my contributions to society all in one playlist

w/ @capernum

lyrics:

i've been, thinkin of our past
when did it all fade away
and I cant seem to let it go
wishing it was all okay
where have, you been
each day we're growing older
but we're losing our past

youthful, protected
couldn't see the world for what it was
now that, I'm here
i couldn't see how naïve that we were
the years go on don't know when to say goodbye
our time is running low, I see it in your eyes
maybe its too late

i've been chasing memories after dark
and I've been scared its all going to fall apart
why is this happening was i doomed from the start
somehow i cant let go
just me and my faults

i always wanted to get older
thought that maybe they'd stop giving me cold shoulders
now I'm stuck wishing i was still a kid
had no stresses and i took all the risks
i can't even imagine
the things that i did wrong
never did I live reckless
full of regret for so long

things change and you go down the road
but we just keep on moving on
when I said I can't
leave the past behind
i wasn't lying
you got me crying

i've been chasing memories after dark
and I've been scared its all going to fall apart
why is this happening was i doomed from the start
somehow i cant let go
just me and my faults

run away from our lives
growing regrets as time goes by
try to find peace of mind
where you've been, I'm lost in time

thank you for listening <3
more to come soon......

doomed

[LYRICS]

i said like (ooohhhhh)
i'm done with playing all these games
you got me feeling like i'm running out of space
running out of space (3x)

oh my god
we was fine then
we can talk
'til the night ends
touché i’m flying
we gotta find
that thing that makes us
some kind of diamonds

can you see?
how i'd be?
kinda mad
on my screen
okay
something that you tryna say
my brain is overloading every day

i said like (ooohhhhh)
i'm done with playing all these games
you got me feeling like i'm running out of space
running out of space (3x)

lightt & dc98 - running out of space

1/5.....a remix over tyler the creator's puppet from igor

lyrics + additional prod. - lightt

said im running, said im falling, said im running

said im falling in love (2x)

said im fallin in love
calling help from above
hope for seconds to spare
but i cannot get up
love twistin my mind
from every direction 
its shiftin my values
forget whats important 
im your puppet for life
need you in my time
need you by my side
need you in my life

i do so much for love but i cant get it back
sayin its all worth the risks, but i keep losing track
on how much time i spent on you, im never getting back
feeding for delusions, cant come to conclusions

i only want you nobody else
fillin that void, nobody else 
(said im falling)
said im falling in love (4x)

puppet freestyle

with help from, @starlightt08 + @ih8myoso
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lyrics:

@qlein

I do this all time
You left away and found out why
I don't wanna fight u (I)
I don't know why
You told me why 
I can't believe the reason why 
You do this all the time
Was it a kiss or something else?

Else
Else 
Else

I can't go back and you know why
I'm trying hard so I can fly
What do you want from me
I've been so angry all the time
Fucked up in reply
Can't go back in time

Else
Else 
Else

@starlightt08

Nights i've been staying up
Thinking of you
I just want to know
Was it just a kiss or something else?
Else, said it's something else
Needed help, she said I needed help
I just want to know
Was it just a kiss or something else?

was it just a kiss w/lightt (myoso + lightt + qlein)

(prod. @chefbezos, @samwell-670632974, & lightt)

I done made it so far I can see the light
Only my heart know my-
Only my heart know my sacrifice

Some things never change
So I left

(yeah)

I done did so much
I done worked so much
I done made it on my own against all these odds
We gon get it out the mud, We gon
We gon get it out the mud
I've been running for so long
Been in this storm for way too long
Find some hope in these, find some hope in these songs, i said
I done did so much
I done worked so much
I done made it on my own

I done made it so far I can see the light
Only my heart know my sacrifice

Chasing these bands like run it up
Top of the game, I'm stuntin now
Feelin myself again, I told you we was gon make it out
We was gon make it out
Hoped for days we wasn't goin south
Needed help, I needed help, we was tryna save ourselves, but look at us now

I've been so low im tryna come up
These nights so long, tryna figure it out

All the work paid off
Never lookin back, for now it's gametime
Kept my words, promises, I made that
Think about times while I lay back

I done did so much
I done worked so much
I done made it on my own against all these odds
We gon get it out the mud, We gon
We gon get it out the mud
I've been running for so long
Been in this storm for way too long
Find some hope in these, find some hope in these songs, i said
I done did so much
I done worked so much
I done made it on my own

I done made it so far I can see the light
Only my heart know my sacrifice

Some things never change
So I left 
Some things never change
So I left

sacrifice (prod. chef bezos, samwell, & lightt)

out on all plats: https://ffm.to/nascence

with help from: @imthedag , @prettydepressedly , and @kivoh

the sunlight dont call me no more
and these days i cant feel any hope
watching stars pass by my own
i want more from this life i want more i want more
that sky of ours lost color
days and time start meshing together
and i wont be the same
no never, no never

i want more
loving you is so difficult
through space and time
ill find you
i found you
(2x)

starin at the sky, i dont know my purpose
lost in my thoughts, i dont know what to do anymore
i dont know what to do (2x)

i swear to god
ive been stuck in my foosteps
tryna trace it all
but it feel like ive been circling
just waitin on a sign
just waitin, just waitin

i got too many struggles in my life
and i dont know how to live
feel like the answers to my questions
feel like it dont really exist
i got too many aspirations i know i cant live like this
i got too many things to do, but it feel like the world against my will

but i cant fall now, i hope i never will
cause your light shines so brightly
i want hope (4x)

even if the the sunlight dont call me no more
and these days i cant feel any hope
watching stars pass by my own
i want more from this life i want more i want more
that sky of ours lost color
days and time start meshing together
and i wont be the same
no never, no never

nascence

https://ffm.to/nothinglastsforever08

guitars from @prettydepressedly

it was over before it started
i should've known that it wouldn't work out
cause you got me dying over love
i dont want to see you again

im a fool for not realizing
delusional, mind paralyzing
you were to me, now i feel like dying
so im running away from you
thought you were trying
i was laced with subtle clues but never prying
cause i didnt wanna face the truth
all along, you was playing for fun

ive been flowing through the wreckage 
thinking too much you got my mental strainin
and ive been down on the same things
pick me up and break me down into pieces
i dont wanna lose my heart
to the same things, messing me from the start
lost myself when i played a part
so im sheltering myself

cause you dont love me
so stop lying to yourself
bleeding out my heart for you
so don't call me back, ever again
i dont want to see you again

and i keep falling, keep falling, keep falling, keep falling
and i keep falling, keep falling, keep falling, keep falling

you dont love me
so stop lying to yourself
bleeding out my heart for you
so don't call me back, ever again
i dont want to see you again

nothing lasts forever

PRODUCER ALBUM

HAMLET 
prod by chef bezos, lightt!
mixed by lightt!

MACULUAY CAULKIN
prod by chef bezos
mixed by mixedbykheba

CONQUEST (DEMONS)
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

LEVITATE
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

SOLO
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

ANOTHER DAY
prod by chef bezos, knightlight
mixed by knightlight

WHERE THAT MONEY GO // WRONG SIDE
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

AVERAGE (interlude)
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

TRANSCENDED
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

JUS HOW IT IS
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

HOLY SUN
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

WIN? WIN? WIN?
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

STRONG HUSTLE
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

HEROES
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

SACRIFICE
prod by chef bezos, lightt, samwell
mixed by lightt

FOREVER INFINITE
prod by chef bezos
mixed by chef bezos

HAMLET (intro) w/lightt, W!K

Everything i feel is real
prod. paula & lightt
collaboration with https://soundcloud.com/starlightt08

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/paula10/memorabilia

Memorabilia

Everything i feel is real

Everything i feel is real (with lightt)

Featuring @starlightt08

Listen up I only told you once
Fucking with em, I ain't smoking none
Pull it back and all the cards are done
Gemini, I'm not a Capricorn
Bend the truth but I wont tell a lie
Internet access was never sparse
Countless scrolling I can never doubt
What they say I wont tell anyone

Richer than now
I’m looking around
Keep it into my head
Loving the sounds
But can I get out?
On the internet without a proper route (A proper route)
Clearing out my thoughts without a cop-out (A cop-out)
But can I get out? (Can I get out?)
Can I get out? (Can I get out?)
I’m screaming out (I'm screaming out)
Just let me out (Just let me out)
 
Tryna fit my life in a sentence
Tryna live through all of this tension
Spendin all of this time for a mention
All my life I've been seekin attention
This shit been changed my life
Don't matter how much I desensitized
Don't matter how much I'd been generalized
Disregard myself, said I'll be alright, said i'll be alright uh uh
Motherfuck that, motherfuck that shit
Imma run back
Tellin lies on my name, why you speak so cruel
Like you knew my life, like you knew the truth
But you ain't me, and I ain't you
Talkin so hard for the gold of fools
You ain't me, and I ain't you
Talkin like you really 'gon use a tool
And like the tides, you know this shit don't really ever change
And pickin sides, you know it always someone out to blame
And all my life, I just wish you were here to say
It's 'gon be alright
And time again,  I been lost
Stuck in this screen, for way too long
Take dopamine in the face of loss
In a cycle till I'm out of heart
Why god do you put me through addiction?
Tried to change my life hope wont die by their visions

Richer than now
I’m looking around
Keep it into my head
Loving the sounds
But can I get out?
On the internet without a proper route (A proper route)
Clearing out my thoughts without a cop-out (A cop-out)
But can I get out? (Can I get out?)
Can I get out? (Can I get out?)
I’m screaming out (I'm screaming out)
Just let me out (Just let me out)

Richer than now
I’m looking around
Keep it into my head
Loving the sounds
But can I get out?
On the internet without a proper route (A proper route)
Clearing out my thoughts without a cop-out (A cop-out)
But can I get out? (Can I get out?)
Can I get out? (Can I get out?)
I’m screaming out (I'm screaming out)
Just let me out (Just let me out)

Autorefractor (with lightt)

out on all plats: https://ffm.to/pieces08

add. guitars - @prettydepressedly
cover art by lightt, @saturnnnnnnnn

was originally an intro track for an upcoming project but it didnt make the cut, still felt that it should be released :)

(lyrics)
wont you tell me the answers
ive been searching for way too long
i see my life in pieces
is the answer far too gone

i see my life in pieces
ive been living life with no reason
and the time pass with the seasons
let the time pass, i dont need it

runnin from the past, runnin from the time
runnin from the truth, runnin all my life
stuck myself inside, hiding from the fact
that i aint living right
live another day, or let it pass by
time again, nothing that i can hide
honestly, im been paranoid
my skin always clarify

ok, time and time again, i find myself on the ground
drownin in this weight, for how long? ill never know
this life of mine ive grown so accustomed to
has chained me down, eternity for i might atone
how you live life, knowin its gon work
cause this world of ours, tryna let us go
ive been marked since birth, tryin so hard
in a world of hurt, this time dont even matter

and ive been fightin all my life
they put me in a system, they was blockin out the light
i had to let shit go, even if it aint right
i had to let shit go, ive been wastin all this time
ive been tryna get it right, ive been tryna see the light
live a predetermined life, ive been tryna make it out

i see my life in pieces
ive been living life with no reason
and the time pass with the seasons
let the time pass, i dont need it

wont you tell me the answers
ive been searching for way too long
i see my life in pieces
is the answer far too gone

im falling apart