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it’s not fair that I see your smile, your right there
unconditional love always giving always care
you were right beside me you never left you always stayed
with your two big brown eyes yeah you gave a grin and

layed your head down on my sheets yeah
push the pain down yeah I weep
you didn’t know what was happening or what was going on
if I could just sacrifice myself for you, you’d know id do it all along

demons climbing up on you, no you can cope yeah you just falter
wading through the dark abyss, i see your eyes and now their broken
you don’t got no strength left in your legs so ill just pick you up and
drag you out until we reach a god who can explain this situation

see the bones start to stick out of your flesh, medicated, losing weight but
always have a smile on your mind you know that is hard to face this
watch my brothers fill with concern as your losing balance changing
into something that we don’t recognize anymore, its not fair

tell them it gets better, it won’t
perspective of this change is a joke
foggy grey blank mind is my world
the change wont come if I stay here alone

lacerations in my head hurt
dependency on drugs make me lurk
losing a best friend feels like shit
I lay my soul in the dirt

im sick of watching our loved ones fucking leave
what does god want id give up fucking everything
just to make the one I love stay 
before it’s my time to leave

you better make sure they’re all their afterlife
I don’t care if it’s in hell i’ll make sure im there in time
Just to see a smile on their face,
to make sure we are alright

Luminous

Nautili - Dead By 25

Prod by Kami: @yaboikami

Artwork by: www.instagram.com/thiago.saluthi/ & @bvdcxrtex

Lyrics: 

(Chorus)
You're feeding me lies but I don't care at all
You're breaking my bones but I'm standing tall
When day turns to night but the sun is still strong
The birds ate the clouds but nothing is wrong

(Verse)
You're smiling so big as we're falling to pieces
Ain't questioning why
Why the fight never ceases

I'm running from you 
I'm running from me
I wanna live life 'cause I ain't deceased yet
But my soul ain't released yet

(Bridge)

(Chorus)
You're feeding me lies but I don't care at all
You're breaking my bones but I'm standing tall
When day turns to night but the sun is still strong
The birds ate the clouds but nothing is wrong

You're feeding me lies but I don't care at all
You're breaking my bones but I'm standing tall
When day turns to night but the sun is still strong
The birds ate the clouds but nothing is wrong

I'm Mentally Stable, I SWEAR

Birds

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Where's My Love Cover (Prod. by Red Rxxm)

LYRICS:

Have you noticed that the soul repeats yeah withdrawal symptoms losing sleep
Yeah manic patterns these walls breathe now close around me try to leave
It's in my vision that abyss when you close your eyes do you see
The lines and traces, everything from iris burns illuminate

When the black curtain falls and I see everything I try to reach
Do I just run to try and chase it make my mind up losing patience
Risk it all embrace the fall as I collapse and i still crawl
So I can feel something just more than being static left on hold

I want to be something that's human but you know that’s hard for me 
I disconnect from everything from ones I love the friends that cheat
And I'll just drown my liver out, I swear my body hates itself
For having a fuck up control decisions that will break my soul

So label me the one you hate the one you fear the one that breaks
From every encounter he has made, to try and fit it no he shakes
At explaining at what it's like to not fit in to not feel real
So I'll just sit and bite my lips until the blood has soaked my chin

Becoming Real

stream

somehow (prod. nomai)

Come to in a bathroom tub, waters on, frozen I’m stuck
can't believe I'm here again, broken arms I can't pretend
that it's just normal to be pacing these hospital rooms
tryna search for something but every time I get a little closer, I'm consumed.

wake up, wake up
You’re floating above the sky, you think the clouds are rushing past
you feel like you’re just alive, for once in your life,
but that's just it, it builds up and then you fall upon knives, like what’s up

Worst part of it, I’m just repeating myself over and over and over again
nothing changes; I just stay, try to get up it's too late
set on fire, melted down, regenerated these flames are bound
to soul when I am found, I'll be screaming without a sound

teeth filled with the flesh of another, 
you don’t want all of this, you don’t want to be missed
I see the faces coming forth from the shadows,
they're brewing down to a cyst, they leave my neck tied and twist 

stare down from the edge I can’t breathe
I see death’s stare looking straight into me
He says, If you fall hit the ground; fall apart
I'll pick your little pieces up, but can't fix a broken heart, I loathe

I look up to see that no one is there 
it's just the grey sky that latches, fills me up with despair
I try to reach up, yeah, but no one replies
constantly tearing at my skin just to see if I'm alive

Welcome to hell you said. didn't imagine it'd be like this
gone unfed, can't afford to eat, yea this world is far from bliss
blessed above with dissociation, try to get a grip losing patience
as you push your nails through my hands, flinching back I didn't understand

yeah, there’s no meaning to it; you just enjoyed it
see my face fill with pain, breaking bones to remain
Yeah, to be the one you’ve chosen, my eyes are frozen
on seeing your smile decay, grind me down you betray

and there’s just me, laying in this bedroom alone
and sometimes I hear the noises scratching at the walls they beckon and call
yeah just to see some type of change, they want me to cave so they can control
what's fucking left of this body as I drink myself a hole, and you say

teeth filled with the flesh of another, 
you don’t want all of this, you don’t want to be missed
I see the faces coming forth from the shadows,
they're brewing down to a cyst, they leave my neck tied and twist 

stare down from the edge I can’t breathe
I see death’s stare looking straight into me
He says, If you fall hit the ground; fall apart
I'll pick your little pieces up, but can't fix a broken heart, I loathe

I look up to see that no one is there 
it's just the grey sky that latches, fills me up with despair
I try to reach up, yeah, but no one replies
constantly tearing at my skin just to see if I'm alive

University Telephone Hotline

How could I say that I'm okay?
Thanks so much to Rivilin for the crazy vocals

i'm sorry. goodnight w/@Rivilin

Jarra

SICKOFIT

Stairgaze: heavy yet pretty noises born out of sadness, blurring the line between the outer world and the complexities of a troubled soul within, natural entropy and artificial dissonance. I do music that makes me feel something, sometimes with friends. Amateur producer out of Luxembourg with a love for ambient, shoegaze, black metal, post rock, witchouse, gothic and noise rock.

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