Instrumental produced by @secretstash

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[lyrics]

I'm havin visions of a better me Cuttin off bad energy
I wanna be the best that I can be so that means that Im comin clean
Did a lotta shitty things that I aint proud of 
My depression and regret is growing big and speakin louder 
than my words could ever do, this is way long overdue
if these rhymes apply to you then that means this goes out to you 
Im sorry for the things I said, sorry for the way things went
sorry for the tears you shed, im desperate to make amends
I understand if you aint havin my apology
I wasnt treatin you with good quality honestly
Some nights I wish that I was never born
Because I feel so damn ashamed about the way I left you torn up
Safe to say that I was livin life in sin
Im wishin that I never stole from the bottle of your vicodin when you were dyin sick
man i make myself sick
Id be lyin if I told you I aint cryin on the inside as im writin this
And to the lord up above, I been tryna keep my faith but sometimes faith aint enough
cause life is so rough when you look into the mirror in disgust with whatchu see
Wishin for a better me, smoke some weed then go to sleep
and thats the process you repeat but now i see much more clearly
I been moving onwards keep the bullshit from near me
cruising on ahead I aint checkin out the Rear V
Never goin back because the new me is the real me

Takes a long time to mend a heart so broken
I been holdin on by a single thread it feels like I got nothin left 
to do but get this shit up off my chest, dont know whatll happen next
Hoping that I pass but I guess time will be the test of that
Put my soul into these raps but this shit didnt happen automatic
I been at it for a minute but this is still the begining 
but for years i been, killin shit, attacking all the panic I been livin with 
day to day, i been steady trying to chase all of my shame away
Now im standin face to face with all the fuckin pain I made
So manys days before I done became the man I am today
I just wanna thank the lord for every single breath I take 
I'm prayin that the angels watchin over me 
And im prayin that the devil cant get a hold of me 
Hopefully I stay upon the right path 
Runnin down the right track
Cuttin out my bad habits
Dreams of livin lavish uh
So lets just the past behind us
sometimes love is what blinds us
we dont understand the powers that binds us 
thats alright, truth can cut you like a knife
ego died but im alive and healin
tired of being deprived of feelin happy
I cant stand this fuckin feeling in my chest
When I think of my regrets
All this stress I cant suppress
Has me feeling left for dead
inside my head Im in distress
I feel possessed 
I cant express the state of my mindset
Im depressed

broken. (prod. secret stash)

Producer, rapper, singer, screamer & guitarist in Illinois.
1/3 of the band @vilephile

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