With a driving bass, West African inspired rhythm, and cacophonous disonance, 'So Says the Sound' is a journey into self realization. Am I insane? Is the world around me insane? Questions to ponder while listening.

So Says the Sound

Dark Forces Arise!

L'abc

Muero Por Ver

LYRICS:

A little bit of loneliness
A little bit of heaviness
In this journey they call life
I want it all

A little bit of hopefulness
A little bit of fearfulness
Every rise, every fall
Oh, I want it all

A little bit of happiness
A little bit of holiness
Every night, every trial
I want it all, oh I want it all

Oh Spirit, won't you help me?
Oh Spirit, don't you see?
Oh Spirit, won't you help me to believe?
Oh Spirit won't you give me everything?

A little of something
I'll gladly embrace
Every triumph, every grace
I see Your beauty in this place

‌Spirit, guide me in your grace
Oh help me, help me see Your face
Through the laughter, through the tears
Let me celebrate through all my fears

Oh Spirit, won't you help me?
Oh Spirit, don't you see?
Oh Spirit, won't you help me to believe?
Oh Spirit won't you give me everything?

Music & Lyrics by Esther Tan‌ (16 Feb 2024)

A Little Bit

Recorded be me at home around 2020 with Brian Emery on textural guitar and a bass loop from a jam with Brandon Milner years before.  Lyrics:
Corner girl how'd you find yourself in that folding chair?
Speak up girl, time to tell us how you got your little self there.
Was it someone's fault or just the way you felt inside?
Fight or flight, sugar inside, come to rely, can't distinguish day from night
And you weren't there this time, you weren't there last time anyway
Always with the doom that's looming instead of the room
you're sitting in, anyway

Hey girl, where's your halo?
There's nowhere else for you to go
He was late coming home and then he never came home, oh!
So take my hand I'm gonna give you what I know

You don't have to be alone tonight, You'll be alright
if you stay, if you stay
It's time to get out of the limelight and into the sunlight
anyway, anyway
And everything is so good ahead, the sky is open
wide, wide
And we are on an open highway, together on this ride

Covid 19 Jamz

To the new girl

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2024年制作楽曲

「落とし穴」

めいめい赴く間に　目が慣れてきて見える
悠々自適に暮らせど　背けられない貧しさ

やたらと優しい世界　揺らめいても
触れるか触れないかの刹那で

すると　そこで終い　いつも終い
辿りつかせてはくれない
絶望しないように
あるいは希望を抱かせない為に

崇高でも何でもない儀式の中で　晴れて
妄信した　此処にまだ幾つか枠があるって

やたらと讃えた　こもり気味の音
寄り添ってくれるのかと思えば

すると　そこで終い　いつも終い
もっと早く気づけたはず
あれは一度たりとも笑ってない
落ちながら見上げた

今日も　そこで終い　どれも終い
ありとあらゆるものは何故
なんて　ある意味楽なこと
ならば明るくいれる？

すると　そこで終い　いつも終い
辿りつかせてはくれない
絶望しないように
あるいは希望を抱かせない為に

第１３集「冴え渡り」

落とし穴

"Maybe it's time you go away"

Just so you know this is on YouTube, Spotify, Apple Music, Amazon Music, and every streaming service available! Maybe it's time you go away to listen there and save to your playlists :)

Breathless (feat. Anabelle Marie)

better days? (prod. @siemspark x @itschrismarek)

[Verse]
Drifting through the night
Searching for a sign
Lost in the moonlight
My soul left behind
Melodies in my head
Spinning 'round like a dream
In this psychedelic haze
Everything's not what it seems

[Verse 2]
Whispers in the air
Secrets in the night
Aching for a love that feels so right
Dancing through the shadows
Chasing after stars
In this lo-fi indie-pop
We forget about our scars

[Chorus]
Lost in the moonlight
We find our way
Soulful serenades
Take us to a different place
In this dreamy paradise
We're never alone
In this psychedelic world
We find a love unknown

Lost

Caught in an endless loop
As if time has freezed
Dazed and confused
About what I have to live

I need a break from this turmoil
Oh I can't sustain the flood
Like water I boil
Inside it's getting blur

I've been waiting too long
To stop the machine
Now my body and heart
Call me to slow down the beat


I'm hazed because of the stress
I'm numb because of what you call madness
I can't see through my eyes
And my head is down


I wish I could be
Feeling reality
As the way you see it
But I'm not like this
And you can't feel the stress

You won't stand a chance
If you face some shadows
Right in the corner 
Of your eyes I swear


I'm hazed because of the stress
I'm numb because of what you call madness
I can't see through my eyes
And my head is down

I'm hazed because of the stress
I'm numb because of what you call madness
I can't see through my eyes
And my head is down

Hazed And Numb

ARCHIVE:  I'm a songwriter from Seattle.  Represented on this page are examples of my songwriting, either from my demos and home recordings, or from the various bands that play/played my tunes.  Hope you enjoy!

The bands represented here are (see playlists if you want to hear just one band or another):  Ars Poetica (c. 1991-93), Moonshine (c. 1992- 1996), Algae (c. 1996-1999), Acetylene (c. 1999-2001), and Like Lightning (c. 2009-2017).  These represent the bands that I was the singer/songwriter for.  See comments on each track for more info about the bands and the recordings.  

My songs benefitted so much from the excellent ideas, parts, arrangements, melodic lines, beats, and so much more, provided by the talented musicians and engineers/producers I've worked with. It’s interesting to me at this point to hear how differently each band interpreted my basic songwriting.  

Some recordings sound great from a sound quality perspective, others were either recorded by myself at home in various stages of my learning how to record myself (so it's hit or miss for sure) or have sound quality issues arising from the fact that they are digitized versions of old cassette tapes, the original studio tapes having been lost over the years.  Also up here are various Christmas songs I've recorded at home for fun with my family.  

Photo credit for bio shot:  Brandon Milner

To the new girl

Steph Wicker

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