pajamas (karaoke ver.)

dead ends (karaoke ver.)

midnight

cherry blossoms

balloon

honey

magic mirror

queen

crystal ball

for genius hour, finished 5/30/19

youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9GxiKN2kHWU

lyrics:

Ignoring how I don’t have a clue
About anything that comes after today
Pretend like I know what to do
And say the things I want to hear myself say

I try to hide
From the fact that on my own two feet I’m supposed to stand
I can’t decide
Don’t get manic, frantic, panicked, because I can’t

So I roll out my map
And I watch the game
Trace the roads and read the rules to find out how to play 
I get asked where I am
As I blow in the wind
I don’t know where I’m going so I just say where I’ve been

I have a habit of going back
Keep everyone under the illusion that
I know what’s best for me
As if I’m not still searching desperately
I was never one to settle
What if I could do better
And everybody’s lying so easily
Saying they don’t have their eyes on me

I cannot find
The path that will take me to the top
I cannot mind
Soon it will get dark, and there’s no time to stop

So I roll out my map
Learn to play the game
And I strategize and struggle because to me it’s all the same
I get asked where I am
As I blow in the wind
I don't know where I'm going so I'll just say where I've been

I try to recall all I’ve been taught
I say what I need when I’m asked what I want
I always need a GPS
I can’t tell east from west
I hold up my fingers to know what’s right and left

I know I’m on my own
Too many places I don’t know
Too many forks in the road
Terrified of what the future holds
I always feel alone
Too many people I don’t know
Too many forks in the road

So I’ll roll out my map
Try to play the game
Make mistakes and make decisions while I’m searching for a name
I get asked who I am
As if I really know myself
All I see are dead ends and I can’t go anywhere else

dead ends

lyrics:
The sun comes up every morning
Bringing an end to the story
I open my eyes and watch a world dissolve

Waking up disoriented
gaining control of my senses
I can’t remember anything at all

I blink my eyes again 
And try to clear my head
Remember where and what and who I am
Then close my eyes once more
Feet never touch the floor
Avoiding consciousness as long as I can

Today I’ll stay in my pajamas
Hiding from the drama
Escaping space and time
I won't look out the window
Blanket sweatshirt pillow
Keep myself inside my mind
I’m far away from here
Where I want to disappear
Today I’m in my pajamas
Do what I wanna

Sleepwalking every weekday
Hoping that it’ll be okay
I just think about when I’ll be free

I like to spend all my weekends
Miles away from the deep end
Detached from all reality

Dreaming in sunshine, dreaming at night
No real interaction so I feel alright
Me, myself, and my pajamas
No one can stop us

These days I stay in my pajamas
Running from the drama
Hoping to float away
I’m scared of eyes and ears
Realizing my fears
Afraid of what they have to say
I'm barely here
I might just disappear
Everyday I’m in my pajamas

thank you victor, brooke, charlie, tuta, ian, henry, and thomas for your feedback in this process

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