“Do you get so overwhelmed that your heart just stops?

Can it… just stop?

Today marks a 3 year milestone of breaking the debilitating relationship and addiction I endured with alcohol for a majority of my 20s. I’ve never quite talked about it like this before -  the gruesome details of how it feels to implode.

Fighting within yourself, while the outside pushes you further in. 

To narrate and to celebrate, I present to you my first mix since 2020 titled “Panic Signal,” featuring a spoken word introduction written and produced by myself under the guidance of my dear friend and roommate, Thysbe. I aim to walk the listener through old rituals of withdrawal, small improvements, relapse, clarity, and new beginnings while also challenging myself to take myself to a place I dare never to return.

Thank you for your support all these years in getting better. Cheers to three years. 

- SC

Staring Contest - Submechanophobia
Nick Hakim & Roy Nathanson - All The Things You Are (Reimagine)
Ivy Lab - Saxon
Viour - Orior
Brothel & JV. & Ian Urbina - Warning Shots
Gud - Body Horror
Paint - Beast Mode
GILA - Long Distance Crash
KAVARI - Gossamer (2021 Lockdown Mix)
krakaur - pulse
Ivy Lab - Precious
Curra - Lorelei
Tsuruda - Kava Root
Indigo Beck - Vanity Purge 
Roxas - Amen 
Revazz - Brain Craking
Alphafox - Omm (feat. Yellowmane)
Sidewalk Boy - STEELE
HOST - Passion of the Halfpipe
HERISSE - Phantoms
D33J - Scattered Ashes
rydglek - Wyspa
Lapalux - Hellix
Shlohmo - Beams

Panic Signals - A Mix

What dimension does your mind travel within to create a new home? Where does your routine to grapple with the effects of sonder and irreversible change hit its peak in turbulence, its inescapable ruts, and its light at the end of the tunnel?

Here's 20 minutes explaining the plane of existence my mind designed for itself, inspired by personal events this summer of 2020.

Enjoy, thank you for listening.

Lapalux - Oblivion
Noer the Boy - Nebula
Bleep Bloop - Hackers
Little Snake - Message
Klahrk x Roxas - Influence
DEWMBA - Black Bubbles
da'kha - akt
The Acid - Animal
Ekcle - Serene Mont Garde
Flume - Like Water (feat. MNDR)

SplitVision #003

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