've been dead
All along I played alive
I've been dead
All along I played alive
I played alive
I've been dead
All along I played alive
I've been dead
All along I played alive
All along I played alive
I played alive

god in the mirror (EP)

god in the mirror

"Blindside" is me kissing myself on the mouth + drawing a lifeline from the person I've been to the person I am. Evolution, growth, empowerment.

♥ Sh!ner

// Produced by Keith Armstrong. Mixed by Keith Armstrong. Mastered by Justin Shturtz. Artwork by me. //

LYRICS:
You know I smoked before I claimed edge
Was a republican before I waved a black flag
Now fuck the president
You know I tried to be straight
But I'm Mulholland Drive
A double helix limp wrist
And I'm your dad's type

Don't nail yourself to the floor
There's always a way through the trap door

They'd say it was a blindside
I'd say I opened up my third eye (Wide)
They just call it a plot twist (Plot twist)
But the plot became a bad bitch from something tragic

You know I prayed until I met god
Now I'm agnostic and I pray to Lady Gaga and Jerry Finn
You know I tried to blend in
But I'm the northern lights
A motherfucking alien
And I'm still your dad's type

Don't nail yourself to the floor
There's always a way through the trap door

They'd say it was a blindside
I'd say I opened up my third eye (Wide)
They just call it a plot twist (Plot twist)
But the plot became a bad bitch from something tragic
Tragic

Never say never say never say
Never say never
Never say never say never say
Never say never
Never say never

They'd say it was a blindside
I'd say I opened up my third eye (Wide)
They just call it a plot twist (Plot twist)
But the plot became a bad bitch from something tragic

They'd say it was a blindside
I'd say I opened up my third eye (Wide)
They just call it a plot twist (Plot twist)
But the plot became a bad bitch from something tragic

Never say never say never say
Never say never

Blindside

"Read My Mind" is bittersweet heartache. Living in the glow of something special, even though it didn't last, knowing it was worth the love + the loss.

♥ Sh!ner

// Produced by Keith Armstrong. Mixed by Keith Armstrong. Mastered by Justin Shturtz. Artwork by Cosmo Bertollini (@chaos.mgmt). //

LYRICS:
I could dance around this room all day
Trying my best
Trying my best to recreate
A million memories that won't go away
You're long gone but I can't help but stay

Both back packets stuffed with four leaf clovers
I keep all my fingers crossed but my tongue untied

I'm holding out hope for no good

Car parked at the drive-in
Screening violence
Ain't it cool, ain't it weird
Ain't it fucked how you read my mind
Back seat of the cockpit trading secrets
Ain't it cool, ain't it weird
Ain't it fucked how you read my mind
Read my mind

I'm stuck, I'm stained
I opened you up and spilled you all over my brain
So full of promise, so full of life
It's my word against your gut
You made the right choice but

I'm holding out hope for no good reason

Car parked at the drive-in
Screening violence
Ain't it cool, ain't it weird
Ain't it fucked how you read my mind
Back seat of the cockpit trading secrets
Ain't it cool, ain't it weird
Ain't it fucked how you read my mind
You read my mind

Both back packets stuffed with four leaf clovers
I keep all my fingers crossed but my tongue untied
I'm holding out hope for no good reason

Car parked at the drive-in
Screening violence
Ain't it cool, ain't it weird
Ain't it fucked how you read my mind
Back seat of the cockpit trading secrets
Ain't it cool, ain't it weird
Ain't it fucked how you read my mind
Read my mind
You read my mind
Oh
Read my mind

Read My Mind

"Expensive" is a form of civil unrest. Fight the power.

♥ Sh!ner

// Produced by Keith Armstrong. Mixed by Keith Armstrong. Mastered by Justin Shturtz. Artwork by Kasey (@kaseykourageous). //

LYRICS:

Cadillacs and swimming pools
Red lines around gold neighborhoods
A view downtown is close enough to skid row
Archetype in stereo
Twenty-four carat embryo
Oh mister mayor, you're standing on my throat sir

Goddamn that life looks expensive
Scrape me off the bottom of your shoe
Death and taxes smothered in butter
Scrape me off the bottom of your shoe
The bottom of your shoe
Thanks

I paid a man to kill my and so did you (So did you)
We paid a man to shoot my friend, no problem
The DA said my friend was dead
And it was true, we paid her too
She wouldn't charge the cop we paid to kill my friend

Goddamn that life looks expensive
Scrape me off the bottom of your shoe
Death and taxes smothered in butter
Scrape me off the bottom of your shoe
The bottom of your shoe
Thanks

Anemic boujee scene in the throne room of a king
Designer A's and B's echoing and networking
Take silent inventory like, what good are you to me?
Moving toward the terrace for un-recycled air
I'm collecting flattery like lipstick on silverware
Reminded of the tar pits, I'm witnessing despair
Future fossils suffocate choosing neither truth nor dare

Well ya know, everything happens for a reason
These things do happen
Thoughts and prayers

Goddamn that life looks expensive
Scrape me off the bottom of your shoe
Death and taxes smothered in butter
Scrape me off the bottom of your shoe
The bottom of your shoe
Thanks

Expensive

An ode to the late year seasons-- months 10, 11, + 12. Something about the holidays, the hype + the frenzy. Something warm in the fear of what's fleeting.

♥ Sh!ner

// Produced + Mixed by Keith Armstrong. Mastered by Justin Shturtz. Artwork by Kasey (@kaseykourageous). //

LYRICS:

The sky is falling in California
Is it snow or ash or ketamine?
A pixie-dusted reindeer scene
Ya know, nothing makes sense when I'm gone
But I can't be everywhere with everyone at once

10 11 12
The ghosts come out to play
The seasons change
The wind gets colder
We're all getting older

When I'm with you, I miss them
When I'm with them, I miss you
I'm always missing something
Bittersweet, we light the tree and sing
I'm where I'm meant to be

I'll indulge in my own sick romantic fantasies
Kissing under mistletoe and at the drop on new year's eve
Ohh ohh
I'd like to fall in love
But how could I complain
When I'm drowning in it (drowning in it)
I'm loved
And if there's someone for me I can brave another holiday
Haunted houses, grocery stores, black Friday

10 11 12
The ghosts come out to play
The seasons change
The wind gets colder
We're all getting older

When I'm with you, I miss them
When I'm with them, I miss you
I'm always missing something
Bittersweet, we light the tree and sing
I'm where I'm meant to be

The sky is falling
The sky is falling

10 11 12
The ghosts come out to play
The seasons change
The wind gets colder
We're all getting older

When I'm with you, I miss them
When I'm with them, I miss you
I'm always missing something
Bittersweet, we light the tree and sing
I'm where I'm meant to be
I'm where I'm meant to be
I'm where I'm meant to be
I'm where I'm meant to be
I'm where I'm meant to be

10 11 12 (The Sky Is Falling)

"This is the end" by SH!NER
@kaseykourageous
@sshinerr

♥ Sh!ner

// Produced by Keith Armstrong. Mixed by Keith Armstrong. Mastered by Justin Shturtz. Artwork by Kasey (@kaseykourageous). //

LYRICS:

This is the end

"Talented" by SH!NER
@kaseykourageous
@sshinerr

♥ Sh!ner

// Produced by Keith Armstrong. Mixed by Keith Armstrong. Mastered by Justin Shturtz. Artwork by Kasey (@kaseykourageous). //

LYRICS:
Ten writers on one song
Fuck the truth let's just get 'em to sing along
Poppin' pills and getting fucked up
Like it's fun to be sick
They like to keep us dumb
Make it our job to forget
Forget, forget, forget

Oh, you're so talented
Or are we just under the influence?

Gay boy too sad
Too soft, too sharp, too dark
Too goddamn political
Too loud, too queer, too feminine
Too rough around the edges
Like a razor blade confession

They like to keep us dumb
Make it our job to eat shit

Oh, you're so talented
(You're so talented)
Or are we just under the influence?

Oh, you're so talented
(You're so talented)
Or are we just under the influence?

Can I scream?
Can I be angry?
Here's a pop song for the pop charts
A factory farm death march

Can I scream? (Can I scream)
Can I be angry? (Can I be angry)
Put your hands in the air and black out again
Capitalist nepotism is in

Oh light up, drink
Don't stop, don't think

Oh you're so
Oh you're so
T-t-t-talented

Oh, you're so talented
(You're so talented)
Or are we just under the influence?
(Under the)

Oh, you're so
(Show me what you got, show me what you got)
Oh, you're so
(Show me what you got, show me what you got)
Oh, you're so
(Show me what you got, show me what you got)
Oh, you're so
You're so
You're so
Talented
XVX

Talented

"Famous In Hell" by SH!NER
@kaseykourageous
@sshinerr

♥ Sh!ner xVx

// Produced by Keith Armstrong. Mixed by Keith Armstrong. Mastered by Justin Shturtz. Artwork by Kasey (@kaseykourageous). //

LYRICS:
I know your name from the headlines
They play
Games with my dark curiosity
You stay
In my dreams + my nightmares 
I scream but you’re not there
I wonder if you would notice me
Haunt me
Would you?

Follow me, follow me
Out of the shallows
Follow me, follow me
Into the shadows 

Sharpen the blade, hold it like this
Open my veins, I’m open
I want it, I want

To be famous in hell like you
Famous in hell + heaven too

I always take the long way home
All alone + vulnerable
Past curfew wearing my best for you 
Come on, come one
Take me

To my dreams + my nightmares 
I scream + you’re right there
I can’t believe that you noticed me
Haunted me
Now would you?

Follow me, follow me
Into the shadows 

Sharpen the blade, hold it like this
Open my veins, I’m open
I want it, I want

Pull back the skin, letting you in
I’m ready to sin, I’m ready
I want it, I want

To be famous in hell like you
Famous in hell + heaven too 
Famous, famous
Famous in hell 

They say you’re sick + it‘s probably true
A psychopath but I’m sick like you
The city folx here love to play afraid
They lock their doors but there’s a monster teaching 8th grade 

A killer view through an angels eyes
They pet my wings then apologize
For their crimes then beg me for their lives
I hear their cries they make me smile but it’s still time to die

You know a priest is just a robe the worst of any man can wear
+ if the man has guilty hands he gets to wear your name to hell 
Celebrity in a twilight zone
An autograph that you carve into his cheekbone  

The second half of ‘83 the world would stop to count our dead
But if the dead were innocent the dead would be alive instead 
He’s serial, I’m vicarious
There’s a body count but I stopped slitting my wrists

Sharpen the blade, hold it like this
Open my veins, I’m open
I want it, I want

Pull back the skin, letting you in
I’m ready to sin, I’m ready
I want it, I want

Sharpen the blade
Open my veins
Pull back the skin
Ready to sin

I want it, I want

To be famous in hell like you
Famous in hell + heaven too

Famous In Hell

"On an island" by SH!NER
@kaseykourageous
@sshinerr

♥ Sh!ner xVx

// Produced by Keith Armstrong. Mixed by Keith Armstrong. Mastered by Justin Shturtz. Artwork by Kasey (@kaseykourageous). //

LYRICS:
Let's walk
Between the headstones
In the graveyard
On the north shore
'Til we get too sad
But is it sad?
It just feels heavy
We're talking bout time + life + size
+ how it seems so small
Yet so big sometimes
Just to be alive

+ on an island in the ocean
On a planet with more questions than answers
We barely know a goddamn thing so

I'll kiss each moment
With open mouth
Learn to make peace with
All of the doubt
Insatiable wonder
Lust from the fount
Oblivion so sweet
Devour the now
Devour me now

I want it all
I'm greedy
I just want more
I'm hungry for it
I'm desperate
I'm gasping for it
The stars shine brighter here
Tempting me, tempting me
To reach further
To breathe deeper
To hold my fear
Then climb steeper
To meet the edge
Take one more step
To know the rules + break all of them
Break all of them
Break all of them

+ on an island in the ocean
On a planet with more questions than answers
Well we don't know a goddamn thing so

I'll kiss each moment
With open mouth
Learn to make peace with
All of the doubt
Insatiable wonder
Lust from the fount
Oblivion so sweet
Devour the now
Devour me now

Sitting pretty on the floor of the Pacific
I'm drifting esoteric but I'm dreaming so specific
+ he's watching from the shoreline
He trusts me with his secrets +
I'll keep him + all of them
Until I forget them

So I'll kiss each moment
With open mouth
Learn to make peace with
All of the doubt
Insatiable wonder
Lust from the fount
Oblivion so sweet
Devour the now
Devour me now
Devour me now
Devour me now

To reach further
To breathe deeper
To hold my fear
Then climb steeper
To meet the edge
Take one more step
To know the rules + break all of them

Na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na

On an island

LA-based indie artist making indie art things. LGBTQI plAy music.

SH!NER

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