I am a moonchild. The moon controls the tide. In life we all have choices, but what will you decide?

The Tide Was Too High (Part I)

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Genie

Lost

Prod. Isaiah 22
CoDA stands for Codependents Anonymous.
Is this love or insanity? This is a track that's supposed to give you that eerie kind of feeling about love. 

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CoDA

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Survival Mode

Produced by QESTN
artwork by @yonasmusicb on IG
Rum In My Smoothie. Fun track to make. No, I don't have a Tesla.

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RIMS

Produced by Sauce Boy (out of VA 🤘🏽) https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/1pUZd

FDYM

Beat & Male Vocals & Lyrics: @SebastianStephan
Beat in part inspired by Visions Drum Midi Loop Kit
Female Vocals: @StaceyOnTheRocks
Mixing & Mastering: emergent-audio.com

Why all the pain and the suffering?
One fall and we're all set to be struggling?
With pain in our hearts
Why allow evil?
Why did we not all wake up in heaven from the start?
Why do we have to live here like it's a test that's way too hard?
With no cheat sheet in sight
Some of us are deeply deprived
Of help, we didn't ask to be alive
Why when we need you the most you never seem to show up and help?
I felt better when I did things myself
Took care of my body and stopped hating myself
The world is evil to its core
When you feel down you feel it even more
It's hard to image it was even harder for the people here before
They say heaven's nigh but let's set aside all the lovely talk
Why did you not prevent slavery, genocide and the holocaust?
Diseases, disasters, paedophiles and some awful laws?
Kid's getting tortured and raped and end up in coffins at age 10
How are you fair when you punish to the third and fourth generation?

Is it all just a myth?
Is it all just a hoax?
Should we bother with this?
Are you out there for sure?
These are my Questions to God
So much stress and it's hard
We don't wanna suffer, never no more
Is it all just a lie
To keep the people in check?
Do we live just to die?
Is it really simple as that?
I think my questions are fair
If you are there, do you really care?

Life is complicated
Hardly fair and often painful
It says you want marriage but for now it's just fornication?
Give us more time
Seems you're livid inside
If all we do is sin and yet strive
To get through the gates and win ageless life
You say you're forgiving but there's things we can never do?
My doubts may be perpetual
If fornicators don't qualify for heaven that just proves
I'm in the same boat with gays and transsexuals
For many generations
People were murdered and tortured for your name's sake
By your infinite creation
You made the planets and stars in all your greatness
But folks get born deformed, ill and disabled
Prayer's supposed to move mountains but it ain't curing me
Why when I was strong in my faith, I kept losing hair?
Losing my mind, losing faith in myself full of fear
I bent over backwards trying to hook up with a Christian girl
Guess I wasn't perfect enough
Wasn't praying, repenting, or working enough

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How could you comfort us in heaven
If one of our loved ones don't get in?
God, would you step in?
And spare our lives?
Are we really strong enough not to give in to the devil's lies?
Before I lose my salvation, take me, I'd rather die
Some of my days were so fucked up it even hurts to tell
I can't imagine suffering worse in hell
After dreams and visions of it
I know one thing
I'd rather be non existent than to live in the pit
Your love I only see at times but I'm seeing some shit
That makes it easy to debunk it
There's times when all that keeps me from losing faith is fear of God and judgment
So many threats in the Bible we hear
Yet you say you're wiping our tears?
Sometimes I pray you would just make me die and disappear
Wish we didn't have to cry out to your ear
With no reply, instead you're blinding us with fear
Sometimes I wish you never woulda made me
Then at least I wouldn't fear hell and go crazy

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Questions To God ft. Sebastian Stephan

Produced: Dannyebeats
Masterering by @Florian-Boden

I'll hold you in my memory
So beautiful like a centerpiece.
Do you know how much you meant to me?
Can you get with me - on the other side?

Originally written and posted in 2019. Recently made some tweaks to the mastering and the mixing. This one is close to heart as it's about grief - my process/struggle.

The Other Side

This one definitely has a double meaning! Fun track to make. PRODUCED BY Blanq Beatz. MASTERED BY @Florian-Boden

Same Day Delivery

Sad Girl Vibes but also...  the come-up!
MASTERED BY @Florian-Boden

Doing It Anyway

Amazing Collab: @StaceyOnTheRocks X @CrisInfinite
Awesome Producer: @heartbreakmadeit

MIND MY BUSINESS ft. Cris Infinite (Prod. ✰ heartbreak ✰)

That feeling you get when you bout to be doper than you can imagine, going through the struggle.
TRACK PRODUCER: Donnie Katana
MIXED & MASTERED: T-RIFIK (From The 757)

THE GET UP

Produced by ✰ heartbreak ✰
Wanted to flip the artwork of my track "The Get Up". This song is describing a time where I was at my rock bottom in 2022. I wanted to capture and express this feeling. I figured if I can somehow create a song I could feel like mentally that I can survive the night and I did feel better. Putting this out here to share my pain, share my process, and help someone reading this to know to keep going. It will get better. Keep creating and being kind to yourself.

SAR(Prod. ✰ heartbreak ✰)

Feat. Its Damali https://soundcloud.com/user-390590816

Going or Coming (with Its Damali)(Prod. ✰ heartbreak ✰)

Need You Snippet

I think you've had enough.
Produced by Blanco
1st Single from 3-Track Release : The Tide Was Too High (Part I), avail on all streaming platforms Nov 15th, 2023

you've had enough

Produced by J.Creeper$
2nd Single from 3-Track Release : The Tide Was Too High (Part I), avail on all streaming platforms Nov 15th, 2023

i like it

Produced by J.Creeper$
3rd Single from 3-Track Release : The Tide Was Too High (Part I), avail on all streaming platforms Nov 15th, 2023

water damage

Isolated vocal version of "Doing It Anyway"

Doing It Anyway [Isolated Version]

Verse 1 of the "you've had enough" track. This is about substance abuse and the codependent partner's perspective.

Boy, you've had enough [Isolated Version]

Verse 2 of my "you've had enough track" isolated vocals. This is about the codependent partner's madness when their partner is going through substance addiction/abuse. Coming to a realization in this verse.

Girl, you've had enough [Isolated Version]

Have you ever been in a relationship like this? I wrote and recorded a while ago like 2022. Just sharing now.

Kevin

Song about the good times in a relationship.  Some Credit to that old tv show, Good Times :)
Prod. by Blanco (out of Canada)

Good Times

Just embodying some different feelings here :)

There Ain't Nobody Like Me

🧡 Thank you for stopping by my page. I'm journaling ideas about my experiences through song.
You'll hear singing and a little rapping. Hip hop vibes and R&B. Experimenting with funk too.
🌕 The Tide Was Too High - Part I 🌊 now streaming everywhere

StaceyOnTheRocks

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