AZPHYXIA , COMPLETE

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82 [scorpio]

For Now

fuck tik tokkers, i fucking hate them and hope they get fucked up

MAYHEM (Prod. ERENN)

prod. by saint urya & Zaki Ali 


lyrics
When I was in the psych ward
You were on your fucking high horse 
I got sidetracked by life forms 
quite bored living life sober
So I might form 
a tight order of rhymes sorted 
I find horrid  
breaking the rules 
I might get fined for it 
Making fools in line forfeit 
lines on my forehead
Align with the number of times 
Ive been so numb and divine 
Here’s a design
Combined to fuck up your mind 
Rid you of grimace 
I’m trying
To paint you a picture 
Elicit the figures 
I’m legit 
I’m tripping 
I’m Ticking like clocks, here’s a figment 
Fickle as fucks who exhibit 
Slick interruptions and gimmicks 
Mic in my hand, I feel gifted 
Like I’ve been damned to inhibit 
All of the standards I pick it 
Apart, cannot pander to bitches 
I’m bigger than that 
And I’m living so large 
I Command while I kick it 
With bars that I’m managing 
Views that are harsh 
Understanding I’m damaging my heart 
When handling adderall scripts 
That I’m sampling daily 
Striking the tiniest chords, ukulele 
I’m failing
to check off the things on my bucket list 
Too busy dealing with feelings 
You fucking bitch caused 
I’m still lost 
What’s the cost of this turbulence crossed 
Against thoughts I exhaust 
Till I’m burnt out and squashed 
That shit is raw, know I’m flawed 
Cause In hindsight
I feel like I’m walking through fog 
I cannot walk this shit off
Top of the morning 
I topple the bars with a topic I scoffed 
Till it’s hot like the tropics
I tap in til tapped out on god 


Things been barely moving 
Ive been barely sleeping 
Intertwined 
With my share of delusions 
Fairly conducive 
To the grind 
Killing time, I feel dead inside 
Like I ingested insecticides
Give me a second, I’ll sink in the pressure 
Death to my pride 

barely alive 
Feel like I’m barely alive 
Yeah
Barely alive 
Everyones staring, I hide 
Yeah
Bear with my mind  
Imperative that I defy 
All these fuckers inside  
Til I perish and die 
Killing time 
Fill the lines 
Feel like I’m barely alive

B4RELY 4LIVE

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SLIDE! (FEAT. PERCPOPPY) [PROD. MALWARE X CHULL]

The first half of the final love story

I. BREAK
II. STAY
III. HOPE
IV. NEVER
V. LIAR
VI. LET GO

LIAR p. autrioly

NEVER p. pilotkid

I put a blade to my wrist and envision the slits
But I been too much of a bitch
Focus on everything hurting me, making me sick
Too overdramatic to fix
I been a bit of an addict
I wish I could have it
Beginning to shudder and twitch
Wish I could have her
Cuz I been enamored
It matters not
Whether i keep existing or rot
How does it feel
Knowing that moment is real
Hoping to cope but you kill
Everything loved
You know she wanted you still
But you only gave her the shove
You wanna be happy and had it
But threw it away cuz of something so minimally problematic
She actually cared, but you're not aware
I don't wanna love again, heart is impaired
Now I'm awake in the cold of December alone
I'd take you to hold but you aint in my phone
Dream of the way she would smile
I haven't been back in that place in a while
I used to dream about you with my last name
Now the past aint seeming fair
I used to dream about us with our backs turned to the hate
Now you aint there
See that without her I been feeling numb
Keep holding back all the truth from my tongue
Cuz even if i needed that to be spilled
I threaten to have our relation be killed
Amazingly thrilled
Then overly cry
I feel like emotions I feel aren't mine
Cuz its all a mess when I think of our time
To love or to hate as if I could decide

Hope you and I
End up together in all other lives
Even that one has never been mine
If we ever had it I hope its alive
Even for me I still wanna retry
Down for whenever, it cant be a crime
I feel the panic or maybe its cope
But deep in my brain is delusion of hope

HOPE p. autrioly

Lately, I been all a mess
I've been letting time take
Pain stakes deep in the chest
Hate days pass, without hearing not even a text
I go in and out depressions how my future's now an ex
In a loop, stay dwelling in my mental like a new cage
You'd say, everything I only wanna hear
Now this pill I wanna take the only demon in my ear
And I cannot be myself because I think I'm giving way, please

Stay with me
A little while, while I cry
Could you lay with me
Look at the sky, wanna fly far away with me
Don't wanna die, not tonight with me
I think I might, would you mind to retry babe

Stay with me
A little while, while I cry
Could you lay with me
Look at the sky, wanna fly far away with me
Don't wanna die, not tonight with me
I think I might, would you mind to retry babe

Had a dream about our first time meeting
Only feeling happy not awake and I'm sleeping
Wake into a presence all alone and by myself
Waiting for a little mention or a message on my cell
I debate on if you loved, or if i was just the first to treat you well
Up above, where my head is while my body's in it's hell
Had enough, I just want it all
I had a soul to sell
But I gave to her my everything and I still wish you well, cant

Stay with me
A little while, while I cry
Could you lay with me
Look at the sky, wanna fly far away with me
Don't wanna die, not tonight with me
I think I might, would you mind to retry babe

Stay with me
A little while, while I cry
Could you lay with me
Look at the sky, wanna fly far away with me
Don't wanna die, not tonight with me
I think I might, would you mind to retry babe

STAY p. boyfifty

I gave her my heart only for it just to BREAK!

Dodging hauntings when I rest
I've convinced me to detest
Everything about her
Yet I still know I made us a mess
Awful pain inside my heart
Hope for us is torn apart
I still dream as if you want me
Making living ever hard
Now find my way
Through this place a living hell
I've made this day
I would turn on back the clock
Switch the path on which I walk
I have sought
Just to have her back I'm often getting lost inside my thoughts
Wait

I gave her my heart only for it just to break
I gave her my heart only for it just to break
I gave her my heart only for it just to break
For it just to break
For it just to break

I would give up all around me just to travel back in time
Tell myself its best to hold on and the struggle now is fine
I would build a place for both of us to live out all our days
And nobody else would matter cuz I love you more always
Stay depressed and in my head the only place that I'm with her
You don't feel the way I'm feeling I cant hide how bad I'm hurt
I could tell you that I'm happy I could tell you plenty lies
He best stay from out the way
He best know I aint 'fraid to die

I gave her my heart only for it just to break
I gave her my heart only for it just to break
I gave her my heart only for it just to break
For it just to break
For it just to break

BREAK! p. grayskies

"and suddenly, we were strangers again"
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GXTHTRVP RECORDS 2024

so long (prod. TXCKA)

Second half of the final love story

I. ALLURE
II. DITSY
III. LUCY
IV. HOMICIDE
V. LULLABY
VI. PERFECT, ACT. II

"HOMICIDE" p. akkari // ayumi

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