In a world I don't belong..

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/XGb16tkDv3g

Prod. CRCL
mixed&mastered by mileshigh
w/ @t_shan

Lyrics:

HOOK: [T Shan]
walking through my old hometown
enlarged pupils I'm strung out
and nowhere to go so I sit by the river
where things make sense!

VERSE ONE: [mileshigh]
when did I lose myself
I'm falling down, down deep in hell
how did i lose my head
I'm lost again, I'm lost again
I need help 
I need a way out 
but there's no hand to reach
i lost my head trying to release
this pain inside and now I'm way to deep

HOOK: [T Shan]
walking through my old hometown
enlarged pupils I'm strung out
and nowhere to go so I sit by the river
where things make sense!

VERSE TWO: [mileshigh]
I'm on my own alone tonight 
I'm on my own I walk alone
in a world I don't belong
and I'm falling to pieces
I just wanna leave this place!

OUTRO: [T Shan]
I'm on the skids I stand, I freeze
I'm out my wits I feel the breeze
standing on the ledge, I cant back up
standing on the ledge, i cant back up

LOST! ft. T Shan *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

last week
we were in the back seat
smoking on thrax 
then i smacked her on ass cheek
this a uber not a taxiiiii
you a bitch u need a maxiiii



FADED LOVE IS OVERRATED
I LOVE IT AND I HATE IT
SHIT GET SO COMPLICATED
IT GOT ME FRUSTRATED
I JUST WANNA TELL MY MOM I MADE IT
LOOK WHAT YOU CREATED

If you read this far i love you thanks for the support. im a young piece of white trash recording songs in my closet, stay up. - Lil Teardrop

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Last Week Prod. Discent & HXRXKILLER

Every day without you seems
like such a waste and I’m afraid that I’m not ever gonna be the same
and everyday I’m so ashamed
to let them see what we’ve become and how it’s killing me
lately everybody asks where I’ve been
I’ve been doing my best to keep quiet
in my room missing you oh they’re lying
they don’t care they just can’t take the silence
lately everybody asks where I’ve been
I’ve been doing my best to keep quiet
In my room missing you and I’m trying 
so hard to restart but I’m finding that 

Everyday without you seems
like such a waste and I’m afraid that I’m not ever gonna be the same
everyday I’m so ashamed
to let them see what we’ve become and how it’s killing me

sick of spending every second every day
wishing that you’d come back or say something
everybody always wants something from me except for you and it’s so confusing 
sick of spending every moment every night remembering when you’d come over like it was just yesterday but who am I kidding 
did it to myself and there’s no forgetting

every day (prod. neek)

it's been some weeks *p. cxld blxxd*

im srry, but the number yr trying to reach is not available [prod. zzzoro x misrxy]

✮joshuasageart✮ - digital sunlight

✮joshuasageart✮ - digital sunlight (prod. 5:10)

teardrop.digital

✮JoshuaSageArt✮ - digital sunlight (prod. 5:10)

There Was Blood On The Floor Underneath U

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lyrics :3

(chorus)
this for all the people that done told me i aint mean shit
Red heart black now my body into pieces 
Its been a couple days yeah my body hasn’t eat shit
Now im feeling weak I just might be anemic 
PAAAAAIIIIIIIINNNNNNN
It won’t go awayyyyyyyy
Now im closing all the doors
Closing all the doors

(Verse)
Fuck that remember what u said
I was nothing now im aiming for there head
Undecisive I can’t tell you what is next 
She says she hate me ima put it to the test 
FUCK YA DADDY AND YA MOMMA BITCH
I HOPE YOU READY FOR SOME PROBLEMS BITCH
AND DONT YOU EVER TRY TO SOLVE EM BITCH
Cuz I been runnin to the commas quick 
Told that bitch to listen 
crying in my house now my mind is a prison
Baby ill take back all the fucks that were given 
HIDING IN THE CORNER GIVE A FUCK FROM A DISTANCE YEAH YEAH

**all links!**

pain! (prod.yugen x jkei)

prod. 5:10 
check him out hes fucking crazy
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuAUf3fo4h_b0WNk835BrJg

i tried so hard to be who u wanted
who am i now that ur gone
who am i now who will i be
since ur light is gone and u guided me

i tore myself apart
carved ur name on my heart
wrote u letters from the start
pourin out from the heart on my sleeve
but that wasn't me

i tried so hard to be who u wanted
who am i now that ur gone
who am i now
who will i be

my momma scared of how i think
i don't blame her
how can i blame her
i'm not who she once loved anymore

i'm too strong for my head my conscious don't rest easy
look for myself in the mixture,so imma sip rip deadly
conflicted soul no wonder why i always feel fuckin heavy
time flies death is less scary
when who u are is already burried


i tried so hard to be who u wanted
who am i now that ur gone
who am i now who will i be
since ur light is gone and u guided me

i tore myself apart
carved ur name on my heart
wrote u letters from the start
pourin out from the heart on my sleeve
but that wasn't me


my momma scared of how i think
i don't blame her
how can i blame her
i'm not who she once loved anymore

who am i (prod. 5:10)

this is my favorite track ive ever made
much love @yagoproduces for the amazing beat

lyrics

[voicemail]

alrighty well uh
i texted you today
now here i am calling you 
haven't heard back from you 
um yeah I don't know
I've been trying 
idk what else you expect a person to do
i tried

[medium sean]

you stopped texting back and i don't get that
used to make you laugh i know you miss that
he don't got the cash he'll make you look bad 
i could put a rack inside your book bag 
skip another class making out behind the high school
didn't give a damn if i even make it out boo
all I ever really fucking cared is that i got you 
now I'm fucking crying bout another night without you 

i don't fucking want you 
oh wait yes i do 
i don't think about you 
only when the sky is blue
pour another bottle 
i know you want me too
drink it to the bottom
and you start to make your move 

[voicemail]

well
im not mad at you 
no matter what 
but ya know 
im not gonna keep wearing my heart on my sleeve ya know 
you've got my number...


[medium sean]

you stopped texting back and i don't get that
used to make you laugh i know you miss that
he don't got the cash he'll make you look bad 
i could put a rack inside your book bag 
skip another class making out behind the high school
didn't give a damn if i even make it out boo
all I ever really fucking cared is that i got you 
now I'm fucking crying bout another night without you 

i don't fucking want you 
oh wait yes i do 
i don't think about you 
only when the sky is blue
pour another bottle 
i know you want me too
drink it to the bottom
and you start to make your move
i don't fucking want you 
oh wait yes i do 
i don't think about you 
only when the sky is blue

you stopped texting back and i don't get that
used to make you laugh i know you miss that
he don't got the cash he'll make you look bad 
i could put a rack inside your book bag 
skip another class making out behind the high school
didn't give a damn if i even make it out boo
all I ever really fucking cared is that i got you 
now I'm fucking crying bout another night without you 

[voicemail]

well
feel free to hit me up
and uh hopefully I'll be free 
and maybe we can do something 
alright
I'll talk to you soon 
bye

prod yago

less than friends

produced by: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @jackscarlettt

LYRICS:

[grayfox]

okay
sounds like I've found the key,
yeah,

said where are you going, now you're stuck with me,
and I've been feeling so lonely since about 17,
and im broke and it kills me, soon ill be sleeping on the streets,
and I think its time to decide who you wanna be,
so its Christmas again, another holiday spent on my own,
text my sister again, tell her im not coming home,

and I said where are you going?
what do you want with me?
and I haven't been the same since 2017,
im just chilling with my friends, being who I wanna be,
and I wonder how are you doing, now you're not with me?

[Jack Scarlett]

Now you're not with me 
Hand me down jumpers and empty cigarettes
These are the days I'm sure we will regret
I lose my head sometimes
I know I would waste my life
Just to see you
I know can be with you again
If we could just please be friends
I know I could not take
Spending another holiday
Without you x2

another holiday spent on my own w/ wyntley

screaming into the void of nothingness
111

burnout

new song every week :)

LYRICS
i been feeling like saying fuck it, 
smoke a damn ounce to face as i’m eating chicken nuggets,
YOU, say u hate me and u love it  ,
makes me wanna roll a new blunt maybe this one fucking does it,
i can’t breathe because i’m smoking till i’m higher than the clouds,
the ringing in my ear is hitting louder than the loud,
im really happy that i keep on tryna shed away my doubt ,
cuz i promised to my parents that i’ll make em fucking proud, BUT
i keep hurting myself ,
by doing acid in my room 
hoping that i just melt away,
i been feeling myself ,
hit you with the webs like i’m spidey and i’m loving my mary jane ,
am i this really this bitch,
am i rlly such a soft fucking sensitive prick,
they only love me when they tryna get a gig,,
but i always see coming baby wanda ain’t slick
  i rlly let it get to me so quick ,
but not faster than the loud hit me tho ,
some people only say they luh u when they want shit,
den they talk trash behind ur back Bcuz they’re toxic fucks,
who only care about the money it’s all they want, 
so i’ll just chill up in room and smoke on all my fucking blunts
until i’m greening it’s a beating that i’m feeling too much,
makes some room inside my head for when i feel like giving up ,

Spotify <3

wanda aint slick (prod. tothegood)

I Remember When My Heart Stopped

I Feel Like I Never Left

produced by the one & only: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @decksmusic & @nevermadeithome

lyrics:

sendflowrs:

it’s been a year since we left and we’re still not fuckin talkin,
left my home at 16, it feels like i’m still runnin 
why am i so upset?
i broke my nose now i’m covered in red,
and will you promise, stay right by my side?
it’s cold out there my love, pls just stay with me tonight 
just put your phone away yeah, i don’t wanna fight
(cus i know that i can’t trust u,
i know that i can’t trust u)

look what you did yeah, look at the mess that you made,
boy i’m good everywhere, each city i’m the thane 
fire up my bow yea the skies are turning grey,
fire up my flow yea best pray for it to rain

(cus i’ve been walking,
on my own,
never delete your number 
out my phone
she loves that fucking powder in her nose,
loves that fuckin powder, loves that fuckin powder, yeah)

decks:

it never even mattered to me
i said it was a problem but i lied thru my teeth
you’re the only one that i wanna see
dont wanna cause a scene, i don’t wanna intervene but

look at the way that u treat me
and deceive me
now im leaving
i don’t wanna be a problem
but you beat me
now im fleeting
and i tweet about it every day but now i need to “let it go”
i wish you could save me but i know you’re not my antidote
and yeah i know that im obsessed with you
or maybe i just like the idea
and i know that i need to get it through
my fuckin skull and get up out of here



nevermadeithome:

Well can you get the fuck out of my brain now 
im fuckin pissed off with you constantly being there 
And everytime that im walking around town 
I swear i see your face on everybodys head 
All your friends, they are fucking dead to me
They all knew, that you cheated 
I hope that your next boyfriend 
Goes out never made it home again 
I think ive just finally got over you 
Get outta my mind girl 
Stop hitting my line girl 
Even though your fine girl 
I dont wanna see you again 
Laying in my bed at night 
I cant see your eyes for the first time 
For the first time in my life 
My life 
My life 
Im upset 
In my life

upset :( w/ decks & nevermadeithome

NICKISGONENOW - ifellinluvwithagirl (prod. GETOUTEVERYWAY)

-featuring: https://soundcloud.com/hazenova
-produced by: https://soundcloud.com/everythingmackk

last goodbye (feat. hazenova)(prod. mackk)

I been smokin on the blunt while my memory fades 
I hate myself I hate my life can’t pray for better days
I hate the feelings that I get where I can’t mask my pain
I feel the rotting deep inside it’s deep inside of my brain
I hate the way I fucking talk like I think I’ll be okay
enjoy
But deep inside I really lose my mind like everyday
Cant stand the way I fuckin treat you how I push you away 
I wouldn’t blame you if you left me know you don’t wanna stay
Epiphany of you inside of his car I’ll just break another line, life shouldnt be this hard
I used to take those bars had dreams of bein a star but all that shit got cut right down soon as I gave you my heart

Crowded places 
Thought I saw you on the street 
Just the other day
Memories fading 
If we sat and talked 
I’m sure we’d catch them all 

I’m losing I’m losing 
Losing my fucking mind 
I’m wasting I’m wasting 
Wasting my fucking time 
I’m so sad still so sad 
They think I’ll be just fine
While I’m left yeah I’m left 
Here all alone to die
I hate the way I’m never right when it comes to all the nights 
Sitting alone inside my mind I hate the way I live my life 
I hate the way I make them happy, but cant even maintain mine 
I hate the way I act okay when I’m rotting deep inside 
I hate the way way I hate myself 
I hate the way I want the wealth 
I hate the way I had these dreams and I’ve just put em on a shelf 
It’s like I’m stuck inside a hell I call depression can you tell 
It’s eating me away so slowly suicide just rings my bell ://
I’m losing I’m losing 
Losing my fucking mind 
I’m wasting I’m wasting 
Wasting my fucking time 
I’m so sad still so sad 
They think I’ll be just fine
While I’m left yeah I’m left 
Here all alone to die

BMO

hxteful