You drink in the solitude cuz it works better than anything at this bar. 
No one can clean up after you, it’s been too long and gone too far. 
No one can clean it up, not even the red eyed guy with the broom. 
Nobody, except the moon. 

Sometimes I get caught up in the game I forget I didn’t want to play. 
All my flaws take center stage and my feet won’t work to walk away
Nobody else understands the smallness of this room,
Nobody, except the moon. 

I search for her shine through the noise of the city and all the sparkling lights. 
Every so often it’s such a pity, and every so often, it’s all all right
Nobody cares to count the threads I’ve got going on this loom,
Nobody except the moon. 

You can find the flaws in anything when you decide it’s not working for you. 
You only see the beauty once you’ve got nothing better to do. 
Nobody gets to take the big picture and hold it firmly in view,
Nobody, except the moon. 

You and me we are hungry, you and me we are food. 
You and me, we last about as long as a dream come true. 
Nobody keeps track of dreams like those, they start to easy they’re gone too soon
Nobody, except the moon. 

You drink in the solitude cuz it works better than anything at this bar. 
No one can clean up after you, it’s been too long and gone too far. 
No one can clean it up, not even the red eyed guy with the broom. 
Nobody, except the moon.

Nobody Except The Moon

Please excuse the weird recording, trying to figure out GarageBand over here with limited time and just wanted to get this song out there before I get too frustrated :) 

Sometimes I wonder who I'd be
if I wasn't afraid of the strangest things
I'll jump in a stranger's car, I'll sleep outside, I'll cry
but I can't walk up to you and say hi. 

Let's forget the things they say are right
like that blanket of stars is doing to the city lights
let's go down to the ocean, just cuz we can
drink a box of wine, taste the seaweed, feel the sand. 

Your closest doctor's probably working at your local bar
these are weird weird days, but we're all still made of stars
and I'm gonna pretend like I know what I'm doing here
till you start talking and the room disappears. 

I had a dream you weren't gonna leave
until after the sunrise
but the sky was still pink and purple at noon
and maybe it was the very next day, maybe it was five years out. 
either way it was way too soon, we had more to talk about. 

I don't know how we walk around with anything but broken hearts
everything you love could either die or fall apart
and you weren't always here
but I forget what was before
and it's hard to let you go, but that's what whiskey's for. 


Say Hi

Still trying to learn how to use Garageband, hopefully the volume and things are normal. 

I lay in my bed backwards 
after you've been around
the memories, then they don't cut so deep
but sleep still won't take me down. 

There'll always be another night
to sleep if that's what I want to do. 
There'll always be another you. 

I watched the river run last night
I watched the moon rise above the pines
I put my heart back in my chest,
and the straight back in my spine. 
and the truth rang out so clear
it was like every firefly knew
there will always be another you. 

Sometimes I let the freezing water 
run right over my feet
I pretend it can wash the mistakes I made
right out of me
Laws of the land change with state lines
laws of the heart don't care
hands like yours will always find their way into my hair,
so give me the skyline of austin
or boulder, or Duluth 
They'll always read the same,
There will always be another you. 


Another You (first version)

Hi everyone! Long time no post :) Here's a newish song, I have intentions of putting up more soon. Simple phone recording, apologies for no fancy balancing techniques. 

Wouldn’t mind To Be

I wouldn’t mind to be 
A record in your collection
Watching you crumble down to sleep
And your every resurrection
Sometimes you’d spin me
On your player in the night
You’d listen to me and I could just
Watch you write. 

A bug bigger than a cat
Just flew by my head
I wouldn’t mind to be
That pillow on your bed
Late night on the phone 
You could talk into me
And I could hold your head 
While you sleep. 

I wouldn’t mind to be
That blanket on your couch
There to keep you warm 
When the whiskey runs out
And I wouldn’t mind
Being crumpled on the floor
When something else
When someone else was there to
Keep you warm. 

The wild river’s rushing
And the rain’s not stopping soon
I wouldn’t mind to be
The layers of your cocoon
I’d peel myself off
So careful and so slow
My gift to the world

Wouldn't Mind to Be

The sky is made of ice and it is falling 
the ground is frozen cold, it's out of view. 
It's not holding me up like it used to, 
it's not holding me. 

Kids can cook with weed on TV now 
making meals that cost more than my car 
I doubt they get that channel at the jails 
where the old city dealers are 

And I want there to be sense 
It just gets hard to see 
The sky is made of ice and it is falling falling falling 
on me. 

You've got one side saying "We matter. Stop shooting us in the street." 
but the other side is sure that they're superior, 
and that any problems that arise must be from both sides equally 

and I want there to be sense 
those torches make it hard to discuss 
the sky is made of ice and it is falling falling falling 
on all of us. 

then you've got that man in the office 
some people call him #45 
but he sounds just like that dude 
who'd punch the wall instead of you 
and say "If you tell anybody, I'll just say you lied." 

and I want there to be sense 
but big men don't listen to girls. 
the sky is made of ice and it is falling falling falling 
on the whole world. 

You've got some white people saying, "I'm not privileged! 
I've worked hard for nothing all my life!" 
but I bet you twenty bucks 
they aren't afraid of death by cops 
just for driving around 
with a broken tail light. 

And I want there to be sense 
I want to watch their last argument fall apart. 
The sky is made of ice and it is falling falling falling 
on our broken hearts.

The Sky Is Made Of Ice

Another You

I lay in my bed backwards 
after you've been around 
the memories then they don't cut so deep 
but sleep still won't take me down. 
take me down. 

There'll always be another night 
to sleep if that's what I want to do 
There's always gonna be another you. 

Last night I watched the river run 
I watched the moon rise above the pines 
I put my heart back in my chest 
and the straight back in my spine 
and the truth rang out so clear 
it was like every firefly knew 
there's always gonna be another you. 

Sometimes I let the freezing water 
run right over my feet 
I pretend it can wash 
the mistakes I made right out of me. 
But the laws of the land change with state lines, 
laws of the heart don't care. 
Hands like yours will always find their way into my hair 
So give me the skyline of Austin 
or Boulder, or Duluth 
they're always gonna read the same 
and there's always gonna be anther you.

Another You

Sitting in the dark 
in your empty apartment 
the power is off, you're at work, it's almost spring 
I'm leaving in the morning 
I'll leave one thing or another 
So you know I'm coming back, 
you're the only one I'd ever run to 
in this town, in this town, in this town 

In this town, in this place 
that just surrounds the hair falling across your face 
when you wake up in the morning 
and put the coffee on 
and you float into the kitchen 
like some kind of ghost, some apparition 
that just slid through the pages 
of a Truman Capote book 

You used to call me "love" 
but you stopped when you learned of 
my desire to carry more than one in my heart 
so leave the lights off, if you wish 
the water still runs, the beer still sits 
sweating on the desk next to those stacks of poetry 
those words that hit me like smoke 
starting in my chest 
and hanging around on all of my clothes 

On my clothes, in my hair 
in my memories of you standing there 
looking at me like I could fix something inside of you so deep 
and make your smile run like water run like rain run like snow 
run like the train 
I would if I could and I can't stop, I can't stop 
trying. 

So if you pay the electric bill 
I'll get some two dollar wine 
we'll put the record player on 
and tonight will be fine 
you can use the typewriter 
I'll use the spare 
you can lean over my shoulder, 
say "Did you get anything good over there?" 
anything good, anything good, anything good.. 

anything good, anything great 
we'll play Leonard Cohen, we'll play Tom Waits, 
and the music will leak out 
into the humid summer night 
and I'll wonder if I'll ever settle 
if I could ever find anything better 
than the sound of your fingers on the keys 
when I'm leaving in the morning.

Empty Apartment

They say prolonging a craving just makes it sweeter 
when you get your fix 
the poison solves a problem 
that didn't even used to exist 
they say if you wait 
for the hunger to die 
you'll be purging the poison from your bones 
in time. 

but I've been evading 
relating the the feeling of being alone 
so I reach for a cigarette and your voice on the phone. 
I know in time that everything dies. 
So let me hide for just one night. 

He said "the light is on the outside 
and the door doesn't shut all the way" 
his bathroom's like my heart I guess, 
you don't get perfect privacy 
and you gotta think ahead 
if you wanna see clear, 
would it be okay with you if I stay here? 

but I've been evading 
relating the the feeling of being alone 
so I reach for a cigarette and your voice on the phone. 
I know in time that everything dies. 
So let me hide for just one night. 

Cuz I can't seem to get over or move on 
from any little poison I can get my hands on. 
the wine and cigarettes, oh I felt this high before 
but the whiskey of your words leaves me 
stuck to the floor 
I'm a sucker for a poem 
I'm an addict of the story 
I like being alone 
just not so much in the early morning 
I keep meaning to crawl 
Out of this hole 
but you keep making me forget 
where it was 
I was trying to go

From Your Bones

I don't like watching TV 
but I like watching your shitshow unfold. 
Every layer, another cliffhanger 
the deeper I go, the more I wanna know 
I wanna know it all. 
So I can put blankets in all the right places 
when your storylines fall 

And I'm not gonna stay here long 
But if I did, you might be the one that I would call. 

It starts to look something like vultures, 
with their eyes and the barstools and the smoke 
It starts to look something like vultures and then, 
it starts to look more like a joke. 
And I'm not afraid anymore 
of them seeing me wounded on the road 
All it takes to scare 'em all off these days 
is to say you're not afraid 
of being alone. 

I'm not gonna stay here long, but if I did 
you might be the one I would call. 

I feel like I'd never have to hurt you 
in this light, in this cave 
I feel like I could build a whole world 
right around your name. 
But I know better than that, 
so I'm not gonna make a sound, 
anymore than the Rockies do 
when they're scratching the sky 
and swallowing ground 

And I'm not gonna stay here long, 
but if I did, you might be the one that I would call.

Shitshow

I can't tell if I fall for big old hearts 
or if it's the walls around them 
some people want a love that envelops 
I need something I can lean against 
I like the walls you hold so tall and true 
because I break fragile things without meaning to. 

I can't tell if I fall for manipulative types 
Or if it's the games they play 
some people want a love that is easy 
I need puzzles to solve all along the way 
I like the things you do even if I don't like why you do them for 
because I break fragile things when I'm just feeling bored. 

I can't tell if I fall for creative types 
or if it's the art they make instead 
Some people want a love they can stand on 
I want to drown in the shit that comes out of your head 
I like the writing that you tape to the wall 
because I break fragile things for no reason at all. 

I can't tell if I love you more 
when you're coming in or going out of my door 
Some people want a love that will stay at home 
I need a love that lets me be alone 
I love how you make me feel so held and so free 
because I break fragile things when they're all that I see.

Fragile Things

How did you do it, 
How did you make my world so small? 
Once upon a time you told me 
that you grow on people. 
But I think it's more that you grow straight in, 
you lay down roots and you lay down tracks. 
Before someone knows it, their skyline is different, 
and there's no going back. 

It just took one summer night, 
and a little too much to drink 
now you're all I can think about. 
Every road in town 
is another river to your door, 
I fight the current every time my boots hit the floor. 

I've been trying to get better about some things 
like saying what I mean 
instead of digging a bunch of holes 
out of which I gotta climb. 
But it was never hard with you, 
I was always so good at telling the truth. 
I would say just the right thing 
just in the wrong lifetime. 

Now there you are 
on the other side of a traffic light 
but it's way too late to tell you everything 
burning me up inside 
so I'll just look away 
at the sunset or a tree 
and you won't even know 
that I didn't see you 
not even looking at me.

Wrong Lifetime

I wanted to do this song with my new mic! I might delete the old version, as authentic as it is. 

Lyrics:
Love is a strong word, baby
it doesn't like to be thrown around.
It likes being used intentionally,
and not cuz it's the first one you found.

Love is a big word, darlin.
It doesn't like to be used wrong
The elastic sorta stretches out and the next thing you know
it's all wrong.

But everybody wants to use it on everything under the sun.
When will they see that the next time they turn around
Love might just run

Love is a big word, baby
but it can only hold so much.
So don't you go on using it for things
that your heart can't even touch.

Love is a monster, baby
it doesn't know when to stop.
It's teeth will sink into the bone
and it won't quit till it drops.

But everybody wants to use it on everything under the sun.
When will the see that the next time they turn out
Love might just run
The meaning might just run,
Love might just run. 

Love is a Big Word (with the new mic!)

Thank you Stella for making it sound so pretty!

This is my words with Jim (Telefan) playing guitar and Stella Schiavo in charge of making it all balanced and lovely-sounding.  

What a fun adventure!

Lyrics to Under These Strings:

Gonna drink a glass of wine
I'm gonna drink it deep, I'm gonna drink it down.
Maybe I will feel a little better
by the time that this sh*t goes down.
And I ain't mad at you, I'm just a little mad at me
and what I've done.
All the innocence I've sacrificed
on the alter of having fun.

There must be dirt from Colorado under these strings
And probably some sand from Florida
and smog from New Orleans.
And I think it's crazy all the places I've been
and the things I've seen
I still get stuck and terrified of the simplest little things.

Light goes where it wants to, but sound only fits where there's room.
So anything you're gonna say, don't try to say it too soon.
Cuz it's just gonna land on ears full of something else.
And in the end you may as well be talking to yourself.

Wintertime is coming just in time to freeze my dreams.
I've got whiskey to take their place till they thaw out in spring.
Don't you look at me that way there's not a damn thing I can do,
All the life went underground,
and me I've learned to follow suit.

Light goes where it wants to, but sound only fits where there's room.
So anything you're gonna say, don't try to say it too soon.
Cuz it's just gonna land on ears full of something else.
And in the end you may as well be talking to yourself. 

Under These Strings - Jennifer Stuart feat. Jim M.

This is a new recording of the old song that people seemed to like. Enjoy :) 


Lyrics:


You might think you know just where you're going
but then you get there and you look around. 
And you realize you don't know where you're going. 
And it doesn't really matter in this godforsaken town. 

You might think you know just what you're looking for
but then you find it and you find it soon. 
And you realize it wasn't what you wanted
but it doesn't really matter under this godforsaken moon. 

Everyone is happy they've got their porch lights on. 
Eating the traditions they were brought up on. 
And they never step outside their boxy view. 
So they never know
what they never knew. 

So you add the miles between here and there. 
Go as fast as you can or just cut your hair. 
Anything to go from old to new, 
and you wonder why your demons keep following you. 

You might wanna sit still for a change. 
Try to look at the picture instead of rearrange. 
And you might just find your demons melt away. 
Cuz you finally got out of your own way. 

Godforsaken Town by Jen Stuart (new version)

A cover of a great Tom Waits song with My Hot Air Balloon. 

We both do vocals, and Kim does everything else- all that fancy guitar and harp playing :)

Such a fun cover!

Hope you like it :) 

Yesterday is Here (Tom Waits Cover) with My Hot Air Balloon

I'd love advice on this- do you guys think it's too long and monotonous? Let me know :) 

Thanks!

Lyrics to Hold Water:

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen it. 
The person we pay closest attention to is ourselves. 
It seems easy to fix when it’s someone else out there,
But my advice won’t hold water until you can hold yourself. 

It starts as one thing, but then it grows. 
First I want to pay some bills and then I want a castle with orange groves. 
Rationalization grows in me like a virus,
Incubating and warm, while I feel so cold. 

My intentions are good but they get out of control. 
I want to help and heal and I don’t want to grow old. 
I wouldn’t accept it at all, truth be told, 
But the clock is holding the whip and he ain’t letting go. 

I can’t tell you…(chorus)

The road will take you if the time is right
Doesn’t even matter if you want to try and put up a fight.
It’ll send a vagabond to help you on your way,
And your friends will miss you but they’ll see you again someday. 

I can’t tell you…(chorus)

I’ve always been a sucker for a voice, it’s always been true.
But now I know right where I am and exactly where I want to go. 
Being sure is something I’ve never found
Except for now. 

But I could give it up just as easily,
Throw it all away in the name of being free. 
I could jump in a car, drive so far. 
But you know I’ve done it before and I’d rather be right where you are. 


Hold Water - by Jennifer Stuart

I like making songs and jewelry. My music Facebook page should have the most up to date info, apologies for not keeping up with the online world more! 

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